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jIqI ny jdoN awK KohlI qF Aus nUM hspqfl vrgI QF jfpI. Ausny afpxy hwQ pYr tohy sB kuwJ TIk Tfk sI. Kwby hwQ qy gulUkojL lwigaf hoieaf sI. Aus nUM sfhmxy afpxI mF dy bYTy hox df JfAulf ipaf.mF hI sI jo kursI qy awKF mItIN bYTI mflLf Pyr rhI sI.sLfied sqnfm vfihgurU jpdI Aus dI qMdrusqI leI ardfs kr rhI hovy. jIqI df isr ajy vI GuMm irhf sI ijvyN bhuq nsLf pIqf hovy. nsLf hI qF pIqf sI lwp sfrIaF golIaF Auh vI tYlfnOl tU dIaF. KfDIaF qF mrn leI sI Pyr vI pqf nhIN ikvyN bc geI sI. ‘ies jIx nfloN qF hux mrnf hI cMgf hY’ Auh Pyr socx lwg peI. mF nUM vyK ky Ausdf rox inwkl igaf qy Auh bolI ‘hfey mF’…. ibsLn kOr DI dI afvfjL sux ky awbVvfhy AuwTI ‘hF myrI DI’. mF nUM ijvyN koeI Koieaf hoieaf KjLfnf lwB ipaf hovy. DI dI surq vfips prq afeI sI. Auh Ptf Pt zfktr nUM bulf ky ilafeI qF Aus ny cYwk krn qoN bfad dwisaf ik ajy nfrml hox nUM iqMn cfr GMty hor lwgxgy. ajy Aus qoN koeI gwl nF puwCI jfvy ik Aus ny KudksLI dI koissL ikAuN kIqI sI. pr ibsLn kOr jrUr socdI rhI ik jy sfzf nhIN soicaf qF nMnHI ijhI jfn rUbI df hI soc lYNdI. jy ies nUM kuwJ ho jFdF qF Aus ivcfrI iql Br jfn df kI bxdf? mflLf PyrdI ibsLn kOr ny rwb df lwK lwK sLukr kIqf.

pr jIqI nUM afpxI afqmGfq dI koissL qy koeI pCqfvf nhIN sI. Aus ny TIk hox sfr pihlf svfl eyh hI kIqf “mYnUM ikAuN bcfieaf mr jfx idMdy. mYN hux jI ky krnf vI kI hY?”

“ijhnF dy mr jFdy ny Auh nhIN jINdIaf jiqMdr qF qYnUM Cwz ky hI igaf hY. qkVI ho kmlI nF bx”. ibsLn kOr ny smJfieaf. “ikAuN Cwz ky igaf hY Auh mYnUM? kI ksUr sI myrf? mYN Aus leI kI nhIN sI kIqf?” jIqI dIaF aWKF Clk peIaF.

mF ny kursI iKwcH ky hor nyVy kr leI Ausdy hwQ pYr Guwtx lwgI. aYNmrjYNsI vfrz ivwc hor vI anykF mrIjL pey sn, afpo afpxy duwK dy ivMnHy hoey. jIqI AunHF bfry soc hI rhI sI ik AusdI njLr iewk aOrq qy geI jo bYwz qy bYTI afpxI nklI lwq lfh rhI sI. lwkV dI lwq nUM bYwz kol rwK Auh afrfm nfl lyt geI. “pqf nhIN ivcfrI dI lwq ikvyN kwtI geI hoAU sLfied sLUgr krky kwtI geI hovy. pr hux ieh iewk lwq nfl ikvyN jIAUNdI hovygI?” jIqIy nUM zr ijhf lwgf. jIvn df sPr qF hux kwtxf hI pvygf. Auh socIN zuwb geI.

jIqI dI njLr ajy vI bYwz nfl peI nklI lwq qy sI. ‘mYN vI qF Aus leI lwqF bxI sI jdoN Auh pihlI vfr knyzf afieaf sI. qy iesy qrHF hux Aus ny mYnUM vgfh mfiraf. aQrU zwky nf gey. mF ny iewk hwQ nfl aQrU pUMJy qy dUsry hwQ nfl mflLf PyrdI rhI. DI dI hflq qy Aus nUM afp vI rox af irhf sI pr Auh idlfsf idMidaf bolI “hux kuwJ nF soc bws afrfm kr”.

zfktr Pyr nINd dI dvfeI dy igaf jIqI sON geI pr ibsLn kOr nUM nINd ikwQy sI. ‘iKVy hoyey Puwl vrgI' sI jdoN knyzf afeI sI. pVHn nUM ikMnI huisLafr sI. knyzf dy lflc nUM pVHfeI vI rih geI. pr iksmq nfl kOx JgVy? awDI qF ieh AudoN hI mr geI sI jdoN pqf cwilaf ik ijs bMdy nfl ivafh hoieaf hY Auh pihlF vI ivafihaf hoieaf sI qy AusdI pihlI Gr vflI afpxy hI Gr dIaF pOVIaF qoN iqlk ky izwg peI sI, jo isr ivwc swt lwgx kfrn mr geI.

jy gwwl eynI hI huMdI qF vI bRdfsLq kr lYNdy. pr puils df sLwk jdoN ienkuafrI ivwc bdilaf qF ieh vI pqf lwg igaf ik pihlI Gr vflI nUM Aus ny afp mfiraf sI qy ieMnsLorYNs qoN pYsy lY ley sn. Pyr AunHF hI pYisaF nfl jIqI nUM ivafh ilafieaf. sfiraf nUM kmly bxf idwqf ieh vI qF ikMnI hmdrdI krdI sI ik ivcfry nfl iksmq ny Dwkf kIqf hY. pr jdoN pol Kuwilaf qy Auh jylL clf igaf ieh sdmy nfl hwspqfl phuMc geI sI. hux awj vI Ausy hwspqfl peI hY’. mF ny suwqI peI DI df mwQf cuMimaf.

‘musIbqF dy phfV eysy isr pYxy sn.' muVky Aus Gr pYr nhIN Diraf. ijMnI dyr mYN nhIN afeI. do do jObF krdI rhI. eyhdI BUaf bKsLI jo sfzy nfl bol ky rfjI nhIN sI Aus kol idn ktI krdI rhI’. ibsLn kOr df idl kIqf ik bKsLo nUM puwCy ik ijhVy muMzy dI ijMmyvfrI lY ky ivafh kIqf sI hux ikwQy geI? hux Auhdf Gr vflf hrnyk isAuN sfzf Pon ikAuN nI cuwkdf. ikhVf bdlf ilaf ey myrI DI qoN?

AudoN sfiraF dy sfhmxy hI gwl kIqI sI ik kuVI sfzI qlfksLudf ey, qy afh sfrI khfxI hY. asIN qF rqI Br vI lko nhIN sI rwiKaf. AudoN qF jiqMdr vI kihMdf sI ik mYnUM sB mnjUr hY qy Pyr hux ieh DoKf ikAuN kIqf? kuwJ GMty bfad jdoN jIqI nUM jfg afeI Auh vI eysy soc ivwc zuwb geI.

BUaf bKsLI AudoN ikMnIaF qfrIPF kiraf krdI sI ik jiqMdr qF bhuq piVHaf iliKaf ey, kMipAUtr df kors vI kIqf hoieaf ey, koeI nsLf-pwqf nhIN krdf. iehdy PuwPV dI skI mfsI df poqf ey bdl ikvyN jfAU, sfrI ijMmyvfrI sfzI hY. Aus ny ieh vI dwisaf sI ik hlvfry vfilaF dI sfrI PYmlI sYwt hY. mF ipAu tIcr ny, vwzI BYx ivafhI hor koeI lMbf cOVf cwkr nhIN iekwlf muMzf hY. ibsLn kOr ny qF AudoN vI ikhf sI ik ‘kuVI qF pihlF hI drd dI mfrI hoeI hY agilaF df kwlf muMzf ey af ikqy nKry nf krn. qyrI ijMmyvfrI krky hF kr idMdy hF AUN qF ivafh leI mMndI hI nhIN’. muMzy dI dyK dKfeI qoN bfad jIqI nUM vI PotoaF Byj idwqIaF sn qy iewk idn sLgn vI ho igaf sI. Pyr jIqI Bfrq geI qy dohF df ivafh ho igaf.

Aus ivafh ivwc BUaf bKsLI Aucycy qOr qy geI, ivcolx jo sI. Auh hr gwl ivwc pRDfn bxI iPrdI. pyky Gr Bwl bxfAux leI Aus ny jiqMdr df knyzf ivwc irsLqf krvfieaf sI. qy Bf df vI AulfBf lfh idwqf jo vfr vfr Pon krdf sI ik kuVI nUM dubfrf sYwt kro. AuNJ Auh afpxy Brf nfl nrfjL sI ijs ny jIqI pihly ivafh smyN Aus kolo hr gwl ivwc lko rwiKaf. iewko qIr nfl do insLfny PuMz ky Auh afK rhI sI hux Auho BUaf kMm afeI nf…. AudoN qF dovyN twbr bVy KusL sn. jIqI iewk mhInf ieMzIaf rhI. jiqMdr Aus nUM bhuq ipafr krdf. kdI isLmly kdI zlhOjLI leIN iPrdf irhf. AudF Auh jcdf vI bhuq sI, AuWcf lMbf kwd sLfndfr pgVI motrsfeIkl clfAuNdf bVf hI sohxf lwgdf. AunHf kdy ipMjOr gfrzn kdy rOk gfrzn qy kdI rojL gfrzn byhwd PotoaF iKcvfeIaF. jo ajy cMgI qrHF dyKIaF vI nhIN sn.

Auh jIqI nUM dlyr kuVI dwsdf jo DoKybfj mrd dI pMjflLI ivwcoN inwkl ky afjLfd hoeI sI. Aus ny byhwd vfady kIqy. pr ikwQy gey Auh socdI rhI.

pMjfb qoN prq ky jIqI df rMg rUp hI bdl cuwkf sI. afpxy pihly pqI vloN kIqy DoKy nUM Auh Buwlx lwgI. ijvyN bhfr Pyr qoN prq rhI sI. mn ivwc nvIaF sDrF df Puwl iKVn lwgf. Auh vfr vfr prs ‘coN afpxI qy jiqMdr dI Poto kwZky vyKdI rihMdI. hr hPqy ieMzIaf Pon GumfeI rwKdI. jiqMdr Ausdy rom rom ivwc rc igaf sI. sLfied Aus ny pihlI vfr iksy nUM mnoN ipafr kIqf hovy. jiqMdr vI hr hPqy ipafr BrI icwTI ilKdf jy kdI imws ho jFdI qF jIqI pfxI ‘coN kwZI mwCI vFg qVPdI. eysy smyN dOrfn Aus ny afpxI mF nUM ivjtr vIjLy qy mMgvf ilaf. mF DI nUM smJfAuNdI PonF qy vfDU Krcf Cwz ky Gr df smfn bxf jiqMdr afAux vflf hY.

Pyr Ausny iewk iewk krky Gr df smfn ilaf. rsoeI df smfn, bYwz rUm sYwt, soPf sYwt, tI vI hor pqf nhIN kI kI. iksLqF qy nvIN kfr lY leI. Auh do do jObF krdI qy supny AuxdI rihMdI ik Auh jiqMdr nUM pihlF koeI kors krvfvygI kMm qy nhIN lfvygI.

Pyr jiqMdr nUM knyzf df vIjLf lwigaf qy Auh afx puMhicaf. jIqI dI ijLMdgI ivwc ieh bhuq vzf idn sI. Aus dy pYr jLmIn qy nhIN sn lwg rhy. Auh afpxI apfrtmYNt lYky alwg rihx lwgy.

kuwJ idn dy Pyry qory qoN bfad Aus ny jiqMdr nUM afpxI iewCf dwsI ik Auh Aus nUM kMipAUtr ieMjnIar bxfAuxf cfhuMdI hY qy AunI dyr Gr df sfrf Krcf Auh zbl jOb krky afp qorygI. Aus ny ikhf ik duwK kwtky hI suwK imldf hY kwuJ sfl duwK kwtky Pyr sfrI Aumr suwK hI suwK hY jldI sYwt ho jfvFgy. Auh Kud Aus nUM XunIvristI lY ky geI dfKly dIaF sfrIaF sLrqF pUrIaF krvfeIaF qy dfKlf duaf idwqf. ijvyN afpxIaF lwqF kwt ky Aus ny Gr vfly nUM lf idwqIaF hox. afpxy sfry sLONk mfr ky do do jObF krky Auh Aus nUM pVHfAuNdI rhI. jdoN Aus nUM mMijLl iml geI qF Aus ny nklI lwq vFgUM hI Aus nUM Auqfr ky prHF rwK idwqf sI. jIqI ajy vI sfhmxy peI aOrq nUM GUr rhI sI qy awKF dy aQrU vI pUMJ rhI sI.

pihlf sfl qF TIk Tfk gujiraf. jiqMdr mn lf ky pVHfeI krdf irhf. jIqI swq qoN iqMn vjy qwk plfsitk dI PYktrI ‘c kMm krdI aqy cfr qoN rfq dy bfrF vjy qwk iewk vyar hfAUs ivwc pYikMg df kMm krdI. kfr hox krky do jObF krnf sMBv ho sikaf sI. mF ibsLn kOr eys smyN dOrfn cfr pMj mhIny ieMzIaf vI lf afeI sI qy Pyr Aus nUM pMj sfl df vIjLf lwg igaf. hux Ayuh Gr dI sfP sPfeI qy rotI tuwk df kMm kr lYNdI. do sfl jIqI ny msLIn dI qrHF kMm kIqf. awKF Qwly kfly Dwby pY gey. isr dy vfl icwty hox lwgy pr Aus ny prvfh nf kIqI. mMijLl iblkuwl sfhmxy sI hOslf hfrn df svfl hI pYdf nhIN sI huMdf. kdI kdI Auh jiqMdr nUM kihMdI “quhfzI izgrI pUrI hox qy hI bwcy bfry socFgy qy AudoN koeI afpxf Gr vI dyK lvFgy pr ajy nhIN. ajy ikhVf afpF buwZy ho cwly hF? jy huxy bwcf ho igaf qF myry qoN kMm nhIN hoxf qy quhfzI izgrI ivwc hI rih jfxI aF”. jiqMdr kihMdf ‘dyK lY qyrI mrjI af’.

izgrI pUrI hox nUM iqMn sfl lwgy. XUnIvristI dy mhOl ny jiqMdr nUM kfPI bdl idwqf sI. Auh jiqMdr qoN jYt bx igaf. pgVI Aus nUM byloVI sLYa jfpx lwg peI. bhuq sfry muMzy kuVIaF nfl Aus dI dosqI ho geI. Aus nUM PYsLn krn df vI ZMg af igaf. brYNz nym kwpVy pfAux lwgf. issLtfcfr leI dosqF dI mihPl ivwc QoVI bhuqI bIar ivskI vI lf lYNdf. Aus kol afpxf sYwl Pon vI sI jo hux vwjdf hI rihMdf. ijs idn Aus ny lfeIsMs lY ilaf sI jIqI dI kfr vI AusdI bx geI sI. Auh jIqI nUM kMm qy Cwz ky kfr lY jFdf dUsry kMm qy jfx leI Auh iksy qoN rfeIz lYNdI qy rfq nUM jiqMdr Pyr cuwk lYNdf. jIqI Aus df hr Krcf pUrf krdI rhI ik clo koeI nF cMgI jOb iml jfvygI. eyQy qwk vI ik Auh hr hPqy Aus nUM ds zflr df kfilMg kfrz ieMzIaf Pon krn leI lY ky idMdI. KricaF dI AuWcI dr qy Gwt afmdn iesy krky Auh afpxy bfkI pirvfr nUM pwky qOr qy spONsr vI nf kr skI. Ausdf zYzI hI afAux vflf sI qy Auh afAuxf nhIN sI cfhuMdf jd ik mF pfs qF pMj sfl df vIjLf hY hI sI. qy smF lMGdf irhf.

iqMn sfl bfad Auh KusLI df idn vI af igaf jdoN supnf pUrf hoieaf qy jiqMdr nUM kMipAUtr ieMjnIar dI izgrI iml geI. ikMny hI idn Auh dosqF nUM pfrtIaF krdf irhf. ieMzIaf nUM Pon krdf irhf. ies qoN bfad AunHF jOb lwBxI sLurU kIqI. Auh ikhVI QF sI ijwQy rYjLmy nhIN Byijaf . ienHF idnF ivwc hor PonF dy nfl nfl Aus nUM kuwJ kuVIaF dy vI Pon afAudy rhy. alIsLf nF dI kuVI Aus nUM aksr Pon krdI. Ausy kuVI ny afpxI iksy shylI dy Brf nUM kih ky aOtvf Aus nUM iksy kMpnI nfl jOb duaf idwqI. swT hjLfr qy do sfl leI kMntrYkt vI ho igaf. kMm krn leI Aus nUM atvf rihxf pYxf sI. jIqI ny ieh vI pRvfn kr ilaf ik clo stfrt ivwc E ky hY qjLurbf hox qoN torFto ‘c iml jfvygI. hux jiqMdr hPqy bfad Gr afAuNdf. jIqI roj Aus nUM Pon kr lYNdI.

jIqI qF afpxy GridaF nUM pwky qOr qy aplfeI krnf hI nhIN cfhuMdI sI pr ienkm bxidaF hI jiqMdr ny afpxy mMmI zYzI nUM aplfeI jrUr kr idwqf. mF qy DI apfrtmYNt ivwc iekwlIaF rihMdIaf. hux jIqI cfhuMdI ik AunHF dy bwcf ho jfvy pr jiqMdr kMn BMndf ik QoVy hor sYwt ho leIey. smF bIqdf irhf.

jiqMdr hux hPqy bfad inrMqr Gr nF afAuNdf do do hPqy vI lMGx lwgy. jy puwCdI qF kihMdf kMm bhuq hY kMntrYkt pUrf krnf hY. jIqI Pon krdI qF Auh Gr nf imldf sYwl Pon vI bMd huMdf. jy puwCdI qF kihMdf ik mIitMg ‘c sI. iewk idn Aus ny jiqMdr nUM Pon kIqf qF awgoN iksy kuVI ny cuwikaf. jIqI ny puwiCaf ik qUM kOx eyN qF Auh kihMdI mYN alIsLf hF. jIqI nUM Gumyr afAux lwgI ik ieh Ausdy kmry ivwc kI krdI hY? Aus ny jiqMdr nfl Pon qy gwl kIqI qF Ausny hI dwisaf ik alIsLf nUM eysy kMpnI ivwc kMm iml igaf hY Auh qF vYsy hI imlx afeI sI. Ausy leI Kfx pIx df smfn lYx Auh stor igaf sI. pr jIqI df mwQf Txkdf irhf. jiqMdr df Gr nf afAuxf jF Pon nF cuwkxf Aus nUM zMg mfrdy rhy. Aus nUM qF ieh vI sLwk pYx lg ipaf ik alIsLf qy Auh iekwTy hI rihMdy hn.

hux Auh QoVf sKqI nfl puwCx lwgI qy awgoN jiqMdr vI kurwKq ho ky jvfb idMdf AunHF dI hr gwlbfq lVfeI ivwc bdl jFdI. iewk idn qF jiqMdr ny sfP hI kih idwqf ‘jf kr lY jo kuwJ krnf sLI iejL mfeI grl PrYNz vI ilivMg tUgYdr”. jIqI dy isr qF ijvyN sO GVy pfxI pY igaf sI. Auh bolI “mYN qYnUM do do jObF krky izgrI krvfeI qUM myry nfl DoKf kIqf hY. jiqMdr awgoN tuwt ky ipaf, “bhuqf bkvfs nf kr mYN afpxI Xogqf nfl izgrI kIqI ey jy qUM nf pYsy idMdI qF bYNk lon dy idMdI jy pYisaF dI hI gwl hY qF dws qyry ikMny lwgy ny pfeI pfeI moV dvFgf”. jIqI ny ikhf ik “mYnUM pYsy nhIN qUM cfhIdf eyN sLfied eysy krky qUM Gr nhIN afAudf”. qF Auh awgoN kihx lwgf “Gr qF hmysLF qyrI mF rihMdI ey hr gwl ivwc dKl aMdfjLI krdI ey myrf qF dm Guwtdf eyN mYN ies krky vI nhIN afAuNdf”.

“aihsfn PrmosL Auh qYnUM hux qwk rotIaF lfh lfh ky KuaFAudI rhI ey hux qYnUM Aus dI hoNd vI cuBx lwg peI?” jIqI roa rhI sI.

lVfeI nUM GtfAux leI jiqMdr bwcf pYdf krn leI rfjLI ho igaf. jIqI socx lwgI ik Ausdf bwcy nfl moh pY jfvygf Pyr qF nhIN Cwz ky jfx lwigaf. Auh pirgnYNt ho geI. qy socdI vI rihMdI ik iewk ivafhy hoey lVky nfl alIsLf ikAuN ivafh krvfvygI? bws eysy ksLmksL ivwc sfl hor lMG igaf. jiqMdr hPqy do hPqy bfad Gr afAuNdf kuwJ pYsy vI dy jFdf. gROsrI KrIdx qy hor sfrf kMm kfjL jIqI afp hI krdI. bwcf hox df smF bhuq nyVy af irhf sI. vfr vfr kihx qy jiqMdr ny CuwtIaF nf leIaF hr vfr kih idMdf ik kMm vfly CuwtI nhIN idMdy.

iewk rfq jIqI nUM jxypf pIVF sLurU ho geIaF. Aus ny Kud hI 911 zfiel kIqf. Aus vkq jiqMdr df Aus kol hoxf bhuq jrUrI sI. mF nUM Aus ny kih idwqf ik jiqMdr nUM Pon kr dyvy qy dws dyvy ik mYN hwspqfl cwlI hF. mF ny aijhf hI kIqf. bKsLI BUaf nUM lY ky Auh hspqfl vI clI geI. dUsry idn jIqI dy Gr nMnHI ijhI bytI ny jnm ilaf. iqMNn idn hor lMG gey jiqMdr afpxI bytI nUM dyKx hwspqfl nf afieaf. jIqI zuskdI rhI mF ny bQyrf smJfieaf ik koeI kMm ho igaf hoxY. pr jIqI df sLwk XkIn ivwc bdldf jf irhf sI. keI jfx pCfx vfilaf ny puwiCaf nrsF zfktrF ny puwiCaf pr Auh JUT bol idMdI rhI. qIsry idn Aus nUM hspqfloN CuwtI iml geI Aus dI shylI qy Ausdf hsbYNz Aus nUM hspqfloN lY ky afey. qy jiqMdr Aus idn vI nhIN afieaf.

ieh vI iewk sbwb hI sI ik ijs idn jIqI bwcI nUM lY ky Gr afeI qF ieMzIaf qoN Aus dy shury df Pon af igaf ik sfnUM vIjLf iml igaf hY. jIqI ny ieh KusLI sFJI krn leI vI jiqMdr nUM Pon kIqf pr awgoN Aus ny koeI vI KusLI jfhr nf kIqI. ds idnF bfad Auh kuVI dyKx afieaf qy pMj sO zflr vI dy igaf. nf kuVI nUM cuwk ky vyiKaf nF Aus df koeI nF Diraf. Ausdf ipafr lMby lMby dfhvyN pqf nhIN ikwQy mr muwk gey sn. sLfied Aus ny afpxy afp nUM hI igrvI kr idwqf sI. jIqI ny keI vfrI puwiCaf ky Grdy afAux vfly ny kI krnf hY? Gr bdlxf hY jF ieh hI TIk hY. jy jOb torFto iml jfvy qF TIk rhygf?’ pr Auh tws qoN mws nF hoieaf ijvyN jIqI hor hI iksy nfl gwlF kr rhI hovy. ijs idn Aus dy pirvfr ny afAuxf sI qF Auh torFto af igaf. pr dUsry idn hI Pyr aOtvf nUM clf igaf. mF jsvMq kOr ny ikhf puwq keI sflF bfad imly hF qUM qF bVf bdl igaf eyN? ipAu qfrf isAuN ny vI smJfieaf ik lVkI kwlI hY CotI bwcI hY jrf akl kr. pr Auh zuwn vwtf ijhf bixaf sfrf kuwJ suxdf rihMdf. iewk idn jsvMq kOr ny jIqI nUM ikhf, “kuVy gurjIq qyry vrgI nUMh qF BfeI rwb sB nUM dyvy qyry ‘c qF sfnUM koeI nuks nhIN lwBf Pyr jiqMdr eydF ikAuN krdf eyN?”

jIqI ny dwisaf ik bI jI sLfied AuWQy koeI kuVI hY Aus nfl cwkr hY eyhdf. jsvMq kOr ny ikhf nF hux ivafh krvfky eyhnUM cwkr suJdy ny afAux dy Gr mYN puwCdI hF?” Pyr jsvMq kOr ny hI Pon kIqf ik ‘qyrf ipAu bhuq guwsy ivwc hY asIN nhIN knyzf rihxf jy qUM afp Gr nhIN afAuxf. sfnUM mMgvf ky ikAuN awD asmfny tMg idwqf. ijMnI jldI ho sky af jf qyry nfl gwl krnI hY”. Auh mF dI kuwrKq BfsLf sux ky QoVf zr igaf qy Ausy vIk aYwz qy torFto af igaf. nMnHI ijhI rUbI vl Aus ny ies vfrI vI iDafn nf idwqf. qfrf isAuN ny ibTf ky do tuwk gwl krnI cfhI. ik jF qF ivwcoN gwl dwsdy kI af qy jF Pyr bMdf bx ky rih. lVkI dI ijLMdgI kfhnUM Krfb krn izhf eyN …kwl nUM lokI N kihxgy pqf nhIN shuiraF ny nhIN vwsx idwqI. qF jiqMdr boilaf ‘mYnUM nhIN ieh psMd’. mYN kMipAUtr ieMjnIar qy plws tU. qusIN mYnUM ies nfl Psf idwqf. ieh purfxy iKaflF dI hY. myry dosqF imwqrF dI rspYkt nhIN krdI. susfietI dy qOr qrIky ies nUM nhIN afAudy mYN afpxf sfrf jIvn ikvyN kwZFgf?

qF qfrf isMG boilaf nf qYnUM puwC ky hI hF kIqI sI AudoN idMdf jvfb? AudoN qF qYnUM knyzf dIhdf sI. AudoN nhIN Gwt pVHI idKI jdoN do do jObF krky qYnUM kors krvfAuNdI sI. puwq qF qUM myrf eI pr qyry ies GtIaf kfrnfmy ny qF mYnUM ikqy vI KVn jogf nhIN Cwzxf. qyrI mF jIqI dI mF ibsLn kOr dy svflF df kI jvfb dy vy? ijs idn jiqMdr ny sfP kih idwqf ik alIsLf Aus df bhuq krdI hY Aus ijMnI hI pVHI ilKI hY mfzrn hY Aus qy qlfk df Dwbf vI nhIN mYN Aus nfl hI ivafh krvFvfgf. qF qfrf isMG qoN ieh gwl bRdfsLq nf hoeI Aus ny sfPy dy lV nfl awKF pUMJidaF ikhf “eyho ijhI Aulfd nfloN qF Aulfd nF hovy. jI krdf hY muVky sLkl nf dyKF. BYx jI asIN nhI hux eyQy rih skdy ipMz hI TIk hF. Auh ibsLn kOr nUM kih irhf sI. qy Pyr kuwJ hI idnF bfad Auh afp hI itkt dF pRbMD krky Auh bgYr jiqMdr nUM dwsy vfps muV gey.

hux jiqMdr df irsLqf ies Gr nfloN iblkuwl tuwt igaf. Auh muV ky Gr nhIN afieaf. lokF kol Auh sB kfsy dI ijMmyvfr jIqI nUM TihrFAudf irhf. Auh suxdI rhI qy roNdI rhI. Pyr vI Ausdf mn kihMdf ik mYN Ausdf aYnf kIqf hY myry nfl Auh ies qrHF df DoKf nhIN kr skdf ajy dunIaF ivwc aYnf hnyr qF nhIN ipaf.

pr iewh hnyr swcmuwc Aus dI ijLMdgI ivwc pY igaf jdoN jiqMdr dy vkIl vloN Byjy qlfk dy pypr jIqI nUM pRfpq hoey. Aus dIaF awKF twzIaF rih geIaF qy pYrF hyToN jLmIn iKsk geI. Auh msF bYwz qwk phuMcI qy Zyr ho geI. ibsLn kOr vfr vfr kih rhIN sI sI ‘DIey dws qF shI kI hoieaf’.jIqI ny dwisaf ik AunHF qlfk dy pypr Byjy ny. ibsLn kOr ny pihlI vfr gfl kwZ ky jvfeI nUM ‘hrfm df kuwqf kmInf qy mqlbI ikhf’ Aus ny ieh vI ikhf ik aijhy GtIaf ijhy bMdy qoN KihVf Cuwtxf hI byhqr hY. pr jIqI leI ieh sdmF bhuq vwzf sI. Auh DI nUM buwkl ivwc lY ky roNdI rhI. ijLMdgI phfV vrgI jfpx lwgI qy Auh BYa BIq ho geI. Auh socx lwgI: ‘iql iql krky mrn nfloN qF iewk vfr mrnf cMgf hY.

ibsLn kOr ny ajy pfsf vwitaf hI sI jIqI ny dMd pIV leI, tYlfnol tU dIaF golIaF lwp Brky lY leIaF. jd nUM ibsLn kOr prqI qF Auh bysurq ho geI sI. ibsLn kOr nUM kuwJ nf suwiJaf Ausny dwsy muqfbk 911 zfiel krky aYNmrjYnsI aYNmrjYNnsI ikhf. do iqMn imMt ‘c hI Pfier puls qy aYNbUlYNs af gey . mOky isr hspqfl puhMcx krky jIqI dI jfn qF bc geI. pr ajy pqf nhIN kI hoxf sI. ibsLn kOr mflf PyrdI rwb awgy ardfsF krdI rhI ik Aus nMnHI ijhI jfn rUbI krky hI seI myrI DI nUM kuwJ nF hovy. ijs nUM bKsI afpxy Gr lY geI sI.

jIqI nUM surq prq afeI sI. kol KVf zfktr dws irhf sI ik bryn hYmirwjL qoN bcf ho igaf. Aus ny ieh vI dwisaf ik eynI zojL lYx nfl keI vfrI mrIjL pYrflfeIjL vI ho jFdf hY pr sLukr hY ik ies dIaF lwqF bfhvF sB TIk ny. pr jIqI soc rhI sI ik lwq qF myrI tuwt geI jdoN jIvn dI gwzI df iewk phIaf hI tuwt igaf. Pyr Auh socx lwgI ik Aus aOrq dI vF lwq kwtI hoeI hY kI Auh nhIN jINdI? mYN vI qF jI skdI hF. Auh bYwz Qwly peI Aus lwkV dI lwq nUM ajy vI GUrdI soc rhI sI ik Auh qlfk dy pyprF qy sfeIn kr hI dyvy aqy afpxy pYrF qy qurnf iswKy ijs df afnMd kuwJ hor hI huMdf hY. ivcfrI lwkV dI lwq…ijs nUM Aus aorq ny Auqfr ky pfsy suwt idwqf sI. pr hux jIqI Audfs nhIN sI.

smfpq (15 nvMbr 2005)