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virHaF qoN hI srbjIq, hr sfl meI dI 'qyrF' qfrIKL vflyy idn iek inwGI dosq dy qur jfx df sog mnfAuxf kdy nhIN sI Buwilaf. eyny sflF bfad vI jdoN sroj dI koml ijhI sLkl Aus dIaF awKF sfhmxy af KloNdI hY qF iek svfl Aus nUM bfr bfr prysLfn krdf ik afiKr Auh ikhVf Byq sI ijs ny Aus cMdrI nUM afpxI sony vrgI ijMdVI afpxy hwQIN rol dyx ‘qy mjbUr kr idwqf.

'AuWnI sO AunMjf' dI jnvrI dy mhIny, srbjIq ajmyr sLihr dy rylvy hostl ivc rihx leI afieaf sI. qfrfgVH phfV dI vwKI ivc, iek inwkI ijhI phfVI ‘qy siQq ieh Bvn bVy hI rmxIk mfhOl ivc vwKrf hI idsdf sI. hostl dy cfr ikAUbIkl sn, ijnHF ivc sInIar ividafrQI rihMdy sn. nfl lwgvIN iek lMmI sfrI ‘zfrmItrI’, ijs ivc koeI vIh ku plMG ivCy hoey.

bfhrly ihwsy ivc bVy hI sucwjy ZMg nfl ivENiqaf hoieaf bgLIcf. Ausdy iek pfsy nUM aMgryjL lyzI vfrzn imws vfzl df kuafrtr. ipCly pfsy iek hor gol afkfr dI bgLIcI qy Ausdy prly pfsy ikcn aqy zfeIinMg-rUm. phfVI dI mgrlI Zlfx ‘qy bixaf iek ivsLfl ijmnyjLIam aqy Aus dy nfl lwgvyN KulHy mYdfn ivc hI ‘tYins-kort’. hostl dy awgoN lMGdI sVk, do ihwisaF ‘c ivBfjq huMdI rylvy aPLsrF dy bMgilaF vwl clI jFdI sI.

‘rylvy srivs kimsLn’ vwloN cuxy gey ieMjInIar, ‘spYsLl tryinMg’ leI afey eys hostl ivc Tihrdy sn. iksy jLmfny ivc rylvy dy mihkmy ivc bfhly aPLsr gory jF ‘aYNglo-ieMzIan’ hI hoieaf krdy sn.
dysL dI vMz qoN duKI ho ky afey sLrxfrQI pirvfrF dy vsyby df kfrj sflF bwDI cwldf irhf. lfhOr ivclI AuWqrI rylvy vrksLfp dy anykF krmcfrI, kuJ aflm- bfgL lKLnAU cly gey. bfkIaF nUM ajmyr dIaF vrksLfpF ivc nOkrIaF iml geIaF.

pfiksqfn bnx qoN pihlF srbjIq, lfhOr dy ‘mYklygn ieMjInIairMg kfilj’ ivc ‘mkYnIkl ieMjInIar’ dI izgrI kr irhf sI. ajy iemiqhfnF dy ‘rIjLlt’ nhIN sI inkly, jdoN AuhnF dI lfhOr ivKy cburjI-cOk vflI koTI nUM blveIaF ny awg lf idwqI. sfrf pirvfr msF jfnF bcf ky luiDafxy phuMc sikaf sI. pMjfb XUnIvristI df ‘rIkfrz’ eyDr ‘trFsPLr’ hox ivc kfPLI smF lwg igaf sI. so jdoN hI Auhdy ‘pfs’ hox dI pusLtI ho geI, Aus nUM ‘rylvy srivs kimsLn’ vwloN pwCmI rylvy dI CotI lfeIn dI ajmyr vrksLfp ivc iek sfl dI tryinMg leI Byj idwqf igaf.

pVHfeI ivc mohrI hox dy nfl nfl srbjIq nUM tYins Kyzx ivc vI kfPLI mhfrq sI. hPLqy dy do iqMn idn, Auh afpxy sfQI isiKafrQIaF nfl Kyzx df smF kwZ lYNdf. Ausdf PLurqIlf srIr, kVHy duD vrgIaF gulfbI gwlHF, jUVy ‘qy bMinHaf sPLYd rumfl, AusdI lMmI lMJI sLKsIaq nUM cfr cMd lfAuNdy sn.

‘gym’ sLurU hox qoN pihlF hI guaFZI bMgilaF dy muMzy kuVIaF, afpo afpxy GrF qoN PLolizMg kursIaF ilaf ky tYins kort dy duafly af bYTdy. vDyry pirvfr ‘aYNglo-ieMzIan’ aPLsrF dy sn. iekf dukf lfhOroN afey pMjfbI suprvfeIjLr, ijhVy kuafrtrF dI ikwlq kfrn, dUsry aPLsrF dy afAUt- hfAUsF ivc hI rihMdy sn. sihgl pirvfr dI lVkI sroj aqy Ausdf Cotf Brf rosLn vI tYins dI gym vyKx leI aksr af jFdy. qy jdoN srbjIq koeI jyqU ‘sLft’ mfrdf qF sroj qF kursI qoN AuWCl ky qfVIaF mfrn lwg jFdI. Ausdy muGDr vrgy gory pwtF qoN AuhdI njLr jLrf nf htdI. srbjIq leI Aus vwloN pRsMsf ijqfx krky, dohF ivckfr iek Kfs apxwq df aihsfs hox lwgf sI. ijhVf dohF dIaF muskrfhtF dy vtFdry qoN jLfhr hox lwg ipaf sI. sfDfrx kuVIaF nfloN lMmI sroj, KulHy juwsy vflI huMdV hyl jwtF dI kuVI lgdI ??. AusdIaF muGD kr dyx vflIaF awKF qy sLrbqI rMg rUp, aYNglo ieMzIan muitafrF nUM vI mfq pONdf sI.

kdy kdy Kyz dI ‘rIsYWs’ dOrfn jdo srbjIq drsLkF ivc af bYTdf qF rosLn kuJ sMgqry dIaF PfVIaF, iek plyt ivc pros ky Aus leI lY afAuNdf. qy ijs qrF sDrfeIaF awKf nfl sroj Aus nUM inhfrdI, AuhnUM lgdf ijvyN ieh Aucyc rosLn dI BYx vwloN hI kIqI jf rhI hovy. rosLn qoN Auphfr gRihx kridaF, srbjIq ny afpxf hwQ sroj vwl ihlf ky DMMnvfd df sMkyq krnf qF dUjy pfisEN hwsdIaF awKF nfl pRvfn ho jfxf.

sqMbr dy qIsry hPLqy, rylvy sports klwb aqy ajmyr XUnIvristI dIaF tImF ivckfr ‘PLrYNzlI tYins mYc’ sLurU ho gey. awj mYc df dUsrf idn sI. srbjIq nUM lwgf ik AuhnF dy twbr ‘coN sroj iekwlI hI mYc vyKx afeI hoeI sI. ‘ieMtrvl’ vyly Aus nUM Auhdy nfl gwl sFJI krn df avsr iml igaf.

“kI gwl, klH df rosLn nhIN ids irhf.”

“AusdI qbIaq TIk nhIN hY. mYN Aus nUM afAux vfsqy ikhf qF kihx lwgf, dIdI qusIN kwly hI cly jfE.” kI pqf sroj df afpxf jIa krdf hovy qy rosLn vwloN kihx df iek bhfnf hI GV ilaf hovy.

“kI hoieaf rosLn nUM?”

“Ausdy swjy pYr nUM moc af geI sI. pr hux awgy nfloN TIk hY. nfly awj Aus ny quhfzy leI iek ‘pRYjLYNt’ ByjI hY.” Ausny iek vwzf sfrf ilPLfPLf Ausdy hwQ PVf idwqf.

srbjIq ny bVy afscrj nfl KolH ky vyiKaf. rosLn vwloN AulIikaf hoieaf srbjIq df iek pYnisl skYc sI. “rosLn nUM pyNitMg bnfAux ivc byhwd rucI hY.”

“ieh qF bVI KUbsUrq hY. inhfieq pRoPLYsLnl. bVf sfPL hwQ hY, Auhdf. pr ieh pgVI smyq…, ibnf dyKy ikvyN bxf leI…? mYN qF eyQy isr ‘qy rumfl bMnH ky hI afAuNdf hF.” Auh rosn dI klpnf qy asL asL kr AuWiTaf.

“drasl Auh quhfnUM sfzy kuafrtr dI ipClI iKVkI ‘coN aksr vyKdf rihMdf hY. jdoN qusI ‘zRYs-awp’ ho ky zfeIinMg rUm vwl jFdy huMdy E.”

“Aus nUM myry vwloN ‘QYNks’ kihxf. bVf hI ipafrf bwcf hY.” Ausny ieh npy-quly pRsMsf dy sLbd, sLfied dohF leI hI vrqy sn. sroj, Aus dIaF awKF nUM pVHn df Xqn kr rhI sI. Pyr Auh kuJ soc ky kihx lwgI:

“mYN quhfQoN iek gwl puwCxI sI….”

“kI…?”

“qusIN ieh ‘gym’ kyvl vIrvfr sLuwkrvfr vfly idn hI ikAuN Kyzdy ho?”

“mYN smiJaf nhIN….”

“myrf mqlb, kI qusIN hr rojL nhIN Kyz skdy….”

srbjIq nUM smJx ivc jLrf vI dyr nf lwgI, ik eys kuVI dy mn ivc Aus nUM rojL vyKx dI ikMnI qIbr iewCf rihMdI hoxI hY. ijvyN Auh agly vIrvfr dy afAux dI AuzIk krdI krdI awk jFdI hovy. AusdIaF awKf ivc JfkidaF Auh muskrf ipaf. sMg nfl sroj dIaF gwlHF df rMg hor vI BKx lwg ipaf.

“sco swcI dwsF, hux qF mYnUM vI sMgqry dIaF PfVIaF Kfx dI afdq ijhI pY geI hY.” qy hsidaF- hsidaF Ausny sroj df hwQ Guwt ilaf, ijs nUM CuzfAux dI Aus ny jLrf vI cysLtf nf kIqI.

srbjIq df iek bVf hI njLdIkI ‘ikRscn’ dosq ‘pYitRk PLrnYizs’ Ausy dy nfl tryNinMg lY irhf sI. Ausdy zYzI horF df bMglf hostl dy iblkul lfgy sI, ijs dy ipCly ‘afAUt-hfAUs’ ivc sroj horF df pirvfr ikrfey ‘qy rihMdf sI. eIsfeI pirvfrF leI ikRsms df iqEhfr, dIvflI aqy gurpurb vFg hI mhwqqf rwKdf hY. ‘ikRsims-eIv’ ‘qy AuhnF dy Gr bVI rOxk sI. iek ‘lfeIv-bYNz’ df vI ieMqjLfm kIqf igaf sI. hm-Aumr hox nfqy, aqy iewky bMgly dI hwd ivc rihx kfrn pYitRk dI BYx jUlI, sroj dI pwkI shylI bx geI sI. BfvyN srbjIq AuhnF dy Gr aksr afAuNdf jFdf sI, pr awj dy ‘iznr-zFs’ leI qF Aus nUM Aucycf ‘ienvItysLn’ imilaf sI, ikAuNik AuhnF dy ‘bYc’ dy hor sfry ieMjInIar vI iekwTy hoxy sn. sroj qF afpxI shylI dI shfieqf leI awj svyr qoN hI AuhnF dy Gr vVI hoeI sI.

iznr qoN pihlF pYitRk qy Ausdy dUsry dosq afpxIaF shylIaF nfl ‘bflrUm-zFs’ df afnMd lYNdy rhy. sMgIq bVI DImI, mnmohk qrjL nfl vwj irhf sI. mwDm rosLnIaF aqy kmry dI AucycI sjfvt kfrn bVf ’romFitk’ vfqfvrx pYdf ho irhf sI.

jUlI ny acfnk ‘ikcn’ ivc jf ky sroj nUM puwiCaf.

“nIN, kI gwl qUM ajy vI eyQy KloqI hYN. ‘ilivMg-rUm’ ivc jfky ‘zFs’ ikAuN nhIN kr rhI?”

“mYN? mYNnUM ‘zFs’ ikwQy afAuNdY?”

“lY iehdy ivc iswKx vflI ikhVI gwl hY. qUNM ikMnf sohxf igwDf qF pf hI lYnI hYN.”

“igwDf qF afps ivc kuVIaF ivckfr hI huMdY.”

“ieh vI bws BMgVy, igwDy dI qfl nfl pwb cuwkx vFg hI hY. vyiKaf jfey qF ieh inRq, mF byty, BYx Brf jF anjfxy imwqRF ivcfly KusLI dy pl sFJy krn leI huMdY. ijs ivc afkrsLq ho ky apRIicq lokF ivckfr vI pfrsipRk dUrI Gt jFdI hY.”

“qusIN qF afpxy afpxy ‘buafey-PLrYNzF’ nfl….” Auh koeI bhfnf lwB rhI sI.

“awCf qF ieh gwl ey…. nIN qUM awj srbjIq nUM nyvI bilAU sUt pfeI vyiKaY, ikMnf sohxf lwg irhf…?”

“qy mYN kI krF…?” Auhny hsdI hoeI ny afiKaf. BfvyN jUlI AuhdI hr rmjL qoN vfikPL sI.

“vwzIey clfky! qUM mYnUM nhIN cfr skdI…. QoVf icr pihlF ijvyN qUM Auhdy vwl qrsdIaF awKF nfl Jfk rhI sI, awK vI nhIN sI Jmk rhI….”

“jUlI, iensfn nUM afpxI sImf qoN pry kdy vI nhIN socxf cfhIdf…. ikQy Auh qy ikwQy mYN…?”

“jy mYN afKF ik qyrI qy srbjIq dI joVI awj sLfm dI sB qoN husIn….”

“jfh pryH…. ” Ausny muskrf ky Aus dI ipwT ‘qy ptokI mfr idwqI. dr asl aMdroN Ausdf afpxf jIa kr irhf sI. Pyr kuJ soc ky Ausdy kMn ivc bolI, “kI Ayuh qYnUM kuJ kihMdf sI…?”

“Ausy ny qF mYnUM qyry kol Byijaf hY….”

“nf aVIey, mYnUM qF sMg afAuNdI hY…. nfly jy sfzy Gr idaF nUM iksy qrF pqf lwg igaf…?”

“nIN, Auh sfry qF aYs vyly gUVHI nINd ivc GUk suwqy pey hoxy aYN. swco swc dws, qyrf jIa nhIN krdf…?” sroj dI mDur qwkxI qoN pRBfvq jUlI ny srbjIq nUM iesLfrf kIqf qy Aus ny isLsLtfcfr dy nfqy sroj dy sfhmxy Klo ky iejfjLq af mMgI.

“mya afeI…?”

aMnHf kI Bfly do awKF. sroj qF sfry joiVaF vwl vyK vyK pihlF hI ivafkul hoeI jf rhI sI. Ausny awKF mIc ky muskrFdI hoeI ny anumqI dy idwqI. qy ijs qrF srbjIq ny koml ijhy sprsL nfl Ausdy duafly bFh GuwtI, sroj df aMg-aMg, suafd-suafd ho igaf jfpdf sI. jUlI ny dohF dI joVI dI vwKrI hI nuhfr vyK ky srbjIq nUM awK mfrI, ijsnUM Auhny iek pRsMsf sunyhy vjoN, muskrf ky prvfx kr ilaf.

”drasl, mYN ikMny icrF qoN ajyhy idn dI AuzIk ivc sF.” srbjIq ny Ausdy mGdy srIr dI AUsLxqf anuBv kridaF afiKaf.

“qusIN kwly QoVHf hI sfE….” sroj ny cFBl ky ikhf. srUr ivc ijvyN Auh sfhF ‘c hI bol rhI hovy. Aus dIaF njLrF dI rMgq iksy agMmI KLumfr dI sUck sI.

idsMbr dy aMq ivc srbjIq dI tryinMg Kqm ho geI. nvyN sfl qoN CuwtI igaf Auh mfrc ivc vfps afieaf. ajy jdoN Auh kfilj ivc pVHdf huMdf sI qF AusdI sgfeI iksy rfvlipMzI dy DnfZ pirvfr ivc ho geI sI. PLsfdF qoN bfad AuhnF dI hflq kfPLI Ksqf ho geI. ivcfry bVI iPLkr ivc sn, ikDry bdly hoey hflfq kfrn AuhnF dI lVkI df irsLqf hI nf Tukrf idwqf jfvy. AuNj aMimRqsr afAux qy AusdI mMgyqr ny ‘ieMtrnl-mYzIsn’ dI zfktr hox df iemiqhfn pfs kr ilaf sI.

BfvyN srbjIq nUM sroj kfPLI cMgI lwgx lwgI sI, lykn AuhnF dy pirvfr bfry ajy qwk AusnUM koeI bfhlI jfxkfrI nhIN sI. iek do mulfkfqF kI huMdIaF ny? AuhnF ny qF kdI gMBIrqf nfl eys gwl bfry soicaf hI nhIN sI. nfly kI pqf jy Ausdy mF bfp, ieMtr-kfst sLfdI leI rfjLI nf hoey.

CuwtI afAux dI Kbr sux ky srbjIq dy hox vfly sOhry kfPLI Auqsk sn. AuNj, Auh koeI ajyhf lVkf nhIN sI ijhVf vkq dy QpyiVaF nfl tuwty pirvfr dI lVkI nUM ibnf iksy kfrn Tukrf dyNdf. nfly Auh qF Kud, hux afp vI iek pRoPLYsLnl zfktr sI. EDr srbjIq dI mfqf jI dy izgdy svfsQ nUM vyK ky Auh byty df ivafh jldI vyKxf cfhuMdy sn. srbjIq ny sfiraF dI KusLI nUM muwK rKidaF ivafh leI hF kr idwqI. iqMn hPLiqaF leI Auh hnImUMn mnfAux nYnIqfl cly gey.

tryinMg Kqm hox ‘qy Aus nUM ‘afPLIsrjL –kflonI ivc bMglf vI alft ho igaf. ijs krky hostl nfl Ausdf nfqf sdf leI tuwt igaf. kdy kdy AusnUM sroj nfl ivqfey hsIn pl Xfd af jFdy. lykn Auh socdf, jIvn ivc iensfn ikMny hI lokF vwl afkrsLq huMdf hY. aYpr mUMh mulfihjy dy irsLiqaF nUM koeI kI nfm dyvy. so iek sLfdI sLudf ivakqI hox vjoN Ausny sroj nfl Aucycf koeI nvF irsLqf gMZx bfry kdy vI nf soicaf.

lfhOr ivc sroj dy ipqf bfbU prs rfm muglpury vrksLfp ivc ‘msLIn-sLfp suprvfeIjLr’ huMdy sn. pfiksqn bnx vyly sroj vIh ku sflF dI sI. Ausdy do Brf sn. vwzf rfmjIdfs pMJI sflF df qy Cotf rosLn awT ku sflF df.

BfvyN Auh sfrf twbr lfhOr qoN shI slfmq inwkl afeyy sn, pr aMimRqsr phuMcidaf hI iek koJI Gtnf vfpr geI. sLrxfrQIaF dy by-ieMqhf hjUm. lokF ny hwQF ivc, isrF AuWqy bksy, gTVIaF cuwkIaF hoeIaF. sLfm df vylf. bsF trwkF, sfeIklF, gwizaF, TyilHaF, GoiVaF, AUtF afid dI afvfjfeI. eynI BIV ik bMdy nfl bMdf Ps ky lMG irhf sI. nMdf bs awzy lfgy phuMcy qF sLihr dI ibjlI guwl ho geI. AuWqoN bfirsL TwlHx df nfm nhIN sI lY rhI. acfnk iksy kfrn puils vwloN golI cwlx ‘qy sfry pfsy qrQwlI mwc geI. prs rfm horF df pirvfr iek dUsry qoN ivwCV igaf. AuWcI AuWcI cIkF mfrn qoN isvf, ivcfry kuJ vI nhIN sn kr skdy. eys hPLVf dPLVI ivc kuJ sLrfbI guMzy, sroj nUM Dwko jorI iKcH ky iek trwk aMdr lY vVy, qy GMtf Br Aus nfl mUMh kflf krdy rhy.

iek qF sfrf pirvfr, eyny mIlF df pYNzf kr ky Qwk tuwt ky afieaf. AuWqoN ieh isqm. vDyry guafc jfx dy zroN ivcfry ikMnF icr iewko QF hI cwkr kwZdy rhy.. ibjlI prq ky afeI qF guMzy qVPdI sroj nUM glI ivc hI Dwkf dy ky pwqrf vfc gey. ivcfrI dy kwpVy pfty hoey. burI qrF lhU luhfx, pIV nfl krfhuMdI mfipaF nUM nfl dI sVk ‘qy peI msF lwBI. prdys df muafmlf. sfrf twbr vKqF nUM PiVaf igaf. nf iksy aYNbUlYNs df bMdobsq. nf koeI hspqfl df pqf iTkfxf. iksy qrF kuJ mIlL dUr qurky gurU rfmdfs srF ivc puwjy. EQoN dI ‘izspYNsrI’ dy iek krmcfrI ny iek zfktrnI dI dws pfeI. Blf hovy Aus bIbI df, ijsny ibnf kuJ ilaF, kuVI df inrIKsLx kIqf, tIkf lfieaf, Kfx nUM duafeI idwqI qy afrfm krn leI ikhf. pr qVPdI nUM afrfm ikwQy? ivcfrI df aMg aMg qF pwiCaf ipaf sI.

Es Gtnf dy sdmy df sroj dy idmfgL ‘qy zfZf burf asr hoieaf. hr vyly AuWTdI bYTdI lyrF mfrdI. nf BuwK lwgy, nf nINd afvy. kdy kdfeIN QoVHI ijhI awK lgdI qF awBVvfhy AuWT ky Pyr rox bYT jFdI. twbr dy jIa Aus nUM sbr krn qoN ielfvf hor kI afK skdy sn? ijs iejLq pq nUM bcf ky afpxy vqn ivc ilafey, Esy afpxy vqn ivc hI sB kuJ luwitaf puwitaf igaf. izgdy ZihMdy sroj dI mfsI dy Gr jlMDr puwjy qF Ausny sfry twbr dI sfr leI.

ijvyN musIbq qy musIbq pYxI hovy. eyny sfry rfKsLF vwloN jbr-jLnfh hox dy Pl srUp, sroj dy grB Tihr igaf. iksmq nfl luiDafxy dy dieaf-nMd hspqfl ivc lwgI, mfsI jI dI pihcfx vflI iek zfktrnI nUM aslIaq dwsI qF Aus ny Auhdf grB pfq krvf idwqf. pr vMnI vMnI dy aprfDIaF duafrf XOn-sLosLn dy kfrn Ausdy aMdr hoey jLKmF ivc eynf ienPLYksLn PYl igaf sI ik bwcydfnI kwZx ibnf AusdI jfn nhIN sI bc skdI. hux kdy ivafhy jfx ‘qy Aus ny sdf leI mF nhIN sI bx skxf.

lfhOroN afAux qoN pihlF sroj ny bI[ey[ pfs kr leI hoeI sI. so jdoN Ausdy ipqf jI dI nOkrI iPr qoN ajmyr vrksLfp ivc bhfl ho geI qF AusdI ishq suDr jfx qy Ausny bI[aYz[ ivc dfKlf lY ilaf. hOlI hOlI bdly hoey vfqfvrx kfrx Aus df mfnsk sMquln vI vfps afAux lwg ipaf sI.

ikRsms dI rfq vflI mulfkfq ipwCoN, koeI zyZ sfl qwk sroj srbjIq nUM nhIN sI iml skI. BfvyN Aus nUM AuhdI sLfdI bfry pqf lwg cuwkf sI. ho skdY Xuvf mn ivc anykF sMklp AuWTdy rhy hox. aYpr afpxIaF sLrIrk KfmIaF bfry socdI Auh koeI suPLny sMjox dy kfibl nhIN rhI sI. srbjIq kI, Aus dy leI iksy vI pursL nfl nfqf hoxf asMBv sI.

iek idn AusnUM srbjIq sfeIkl ‘qy jFdf idisaf. Aus ny vI vyK ky sfeIkl KVI kr leI. irvfjn suwK sFd puwCx ‘qy pqf lwgf ik Auh afpxy bwcy leI dvfeI lYx jf irhf sI.

“sfzy BqIjy nUM kdy ivKf qF shI.” sroj ny purfxI jfx pihcfx nUM nvIN qrqIb idMidaF afiKaf.

“ikAuN nhIN, jLrf TIk ho jfvy, mYN qF qYnUM qyrI BfbI nUM vI imlfvFgf.” srbjIq nUM vI swc df sfhmxf krn dI dlyrI iml geI.

“mYN quhfzy bMgly awgoN bVI vfr lMGI hF, pr aMdr lMGx qoN iJjkdI rhI.”

“qyry leI qF Gr dy bUhy sdf hI KuwlHy ny. jdoN mrjLI[[[.” Aus ny irvfjn ijhy ikhf qy clf igaf.

iek vfrIN sroj dy bfbU jI iksy kfrn hspqfl ivc dfKl sn. Ausdf vwzf Brf qF afpxy ivafh qoN bfad afpxy sOhiraf dy Gr hI rihMdf sI. ies leI mF bfp dI syvf sMBfl df ijLMmf sroj aqy rosLn dy isr hI sI. Es idn Auh bfbU jI leI Kfxf lY ky pYdl hI jf rhI sI. koloN lMGdy srbjIq ny vyiKaf qF sfeIkl qy ibTf ky hspqfl lY igaf.

“ikMnI musLikl ho jFdI hY. sLihroN dUr hox krky, eys pfsy nf koeI irksLy vflf afAuNdf hY, nf tFgy vflf.” srbjIq ny AusdI qklIPL mihsUs kridaF afiKaf, qy Ausdy nfl hI Auhdy zYzI dI suwK sFd puwCx, vfrz dy kmry aMdr clf igaf.

“qusIN eynI qklIPL ikAuN kIqI…?” iek aPLsr hox dy nfqy, prs rfm ny Ausdy afAux ‘qy mfx mihsUs kIqf.

“qklIPL kfhdI? mYN eyDro lMG irhf sF, qy sroj nUM kwlI pYdl jFidaF vyiKaf…. hux kYsI qbIaq hY aMkl…?”

“awgy nfloN kfPLI TIk hF…. hux buKfr qF nhIN cVHdf, pr CfqI ivc KFsI ajy vI hY. sLfied hor do iqMn idnF qwk….”“myrI pqnI sqvMq eysy hspqfl ivc lwgI hoeI hY. jLrUrq pvy qF jdoN cfho bulf skdy ho. mYN Aus nUM quhfzy bfry dws idaFgf.

“bhuq imhrbfnI…, kdI lMGdy jFdy Gr af jfieaf kro….”

“jLrUr afvFgf….” Ausny hwQ joV ky ivdf leI.

bI[aYz[ krn ipwCoN sroj ny hux sfivqrI grljL hfeI skUl ivc pVHfAuxf sLurU kr idwqf sI. iek sincrvfr Auh mdfr-gyt bjLfr ivc kuJ KrIdfrI krn leI inwklI qF acfnk Aus dI njLr srbjIq ‘qy pY geI.

“sLukr hY qUM awj eyQy hI iml igaYN. mYN qyry ivafh ‘qy koeI Auphfr vI nf idwqf. cl awj myry nfl cl ky afpxy leI sUt df kpVf pisMd kr lY.” ijvyN Ausny iek imwqrqf Biraf hukm idwqf hovy.

“nhIN sroj, myry kol do iqMn sUt pihlF vI hYn. sUt pfAux df qF kdy mOkf hI….”
“nhIN bws, mYnUM cfa hY. qUM hux jy ieMjInIar bx igaYN qF myrI inwkI ijhI ByNt vI kbUl nhIN …?”

srbjIq inruwqr ho igaf. bjLfjI vflI dukfn qoN kpVf lY ky AuhnF, nfl dy hI tylr mfstr kol Ausdf nfp vI dy idwqf.

ikDry bjLfr ivc lMGdy jFidaF, sroj dy vwzy Brf aqy BrjfeI kFqf ny dohF nUM acfnk iekwTy sLfipMg kridaF vyK ilaf. Auh boly qF kuJ nf, aYpr ijs qrF nihrIaF awKF nfl kFqf AuhnF vwl JfkdI rhI, sroj nUM lwgf awj AusdI sLfmq af jfvygI. Ausny srbjIq nUM ies bfry jLrf vI sMkyq nf hox idwqf, qy dovyN sfeIkl qy bYT ky cly gey.

EhIE gwl hoeI, ijsdf zr sI. awgy ipwCy qF kFqf kdy kdfeIN hI sOhry Gr pYr pfAuNdI sI. awj Aus ny Aucycf Gr jFidaF hI, bfq df bqMgV bxf ky cMgf Blf PLsfd KVHf kr idwqf.

“pqf nhIN ieh ikMny icrF qoN Aus srdfr muMzy nfl lwgI hoeI hY. nf sLrm nf ihaf. mYN qy Qozy byty ny srIND vyiKaf, Aus nUM kwpVy KrId ky idMdI nUM….”

“kI ieh gwl TIk hY sroj…?” Ausdy bfbU jI kuJ KrHvy ho ky boly.

“bfbU jI, srbjIq nUM qF qusIN awCI qrF jfxdy ho. Auh iek iewjLqdfr aPLsr hY, ivafihaf virHaf. Auh qF myry leI BrfvF vFg….”

“nI rihx dyh, KyKn hwQI. sfrf sfrf idn Auhdy sfeIkl qy mtr gsLqI krdI aYN. sfry aFZ guaFZ nUM pqY….”M

“BfbI aYnf anrQ? mYN qF kyvl Es idn hI Ausdy sfeIkl qy geI hovFgI jdo hspqfl ivc BrqI bfbU jI dI rotI lY ky jf rhI sI. iksy sLrIPL iensfn ‘qy eynI JUTI qohmq…?”

”mYN sB jfxdI hF. Brf-Brf df nftk krky Kvry qUM hor kIhdy kIhdy nfl XfrIaF pugfAuNdI iPrdI aYN…. sfPL ikAuN nhIN kihMdI ik qUM Aus vwzy iewjLqdfr aPLsr dI rKyl hYN…?”

“hnyr sfeIN df! iek kptI afdmI vI mUMh ‘coN koeI JUTI gwl kwZx lwigaf QoVHI sLrm krdY. bfbU jI, hux jy mYN swc dwisaf qF ies ny ipwt AuWTxY. quhfnUM cMgf Blf pqf hY, ieh myry nfl eys leI afZf lfAuNdI hY ik mYN ies dI BUaf dy afvfrf puwqr dy irsLqy nUM Tukrf idwqf sI. EdoN mYN iehdy Bfxy sLrIPL lVkI huMdI sI. ijhVI gwl ieh srbjIq bfry AuWcI AuWcI bol ky dsdI hY, ies nUM myrf mUMh nhIN sI KulHvfAuxf cfhIdf. eys CuwtV df pihlf KLsm vI iek srdfr hI sI, ijs nfl iehdI ‘lv-mYryj’ hoeI sI. piVHaf iliKaf, mlUk ijhf skUl-mfstr. Aus nUM eys dIaF hrkqF iblkul psMd nhIN sn. nfly vwzy Gr dI DI hox dI DONs dy ky, Aus qoN bfhrI ho ky jxy Kxy nfl Kyh KFdI iPrdI sI. qswlI nIN sI huMdI iek Ksm nfl…. jy cfho qF iehdIaF mYN Auh krqUqF vI igxf idaF ies ny ijhVy-ijhVy Gr AujfVy sI. Es ivcfry srdfr ny qF sLukr kIqf ies bfrF-qflI qoN Cutkfrf pf ky.” sroj df Brf rfmjIdfs hYrfn ho ky kFqf vwl ieMj Jfk irhf sI ijvyN ivcfrf Twigaf igaf hovy. iehnF aslIaqF bfry qF Aus nUM ivafh qoN pihlF kwK vI pqf nhIN sI lwgf. nOkrI df JFsf dy ky qF Ausdy vkIl shury ny afpxI qlfk sLudf kuVI Aus dy gl mVH idwqI sI.

sfrf twbr kFqf dy hI rMg ivc rMigaf vyK ky sroj dohF hwQF nfl afpxy isr nUM ipwtdI kmry ‘coN bfhr inkl geI. Auh pur pur duKI hoeI lgdI sI. kfsL koeI Ausdf aMdrlf duwK smJ skdf. ijhVI aOrq afpxIaF sLrIrk AUxqfeIaF nUM smJdI afpxy mn nfl smJOqf krI bYTI sI ik ivafh jYsI pivwqr rsm vI AusdI iksmq ivc nhIN ilKI hoeI, Auh iksy suihrd ivakqI nfl do hmdrdI dy sLbd vI ikAuN nhIN sFJy kr skdI?

afm qOr ‘qy cMgy GrF dIaF bhU bytIaF, pirvfrF ivc suK sLFqI bxfeIy rwKx leI GrF dy pVdy kwjdIaF ny. pr kFqf ny qF ijvyN koeI purfxf vYr lYxf hovy. sroj nUM pqf sI ik kFqf AusdI suMdrqf nUM XuvkF vwloN imldI qvwjo vyK ky sVdI sI. afpxI nnfx nUM, jfx pihcfx dy lokF ivckfr Ausny msfly lf lf ky cirwqr-hIx sfbq krn ivc koeI ksr nf CwzI.

afpxI bytI df Bfrf lfhux leI sroj dy mfipaF ny do iqMn QfvF ‘qy irsLqy dI gwl clfeI. aYpr sroj, lVky vfilaF nUM afpxI sLrIrk AUxqfeI dI scfeI bfry dws dyxf cfhuMdI sI. ikDry agly bfad ivc Ausdy bFJ hox df imhxf nf dyx. Blf vyK ky mwKI kOx ingldY? so ikDry vI gwl nf bxdI.

hux qF Aus dy mfqf ipqf vI Aus nfl iswDy mUMh gwl nhIN sn krdy. ijs kfrn Es ablf dy idl ivc hIx Bfvnf pRbl hoxI sLurU ho geI. iksy dy mwQy lwgx qoN kqrfAuNdI skUloN dyr nfl hI Gry prqdI. ikMnf ikMnf icr skUl lfiebryrI ivc bYTI rihMdI jF iksy shylI nfl ‘afnf-sfgr JIl’ dy iknfry, ‘mugLl-gfrzn’ dI bfrFdrI ivcoN afkfsL vwl guMm sMum JfkdI rihMdI. jdoN vI avsr imldf, srbjIq dy moZy qy isr rwK ky ikMnf ikMnf icr roNdI rihMNdI. pr aMdrlI pIV bfry kuJ vI nf dwsdI. Aus ny afpxI zfktr pqnI nUM Auhdy mfip?? nfl iml ky smJfAux bfry ivsLvfs vI duafieaf. pr Auh lok qF ijvyN amIr ipE dI bytI kFqf dI gwl nUM pwQr ‘qy lkIr smJdy hoey afpxI DI ivc hI dosL kwZ rhy sn. ivcfrI hr vyly gihrI soc ivc gLlqfn rihMdI, ijvyN ijLMdgI qoN byjLfr ho geI hovy. kdy iksy sfhmxy bYT ky rotI vI nf KFdI. kyvl rosLn hI Aus bfry socdf, Ausdy Audfs ichry vwl vyKdf rihMdf.

iek hPLqy leI Ausdy mF bfp idwlI iksy irsLqydfrI ivc gey hoey sn. pqf nhIN acfnk afpxy mn ivc kI PLYslf kIqf, Ausny rosLn dy hwQ srbjIq nUM iek ruwkf ilK ky Aucycf Kfxy ‘qy bulfieaf. qy qfkId kIqI ik Auh EhI nvF sUt pfky Aus nUM iek vfrIN jLrUr iml jfvy.

sLfm nUM swq ku vjy srbjIq AuhnF dy kuafrtr ‘qy jf phuMcf. sroj Aus vwl eynIaF sDrF nfl vyKI jf rhI sI ijvyN AuhnUM pihlI vfr vyiKaf hovy. awj dI dfvq leI Aus ny bVI Aucyc nfl bdfm ipsqy pfky KIr bxfeI, Bwly pfey, vqfAuNaf df BVQf, aflU Coly. iek iek cIjL bVI rIJ nfl Aus leI sjf ky rwKI. ibjlI clI jfx kfrn, AusnUM KFdy hoey nUM vyNhdI, kol bYT ky pwKI JldI rhI. ijvyN iksy XuvqI df pRfhuxf PLOj ‘coN CuwtI kwtx afieaf hovy. srbjIq ny bQyrf ikhf ik Ausdy nfl bYT ky rotI Kfvy. pr Aus ny ikhf ik AusdI rIJ sI ik awj pihlI vfr Gr bulf ky afpxy hwQIN pros ky Kuafvy. srbjIq ny vI soicaf ik sLfied mF bfp dy gey hox krky Auh ivafh qoN bfad pihlI vfrIN rotI vrj rhI sI. Auh rosLn nfl bYTf ikMnf icr imwTIaF imwTIaF gwlF krdf irhf.

aglI svyr dPLqr igaf, qF cpVfsI ny Aucycf awj df aKbfr ilaf ky srbjIq dI myjL qy rwiKaf hoieaf sI.

aKbfr dI pihlI surKI pVH ky hI Aus df rMg PUk ho igaf.

‘rylvy krmcfrI prs rfm sihgl dI bytI sroj bflf dI KudkusLI kfrn mOq.

hyTF iliKaf sI:

ajmyr: geI rfq, puils dI iek gsLqI tolI rfhIN imlI ieqlfh anusfr, pwCmI rylvy dy krmcfrI prs rfm sihgl dI ieklOqI bytI aqy sfivwqrI grljL hfeI skUl dI aiDafpkf sroj bflf dI, afqm Gfq dy kfrn mOq ho geI. AusdI lfsL AuhnF dy kuafrtr ipwCy bwDy JUly dy rwsy nfl ltkdI pfeI geI. sUqrF ‘qoN pqf cwilaf hY ik klH sLfm imRqkf dy gRih ivKy, rylvyy-ieMjInIar srbjIq isMG df pRIqI Boj sI.

imRqkf dI lfsL dI qlfsLI qoN Ausdy sLrIr ‘qy iek ‘sUiesfeIz-not’ df ilPLfPLf brfmd hoieaf. lfsL nUM ‘post-mfrtm’ leI rylvy hspqfl ivc Byj idwqf igaf hY. qPLqIsL jfrI hY.’

srbjIq dy isr ‘qy ijvyN swq GVy pfxI pY igaf hovy. Aus nUM acfnk iPLkr hox lwgf, ijvyN Aus nUM iksy koJI sfijLsL df isLkfr bxfieaf jf irhf hovy. Ausny jldI nfl dPLqr qoN CwutI leI aqy sfeIkl ‘qy iswDf rylvy hspql afpxI pqnI dy kilink ivc jf puwjf. sqvMq vI kfPLI gMBIr hoeI jfp rhI sI. srbjIq dy phuMcx qoN pihlF hI Ausny ‘KudkusLI not’ dI iebfrq bfry ‘izAUtI-srjn’ aqy pulIs aPLsr qoN dirafPLq kr ilaf sI. ijnHF dy dwsx anusfr iksmq nfl imRqkf ny Ausdy pqI dI Ausqq qoN isvf Aus ivc kuJ nhIN sI iliKaf hoieaf. Auh srbjIq nUM iswDI zfktr bwqrf kol hI lY geI. ijsny aYs[aYc[E dI sihmqI nfl AusnUM ‘sUiesfeIz-not’ pVHn dI anumqI dy idwqI.

not ivclI iebfrq ies pRkfr sI:

“mYN kudrq vwloN sqfeI hoeI iek apUrx aOrq hF, ijs nUM KusL vyKx leI sLfied myry mF-bfp sdf icMquq rihMdy rhy. pr, hr iesqrI dy BfgF ivc ivafhuqf jIvn df suK nhIN iliKaf huMdf.

kdy myrI ijLMdgI ivc srbjIq ijhf iek rfj kumfr afieaf sI, ijs ny myrI aMqr afqmf ivc koeI ipafr dI icxg jgfeI sI. mYnUM kI pqf sI ijs Xuvk bfry mYN acfnk suPLny lYx lwg peI sF, Aus dy lyK iksy hor BfgF BrI nfl pihlF hI juVy hoey sn. ivafh ipwCoN vI Aus ny afpxIaf muskfxF duafrf myrf qn mn rosLn krI rwiKaf. mYnUM kI pqf sI ik sfzy smfj ivc BrfvF ijhy, dosqI dy sqXugI irsLqy vI vrijq huMdy ny. ajyhy sMklp ‘qy hI lokIN icwkV ikAuN suwtx lwg jFdy ny?

kuJ smyN qoN kuJ lokF ny KfhmKfh dKlaMdfjLI kr ky myrf jIxf duwBr krI rwiKaf. smfj ivc mYnUM Cwj ivc pf ky burI qrF Cwitaf igaf hY. mYN iksy df nfm nhIN lYxf cfhuMdI. iek svqMqr ivcfrF dI DfrnI hox nfqy, mYN iksy nfl koeI bdly dI Bfvnf nhIN rwKdI. pr afqmk qOr ‘qy hor vDyry hIxIN vI nhIN sF ho skdI. qnoN mnoN mYN hmysLf iek afdrsL bytI, ipafrF lwDI BYx aqy cMgI dosq bx ky jIxf cfhuMdI sF, ijhVf myrI iksmq ivc nhIN sI.

sLfied afpxI qrjL df jIxf myry leI sMqfp huMdf jf irhf sI. ies leI mYN soicaf ik myrI jIvn lIlf smfpq krn df smF af igaf hY. ieh myrf injI PLYslf hY. mYN iksy nUM kI dosL idaF?

jug jug jIvy, vIrF qoN vI vwD myrf sKf. jfx qoN pihlF AusnUM vyKx dI iek asIm sDr sI, ijhVI sLfied Ausny sqvMq BfbI dI anumqI qoN ibnf hI pUrI kr idwqI. lgdY hux myrf dUr vft df sPLr suKflf ho skygf. awj mYN iksy AuWpr koeI igly isLkvy qoN ibnf ies sMsfr nUM alivdf kih rhI hF. myrf boilaf cwilaf muafPL kr dyxf….

iek aBfgx:
jo iksy nUM vI kuJ nf dy skI---sroj

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(23 dsMbr 2005)