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kuljIq mfn

PoLn dI GMtI vwj rhI sI. mYN PoLn nUM GUrn lwgI. ieMJ lwgy ijvyN PoLn nUM awKF lwgIaF hn jo mYnUM vyK rhIaF hn. PoLn qy AuWG afey isMg ijvyN myry kpiVaF nUM pfVn leI qqpr hox. hfr ky mYN PoLn cuwk ilaf.

“hYlo” mYN rfq dy igafrF vjLf rhI GVI vwl dyKky ikhf.

“hYlo jI” PoLn ivclI avfjL myry isrhfxy hI afky bYT geI.

mYN iKJ geI. jy aYnkF kol huMdIaF qF mYN nMbr pCfxky PoLn nhIN cuwkxf sI.

“mYN kl rfq vI PoLn kIqf sI. qusIN ikqy gey sI?” rysLm dI bnfAutI kUlHI avfjL mYnUM bhuq hI KrvIN lwgI.

“vIr jI kl myrI qbIaq TIk nhIN sI iesleI golI Kfky sON geI sI.”

“awCf awCf mYN smiJaf sLfied ikqy gey ho.” rysLm dy dohry arQF nUM mYN smJ qF geI pr bolI kuJ nhIN.

“vyKIN ikqy, afpxy afpnUM iekilaF nF smJIN. duwK suwK qF afAuNdy hI rihMdy hn. afpF rl imlky kt lvFgy. ikqy kulvMq nUM mfstr rfxy df pqf qy nhIN lwg igaf?”

“BfjI mYN quhfzI bhuq iejLq krdI hF. ies krky nhIN ik qusIN myry ipMz dy ho. blik ies krky ik qusIN kulvMq dy gUVHy imwqr ho. ieh iks qrHF dIaF gwlF Coh leIaF qusIN awDI rfq nUM. nf qusIN kdy kulvMq dy huMidaF vI iesqrHF awDI rfqy PoLn kIqf sI?” mYN guwsy nUM sMkoc dy Bfr Qwly dbxf cfihaf.

“nhIN nhIN mYN qy vYsy hI ikhf sI. kulvMq muMzf qy mfVf nhIN, ijMmyvfr hY. kdy kdy BfvyN muMizaF KuMizaF vflI ielq krdf hY, pr iewQy duD-Doqf kOx hY? dyh cIjL hI aYsI hY. aYvyN nf mfstr rfxy dy pypr Brn bih jfvIN sfzy huMidaF[[[”

“BfjLI plIjL qusIN Pon bMd kr idAu, myry inafxy kol bYTy hn. vYsy vI sLrfb pIky iksy nUM PoLn nhIN krIdf. aYvyN nf myry mUMhoN koeI mfVf sLbd inkl jfvy.” mYN QoVf ijhf AuBfsrky BVkI.

“lY qUM qy aYvyN guwsf krdI hYN. mYN koeI bygfnf QoVf? qyrf grfeIN hF. jnfrdn vFg koeI aYrf gYrf qy nhIN.”

“cMgf jI siq sRI akfl.” mYN PoLn kt idwqf. myry KUn ivc ijvyN iksy ny jLihr Gol idwqf hovy. mYN socx lwgI ies luwcy rysLm nUM spsLtIkrx vI dyvF qF ikAuN? ieh huMdf kox hY myry iksy vI mfmly ivc dKl dyx vflf.

ipCly aYqvfr myrI kfr pMcr ho geI sI. rysLm afieaf bYTf sI afpxI qIvIN nfl. myrI mfVI iksmq nUM AudoN hI jnfrdn af igaf tfier df pMcr lvfky. kfr dI cfbI dyx aMdr af igaf qy rysLm dI awK ivc kwK vFg rVkx lwg ipaf. Auh vI agoN aYsf Bolf pMCI jfx df nfm hI nf lvy. hfr ky rysLm dI awK qfVky mYNnUM afp hI kihxf ipaf,cMgf jnfrdn jI quhfnUM dyr huMdI hoAU, bhuq bhuq myhrbfnI, tfier iPks krfAuNx dI.

mYN soc rhI sI iensfn koeI vI gulfm nhIN huMdf blik Ausdf ‘mMnxf’ huMdf hY. aOrqjLfq[[[ iewk jLihnIaq, ijsdf afpxf iewk lMbf cOVf ieiqhfs hY. ieh ieiqhfs, qF aOrq dy jMmx qoN pihlF hI jnm lY lYNdf hY. mYN qF ieh khFgI aOrq nfl vfbsqf ieh ieiqhfs jnm nhIN lYNdf. jnm qF Ausdf huMdf hY jo mrdf hY pr aOrq dy nfl nfl qurdI ieh jLihmq, afpxy aMdr kI kI smoeI bYTI hY, iesdf iksy nUM koeI iewlm nhIN. jnfrdn nUM vI nhIN. ieh ielm df Brmjfl hI qF hY ijsqoN sfry zrdy hn. sLfied ies zr df hI dUjf nfm smfj hY. rysLm,jnfrdn ieh hI qF hn jo smfj nUM mom dI nwk smJdy hn.

ikhVI ajLfdI lYky idwqI mYnUM icVI ny? myrf qy isr hI nMgf kr geI. hr kF, TMUgf mfrn nUM iqafr bYTf hY. ajy qy mIitMgF df islislf sLurU hI hoieaf sI ik iehnF kFvF dI rfjnIqI suLrU ho geI. koeI nhIN cfhuMdf myrI qy kulvMq dI sulfh hovy. sB ZONg kr rhy hn.

ipwCly aYqvfr rysLm df Pon afieaf. aKy jy jnfrdn qyry kol hY qF AusnUM iewDr AuWDr kr dy asIN afAux lwgy hF. mYN cuwp dI cuwp hI kr geI.

ieh af gey vwzy cODrI sulfh krfAux vflLy. aKy asIN isafxy huMdy hF. isafxy nf ksfeI iksy QF dy. myrf qy idl krdf sI cuwk ky bfhr suwt idaF ies kUVy nUM. pr krdI kI, kihMdy hn vkq afAuNx qy qF glI df kwK vI kMm af jFdf hY. msF msF jnfrdn ny myrI jfn CuzfeI. nhIN huMdf qy nf hovy smJOqf. qusIN mfmy lgdy ho kuVI dy?

aOrq qF iewk mirXfdf df dUjf nfm hY. pr mirXfdf df mqlb ipMjrf nhIN huMdf. hux qF myrI awDy isr dI pIV vI bdl geI hY. hux pIV jF qF sfry isr ivc huMdI hY jF nhIN huMdI. mYN bhuq aoV pHoV kIqy. bhuq roeI, ijqnf ro skdI sI, AusqoN vI ijLafdf roeI. iPr mYnUM afpxy rox qoN nPLrq ho geI. hux mYN koeI kuVI QoVf rhI sI. iewk mF nUM roxf sLoBf nhIN idMdf. mF df srokfr qF rKvflI nfl hY. zr qF hor hI iksy cIjL df nfm hY.

ies zr df kfPLlf hI mYnUM hor zrfAuNx afieaf sI. rysLm BfjLI ies BIV dy mohrI, mYnUM dsx afey sI ik kI TIk hY qy kI glq. mYN sulfh kr lvF.

‘ kIhdy nfl[[[ afpxy Grvfly nfl jF qyry nfl.’

kuJ jfxy pCfxy cyhiraF dIaF nfvfikP awKF ijvyN kih rhIaF sn, jy sulfh nhIN kryNgI qF asIN qYnUM iesy qrHF hor zrfvFgy.
koeI vI isvf ies zr df aMqm sMskfr nhIN krdf. jnfrdn dI qF hsqI hI kI hY. Auh vI qy iewk isvf hY, ijs kol koeI awg nhIN hY.

aOrq dy nfl nfl qurdf ieh pRCfvF[[[ . kfl KrId ilaf hY, ies pRCfvyN ny. jIx mrn qo AuWpr AuWT geI hY, ‘ieh aOrq dI hoxI’. keI afAuNdy hn ies pMz dIaF pIcIaF gMZF nUM KolHx. dMdF nfl pUrf joLr lgfAuNdy hn. hwQF nfl Kolx qF sLfied[[[pyc dr pyc[[[ pr ieh qF smJoqf krfAuuNx ligaF vI kfhlI kridaF GVI dyKdy hn.

asloN iPkI pYky imt cuwkI iewk lIk df iPr qwsvr krdy idKfeI dyNdy hn. smyN dy ieh rysLmI Blvfn, iZzoN hsdy Kyzdy ies hoxI nfl CyVKfnI kr rhy hn. muskVIaF hwsdy, nvyN nvyN dfhvy kr rhy hn. mYN jfxdI hF ik myrf isr nMgf ho igaf hY. ienHF dy Bfa dI ijvyN Ptfk krdI koeI iKVkI Kul geI hovF. isr dI cuMnI df pUrf sUrf ieiqhfs hux myrI smJ ivc af irhf hY. jdoN kulvMq myry nfl KVf sI ctfn vFg, ieho rysLm mYnUM BYx jI kihMdf huMdf sI. hux ieho lok kuJ nvF klipq kr rhy hn.

kuJ iBwt ho irhf lgdf hY. sfry qF ieko ijhy nhIN hn. mYnUM vI pqf hY. ies slfhU BIV ivc kuJ dfr jI vrgy vI hn. pr lgdf hY ijvyN Kwty ny sfrf duD hI iKMzf idwqf hovy. KMzr ho cuwkI ijLMdgI ivc koeI nvIN axikafsI iewt rwKx dI slfh dy rhy hn. CotI ijhI iewt rwKky AusnUM hI cfroN pfisAuN plsqr krdy qury jFdy hn. mYnUM qF lgdf hY ieh mYnUM smJfAux nhIN blik Kyzx afey hn. iesqrF vI ikqy tuwty Gr vsdy hn?

rysLm vrgy kuJ lok, socF df iewk pfxI df bulbulf ijhf afpxy idmfg ivc Ausfr rhy hn. Aus ivc afpxI mrjLI dy mMn-BfAuNdy rMg Br rhy hn.[[[[iPr[[[ afpxy Bry rMgF dI dunIaF ivc guafc rhy hn[[[. qyry bwcy kI krngy? ienHF nUM bMdf puwCy myry bwicaF nfl qyry bulbuilaF df kI sbMD?

inwjI ijLMdgI ivc dKl dyx dI axmMgI iejLfjq nUM ieh lok afdq ikAuN bxf rhy hn? iksy df koeI dKLl nhIN sI jdoN kulvMq myry brobr KVdf sI, AudoN mYN rysLm dI BYxF vrgI sI. smJOqy dIaF mIitMgF dI dunIaF qfrIP krdI hY ikAuNik dunIaF nUM qfrIP krn df vwl afAuNdf hY. kfly BUMzF df, ikhVf rMg nIlf huMdf hY jo pihcfxy jfx. ivcy hI vVky iCpx ho jFdy hn ieh igrigtIey.

qyry bwcy kI krngy? iehnF df kI ksUr? afpxI ijLd Cwz dy. slfhU BIV dy keI mYNbr, ijnHF nUM ieqnI soJI hI nhI sI ik mslf kI hY ny slfh idwqI.

ieho gwl qF mYN dmn nUM vI khI sI qy afpxy vzy byty nUM vI. pr AunHF dI ieqnI nf qy Aumr hY qy nf hI hYsIaq. mYN juLlm krn dI QF dUsrf rsqf aKiqafr kr rhI hF jo mYnUM jfnI ny isKfieaf hY, iewk icwVI ny. gwl qF ieqnI hI hY ivcoN, jo ieh bIby lok smJ nhIN rhy. ienHF df vI kI ksUr? ieh qF iksy icVI nUM nhIN jfxdy? mYN vI ikhVf Auhdy idl dIaF jfxdI sI. Auhdy Gr Cwzx qoN pihlF qwk.

GVMm cODrIaF dy kurbfn jfeIey. kmfl dI gwl qF ieh hY ieh mOkf imlx qy mUMh nhIN CupfAuNdy. bVy hI bysLrm hn, ieh zry hoey BuwKy lok. pr sfiraF nUM iewko rwsy bMnxf vI TIk nhIN, kuwJ jnfrdn vrgy mIsxy ijhy vI huMdy hn.

slfhUaF nUM qorn qoN bfd mYN drvfjLf bMd kIqf qy suwK df sfh ilaf. mYN AunHF dy ilaFdy iksy vI ipMjry ivc nhIN vVI sI.

mYN awj vI AusnUM bhuq ipafr krdI hF. myrf rom rom Ausdf irxI hY. myry isr df sfeIN sI Auh. bhuq hI imhnqI. qkVy juwsy vflf,phfVF nfl mwQf lf lYNdf sI. Pirhfd vFg duwD dI nihr kwZ skdf sI. bVf AuWdmI sI. Ausny Gwt koeI nhIN kIqf. idn ivc ikqny GMty huMdy hn, Ausny kdy igxy hI nhI. myry isr dI Cwq myry ‘sfeIN’ dI hI idwqI hY. kI hoieaf jy mYnUM kfnUMn df shfrf lYxf ipaf. kfnUMn dI ies lVfeI ivc vI Ausny hONslf nhIN hfiraf. afpxI ihMmq jfrI rwKI. GMitaF dI nPLrI vI AuqnI hI rhI. mYN bhuq roeI ipwtI. myrI DI nUM apxf lvy, myry byty nUM muafP kr dyvy. bysLk vsUlI myry koloN kr lvy. mfr lvy DwPy cfr.

jdoN myry aQrU suwky qF sBqoN pihlF myry idloN avfjL afeI. Auh kOx huMdf hY myry vwzy byty nUM muafPI dyx vflf? Auh ikhVf smfj hY, ijsdI Auh gwl kr irhf hY. kI Auhdy Aus smfj ivc ‘mYN’ AusdI bIvI afpixaF bwicaF smyq nhIN smf skdI? afKr mYN kdoN qwk brdfsLq krdI? kI myrI afpxI kurbfnI kfPI nhIN? byvPf mYN hF jF Auh luwcf lPMgf? byvPfeI dI ies dukfn dI asIN gwl hI ikAuN krIey? hux asIN mF-bfp hF. ipCvfVy-swp qF kd dy mr cuwky hn, AunHF dI kuMJ vI suwk ky afkV geI hY. . mYN qF isrP iewk pfT pVH ilaf. iewk ielhfm, jo mYnUM iewk pMCI qoN imilaf.

jfnI myrf nfm, jfnI myrf nfm, ieh lfeInF isKfldy dIaF dmn dIaF keI sLfmF gujLr geIaF. sfzy hwsidaF dIaF iZzIN pIVF pY jFdIaF.

“puwqrI ieh qoqf nhIN. icVIaF boldIaF nhIN huMdIaF. isrP cIN cIN hI krdIaF hn. iehnF dI cIN cIN dI sur qoN hI pqf lwgdf hY ik ieh ipafsIaF hn, BuwKIaF hn, Audfs hn jF KusL hn.” kulvMq ikqnI vwzI scfeI ibafn kr irhf sI. afpxI DI nUM dws kI irhf sI qy Ausdy ies dsx df iewk mqlb jF dUjf mqlb jF Auh mqlb jo mYnUM smJ af irhf sI, Ausdy ienHF arQF dI zUMGI jVH DrqI dy iks pqfl ivc sI. mYN soc rhI sI ik kI kulvMq ies vkq ienHF khy jf rhy sLbdF dI sfriQkqf jfxdf vI hY jF nhIN. sLfied nhIN[[[mrd df, kulvMq df[[[socx df ZMg , Auh nhIN jo mYN iewk aOrq[[[iewk mF smJ rhI hY. mYN vI cIN cIN kIqI sI. [[[KfmosL cIN cIN[[[iksy dy vI smJ nf afeI. myrI mF qoN Cuwt[[[. ‘DIey afpxI cIN cIN dI sur bdl lY.’ mYN Jwt bdl leI. myry kol guvfAux leI smF hI ikwQy sI? PrIjL kIqy Kfxy dI PrIjL qoVI geI. mYN mwt Br ilaf.

jdoN dmn df jnm hoieaf AudoN myry vwzy byty df jnm idn ajy lMiGaf hI sI. ies lMGy smyN dI ivwQ koeI mfienf nhIN rwKdI. iewk mhIny qoN lYky iewk sfl ho skdI hY. gwl qF mihsUs krn dI hY. jy mYN kuwJ ijLafdqI krn qy AuWqr afvF qF kih skdI hF ik kulvMq ivwQ df mqlb sflF bwDI smJdf hY qy mYN ies ivwQ nUM imMtF ivc qoldI hF. kulvMq bhuq hI KusL sI. AusnUM bytI hI cfhIdI sI. DI dy afAux dIaF pfrtIaF kIqIaF geIaF. hr koeI afK irhf sI. ikqny cMgy hn ieh nvyN jLmfny dy agFh-vDU lok. cfhIdf vI iesqrHF hI hY.

“qYnUM pqf ijs Gr ivc DI nhIN huMdI, AuWQy njLfkq nhIN huMdI. sohjL suafd, kdrF kImqF, Gr dI bolcfl, Gr df isMLgfr, ieh DIaF hI qF huMdIaF hn.” kulvMq ny ieh sfrf kuJ bVI hI isLdq nfl ikhf sI. Auh aYsf hI smJdf sI. Aus Gr dy mflk ny afpxI DI nUM vI iewk isLMgfr dI cIjL bxf idwqf sI. iblkul Ausy qrHF ijvyN ilv-rUm dy bIco bIc iewk KUbsUrq ipMjrf ltkdf hovy qy Aus ivc bYTI iewk sohxy ijhy KMBF vflI icVI hovy. Gr dI njLfkq, Gr dI sLfn ieh icVI, Gr afey mihmfnF nUM sohxI lgdI sI. Auh sfzy tyst qoN pRBfivq huMdy. Gr dy ies mfhOl nUM sfjgfr bnfAux leI kulvMq bhuq imhnq krdf sI. AusdI KUn-psIny nfl bxfeI ieh lkV dI dunIaF mYN qfr qfr krky rwK idwqI sI. Aus rwb dy bMdy ny iewk vfr vI AuWjr nhIN kIqf sI.

myry vkIl ny jo vI klym kIqf, kulvMq ny isr mwQy kbUl kIqf. sfry irsLqydfr myry isr hI imwtI pf rhy sn. sfry myrf hI ksUr kwZ rhy sn. mYN vI afpxy afp nUM ksUrvfr Tihrf rhI sI. Gr qoVn qoN pihlF, ipMjry nUM afKrI ijMdrf lfAuNx qoN pihlF, pUrI vfh lfAuNidaF, mYN iewk irsLqf qoiVaf sI. afpxI pugfAux leI mYN sfl qoN vwD kulvMq dy bxdy hwkF qoN AusnUM vFJf kr idwqf sI pr koeI Prk nhIN sI ipaf. izgUM izgUM krdy imwtI dy ieh KlypV, kMD nfloN nfqf qoV gey. swKxy kulvMq nUM koeI aPsos hI nhIN sI. hor mYN krdI vI kI?

sfrf klym kridaF mYN koeI KusL QoVf sI? mYN ikhVf afpxy leI kr rhI sI. mYN qF inafixaF dI Kfqr ieh mOHrf cwb rhI sI. mYN qF kulvMq nMU vI klym kr rhI sI. kulvMq awj sfnUM bulf lvy. bs, AusdI hfk ivc inwG hoxf cfhIdf hY. awj zYz bxky dmn dy ihwsy dIaF KusLIaF AuhdI JolI pf dyvy. sYpfrysLn qoN bfd dmn dI shUlq leI nvIN kfr kZf ky Byj idqI. zYz afpxI DI nUM suK shUlq dy skdf sI pr pItr nhIN. vwzy byty bfry mYN ijLd nhIN krdI. cwl Auh jfxy ieh bfp byty df mslf hY. vYsy vI mYN hI idloN nhIN cfhuMdI ik vwzf bytf vfps afvy. rojL rojL dy klysL nfloN qF ieho cMgf hY, Auh ijwQy vI rhy KusL rhy. myrI ijLd qF dmn nfl bwJI hY. afKr kwd qwk ieh dfdfigrI clygI? kdyy qF iesnUM rokxf hI pvygf.

“pfpf swc, mYnUM nhIN pqf. mYN kdy puwiCaf hI nhIN Ausdf lfst nym?” dmn rox hfkI hoeI KVI sI, Aus idn.

“quhfnUM pqf nhI pr sfrI dunIaF nUM pqf Aus kuwqy pItr dI brfdrI df. asIN jwt srdfr qy Auh[[[[. asIN qy nfl bYTf ky rotI vI nhIN KFdy.”

“qusIN arfm nfl gwl ikAuN nhIN krdy? aYsf vI ikhVf phfV izg ipaf hY. qusIN vI qy [[[”

“nf phfV hor iesqoN vwzf huMdf hY? qusIN mF-DI ies gwl nUM iewQy hI Cwz idAu. aYvyN aYsf nf hovy quhfnUM vwZky lyk ivc roVnf pvy mYnUM. pqMdro, myrI ipwT rih geI kMm krdy dI qy jdoN hux iejLq dI rotI Kfx lgy hF qF isr suvfh pvf leIey?” dmn dI CotI qoN CotI KfhsL, dmn dI hr KusLI qy kurbfn hox vflf kulvMq ibPiraf bYTf sI.

“pfpf zoNt vrI, mYN aYsf kuJ vI nhIN krFgI ijs nfl myry svIt zYz nUM qklIP hovy.” dmn ny myry vwl vyKky afpxy zYz nUM ikhf. Auh sLurU qoN hI kulvMq nUM bhuq ipafr krdI sI. ipafr nfl kdy AusnUM pfpf kihMdI qy kdy zYz. Ausy qrHF ijvyN Auh jfnI nUM kdy kdy bhuq hI ipafr nfl jInI kihMdI sI.

kihMdy hn klHf klMdr vsy qy GiVAuN pfxI nwsy. ieho Auh idn sn jdoN jfnI ipMjrf KulHf rih jfx df Pfiedf AuWTf ky Purr[[[[ ho geI sI. sfry Gr qy musIbq df phfV tut ipaf sI. dmn dI sfrI rutINn, jfnI nfl hI bwJI hoeI sI. hr koeI Gr vVdf hI sBqoN pihlF jfnI nUM hI bulfAuNdf sI. Gr dy keI igly isLkvy, jfnI rfhIN hI sulJ jFdy sn. iswDf nf bulfky kulvMq jfnI dy hwQ sunyhf dy idMdf sI . KLfs krky sLukrvfr kI hox vflf hY ieh qy jfnI vI smJx lwg peI sI. mYnUM lgdf hY ijvyN jfnI nUM hPiqaF dy idnF dI pUrI smJ sI. sLukrvfr Auh svyr qoN hI KusL ho jFdI sI,ibnHF hfeIpr tYblt dy hI ncx twpx lwg pYNdI sI. jd ik kulvMq ny qy ajy rfq nUM afky lolo popo krnf huMdf sI.

mYnUM awj vI Xfd hY jdoN mYN kulvMq nUM pihlI vfr ikhf sI, “kI krdy ho? kuJ qy sLrm kro. jfnI vyKdI peI jy.” qy kulvMq ny scmuwc hI afpxf afpf myry nfloN qoVky sLrm mMnI sI. iesqoN bfd kdy vI jfnI sfhmxy kulvMq ny aYsI vYsI hrkq nhIM kIqI sI. mYnUM qy ieMJ lgdf ijvyN jfnI sfnUM CyVdI hovy. dmn dI hI nhIN Auh myrI vI shylI sI. Ausdf Kfs idn qy Kfs qrHF df ivvhfr mYNnUM cMgf lgdf sI.

dmn dI KusLI, Gr dI sLfn, Gr dI mfn-mirXfdf sfrf kuJ hI Kqry ivc pY igaf sI. lok qF kuwJ vI kih skdy sI. icVI df Gr Cwz jfxf mKOLl df kfrx bx igaf. ieh iewk bdsLgnI vI sI. sfry Gr dI rutIn hI bdl geI. kulvMq qoN lYky nfrMgI qwk, jo vI Gr ivc pRvysL krdf sI sB qoN pihlF jfnI nUM hI bulfAuNdf sI. hr gwl ivc jfnI df huMgfrf mMigaf jFdf sI. KLflI ipMjrf qy hux Kfx nUM pYNdf sI. iewk ienHF df pwkf imwqr kih irhf sI qusIN icVI nUM Kfx leI nhIN idMdy hoxy. iewk hor ny iesqoN vI awgy lMGky sfzy dovF sfhmxy hor hI kfrx ilaf Diraf. aKy Auh iewklI ivcfrI kI krdI?

kulvMq iehnF coBF qoN zrdf jldI qoN jldI Gr ivc jfnI df bdl ilaf ky ienHF inwq-idn pYdf huMdIaF coBF qoN Cutkfrf pfAuxf cfhuMdf sI. iesqoN pihlF ik lokF nUM pqf cwly Auuh ‘ipMjry ivc bMd’ nvIN icVI ilafky tMg dyxf cfhuMdf sI. vYsy vI Auh afpxI DI df duwK nhIN Jwl skdf sI. mYN kulvMq dI hdfieq muqfibk iqMnF inafixaF nUM lYky pYWt sLfp qy phuMc geI.

“qusIN afpy jfE, myry nhIN Auh afKy lgdI.”

Auh qy GroN hI nhIN qurdI sI. msF msF mYN AuhnUM kfr vwl qoiraf sI.

“ cwl mYN dyKdI hF.” mYN QoVf ijhf qwqf hoky afpxy vwzy byty nUM ikhf. mYN pYWt sLfp ivcoN bfhr afAuNidaf ikhf. “ hnyr sfeIN df. ies kuVI df kI bxygf. dws icVI nUM mYN Auzfieaf hY? mYnUM ikhVf Gwt duwK hY.” nfrMgI pfxI ivc qrdIaF iqlkdIaF rMg brMgIaF CotIaF CotIaF mwCIaF nUM dyKx ivc msq sI. mYN pl df pl rukI. nfrMgI ny myry vwl rqf ku Jfikaf qy Ausdf iDafn iPr AunHF mwCIaF vwl clf igaf. mYN dukfn qoN bfhr af geI. Puwt lfkr dy sfhmxy bxy bYNc qy dmn bYTI sI. Aus bYNc vwl jFidaF mYN dmn vwl iDafn nfl dyK rhI sI.

mYN afpxI DI vwl nhIN blik iewk kuVI vwl dyK rhI sI. iewk ajIb ijhI soc myry idmfg dI iksy ns nUM iKwc pf rhI sI. DIaF kdoN vzIaF ho jFdIaF hn, pqf vI nhIN lgdf. mYN afpxI DI dmn nUM sYNnq mfrI. kuVI ny myrI sYNnq axdyKI kr idqI. mYnUM ieMJ lwgf ijvyN dmn, myrI DI idloN AuTxf cfh rhI hovy pr Aus ivclI kuVI dy pYr Ausdf sfQ nFh dy rhy hox. pYr jo Ausdy vXUd df ihwsf hn. Ausdf vXUd jo Ausdy afpy df ihwsf hY. Ausdf afpf,jo iewk kuVI hY, ijsdy armfn kudrq dI amfnq hn. Auh armfn ids nhIN rhy. jo ids irhf hY, Auh sfzI DI hY. mfrKory bfp dI ieklOqI DI.

AusdIaF awKF jrUr myry nfl sFJIaF ho rhIaF sn. AunHF awKF ivc iewk qrs sI[[[iewk qrlf sI. iewk AuWTx AuWTx krn dI lck vI sI. pr Auh slIkf gfieb sI jo iewk mF df hwk huMdf hY. mF df Auh hwk jo puMgr ky vwzf hoieaf huMdf hY, kdy bfp dy vyhVy ivc qy kdy pqI dy bYzrUm ivc. puMgrdy aYsy prfg nUM BfvyN mF afp vI psMd nf krdI hovy pr hvf pfxI qy imldf hI rihMdf hY qy mF kol hor koeI guMjfiesL vI nhIN rihMdI. hfr-ijwq qoN prHy KloqI mF ies hwk nUM mfx nfl svIkfr krdI hY. mYnUM vI dmn qy AunHF hI mfx sI ijMnf hr mF nUM huMdf hY. dmn ibmfr vI nhIN sI.

mYN hOlI hOlI qurdI Aus bYNc dy iblkul kol cly geI. mYN AusnUM dubfrf nhIN blfieaf. AusdI kwC ivc hwQ dyky AusnUM AuTieaf. Auh kMbdI ZihMdI AuWT peI. mYN ‘hMbVy’ ikhf pr kuVI ny koeI juafb nhIN idwqf. mYN Ausdf hwQ PV ilaf qy AusnUM afpxy nfl qor ilaf. Auh ibnHF cfhq, inr-ivroD afpxI mF nfl qur peI. vwzf bytf sfnUM rsqy ivc imilaf. Auh nf qF sfzy vwl afieaf qy jdoN asIN AusnUM pfs kIqf nf sfzy ipwCy hI quiraf.

ikqnI byrsI kr idwqI sI ruV jfxI jfnI dI bwcI ny. afKr inklI nF prfeI hI. kI irsLqf sI Ausdf ies Gr nfl? jy koeI irsLqf huMdf qF Auh iesqrHF krdI? myry mUMh df svfd bkbkf ho igaf. kIhdf ieqbfr kIqf jfvy awjkl. ruV jfxI ny ieh vI nf soicaf jy AudoN asIN AuhnUM nf bcfAuNdy qF Auhny AuNJ hI mr jfxf sI. mINh kxI ivc ruV jfxf sI. kI pqf ibjlI hI pY jFdI. koeI bfjL iewl hI pY jFdI. kI pqf awjkl, kF-kuwqy hrl hrl krdy iPrdy hn cfry pfsy.

Auh qy sfzI iksmq cMgI sI vyly isr phuMc gey. sfzI jfn dI dusLmx[[[mr jfxI ieh vI pqf nhIN ikhVy dysL qoN afeI zfr nfloN ivCVI sI. asIN qy qrs krdy hI mfry gey nf. nf mr jfxI sfzy Gr afAuNdI qy nFh sfzI jfn df KOh bxdI. mYN Aus leI kuJ nf kr skI. Ausny sLfied koeI suafl kdy pfieaf hI nhIN sI. sLfied afpxI bolI ivc koeI cIN cIN kIqI hovy, ijsnUM mYN smJ nhIN skI. pr dmn dy idl dI gwl qF mYN smJ skdI hF. ieh qF cIN cIN nhIN krdI. iesdy vXUd dy ipwCy jy smfj hwQ Doky pY igaf hY qF ieh iewk mF dI pnfh ivc vI qy hY, iPr ikAuN[[[? mF qy smfj dy ies klysL ivc kOx kIhdf kI lgdf hY, ieh myrI smJ ivc nhIN af irhf.

dukfn af geI. nfrMgI ajy vI mwCIaF dyKx ivc msq sI. myry prs ivc ipaf sYl KVk irhf sI. mYN dmn df hwQ Cwz idwqf. mYN sYl kwZky kMn nUM lf ilaf. “sfnUM ajy GMtf ku lwg jfxf. ajy qy nhIN KrIdI. Auh hF qy kry[[[aYvyN pYsy puwtx df kI Pfiedf. purfxf ipMjrf qF sutxf pYxf. hF hF [[[kfrz hI vrqFgI. ieqnf kYsL ikwQoN hoxf myry prs ivc. grOsrI pqf ikqny dI afeI? qusIN bhuqf booilaf nf kro. [[[zfktr nUM vI kI pqf? mYN quhfnUM ikqnI vfr ikhf sI. myrI gwl hor. inafxy vI[[[ qy icVI vI [[[sB quhfzy AuWcf bolx qoN [[[avfjLfr hn. dyKo sfzf dosL vI hY. hY ikAuN nhIN? ipMjry df bUhf Kulf rih igaf. ieqbfr ieqbUr nUM awjkl kOx puwCdf. cwl hux qusIN lVo nf. bfkI gwl Pyr krFgy.” mYN Pon iewkTf krky prs ivc pf ilaf.

dsF ku dI hovFgI msF AudoN. lfxI mMjI qy bYTI mYN slyt qy Jol kJol mfr rhI sI. jdoN cfcf jI ny PurqI nfl bFh PYlfeI qy AuzdI icVI AunHF dI muwT ivc af geI sI. ikqny hI XqnF nfl icVI hosL ivc afeI sI. pfxI ipaf ipaf cfcf afp Qwk igaf sI. AuDroN dfdI dIaF iJVkF dI JVI lwgI sI. roNdI icVI dI jdoN hosL prqI Purrrr[[[[krky AuWz geI. AuzfrI Brdy KMBF dI avfjL bhuq hI mjLbUq sI. Auh srsrfht awj vI myry kMnF ivc gUMjdI hY. Bfry kpVy pfeI, aMnyH KUh vwl BwjI jFdI koeI kuVI ijvyN icVI bxky hvf ivc AuWz jfvy. icVI afeI qy nO br nO hoky AuWz geI pqf nhIN ikwQy[[[sLfied koeI srhd hI pfr kr geI hovy. Auh vI KusL qy asIN vI KusL. cfcf jI jLrUr kuJ idn prysLfn rhy. pr jfnI nF AuWzI qy nF asIN AuWzfeI. sfzy Gr dI aMdrlI Cwq hI Ausdf asmfn bx igaf sI. iPr ies asmfn Qwly Aus kI vyK ilaf?ies Cwq Qwly vfprn vflI hr gwl jfnI jfxdI hY. awj ijvyN sfzy mUMh qy kflK mlky dPf ho geI hovy. kI mUMh ivKfvFgy puwCx dwsx vfilaF nUM. byjLubfn nUM mrI vI qy nhIN kih skdy?iehdUM qF mr hI jFdI. sfzy Gr dI iejLq bc jFdI. asIN sbr kr lYNdy.

“dmn , dyK eyDr ikqnIaF ipafrIaF icVIaF hn?” dmn ny AuWzdI njLr nfl icVIaF vwl dyiKaf. hry rMg dIaF, lfl rMg dIaF, ibwtr ibwtr afpxy gfhkF vwl dyK rhIaF sn. aMgUrI rMg dI hlkI pIlI Bfa mfrdI icVI ny qy awq hI cuwkI hoeI sI. Auh bfr qy cuMJF mfr mfr sfzf iDafn afpxy vwl iKc rhI sI. ijvyN gfhkF nUM BrmfeIdf hY. sBqoN mihMgI vI ieho sI.

“kI nfm hY iesdf monIkf?” mY syljL grl nUM AusdI nym plyt pVHky puwiCaf.

“kirsI” monIkf ny muskrf ky juafb idwqf.

“ kirsI qF sfzI sLfp dI sLFn hY. iesy leI sBqoN mihMgI hY. nfeIntI nfeIn pls tYks. mOnIkf kirsI nUM vycx leI AusdIaF isPqF krn lwg peI. kirsI dy hlky aMgUrI rMg dy KMBF nfl mYc krdf ipMjrf monIkf ny ilaf ky sfzI do-icwqI nUM iekfgr krnf cfihaf. ipMjry dI kImq sI pMjfh zflr pls tYks. ipMjry ivc kirsI dy bYTx leI bfr bxI peI sI. Ausdf spYsLl Kfxf,hfeIpr tYblts, Ausdy ihwsy df pfxI,pfxI leI bxI CotI ijhI kOlI, kul imlf ky kirsI Gr df isMgfr bx skdI sI pr zflr vI iqMn sO qoN AuWpr lwg jfxf sI. pYsy dI prvfh nhIN sI kulvMq nUM, Auh qy cfhuMdf sI AusdI DI Audfs nhIN rihMxI cfhIdI. Ausdf pwk kIqf sI ik ies vfr iewklI icVI nf pflI jfvy blik Ausdy vrcf leI Ausdf sfQI icVf vI ilaf jfvy. Ausdf qrk sI ik jfnI ny AuzfrI nhIN mfrnI sI jy Ausdf koeI sfQI vI huMdf.

myrf vwzf bytf ajy vI sLfp dy aMdr nhIN afieaf sI.

ieh iblkul afpxy ipAu qy igaf ey. iewk BOrf[[[ieh vI koeI Emr hY[[[ieqnI Emr ivc qy inafxy nUM nflf bMnxf nhIN afAuNdf qy ieh[[[zYz Auh myrI PrYNz hY[[[jst PrYNz.

“ sfilaf pihlF jMm qF lY[[[sflf PrYNz df.” vzy byty ny QpVF qoN koeI sbk nhIN ilaf. guwsf vI nhIN kIqf. nf nfeINn vn vn GuMmfieaf qy nF nsIhq hI leI. iqMn cfr vfr kulvMq QpV QuwpV mfrky hMB igaf. vwzy byty ny ijvyN iewk hrzl pfs kr ilaf hovy. kulvMq TIk sI. Auh ipAu sI Ausdf hwk hY. hux qF ijvyN AuhnF df irsLqf hI Kqm ho igaf hovy.

"dso bytf dmn, ienHF ivcoN ikhVI icVI psMd hY quhfnUM? kirsI bfry qyrf kI iKafl hY? iblkul jfnI vrgI sLrfrqx hY. dyK, ikvyN Auhdy vFg Pudk Pudk awgy ipWCy ho rhI hY. cuMJ vI ikqnI imldI juldI hY. bs QoVf ijhf rMgF df Prk hY. jfnI pIlI sI ikqy ikqy aMgUrI Bfa mfrdI qy ieh aMgUrI hY ikqy ikqy pIlI Bfa mfrdI.”

“mOm afeI zONt vFt aYnI icVI.” dmn ny sujdy lgdy pYrF nUM jLmIn qoN cuwikaf qy kirsI dy ipMjry dy ipwCly pfsy cly geI. mYN AusdIaF hrkqF dyK rhI sI. Ausny kol hoky QoVf ijhf kirsI df ipMjrf ihlfieaf. kirsI iewk dm ipwCy muV peI.

“ luk mOm.” dmn ny iklkfrI ijhI mfr ky ikhf.

“vft” mYN hYrfn hoky puwiCaf. mYnUM lwgf ijsqrHF dmn sdIaF dI ivwQ ipCoN bolI hovy.

“ieh kirsI myry qy ivsLvfsL nhIN kr rhI[[[ dYts gryt[[[ afeI lfeIk iewt.” dmn dI iPlfsPI myrI smJ ivc nhIN sI af rhI.

“ kI?” mYN BvF sMgoV ky ikhf.

“luk mOm, mYN iehdf ipMjrf ihlfieaf. ies vwzI sohxI ny smiJaf ijvyN mYN iehnUM mfrn lwgI hF. jfnI iesqrHF nhIN sI krdI.” dmn ny myrI ‘kI’ df juafb vI idqf qy jfnI dI byvPfeI vI gOlI.

“ dyK jdoN kirsI qYnUM jfx jfiegI AuhdoN qyrf ieqbfr krnf vI isK jfiegI.”

“mOm qusIN qy mYnUM jfxdy ho, zYz qy mYnUM jfxdy hn. isvfey vIry dy koeI myrf ieqbfr nhIN krdf. qusIN sfry cfhuMdy ho ik Gr ivc ijs cIjL df Gftf ipaf hY, Auh pUrf kIqf jfvy. ieh myrI iewklI dI nf mMg hY qy nf KusLI. mYN qF aYkcualI cfhuMdI hI nhIN hux,iksy icVI cfVI nUM. jy qusIN jrUr hI mnI Krfb krnI hY qF kirsI KrId lvo ibkOs sLI luk lfeIk stryt Pfrvrz tU mI. nft lfeIk XU gfiejL[[[zbl stYNzrz[[[. ipMjrf vI KrId lvo. jfnI df KflI ipMjrf mYN kirsI nUM nhIN dyxf. kI pqf iksy idn[[[ruV puV jfxI iksy aOKy smyN [[[mrn qoN pihlF af hI jfvy.” dmn dIaF awKF ivcoN prl prl hMJU ikrn lwg pey, moty moty[[[.

vwzf bytf ajy vI bfhr sI. mYN nfrMgI nUM sYNnq nfl kol swidaf qy ikhf, “ ikAuN nfrMgI qYnUM kirsI psMd hY?”

“ afeI zONt kyar. jy mYnUM puwCdy ho qF mYN kihMnf kirsI rihx idAu, ieh mwCIaF KrId lvo. mnI vI Gwt lgU qy iksy smuMdr vwl vI nhIN AuWzxgIaF. icVI df kI Brosf, jLrf ijMnf ipMjrf KulHf rih igaf qy icVI Purrr[[[[ieh qF ieMJ lgdf hY AusnUM asIN jbrdsqI bMd krky afpxy plYsLr leI rKdy hF, Gr sohxf lwgy. mwCI ivcfrI ny ikwQy jfxf. iPsL-tYNk dy iewk pfsy[[[AuWQoN twkr mfrI iPsL-tYNk dy dUjy pfsy. pfxI pIAu qy msq rho. qy iewk hor cMgI gwl, ieh mr vI CyqI jFdIaF hn. pfxI bdlx vFg ienHF nUM vI bdl idAu. mrIaF sut idAu qy ijAUNdIaF iksy hor rMg dIaF pf idAu. jfnI vFg ‘krfeI’ nhIN krFAuxgIaF.” nfrMgI dIaF CotIaF gwlF dy ikqny zUMGy mqlb sn. jy mYN iksy nUM dsF ik ieh gwlF nfrMgI ny khIaF hn, iksy ny ieqbfr nhIN krnf.

“ jf jfky afpxy vIr nUM swd ky ilaf.”

myrf vwzf bytf afAuNidaF hI boilaf, “ afeI zONt igv ey zYm, afpxI mrjLI kro.” AusdI koeI mrjLI nhIN sI, nf kirsI ivc nf ipMjry ivc qy nf Gr dy iksy hor msly ivc. Auh qF Gr ivc iewk musfPr dI qrHF rih irhf sI. ieh vI isrP mYnUM hI pqf sI. iewk vfrI myry nfl slfhIN ipaf sI. Ausdy ies Gr ivc idn kuJ igxqI imxqI dy hI sn. agly sqMbr `c Ausny iewk AuzfrI mfrnI sI, spYinsL zYbI nfl . aTfrF df ho jfxf hY Ausny sqMbr ivc. bhuq hI CotI gwl sI jdoN kulvMq ny bhuq hI vwzI gwl kih idwqI sI. myrf vI ksUr hY. asl ivc sfrf ksUr hI myrf sI. hPqy bfd afieaf kulvMq iKiJaf ipaf sI. vwzy byty dy kmry ivc cly igaf. bws AusdI rjfeI qih nhIN lgI hoeI sI. bfkI mfVy moty iKlfry df qy kulvMq vI guwsf nhIN krdf sI. suBOkI hI kih bYTf, “kMjrf, mYN idn igxdf hF. ds sqMbr nUM qUM aTfrF df hoxf hY. kfnUMn qy kihMdf hY ik rfq dy bfrF vjLy hI kfPI hn qyrf smfn bfhr suwtx nUM, cwl qYnUM bfrF GMty hor idwqy qUM vI kI Xfd kryNgf.

vwzf bytf guwsf kr igaf. kulvMq ny bfd ivc ikhf vI ik mYN aYvyN hI kih idwqf, myrf koeI mqlb nhIN sI pr vwzf bytf idl qy lf bYTf.

myry nfl slfhIN pey ny sLbd Gwt khy qy aQrU bhuqy vhfey. afKr Auh vI jwt hY. kdy kdy kihMdf hY ik mYN dysI jwt hF. pr vwzy byty dy AulJf df kI hwl sI? mYN vI koeI prvfh nhIN krdI sI. myrI icMqf qF myrI awDy isr dI pIV sI jF dmn.

mYnUM keI vfr QpV pey hn. Ausdy QpV Kfky mYnUM skUn imldf hY. ijvyN mYN nMgy pYr qryly Gfh qy qur ky htI hovF. kulvMq dy QpV myry qy aihsfn hn. myrf krjLf Auqr irhf hY. ijAuN ijAuN Gr dIaF suivDfvF vwD rhIaF hn iqAuN iqAuN myry idl idmfg df boJ vI vDdf hY. pr ieh QpV myry leI vrdfn hn. keI vfrI qF mYNnUM acvIN lgdI hY ik ieh QpV ijvyN Evr izAU ho gey hn. TIMk Ausy qrHF ijvyN awDy isr dI pIV mYnUM skUn idMdI hY. dUsry qIsry idn ieh pIV huMdI hI hY. mYN duafeI Kf lYNdI hF.

mIgryien myry jLnUn dy smFnqr cl rhI hY, ndI dy do kMiZaF vFg. jy ieh pIV nf hoey qF mYnUM iPkr lwg jFdf hY ijvyN myrI jfn nUM koeI Kqrf KVf ho igaf hovy. koeI dUr bYTf mYnUM ivsfr irhf hovy. ‘nhIN nhIN ies awDy isr dI pIV qoN bgYr qF mYN mr hI jfvFgI. ikqy aYsf qF nhIN isr dy ieh pfly kIVy ikqy hor iewkTy ho gey hox. ienHF kIiVaF nUM mYN isr ivc, qfV qfV rKdI hF. mYN isr dy drd nUM Jwlx df vwl isiKaf hY. drasl ieh vwl qF mYN ‘bcpn Cwzy’ qoN hI isK ilaf sI. pr AudoN mYN golI nhIN sI KFdI. golIaF Kfx dI ruwq hI nhIN sI Auh. kuwJ Jwl skx dI smrQf vI sI.

golI KfAu mwQf GuWt ky bMn lvo qy do GMty hnyry kmry ivc pYx nfl myrf drd gfieb ho jFdf hY. iewk vfr mYN iesqrHF hI GUk suqI hoeI sI. isr dy kIVy ajy pUrI qrHF sLFq nhIN sn hoey ik tYlIPon dI GMtI vwjI. mYN tYlIPon vfly pfsy pfsf priqaf. do irMgF hI hoeIaF sn. Pon iksy ny QwilAuN cuwk ilaf. Gr ivc iewklI inafxI dmn hI sI. Ausny jInf dy ipMjry nUM awDf cwkr idwqf. ipMjry dI mDur qfl kUk peI. sMgIq dI ieh GMtI, dmn iksy igPt ivc ilafeI sI. jd vI dmn qy jfnI KusL huMdIaF ies GMtI dI imwTI sur nUM lYa-bwD krdIaF. jfnI nUM hfeIpr tYblt vI jLrUr imldI. ieh tYblt qy jfnI dmn dI hQylI qoN Kohx vFg hI lYNdI. ieMJ lgdf ijvyN ieh sMgIq dmn qy jfnI ivc koeI rUhfnI sMprk hovy. ijvyN dmn qy jfnI ny iqRjMx ivc rFglf cwrKf zfieaf hovy qy AusdI GUkr ivc msq hoeIaF iksy hor hI dunIaF ivc phuMc geIaF hox. ijvyN hfeI hoeI jfnI, dmn nUM aMbrIN Auzfky afpxy dysL lY geI hovy. aYsy dysL ijwQy koeI bMDn nhIN. ruqF dy muqfbk AuzfrIaF mfrIaF jFdIaF hn. aYsf dysL ijsdf koeI nfm nhIN. ijsdI koeI srhwd nhIN. kMizaflI qfr qy bMdUkF dI CF qoN swKxf ieh dysL[[[ isrP aMbr hY qy DrqI hY qy mn mrjLI nfl KusL hox dI Kul hY. myrf ieh dysL Cuwt igaf hY. bhuq hI ipwCy rih igaf hY, pr ies dysL dI hoNd kdy vI imtdI nhIN. keI vfrI dmn, ipMjry nUM awDf cwkr lfky ieh sMgIq pYdf krdI hY qy kdy jfnI vjd ivc afky afpxI bfr qy PudkdI hY qy dmn nUM swdf idMdI hY ik cwl AuT, dy awDf cWkr ipMjry nUM,kr sMgIq pYdf, afpF vI AuWQy clIey ijwQy sfry afpxy vsdy hn.

mYN isrhfxy nUM isr qy krky dubfrf JUtI lYxI cfhI pr pItr dy afey tYlIPon qoN bfd, ies dmn dy CyVy sMgIq ny qy jfnI dI KIvIN cIN cIN ny myrI nINd rusf idwqI. ilivMg rUm `c pey ies sLor ny mYnUM pRysLfn kr idwqf. vwzf bytf Aus idn Gr nhIN sI. iksy idn ies gwl df vI GuwgU vjxf sI sfzy Gr.

ds sqMbr qoN bfd df pqf, nf AusnUM sI nf mYnUM. sLfied zYbI nUM pqf hovy. Aus ivc ivsLvfsL nf dI koeI cIjL asIN pYdf hI nhIN hox idqI sI. Ausdf skUl vloN isKfieaf afqm-snmfn, ies Gr ivc bfr bfr cUr cUr hoieaf sI. kulvMq dIaF GVIaF skImF qy sO GVy pfxI pYx vflf sI, ieh isrP mYnUM pqf sI. ieh mMn-ipMjrf iewk mF ny afp hI Kol idqf sI. mYN Ausdy idl dI pIV nUM smJdI sI. mYN nhIN sI cfhuMdI myrf vwzf bytf vI awDy-isr dI pIV nUM mfnx lwg pvy. Ausdy GroN jfx df duwK mYnUM nhIN sI hoxf. pqf nhIN ikAuN? ieMJ lgdf sI sLfied cMgf hI hovy. myrI qy iewko KfihsL sI Auh ijwQy vI rhy myry nfl sMprk bxfey rwKy. AusdI AuzfrI jfnI vflI nf hovy.

kulvMq dy afAux vfly kroD qy Aus kroD ivc Pnfh hox vflI [[[QoVI bhuq inwkI ho rhI ijLMdgI dI cfhq [[[kuJ Gwt irhf afqmf df boJ[[[aYsf ijvyN dirafvF ivcoN pfxI muwk irhf hovy. aYsf ijvyN iksy ikafsI cuMmI dI sjLf, awDy isr dI pIV df aihsfs hovy. myry awDy isr dI pIV sLurU ho cuwkI sI. Auh pIV jo mYnUM skUn idMdI hY. Auh skUn jo mYnUM dsdf hY ik ajy myrI ijLMdgI Kqry qoN bfhr hY. ieh qy isrP mIgryien hY. koeI aYsI vYsI gwl nhIN. jIx df cfh ajy pUrI qrHF Pnfh nhIN hoieaf. vwzy byty df korf ivvhfr, mYnUM qslIm sI.

nfrMgI ny icVI dI bjfey mwCIaF psMd kIqIaF sn. AusdI psMd iegnor kIqI jf skdI sI. AusdI Aumr hI ajy ikqnI sI, msF nO sfl. sfnUM sfry pirvfr nUM qy iewk vMgfr cfhIdI sI. iewk aYsI icVI jo AuWz skdI hovy qy asIN AusnUM AuWzx nf dyeIey, sfry suwK dyeIey. Ausdf idl khy mYN AuWz jfvF qy idmfg khy kmlIey AuWzky jfieMgI ikwQy. keI jLflm qF pflqU pMCIaF dy kuJ KMB vI kuqr idMdy hn qF ik Auh AuWz nf skx. sLfied AunHF nUM Kyzxf nhIN afAuNdf jF Auh Kyzxf psMd nhIN krdy pr sfzy Gr ivc aYsI koeI rIq nhIN. kulvMq dy huMidaF sfnUM iksy icVI dy KMB kuqrn dI loV hI nhIN sI. Auh BfvyN jfnI hovy kirsI hovy qy jF dmn hovy.

sfzI iewk POjL hY. sfzf iewk kYptn hY. kulvMq ieh ikAuN nhIN socdf ik Auh kYptn qoN vDky iewk iensfn vI hY. asl ivc Auh iewk bhuq hI vDIaf iensfn hY, isrP AusnUM pqf hI nhIN hY ik Auh iewk iensfn hY. myrI Auh gWl nhIN suxdf. mYN keI vfr AusnUM dwisaf hY ik Auh bhuq hI nyk hY. pr Auh hwsky tfl idMdf hY.

mYN qF hor hI gwlF ivc AuWlJ geI. ieh gwlF qF aOrq dIaF hn. ieh gwlF qF iewk pqnI dIaF hn.

gwl qF dmn dI sI. Auh Audfs sI bhuq Audfs. AusdI jfnI AusnUM ikAuN Cwz geI. Auh jfnI jo bMd kmry dy Kuly ipMjry ivcoN AuWzky dmn dy moZy qy bYT geI sI jdoN dmn sLIsLy ivc afpxI kflI nIlI hoeI awK dy iJMmx Kolx dI koisLsL ivc sI. gwl vfikaf hI dmn dI hI sI. jo CwVpy mfr rhI sI. kdy solvyN sfl ivc qy kdy awK JmkidaF hI aTfrvyN ivc. kulvMq ienHF CwVipaF qoN zr irhf sI.

mYN kirsI KrId leI, ipMjry smyq. kulvMq ny nrfjL hoxf sI. Auh cfhuMdf sI joVf KrIidaf jfvy. AusdI afpxI smJ sI. pr icVI-ipMjry df Gr ivc rwKx df slIkf, Ausdy afpxy hI adfb, iewk KusLbo[[[ aYsy vrqfry dI kulvMq nUM koeI soJI nhIN sI. mYnUM qy kdy kdy kulvMq qy bhuq hI qrs afAuNdf hY. ieh qrs ipafr ivc vI bdl jFdf hY pr ies bdlfv ivc myrf afpf, Kur Kur jFdf hY. nfrMgI ny ipMjrf PV ilaf pr dmn ny afpxy suwjy lgdy pYrF nUM jLmIn qoN cuwikaf qy ipMjry nUM sMBfl ilaf. TIk Ausy qrHF ijsqrHF Ausny mrI icVI dI lfsL sMBflI sI.

dmn tYlIvIXn dyK rhI sI jdoN AusdIaF shylIaF ny afky dwisaf ik rsqy ivc iewk BUrI icVI mrI peI hY. jfnI krky sfry ieh gwl dmn qwk phuMcfAuxf cfhuMdy sn. iewk Kfs iksm dy idl dI mflkx lgdI sI, dmn sfiraF nUM. dmn shylIaF dy nfl jfky mrI BUrI icVI nUM cuwk ilafeI.

“aFt ieh icVI qy ieMzIaf qoN afeI lwgdI hY. ieMJ lgdf hY ik lMbI AuzfrI mfrn qo bfad bhuq Qwk geI hovy qy Qkfvt nfl hI mr geI hovy. kihMdy hn ies rMg dIaF icVIaF ieMzIaf ivc hI huMdIaF hn.” mfrlIn ny aYnf kihky mYnUM JMjoV ky rwK idwqf. aYn Gr dy myn zor dy sfhmxy dmn ny iewk toaf puwitaf. dmn jfnI df ipMjrf bfhr lY afeI. jfnI vI BUrI icVI dI lfsL hux dyK skdI sI. iPr dmn qy AusdIaF shylIaF ny BUrI icVI nUM spurdy-Kfk kr idwqf. agly idn Aus jgHf qy dmn ny ilaf ky gulfb df Pul lgf idwqf. gulfb df bUtf lgfAuNx leI ieh koeI ZukvIN QF nhIN sI. kulvMq ny kuJ nhIN ikhf. afKr inafixaF dIaF keI gwlF mMnxIaF vI pYNdIaF hn.

dmn keI vfr jfnI df ipMjrf bfhr Aus mkbry qy lY jFdI pr jfnI dIaF awKF ivc koeI bihblqf nf huMdI. nFh koeI gm, nFh Bfvnf qy nFh Aus mkbry dI imwtI nfl moh. dmn ies bihblqf nUM jo qUl dy rhI sI AusdI phuMc jfnI kol nhIN ho rhI sI. mYN sB kuwJ dyK rhI sI. EprI imwtI, Eprf Gfh, Eprf gulfb qy Gfh dIaF iqVF dI mkbry nfl koeI sFJ nhIN lgdI sI. mYN mihsUisaf ijvyN kulvMq dy ies Gr ivc Ausiraf mkbrf nklI ijhf hovy ijsnUM jfnI ny kbUilaf nhIN sI . pr ieh dmn dy bfbl df Gr sI. AusdI qrkhINn ijLd, jfnI nUM nf qy psMd sI qy nf hI kbULl sI. dmn qy jfnI dovF shylIaF dy ies mfmly qy mwqByd sn.

bcpn ivc aYsy rosy, mMn-mutfv cldy hI rihMdy hn. mYN vI qy guafc jFdI sI AunHF zfrF ivc. bIjLI cftI irVkdy. bnyry qy icVIaF dI zfr afx bihMdI. iewk icVI ijsnUM asIN Bbro kihMdy sI. bVI sLrfrqx sI. kdy kdy bIjLI dy moZy qy afky bYT jFdI. bIjLI hwsx lwg pYNdy. bIjLI df hfsf sfiraF dy cyhry qy KyVf lY afAuNdf. bIjLI dy moZy qoN AuWqrky Bbro vyhVy ivc iPrdIaF afpxIaF sfQxF nfl rlky dfxf cuwgx lwg pYNdI. vyhVy ivc KyVf iviCaf huMdf. ieh KyVf myry cyhry qy vI AuWG afAuNdf. ienHF icVIaF dy ipWCy mfstr rfxf lsI dI AuzIk ivc, afpxf ipwql df zol lYky Kloqf huMdf. Ausdf iDafn qy myrf iDafn icVIaF vwl huMdf. sfzy dovF dy sMdysL icVIaF dy KMBF ivc AulJ jFdy. Coty ijhy pyt vflIaF ieh icVIaF Jwt hI rwj jFdIaF qy Puuurr[[[AuWz jFdIaF. mfstr rfxf kdy poly pYrIN vI awgy afAuNx dI koisLsL nFh krdf. AusnUM zr sI ikwqy AuhdI ibVk nfl icVIaF AuWz nf jfx. vYsy vI icVIaF dy ies smyN df ‘Jurmt’ ies Gr dI rvfieq sI, ijsnUM koeI vI lwsI lYx afieaf BMg nhIN kr skdf sI. kdy vI vyhVy ivc Kloqy iksy ny ieh iPkr nhIN kIqf sI ik Bbro qy AuhdI tolI ikhVy pfsy AuWz geI hY. pr ieh XkIn sdf irhf ik agly idn pUry df pUrf Drcf iPr bnyry afvygf. Bbro iPr bIjLI dy moZy qy bYTygI. bIjLI iPr hsxgy. Bbro Kf pIky AuWz jfvygI. kudrq dy asUl ivc jdoN asIN Kfh muKfh lwq aVf bYTdy hF qF koeI sMqiuln gvf bYTdy hF. myry koloN vI imwTI imwTI Puhfr jLr nf hoeI. Auh kihMdy hn nf koeI kukVI sony df aMzf idMdI sI. myry koloN vI lflc ho igaf. lflc, sony dy aMzy qoN vwD dI qmMnf kr bYTf.

“bIjLI ieh Bbro rihMdI ikwQy hY?” mYN mfstr rfxy vwl vyK ky kih bYTI.

“pwkf aYzrYs qF mYnUM Bbro ny idwqf nhIN. cwl kwl puCFgI.” bIjLI ieqnf kihky jor jor dI hws pey. mYN AunHF nUM KusL vyKky cFbl geI qy ikhf, “ mYN zfr dy mgr jfky vyK ky afAunIaF.” mY cplF pfAux leI ahulI. mfstr zol ivc lsI pvfAuNdf QoVf ijhf iQVk igaf. bws, myrf sony df aMzf tut ky ibKr igaf.

“bih jf nI arfm nfl. vzI afeI Bbro dI kuJ lgdI.” iewk akfsLvfxI vrgI avfjL pqf nhIN iksdI sI.
ijsdI vI sI, suKI vsy.

Bbro afAuNdI qy cly jFdI pr ies cMdrI jfnI ny kI kIqf. aihsfn PrfmosL jfnI [[[myrI DI nUM duwKF ivc pfky aYsI AuWzI, muVky sfr vI nhIN puwCI. dmn ajy qwk KflI ipMjrf cuwkI iPrdI hY.

“pUry do sO swT zflr lwgy hn.” mYN kulvMq nUM ihsfb dy rhI sI.

“ cwl Auh jfxy, myrI dmn KusL rihMxI cfhIdI hY. [[[ikAuN bytf KusL hY nF[[[?” kulvMq ny dmn nUM puwiCaf.

dmn ny suwjf lgdf pYr cuwkky plfsitk dy tybl qy itkf idwqf. hwQ dy iesLfry nfl dwisaf, hux Auh awgy nfloN byhqr hY.

“ieh vI jfnI vFg iesLfiraF nfl hI gwlF krn lwg peI hY. qUM awj dmn dy pYrF dI tkor kIqI sI?” kulvMq ny dmn dy bdly suBfa bfry dsidaF mYnUM tkor krn bfry puwiCaf.

“jI ajy nhIN.” mYN KflIpx nfl juafb idwqf. mYN kulvMq df jfhrf nfm kdy nhIN lYNdI sI. hmysLF jI kihky hI bulfAuNdI sI. nPrq nfl socidaF vI mYN ‘jI’ hI jLihn ivc rwKdI sI. kulvMq keI vfrI kihMdf vI ik mYN Gr ivc iewkilaF Ausdf nfm lY ilaf krF. Kfs kr rumFitk plF ivc qF Auh ijLd vI krdf. hOlI ijhI kMn ivc nfm lYx dI imMnq krdf. pr ies zbl stYNzrz ny kdy vI myrf ctfn vrgf ierfdf nhIN bdilaf. mYN ipafr bdly ‘jI’ kihky ijvyN koeI bdlf lY rhI hovF. jy mYN bhuq iDafn nfl socF qF kih skdI hF ik mYN kulvMq nUM ipafr nhIN krdI blik mYN Ausdf siqkfr krdI hF. siqkfr[[[ ijsdf Auh hwkdfr vI hY. afKr Ausny lfvF leIaF hn myry nfl.

afpxI hyTI df bdlf, mYN AusnUM GroV ky ‘jI’ kihky hI lYNdI. mYN ‘jI’ hI kihMdI. Auhdy pirvfr sfhmxy vI qy afpxy pirvfr sfhmxy vI. afpxy rUh dy nMg nUM vI mYN hmysLF ies ‘jI’ nfl ZwkI rwiKaf. ieh myrI iewk mfnisk ijwq sI.

kulvMq dmn nUM bhuq ipafr krdf sI. sLfied ies dunIaF ivc hor iksy nUM vI ieqnf ipafr Auh kr hI nhIN skdf sI. nfrMgI qy vwzf bytf ies ipafr dy pfskU vI nhIN sn. dmn nfl kulvMq dI sfrI dunIaF bwJI peI sI. dmn dI CotI qoN CotI idlcspI ivc Ausdf pUrf iDafn huMdf. dmn ny skUl ivc idKfAuNx leI PulkfrI mMg leI. kulvMq PulkfrI leI sLdfeI hI ho igaf. sfzy klcr dI sLfn PulkfrI , qy mMgI vI iksny [[[dmn ny . PulkfrI ieMzIaf qoN jhfjy cVky af geI. zflrF dy Zyr dmn dy boJy ivc pf idMdf.

vwzy byty nUM kulvMq kdy vI iswDy mUMh nf blfAuNdf ijvyN AusdI Gr ivcoN hoNd Kfrj ho rhI sI. iewk sfl bfd dovF ipAu puwq ny surKrU ho jfxf sI . gwl ivgVdI ivgVdI AudoN isry lwgI jdoN vwzy byty ny kulvMq df myry qy Auliraf QwpV rfh ivc hI iewk idn rok ilaf. QwpV nUM QF isr krky pulIs dI DmkI vI dy mfrI. ieh vwzy byty dI ijLafdqI sI. Ausdf mF pRqI ipafr siqkfr, kulvMq dI vhutI nfl tkrf igaf sI. sfry Gr ivc iksy nUM vI ieh tkrf psMd nhIN sI. jfnI ny vI cIN cIN cIN krky rOlf pfieaf sI. hux mYN socdI hF ik AudoN jfnI ny cIN cIN krky iksdf pwK pUiraf sI. vwzy byty df jF kulvMq df. Auh sfzy ilv rUm ivc hoeI hr gwl dI mOky dI gvfh sI.

mYNnUM qF vwzy byty df iesqrHF bfp df QwpV rokxf afpxy hwkF qy ipaf Cfpf lwgf. kulvMq dI vhutI df Gor apmfn. ieMJ lwgf ijvyN vwzf bytf koeI ajnbI hovy. ijsnUM Gr dy dsqUr dI, rIqI irvfjF dI koeI smJ nf hovy. dmn nUM vI guwsf lwgf. nfrMgI isMpsn soL dyKx ivc msq sI. dmn ny iewk lMbf sfh ilaf. aYsf sfh Ausny pihlF kdy nhIN ilaf sI. Ausdy suwj rhy lgdy pYrF ivc jbrdsq jlUx hoeI. Auh krd lYky soPy qy bYT geI. kulvMq df koeI ksUr nhIN sI, ieh qF srfsr vwzy byty dI vDIkI sI. mYnUM qF ilv-rUm ivc lwgI bfbf jI dI Poto vI ivMgI ho geI lwgI. ieh kYsf ivMg hY? kulvMq pMj idnF bfd afpxy ibjLns qoN Gr muiVaf sI. Gr ivc peI cwpf ku boql lwB nhIN rhI sI. aYqvfr df idn, Tyky bMd sn. mY Aus cwpf ku sLrfb vflI boql df iKafl vI nhIN rwK skI sI. gfhlF dI vfCV ivc hI mYN soc rhI sI ik Auh ijqnI jldI ho sky ieh QpV vflf kMm mukfvy. ies kMm qoN bfd kulvMq sLFq ho jFdf sI qy mYN vI. pr vwzy byty ny sfrf sMquln hI ivgfV idwqf sI. qUPfn qoN pihlF afAux vflI sLfqI ivc isrP jfnI dI cIN cIN hI gUMJ rhI sI pr jfnI mr jfxI iensfnF nfloN vI BYVI inklI.

dmn sfrf kuwJ brdfsLq kr skdI sI pr ivCoVf nhIN. nf zYz df qy nf jfnI df.

“mOm, kdo muVnf zYz ny ieMzIaf qoN?” dmn ny byhd Auqsukqf nfl puwiCaf sI jdoN ajy Ausdy pYr TIk sn. “mYN ieMzIaf qoN Zol mMgvfAuxf hY.”

“ kfhdy leI?”

“mYN ies jnm idn qy pItr nfl prOims kIqf hY.”

kulvMq dy jfx qoN bfd dmn ny QoVI ijhI ajLfdI lY leI sI. mYN smJdI sI koeI hrjL nhIN afKr pItr Auhdy nfl pVdf hY. hY vI pMjfbI, kI hoieaf jy jwt nhIN. vYsy vI ieh PrYNz hI hn koeI lvrjL qF nhIN. tokFgI qF corI imlxgy. corI krngy qF sLfied dosqI vI BMg krn. mYN qF kpVy pfAux qoN vI nhIN tokdI sI hux. Auh vI kI Pfiedf, inafxf skUl jfky kpVy cyNjL kry. pr ienHF gwlF dI iBxk kulvMq nUM nhIN sI. asIN mF-DI ny dsxf vI koeI nhIN sI. pr ies Zol vflI gwl ny pol Kol idwqI. Qfp idwqI qF gUMjF pY geIaF. kulvMq kpiVAuN bfhr ho igaf qy dmn ny afpxI kwZI isrI iPr ivc vfV leI. kulvMq ny ipMjry qy duhQwV mfr idwqf. jfnI dI cIN cIN ny asmfn isr qy cuwk ilaf. hfvy hMJU vhfAux vflIaF kuVIaF nuksfn nhIN krdIaF mYnUM pqf sI, afKr dmn myrf hI KUn sI. kulvMq ny afAUt afP tfAUn jfxf Cwz idwqf qy dmn df GroN inklnf bMd kr idwqf.

dmn qy jfnI dI dosqI hor vI gUVI ho geI. pMj sfl purfxI dosqI sI dmn qy jfnI dI. dmn, bcpn dy afKrI pVf ivc sI. asIN AudoN apfrtmYNt ivc rihMdy sF. iewk idn iblizMg dy ipCvfVy asIN sYr krdy sI jdoN jfnI pgzMzI dy ivc KloqI imlI. afsy pfsy Gfh sI qy iewk zyV Puwt dI pgzMzI sYr krn vfilaF dy pYrF nfl hI bxI sI. ieh pgzMzI isrP iensfnF leI sI. pMCI prF Gfh qy Auzdy bYTdy sn. iensfn brYzF dy pIs vI Gfh qy hI sutdy sn. ieh iewk smJOqy dI qrHF hI sI. pgzMzI sfzI qy Gfh quhfzf. jfnI Gfh nUM Cwzky pgzMzI ivc bYTI sI. iewk pMCI df iesqrHF smJOqf qoVnf ajIb lwg irhf sI. ieh nfrml nhIN sI. asIN pbF Bfr ho gey. pbF Bfr hI asIN hOlI hOlI cwl rhy sF. ies afs nfl ik ieh sfzI iensfnIaq smJ jfvygI. AuWz ky prHF afpxI pMCIaF dI dunIaF ivc lOt jfvygI. pr aYsf nhIN hoieaf. Auh nFh AuWzI qy nFh qur ky prHF hoeI. aYsf lwgdf sI jIx dI afs lfh bYTI hovy. mrn, jIx df ieh PYslf hI Ausdy pYr bMnHI Kloqf sI.

pIly KMBF vflI jfnI vyKx ivc sohxI pr ivhfr ivc Audfs lwg rhI sI. asIN jfnI dy iblkul kol cly gey qy afsy pfsy Jurmt pfky bYT gey. kulvMq ny afpxf hwQ awgy kIqf qF jfnI AusdI hQylI qy inZfl ijhI hoky izg hI peI. dmn CyqI dyxy AuWTI qy pfrk `c bxy nlky qoN pfxI dI cUlI Br ilafeI. kulvMq dy hwQ qy iswDI hoky jfnI buwk pey pfxI nUM afpxI inwkI ijhI cuMJ nfl pIx lwg peI. jdoN pfxI pI htI qF dmn ny afpxI buwk Kol idqI qy jfnI dmn dI nMnHI ijhI hQylI qy jf cVHI. mYnUM bVf ajIb lwgf. kulvMq dI hQylI cOVI cklI qy mjLbUq sI. ijLafdf mihPUjL jgHf nUM Cwzky jfnI ny dmn dI CotI ijhI hQylI nUM pihl ikAuN idwqI? dmn dIaF awKF ivc hYrfnI dy nfl nfl aQfh KusLI vI sI. asIN dmn dI hQylI qy bYTfl pIlI icVI nUM Gr lY afey.

qurnoN afqr ieh pIlI icVI pqf nhIN ikQoN afeI sI. iks dysL dI vfsI sI. Aus dysL ivc cftIaF dI irVkx sI vI ik nhIN. Aus dysL ivc svyry svyry lwsI lYx leI koeI zol cuwkdf vI sI ik nhIN. lwsI dI ieMqjfr ivc koeI sfrI sfrI rfq jfgdf vI sI ik nhIN. mYNnUM ieh sfrf kuJ nhIN pqf. mYN iPr vI Aus pIlI icVI vwl dyK rhI sI. mYN soicaf jy icVI dy Qwly koeI bnyrf huMdf qF Auh kdy vI sLfied knyzf nf afAuNdI.

svfl qF ieh vI sI ik zfr nfloN ikAuN ivCVI sI? ivCV ky ikAuN hflo byhfl ho geI? Ausdy qy KMB vI mYnUM byqrqIby lwgy. ies icVI nfl bhuq burI bIqfeI sI iksy rwb dy nfsLukry ny. ieh mYNnUM pqf sI. afp-hudrIaF ieh icVIaF, pqf nhIN tfeIm isr ikAuN nhIN smJdIaF ? afpxf afp sMBfl ky rKx qF koeI vI ienHF df nfm nf bdly. bysmJI krky hI koeI vI aYrf gYrf ienHF df koeI vI nfm rwK idMdf hY. lfst nfm qF ienHF df huMdf hI koeI nhIN. koeI vI nQU-KYrf nwQ PVky afpxf lfst nfm ienHF dy nfm dy ipWCy ilK idMdf hY. ieh cuwp krky brdfsLq kr lYNdIaF hn. asIN vI pIlI icVI df nfm rwK idwqf ‘jfnI’.

jfnI df ipwClf ieiqhfs ies nfmkrx nfl smfpq ho igaf. jfnI leI Ausdy KMBF nfl mYc krdf iewk vDIaf ijhf ipMjrf KrIidaf igaf. kulvMq iewk vfr ilafieaf sI aYsf hI kuwJ. mYnUM psMd nhIN sI ieh sB kuJ. pr kulvMq dIaF rIJF nfl mYnUM aMqF df ipafr hY.

kulvMq qy dmn gey sn. afpxI DI leI kulvMq ny spYsLl Aus idn CutI kIqI sI. ipMjry dy aYn ivckfr jfnI dy bihx leI nvfrI plMg ivCfieaf igaf.

“dyiKaf zfroN ivCVn df aMjLFm.” kulvMq svyry sLfm mYnUM suxf ky ieh muhfrnI pqf nhIN ikAuN pVdf? dmn jfnI dI cIN cIN ivc prc geI. mYN myHixaF ivc prc geI. ieMJ lgdf sI ijvyN pItr vflf sfrf ipafr dmn ny jfnI dy vXUd ivc AuWld idwqf hovy. ieh kYsy sMskfr sn jo myry bfd dmn ivc vI jfg pey sn. kulvMq df afqm-hwiqaf df PYslf ijAuN hI pItr nfl juiVaf, dmn nUM lwgf ijvyN Ausdy pYrF ivc sojL AuWqr afeI hY. Auh bhuq hOlI hOlI qurdI. myry nfloN vI hOlI. iblkul ipMjry ivc bMd peI jfnI vFg. mYN zfktr dy lYky geI. koeI ibmfrI nhIN sI. isrP vihm sI. pYrF dI sojL df vihm. qur nf skx df vihm. ijvyN qyjL qurI qF pYr tuwt jfxgy. jfnI nUM ies Gr ivc afey nUM pMj sfl ho gey sn. ieMJ lgdf sI ijvyN jfnI bfhroN ikqoN nhIN afeI blik ies Gr ivc hI jMmI hovy. ies Gr dI kuwK ivcoN.

Bbro icVI myry cyiqaF ivc iPr isr cuwk KloqI sI. Bbro icVI df afAuxf, Bbro icVI df jfxf myry gunfh Bry pl sn. AunHF plF ny iPr isr cuwk ilaf sI. mYN jfnI df ipMjrf Koilaf. poly ijhy jfnI nUM afpxI hQylI qy rwiKaf qy Pyr afdqn AusnUM Pfier plys qy bhf idwqf qy afp ipMjrf sfP krn lwg peI. jfnI AuWz ky tIvI qy bYT geI. tIvI qoN AuWzky myry moZy qy bYT geI. dmn ajy suqI peI sI. sLfied jfnI nUM suinhrI mOkf iml igaf. sLfied dmn nfl awKF imlfky AusnUM ieh ihmfkq krn df mOkf nf imldf. bfhrlf drvfjLf Kulf sI. asIN Gr ivc alfrm isstm lgfieaf sI. Auh alfrm isstm qF bfhroN afey nOn vYlkwm trYws-pfsr leI sI. aYsf qF kdy soicaf hI nhIN sI ik ies Gr dI dihlIjL nUM pfr krn vfilaF vfsqy vI koeI alfrm cfhIdf hY. jy aYsf koeI sLk huMdf qF kulvMq ny jLrUr koeI ieMstrUmYNt amrIkf qoN lY afAuNxf sI. Auh qy hr hPqy hI amrIkf jFdf sI. bVI qwrkI kIqI hY sfieMs ny. Aus alfrm ny Jwt PV lYxf sI jfnI nUM . mYN Ausdy KMBF nUM joLrIN mroV dyxf sI. sLfied nf hI mroVdI. sLfied alfrm dI GMtI suxdI hI nf. ies ansuxI ny mYnUM kI dyxf sI? skUn jF tYnsLn, mYnUM nhIN pqf. keI gwlF dI kdy nhIN vI smJ afAuNdI.

Auh myry moZy qoN AuWzky drvfijAuN bfhr ho geI qy gulfb dy bUty dy Qwly bxy Coty ijhy mkbry dy kol bYT geI. myry idl nUM hOl ipaf. ieh hOl hI aslI hY. kdy kdy pYNdf hY. afpxf afpxf lwgdf hY ieh hOl. mfstr rfxf ny kdy vI ivafh nhIN krvfieaf sI. buwZf hox qoN pihlF hI[[[buwZf ho igaf. hux qy hor hI ho igaf hY. mfstr rfxf nhIN irhf. aYsI vI gwl nhIN [[[[aBI qwk ijMdf hY. mYnUM afpxI glqI df pl dI pl aihsfs hoieaf. pr CyqI hI mYN sMBl geI. ieh nhIN ho skdf.

jfnI vfps ipMjry ivc af jfvygI. mYN ipwCly bqflI sfl qoN ies ipMjry ivc bMd hF, kdy soicaf hI nhIN kuJ. dmn KyzdI mldI vwzI ho geI qy iesy ipMjry ivc kYd ho geI. kdy soicaf hI nhIN Aus kuJ qy nf kdy mYN soicaf ik mYN qF mF hF myrf vI koeI PrjL hY jF nhIN. mY qF dmn dI pIV mihsUs kr skdI hF. iPr ikAuN nhIN kr rhI? iPr ieh jfnI ikwQy jf skdI hY? iesnUM aflmost mrI nUM cuwk ky ilafey sF. ieqnf zfhZf ipafr kIqf, hux ikwQy jfvygI? kI ipafr siqkfr dy ieh sMgl isrP iensfnF leI hn? myrf idl kihx lwg ipaf mnf hux iehny ipMjry ivc vfps nhIN afAuxf.

hux mYN socdI hF Aus vkq qF jfnI myrIaF awKF dy sfhmxy sI, iPr mYN iesqrHF ikAuN socx lwg peI ik Ausny vfps nhIN afAuxf. ikqy myry acyq mMn ivc ieh gwl qy nhI sI vsI hoeI ik swc hI jfnI ajLfd hvf ivc AuWz jfey. ipMjrf qy afKr ipMjrf hI huMdf hY.

ikqy myry idl dy iksy kony ivc AudoN hI ieh gwl qy nhIN sI smfeI hoeI ik dmn vI pItr kol cly jfvy. afpy vyKI jfAU jo hoAU. afpy tfeIm pfky sB TIk ho jfvygf. mYnUM zr lwgx lwg ipaf. kulvMq ny qy ieho kihxf qyry koloN iewk icVI nhIN sMBflI geI, afpxI kuVI nUM kI KLfk sMBflyNgI?mYN BwjI BwjI dmn dy bYz rUm ivc geI. Auh suwqI nhIN sI, awKF twzI Cwq nUM GUr rhI sI. mYnUM GfbrI vyKky AuWT KloqI. mYN AusnUM sfrI gwl dwsI. Auh awgoN hws peI qy bolI, “mOm zoNt vrI jfnI ikqy nhIN jFdI.”dmn ny slIpr pfey qy myry nfl hI bfhr af geI. jfnI mkbry dy kol nhIN sI. asIN bfhr afky vyiKaf. jfnI AuWzky Gr dI Cwq qy bYT geI sI.

dmn ny jfnI vwl guwsy nfl vyiKaf qy afpxI hQylI PYlf ky bolI, “jfnI km hIar.” jfnI dmn df hr huwkm mMndI sI jdoN Auh ipMjry ivc sI. dmn ny iewk vfr ijLd vI kIqI sI. jfnI nUM bfhr ilaf ky KulHf hvf ivc Czx dI. asIN vfl-mfrt ivcoN brz PIzr ilafey sF. vwKo-vKry izjLfien vfly ieh PIzr koeI bhuqy mihMgy vI nhIN sn. skivral snYkr qy isrP Cy zflr df sI. afAu BfjLI gflV jI, kuqro afpxf snYks, kulvMq dI ies gwl nfl sfry hI hws pey sn sxy vwzy byty dy. pr awj jfnI ny KulHI hvf ivc JUldy ies brz PIzr vwl awK puwt ky vI nF dyiKaf. AudoN, jdoN asIN brz PIzr ilafky jfnI qy ieqbfr nhIN kIqf sI. pMj sfl dI sFJ qoN bfd vI asIN zrdy sI ik jy jfnI nUM Kulf Cwz idwqf qy nyh jfxIey ieh vfps hI nf afey. ieh brz PIzr qF avfrf icVIaF leI sI. mYN cfhuMdI sI Auh brz PIzr qy iewk vfr jLrUr bYTy. afpxf dfxf cugy. iZz Bry qy iPr PYslf kry. BuwKy iZz qy glq PYsly huMdy hn pr jfnI nUM koeI kfhlI sI. Kfxy qoN ijLafdf jLrUrI koeI hor gwl sI.

jfnI ny dmn dI gwl axgOlI kr idwqI. dmn nsky aMdr geI qy hfeIpr tYblts dI zwbI hI cuwk ilafeI. jfnI ny dmn dy hwQ qy tYblt dyKI. iewk vfr AuWzI, iewk CotI ijhI AuzfrI mfrky Pyr Cwq qy bYT geI. dmn df guwsf vwD irhf sI. Auh guwsy ivc iblkul kulvMq vFg lwg rhI sI ijvyN kulvMq guwsy ivc afpxy bfp vFg lgdf hY. jfnI ny AuWzky dmn dy isr AuWqy iewk gyVf idwqf qy iPr AuWpr hI AuWpr AuzdI bdlF ivc rlky alop ho geI.

nvIN icVI df Gr ivc afky idl nhIN lwg irhf sI. kirsI sLfp ivc qy bQyrf cfmHlI sI. pr nvF Gr, nvF ipMjrf Aus nUM rfs nhIN af irhf sI. dmn vI pRvfh nhIN kr rhI sI. Gr ivc ijvyN sfVsqI cwl rhI hovy. inwq nvF klysL hox lwgf. kdy vwzy byty qy bfp df pMgf qy kdy pItr df afieaf Pon Gr ivc qrQlI mcf idMdf.

mYN koeI PYslf nhIN kr skdI sI. myry kol aKiqafr hI kI sI isvfey jfnI dI idwqI iewk vwKrI soc dy. Auh koeI musfPr nhIN sI iPr ikAuN cly geI? pMj sfl pihlF Auh ikhVy hflqF ivcoN sfzy kol afeI sI. sLfied Auh koeI mF sI ijsdI DI dy armfn kuwcly jf rhy sn jF Auh koeI DI sI ijsny afpxy bfp dy iKlfP bgfvq kIqI sI qy iPr mMn df boJ Jwl nhIN hoieaf sI. iPr Auh dmn nfl prc geI. pr idl diraf smuMdroN zUMGyN kox idlF dIaF jfxy. jd mOkf imilaf, purfxI dunIaF dI iKwc iPr Aus dunIaF ivc lY geI. kI mYN afpxf bcpn Buwl geI hF? hrigjL nhIN[[[.

mYN sMskfr pfl ky kI Kwitaf? ikhVI dunIaF hY myrI, ijwQy myrf bytf vI duwKI qy myrI bytI vI duKI. mYN vI duwKI qy kulvMq vI duKI. kOx hY jo sfnUM duwK dy irhf hY. sfzI qfjLI hvf Koh irhf hY. mYN PYslf kr ilaf. sLfied jfnI afpxI DI df hfl puwCx geI sI. Aus dI jfn nUM Kqrf sI iPr vI Ausny Kqrf shyiVaf. zfroN tutIaF icVIaF dI hYsIaq hI kI hY? Aus bcxf nhIN. pr iPr vI[[[

“dmn qyrf zYzI kihMdf hY pItr sfzI brfdrI df nhIN. Auh CotI jfq df hY? kox hn, pItr hurIN.” rfq df Kfxf Kf cuwkx qoN bfd soPy qy bYiTaF, kulvMq dy sfhmxy, kulvMq nUM suxfky mYN pUrI idRVqf nfl ikhf. vzf bytf awj Gr nhIN sI. AusdI gYr-mOjUdgI hI mYNnUM cfhIdI sI. mYN nhIN sI cfhuMdI Auh myrI koeI mdd kry. mYN iksy dI mdd pRvfn krn dy mUz ivc hI nhIN sI.

“ieh jLfq kI huMdI hY?” dmn df ieh mfsUm suafl myry lUM-kMiZaF ivc prc nhIN irhf sI.

“mYN dsF qYnUM jLfq kI huMdI hY?” kulvMq sfnUM dovF nUM Dmkf ky boilaf.

agly idn jdoN kulvMq Gr nhIN sI, mYN Gr nUM iewk ipMjrf smJ ijMdrf mfr idwqf.

kulvMq nUM pihlI vfr socx leI mjLbUr kr idwqf. asIN[[[ jF qyry sMskfr[[[. aYsy sMskfr jo body hoey afpxI hYsIaq gvf cuwky hn. sMskfrF dI iewk lfs[[[, mYN Aus mr rhy Gr ivc Cwz, AuzfrI mfr geI.

jfnI vflI AuzfrI.

afpxI DI dI qlfsL nfl kdm nfl kdm imlFdI hoeI, Ausdf ruqbf bulMd krn leI, mYN qfjLI hvf dI pkV ivc sulJI jf rhI sI.

kulvMq df mYlitMg puafieMt ieqnf loa hovygf mYN kdy soicaf hI nhIN sI. Auh sfrf kuJ inCfvr kr irhf sI. pYsf Dylf, Gr bfhr sfrf kuwJ iewk kuwjy ivc bMd hoky sfzy Byt ho irhf sI. lfl rMg dy kpVy ivc AuWlJy iewk Coty ijhy kuwjy ivc.

ieh asQIaF iksdIaF sn?

bws iewk ijwd sI. mYN nf mfnUM dI ijLd.

mYN kdy socdI ikqy swcmuwc hI afqm-hwiqaf nf kr lvy. kulvMq keI vfr kih vI cuwkf sI. kr lvy qy kr lvy, mYnUM nhIN prvfh. ijhVI afqm-hiqaf mYN kIqI hY, sflF pihlF, sdIaF pihlF, Ausdf kox jLuMmyvfr hY? kulvMq bMidaf, qyrIaF socF df isvf blxf hI cfhIdf hY. ies awg ivcoN hI iewk hor sIqf jnmygI. kd qwk ahilaf pwQr bxI rhygI?

sLfied mMn hI jfvy, sLfied nf mMny.

jfnI vI qy iksy ‘sLfied’ dI qlfsL ivc hI inklI hY. hux mYN socdI hF jfnI jdoN sfnUM pihlI vfr imlI sI, Ausny hosL sMBflidaF hI kulvMq dI cOVI cklI hQylI Cwzky dmn dI hQylI ikAuN cuxI sI?

(28 PrvrI 2006)