do sLbd lyKkf bfry

prmjIq momI df nF ‘afr-pfr’ aqy trFto qoN Cpdy pMjfbI pyprF dy pfTkF leI BlI BFq jfixaf pCfixaF hY. Aus dIaF rcnfvF ienHF pyprF ivwc kdI inrMqr aqy kdI awgy ipwCy CpdIaF hI rihMdIaF hn. ies dy nflL-nflL AusdI koeI nf koeI khfxI ‘khfxI pMjfb’ jF pMjfb dy coxivaF pricaF ivwc vI CpI dyKI geI hY.

ijwQoN qIkr myrI jfxkfrI hY, Auh iewk jmFdrU klfkfr hY. afpxy bcpn dy idnF ivwc Auh jlMDr ryzIE stysLn AuWqy kIqy gey progrfmF ivwc vI sLfml huMdI rhI hY. Auh iewk Drm kMzy vFg bhuq hI sMvydnsLIl lyKkf hY. mfnvI irsLiqaF ivwc ikDry vI afeI qryV nflL Ausdf qn-mn sfry df sfrf JMjoiVaf jFdf hY. aqy Auh prfey drd nUM afpxf drd bxf lYNdI hY. iPr jdoN qIkr ieh drd iksy klf df rUp nf Dfrn kr lvy AudoN qIkr AusnUM sFqI nhIN afAuNdI.

ilKxf AusdI mjbUrI hY aqy Auh jo vI ilKdI hY Aus nflL pUrf iensfP krn df Xqn krdI hY. jy loV pvy qF Aus leI ‘hom vrk’ vI krdI hY aqy afpxy sroq vrq ky Aus sbMDI loVINdI smwgrI aqy syD vI prfpq krdI hY.

iewk cMgy khfxIkfr ivwc ilKx dI klf, isrV, isdk, sfDnf, mfnvqf nflL ipafr, suihrdqf, igafn afid gux hoxy cfhIdy hn. prmjIq momI ivwc jy ieh sfry gux nf vI hox qF ienHF ivwcoN kfPI aqy loV anusfr jLrUr hn. mYnUM AusdI hr rcnf pVHky anMd imlLdf hY qy myrI ieh sdIvI hfridk iewCf hY ik Auh sfl ivwc iqMn cfr ku khfxIaF qF ilK hI ilaf kry.

awgy ivcfr afpo afpxf.
-ikrpfl isMG pMnUM

*ilKfrI ivWc AuhnF dIaF khfxIaF 'mfnvI irsLqy','mjLbUrI','blI' aqy 'srGI vylf' Cwp cwkIaF hn. 'ilKfrI' dy pfTkF dy gocry prmjIq momI dI iewk hor khfxI 'bdldy irsLqy' hfjLr kridaF prsMnqf df anuBwv ho irhf hY. pVH ky afpxy ivcfr ilKxf nf Bulxf. AuzIk rhygI.

(ilKfrI)

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bhuq rfq geI qwk, rUp sugMDI df ieMqjfr krdI rhI ik Auh af ky afp hI kuwJ dwsygI. bhuq dyr qwk, sLfm nMU dyKI sugMDI dI bycYn qsvIr AusdIaF awKF mUhry GuMmdI rhI, ijvyN koeI afpxy hI aqIq dI aYlbm nUM pl dr pl Poldf rhy. bhuq dyr qwk Auh iksy Brm nMU afpxy mn ivcoN DUa ky bfhr kwZx dI koisLs krdI rhI, ijvyN koeI afpxy mwQy dIaF mMd lkIrF nUM muwZoN hI mys dyxf cfhuMdf hovy. qy Auh muV muV iewCFAuNdI rhI sI ik kfsL ieh sB kuwJ Ausdf Brm hI hovy, ik jo AusdIaf awKF ny afp swc dyiKaf sI Auh swc nhIN sI. pr swc qF swc hI huMdf hY. jIvn dy hr moV AuWqy, mwQy ivwc pwQr vFg Tfh kr ky vwjdf swc.

awj sugMDI nMU rUp kol afieaF pUry do hPqy ho gey sn, pr Aus dy cuwp buwlHF df ropVI qflf KuwlHx df nF qwk nhIN sI lY irhf. ieh AuhI sugMDI sI jo musLkl nflL Aus kol iewk do rfqF Tihrx qoN bfad hI afpxy pqI mnIk kol jfx leI kfhlLI pY jFdI sI. ies vfr do hPqy bIq jfx qy vI Aus df afpxy Gr prqx df koeI ierfdf nhIN sI jfpdf. BfvyN Aus nMU sugMDI dy iksy vI ivvhfr qoN ieh aihsfs nhIN sI ho irhf ik ijvyN Auh afpxy pqI nflL guwsy ho ky afeI hovy, pr iewk sLwk dI mhIn ijhI lkIr hmysLf rUp dy mn ivwc icMqf sulGfeI rwKdI. hor qF hor ienHF idnF ivwc mnIk df vI koeI Pon nhIN sI afieaf aqy nF Auh afp hI afieaf sI. ieh soc soc ky, ik sugMDI dy iewQy afAux qy keI keI vfr Pon krn vflLy munIk ny, ies vfr iewk vfr vI Pon ikEN nhIN kIqf, rUp dy iPkrF dy bwdlL hor vI gihry hoeI jf rhy sn. jy Auh ies sbMDIN sugMDI nMU puwCdI qF Auh afnIN bhfnIN gwl nUM iksy hor hI rfhy pf CwzdI jF iPr iewk lMmIN cuwp vwt lYNdI.

“mMm Aus dI afpxI ijLMdgI hY. Auh ikDry ibjI hovygf. qusIN qF bws aYvyN hI iPkr afpxy glL pf lYNdy ho.”

‘bwcIey! qUM kI jfxy? sMqfn dy iPkr aYvyN hI afpxy glL nhIN pfey jFdy. ieh qF mfipaF df klLyjf cwt jFdy ny. mfpy afpxy qF sO sO duwK shfr jFdy hn, pr bwicaF dy duwK mfipaF nUM Dur aMdr qwk mfr jFdy hn. ieh ikho ijhIaF kuVIaF ny, jo afpxIaF mfvF nflL vI duwK suwK sFJy nhIN krdIaF. kyhy BYVy smyN af gey ny.’ Auh socdI.

jy rUp gwlF gwlF ivwc sugMDI nMU Aus dy Gr jfx bfry puwCdI qF Auh ibnHF koeI hfv Bvf idKfey afKdI, “mMm kI mYN quhfzy qy hux Bfr bx geI aF? kI mYN quhfnMU iewQy rihMdI cMgI nhIN lgdI?”

rUp ny keI vfr koisLs kIqI sI ieh jfnx dI ik afKr ivwcoN kfrn kI hY? soc idaF, soc idaF keI vyr rUp dIaF afpxIaF aqIq dIaF judfeI dIaF pIVF muV kskx lwgdIaF. AunHF simaF ivwc ikvyN AudfsI Aus nUM pl pl af GyrdI sI. pr sugMDI dIaF awKF ivwc rUp nMU kdy ajyhI mfXUsI jF AudfsI dI Jlk qIkr vI idKfeI nF idMdI. ‘pr koeI nf koeI gwl qF jLrUr sI, jo sugMDI dy ies nvyN ivvhfr df kfrn sI.’ soc soc rUp hr vyly byhwd bycYn rihMdI.

ajy ipCly vrHy hI qF ivafh hoieaf sI sugMDI qy mnIk df. ikMny KusL sn dono. ieh AuhnF dI afpxI hI qF psLMd sI. donF df soc smJ ky kIqf hoieaf afpxy BivwK df afpxf PYslf. ‘ajy qF AuhnF dy ivafh dI pihlI vrHy-gMZ vI nhIN sI afeI ik ieh kI puafVf pY igaf [[[? ienHF donF ivwc kI iKcVI pwk rhI sI [[[.’ ieh soc idn rfq rUp nUM aMdro aMdrI kuryd dI rihMdI. Aus ny keI vfr koisLs kIqI sI, mnIk nflL gwl krn dI vI, pr awgoN kdI koeI Pon hI nf cuwkdf. jdoN ies sbMDI Auh sugMDI nMU puwCdI qF Auh afKdI, “mMm ikDry bfhr igaf hovygf, qusIN Aus nMU Pon krdy hI ikEN ho? ijs nUM loV hovygI Auh afpy hI sO vfr Pon krygf”.

awj vflLI ajIb siQqI ny rUp dy mn dI sUlLI qy lmkdy sLwk nUM pUry XkIn ivwc bdl idwqf. hux Auh bhuq hI bycYnI nflL sugMDI dI AuzIk kr rhI sI. pihlF qF Aus ny soicaf ik sLfied Auh sugMDI nflL kMm krn vflLf koeI hovygf. pr ijs apxwq dy rMg ivwc rMgI hoeI sugMDI Aus nflL kfr ivwc jf ky bYTI, Aus qoN qF iehI jfpdf sI ik ienHF ivckfr afm myl imlfp qoN kuwJ vwD hI cwl irhf sI.

bfhrlf drvfjLf KwuilHaf qF sugMDI dy pYrF dI ibVk suxidaF hI rUp dy idl dI DVkx AusnMU bykfbU huMdI jfpI. bws ijvyN koeI kihrF dI anhoxI zfiex bx ky Aus dIaF brUhF qy afx KVHI hovy, ijvyN awj DrqI grkx vflLI hovy aqy asmfn Ptx vflLf hovy… qy ijvyN Ausdy isr ivwc swLk aqy Brm dI ltk rhI ktfr df swc Aus dy klLyjy nUM cIrn vflLf hovy.

sugMDI nUM kmry ivwc afAuNidaF hI hwQF pYrF dI pY geI qy Auh bolI, “mMm kI gwl hY? qusIN ieqny prysLfn ikEN ho, qhufzI qbIaq qF TIk ey?”. Auh Bwj ky pfxI df glfs lY afeI.

“sugMDI qyry nflL awj Auh lVkf kOx sI, ijs nflL qMU rYstorYNt ivwc geI sI?” glfs nUM iewk pfsy kridaF qy ibnF koeI BUimkf bMnHidaF rUp ny iswDf hI svfl kIqf.

sugMDI kuwJ dyr cuwp bYTI rhI. ieh KfmosI iksy qUPfn dy afAux qoN pihlF vflLI KfmosI hI qF sI. Auh bhuq mwDm ijhI avfjL ivwc bolI.

“mMm Auh myrf dosq sI mfiekl.”

ies mfiekl nMU qMU kdoN qoN jfxdI eyN? kI qyry ies dosq bfry mnIk nMU pqY? Aus ny kfhlLI pYNidaF pwuiCaf.

“mMm mYN kdy Aus nMU Ausdy dosqF bfry nhIN puwCdI, iPr kI hwk hY Aus kol, mYnUM myry dosqF bfry puwCx df?” Aus AuWqr idwwqf.

“bytf Auh qyrf pqI ey… qy hr pqI nMU ieh sfry hwk DuroN imlLy huMdy ny.”

‘pr pqnI nUM [[[?’ sugMDI dy mn ivwc afieaf ieh moVvF ivcfr Aus ny afpxy mn ivwc hI Guwt ilaf.

“mMm, mYN mnIk qoN vwK rihx df PYslf kr ilaf hY. hux iewk dUsry dy jIvn ivwc sfzf koeI dKl nhIN.” Aus ny ieh gwl ies qrHF afKI ijvyN koeI iewk bwcf dUjy bwcy nUM afK dyvy ik jfh mYN nhIN qyry nflL KylHdf. pr ieh suxidaF hI rUp awD asmfno izwgI kUMj vFg aMdro aMdr kurlfa AuWTI. ‘sugMDI ny afpxI ijLMdgI df eyzf vwzf PYslf kr ilaf sI… qy Aus nMU ies gwl dI iBxk qwk vI nhIN sI peI.’

“sugMDI ieh iks qrHF ho skdY? ieh ikvyN ho igaf? nhIN, nhIN bytf pqI pqnI dy ieh irsLqy ieqnI CyqI nhIN twuitaf krdy.” rRUp bolI jf rhI sI. awj sugMDI ny Aus dI iksy duKdI rg AuWpr hwQ rwK idwqf sI. Aus dI rUh AuWqy virHaF pihlF lwgf gihrf jLKm, iewk vfr iPr hrf ho igaf. ijs kihr nMU Auh bhuq ipCy Cwz afeI sI awj iPr Aus dy sfmhxy af ky jihr bixaF Aus nMU vMgfr irhf sI. apmfn dy Auh pl awj iPr Aus df mjfk Auzf rhy sn. awj iPr sfgr dI byvPfeI dI rusvfeI Aus dy qn mn nMU vlUMDr geI sI… qy awj iPr Auh AuhnF Guwp hnyry plF ivwc guMm geI sI, ijnHF qoN sdf sdf leI mukq ho jfx df Brm Auh kfPI dyr qoN afpxy mn ivwc pflL rhI sI.

vYnkUvr qoN ivafh leI Bfrq afey sfgr nflL rUp df ivafh Aus dy mF bfp df inrnf sI. pr sfgr dI qF Auh afpxI psLMd sI. keI lVkIaF nMU dyKx prKx qoN bfad sfgr ny rUp dI cox kIqI sI. iPr Auh vI sfgr dI psMd bx ky afpxy afp nMU dunIaF dI sB qoN KusLiksmq lVkI smJx lwg peI sI. Aus nMU pqI dy rUp ivwc pf ky rUp DMn ho geI sI. sfgr Aus nMU afpxIaF bfhvF, ivwc Guwt lYNdf qy bVy ipafr nflL afKdf, “rUp kihMdy ny iksy ivakqI ivsLysL nMU Bflx leI iewk imMt lgdf hY, Aus dI kdr pfAux leI iewk GMtf, Aus nMU ipafr krn leI iewk idn… pr Aus nMU Buwlx leI pUrI ijMdgI vI QoVHI pY jFdI hY.”

sfgr dIaF aijhIaf gwlF suxdI rUp, Aus dIaF awKF dI zUMGfeI ivwc ikDry guvfcI, dunIaF dI swuD buwD Buwl jFdI. qy sugMDI dI sfrI dI sfrI mihk sfgr dy sfry psfry qy Cf jFdI.

ivafh qoN bfad sfgr koeI pMj Cy hPqy pMjfb rih ky knyzf prq igaf. Aus dy sfQ ivwc ibqfey sMdlI plF df aihsfs rUp dy qn mn nMU afnMd meI bxfeI rKdf qy Aus df idl sfgr pfs sugMDI vFg Auz phuMcx leI kfhlLf pYx lgdf. sfgr ny jfidaF sfr rUp nMU spONsr kr idwqf qy Auh koeI Cy swq mhIny ivwc hI sfgr kol ibRits kolMbIaf dy sihr ivktorIaf ivwc phuMc geI. do ihjLr ivwc qVp rhIaF rUhF dIaF dUrIaF, mjbUrIaF sB hwdF-ivwQF imtf ky iewk imwk ho geIaF.

surU surU dy suhfvxy idn, plF ivwc ikvyN bIq gey, pqf hI nF cwilaf. iPr surU ho gey rUp dy pwCmI vfqfvrn ivwc rcx imcx leI sMGrs dy idn. jdoN jIvn dOV ivwc afpxf bxdf Xogdfn pfAux leI, Aus nMU bfhrly sMsfr ivwc ivcrnf ipaf, qF pMjfb dy ipMz dI pVHI ilKI rUp pwCm dy jIvn dOV dI qyjL BIV ivwc gvfcx lwgI. ies swiBaqf ivwc afpxy afp nMU rMgxf Aus nMU musLkl jfpx lwgf. aMgryjLI ivwc afpxy ivcfrF df afdfn prdfn Aus leI atwp hmflIaf prbq bx KloNdf. Aus dI AuWcy nMbrF ivwc pfs kIqI hoeI bIey dI pVHfeI iewQy afAux qy iblkul Qwly lih geI sI. Auh jdoN vI iksy jOb leI jFdI qF ieMtrivAU ivwcoN asPl rih jFdI.

hOlLI hOlLI Aus df afpxf afqm ivsvfs guvfcx lwgf. jdoN Auh afpxy afp nMU iksy vI jOb prfpq krn ivwc asmrwQ dyKdI qF Aus nMU afpxy afp AuWpr akih guwsf afAuNdf. keI vfr Auh mihsUs krdI ik ijvyN sfgr dy imlx iglx vflLy Aus dy dosq vI jfx buwJ ky Aus nflL aMgryjLI bol ky Ausdf mjfk Auzf rhy hox. jvfb dyx dI QF Auh byvs hoeI AuhnF dy cyhiraF vwl dyKdI rihMdI. iPr qF Auh afpxy aMdroN iblkul hI tuwt geI jdoN hOlLI hOlLI sfgr ny vI Aus nMU pyzU gMvfr smJxf surU kr idwqf. jdoN kdy Auh iksy ieMtrivAU ivwcoN asPl rih jFdI qF sfgr Aus AuWpr iKJx lgdf qy Aus nMU keI qrHF dy qfany imhxy mfrn lwgdf. ijs nflL Aus df rihMdf hOslf vI tuwt jFdf. ies DuMdly mfhOl ivwc afpsI rumFick iKwc vI Gtx lwgI. Auh gwl gwl qy bihsx lgdy. AuhnF dI ijMdgI ivwc iewk amoV qxfa afAuxf surU ho igaf.

Aus idn dovyN sfgr dy dPqr dy dosqF nflL pihlI vyr ipkink qy gey hoey sn. rUp pUrI sj Dj ky afeI sI. Auh Aus idn ipkink ivwc sfml sfrIaF aOrqF nfloN afpxy afp nUM sohxI smJ rhI sI. pr Auh iekwlI iewk pfsy sB qoN alwg Qlwg bYTI sI.

sfgr ny Aus dy kol af ky ikhf, “rUp qMU GroN ipkink mnfAux afeI eyN jF iPr ies iekwl df aPsos krn? jfh, jf ky lokF nflL GulL imlL qy ienjfey kr”.

“koeI myry nflL gwl eI neIN krdf, mYN kI krF?

“awCf cwl AuWT afpF QoVHI dyr bYzimMtn Kyzdy hF.”

“sfVHI ivwc mYN Kyz nhIN skFgI.”

“iPr slvfr sUt jF jInj pihn ky ikAuN nhIN afeI?”

“qusIN vI kI gwl krdy ho? rUp hYrfn hoeI bolI, mYN pihlI vfr quhfzy afiPs dy lokF nflL bfhr afeI hF mYN sj Dj ky qF afAuxf hI sI.”

“rUp iensfn nMU afpxy suK aqy shUlq nMU dyK ky hI pihnxf prcxf cfhIdf hY. dUsiraF nMU pRBfvq krn dy cwkr ivwc afpxy leI koeI musIbq KVHI krnf ikwQoN dI smJdfrI hY?”

“jfE, qusIN prysLfn nF hovo. afpxy ZMg nflL mYN vI ipkink df anMd lY rhI hF.”

sfgr leI rUp df ijMdgI pRqI ieh iekFqmeI njrIaf brdfsq qoN bfhr huMdf jf irhf sI. afpxI pqnI dy ivakqIqv nMU lY ky Aus dy mn ivwc keI gihrIaF skfieqF vsxIaF surU ho geIaF sn. ‘rUp nUM kI cwtxY, jy pqnI sosLl nf hovy.’ keI vfr Auh socdf.

Aus nMU Auh idn ajy vI Xfd sI ijs idn Aus dy dosqF vwloN rUp dy afAux qy pihlI vfr AuhnF nMU svfgq pfrtI leI bulfieaf igaf sI.

“kdoN qwk hor cwlygI ieh pfrtI?” isrP iewk GMty bfad jdoN rUp ny sfgr qoN pwuiCaf qF Auh hYrfn rih igaf.

“ajy qF kfPI dyr cwlygI, kI qMU bor ho rhI eyN?” sfgr nMU rUp df mUz kuwJ TIk nF jfipaf.

“pfrtI ivwc sLrfb cldI hox kfrn myrf qF isr Pitaf jf irhY, sfzy Gr ivwc qF sLrfb df pYr nhIN sI pYx idwqf jFdf.”

pfrtI ivwc kdy kdfeIN sLrfb pIx nflL koeI sLrfbI nhIN ho jFdf. ieh sfry dosq ijMmydfr aqy suGV GrylU iensfn hn. jo prvfirk aqy smfijk kdrF kImqF ivwc ivsvfs rwKdy ny. myrf iehnF sB nflL roj df imlxf iglxf hY. sfzf ienHF qoN ibnF gujfrf nhIN. qMU pfrtI ivwc afeIaF lyzIj nflL myl jol vDf. sfrIaF hI qF qyrIaF hmAumr ny.” sfgr ny slfh idqI.

“Auh sB qF myry nflL ies qrHF ivhfr kr rhIaF ny ijvyN mYN iksy jMgl ivcoN PV ky ilaFdI hoeI hovF. kI aMgryjI bolx nflL jF dUsiraF dy pqIaF nflL hws ky bolx nflL hI koeI mfzrn ho jFdf ey?” rUp ny icVH ky ikhf.

“ieh qMU iks qrHF dIaF gwlF krdI eyN rUp? sfzI sB dI afps ivwc bhuq purfxI jfx pihcfx hY iesy leI iewk dUsry nflL KuwlH ky hws bol lYdy hF. qMU aYvyN iksy dy cirwqr qy sLwk krn dI mUrKqf kdy nF krIN.” sfgr ny guwsy nflL Aus nMU smJfAux dI koisLs kIqI.

pr rUp afpxy afp ivwc ismtdI geI Aus dI hIx Bfvnf ny Aus nMU iblkul iekwilaF kr idwqf. Aus dy aijhy ivhfr nflL bhuq sfry pirvfr AuhnF qoN dUr huMdy gey. sfgr df Aus qoN moh BMg hox lwgf qy hux Auh afpxf ijafdf vkq GroN bfhr hI gujfrn lwgf.

iesy kfl ivwc sImf, sfgr dI ivsLysL dosq bx ky AuWBrI. dPqr dy sfry lok ieh hI smJdy sn ik AuhnF ivwc rumFs cwl irhf hY. ies gwl ivwc iksy hwd qwk scfeI vI sI. sfgr smF imlx AuWqy aksr Aus nflL rumFitk gwlF krdf rihMdf.

sImf vI Aus nMU psLMd krdI sI. jdoN kdI vI Auh iekwl dI BMnIN hoeI Audfs ho jFdI qF Aus vkq sfgr dI nyVqf hI Aus df shfrf sI. keI nfjLk plF ivwc sImf ny afpxy idl ivwc sfgr pRqI inwGIaF qy koml BfvnfvF dIaF krUMblLF dy Putfry nUM anuBv kIqf sI. Aus dy ivakqIqv dI iKwc sImf nMU bVI isLwdq nflL Aus vwl iKwcIN jf rhI sI. kdI kdI duicwqI dI qyjL Dfr AuWqy qurdI Auh bhuq Audfs ho jFdI qy plkF qoN Aus dy hMJU lwK Xqn krn qy vI zwky nf jFdy. Aus nMU afpxIaF iQVkdIaF BfvnfvF qy kfbU pfAuxf aOKf ho jFdf. Auh jfxdI sI ik sfgr sLfdI sLudf hY. pr Auh ieh vI jfxdI sI ik Aus dy idl dy iksy kony ivwc sfgr ny iewk cMgy dosq nfloN ikqy vwD qy kUlLI QF bxf leI sI.

dPqr ivwc sfgr, afpxy rUp nflL idno idn ivgV rhy sbMDF dI gwl sImf nflL hr roj hI krdf. hOlLI hOlLI pqnI Aus dy idl qoN hor dUr, hor dUr aqy pRyimkf hor nyVy, hor nyVy huMdI clI geI.

‘myry mn nMU ijMnI KusLI qy sFqI sImf nflL imldI hY jy ikDry ies df dsvF ihwsf vI rUp qoN imlL jfvy qF mYN afpxy afp nMU KusLiksmq smJF.’ sfgr kdI kdI ies qrHF vI socdf. pr afey idn rUp dy nMbr sImf dy mukfbly qy Gtdy hI gey.

iewk idn sImf ny sfgr nMU smJfAux dI koisLs kIqI. “asIN dovyN iewk hwd qoN vwD ky iewk dUsry dy hor njdIk kdy vI nhIN af skFgy. qYnMU qyrI sQfeI KusLI aqy suK isrP qyrI pqnI hI dy skdI hY qMU rUp nflL afpxy sbMD suDfrn dI koisLsL kr.”

“sImf, rUp ijs jIvn sFcy ivwc ZlI hoeI hY Aus qrHF mYN Aus nflL afpxf rihMdf jIvn brbfd nhIN kr skdf. afpxy afp nMU smyN aqy siQqI anusfr bdlx leI Auh iblkuwl hI iqafr nhIN. hux ies irsLqy ivwc pUrf qxfa af cuwkf hY. hux qF ieh kdI vI tuwt skdf hY. myrI iewko iewk afs qyry AuWqy hY. mYN qyry nflL hws bol lYNdf hF, afpxy idl dIaF kr lYNdf hF qF smF pfs ho jFdf hY. pr hux qMU vI mYnUM nYiqkqf dy lYkcr dyxy surU kr idwqy hn. mYnUM qF hux zr lwgdY ik ikDry ies asih tYnsLn nflL myry idmfg dI koeI ns hI nf Pt jfvy.”

“sfgr mYN qyrI dosq ies leI hF, ikAuNik qUM smJdfr hYN, sMvydnsLIl hYN. mYN qYnUM iewk cMgf iensfn smJdI hF. pr qUM afp hI soc ik ies qrHF doicwqI dI iqwKI Dfr AuWqy koeI ikMnF ku icr qur skdY?”

sgoN ieh sux ky sfgr df ichrf iKV AWuiTaf, “sImf qMU myrI sB qoN awCI dosq eyN, ieh qMU vI mMndI eyN, hux doicwqI Cwz qy QoVI ijhI ihMmq idKf ky dosq qoN pRyimkf vI bx jf.”

sImf ny kuwJ dyr socx df nftk kIqf qy iPr bolI, “ies prymkf pqnI df PYslf rUp nflL slfh kr ky krFgI.”

“bhuq sLYqfn ey qMU.” ieh kihMidaF hoieaF sfgr ny sImF nUM afpxI glvwkVI ivwc Guwt ilaf.

sfgr qy rUp dy sbMD idno idn bd qoN bdqr huMdy gey. Auh inwkI inwkI gwl qoN guwsy ho jFdy qy iPr ikMny ikMny idn iewk dUsry nflL boldy qwk nf. ies df asr AunHF dy mfnsk aqy srIrk sbMDF AuWpr vI pYx lwgf. iewk rfq rumFck plF qoN ipwCoN AunHF ivwc iewk ajyhI iqwKI qkrfr hoeI ik rUp qoN sfgr hmysF leI dUr ho igaf, jIvn dI inrml JIl dy Ault idsLf vwl vihMdy pfxIaF dI qrHF, ijnHF dIaF phfV kMDF hr pl hor AuWcIaF huMdIaF jFdIaF hn qy ijnHF dIaF KwzF-KfeIaF hr pl hor zUMGIaF huMdIaF jFdIaF hn, kdy vI vfps nF afAux aqy kdI vI muV nF imlx leI.

sfgr dy dUr ho jfx ipwCoN rUp iblkuwl hI tuwt geI. Aus dI iekwlqf shfry lwBx lwgI. soc ivcfrn ipwCoN Aus nUM afpxI trFto rihMdI shylI rIaf ivwc hI koeI afs dI ikrn idKfeI idwqI qy Aus nMU Pon kr ky sfrI gwl dwsI. rIaf nflL pihlF vI Auh afpxy ivgV rhy sbMDf bfry gwl kr ilaf krdI sI. pr rIaf nMU ieh AumId nhIN sI ik gwl iewQoN qwk phuMc jfvygI. Auh socdI pihlF pihl sfiraF nMU iewk dUsry nMU smJx qy shfrn leI vkq lgdf hY. iPr nvyN hflfqF dI afdI hoeI Gr girsqI dI gwzI afpy lIh qy af jFdI hY. pr rUp dI sfgr dy Cwz ky cly jfx vflLI gwl Aus nMU vI hYrfn prysLfn kr geI.

dUsry hI hPqy rIaf aqy Ausdf pqI afey sn ivktorIaf qy AuhnF ny bhuq koisLsL kIqI sI sfgr nMU smJfAux dI pr Auh nhIN sI mMinaF. AuhnF dI slfh nflL rUp ivktorIaf Cwz ky hmysLf leI trftoN af vsI. AuhnF ny ijwQy AusnMU rihx sihx df shfrf idwqf qy nflL hI Aus df mnobl vI pYrF isr KVHf krn df Xqn kIqf. kuwJ hI idnF ivwc rlL iml ky koisLsL krn nflL rUp nMU iewk jOb iml geI. bIqy dI sfrI Bwj tuwt ivwcoN rUp ny afpxy afp nMU AuBfrnf sLurU kIqf.

PYimlI zfktr dy dwsx AuWqy qF ijvyN Auh iPr qoN ijAuNidaF dI kqfr ivwc af geI sI. “kMgrYcUlysLn mYm, XU afr [[[.

jIvn dI ies nvIN PuwtI mlUk krUMbl ny Aus dy jIvn ivwc vI jIx dI iewk nvIN afs lY aFdI. Auh pUry hOsly nflL kMm qy jFdI qy ivhly smyN ivwc afpxy ies afAux vflLy bwcy nflL sMvfd rcfAuNdI. bfhr lokF nflL myl imlfp aqy gwlbfq krn nflL Aus df aMgryjLI bolx df aiBafs vI hox lwg ipaf qy Aus ivwc suDfr hox lwg ipaf. idnF ivwc hI Auh kMm clfAU cMgI aMgryjI bolx lwg peI.

iPr Auh GVI vI af geI ijs dI Aus nUM ieMqjfr sI. nMnHIN ijhI koml ijhI ‘sugMDI’ Aus dI CfqI nflL lwgI hoeI sI. mF DI ivwc afpsI iksy mhF anMd df afdfn prdfn ho irhf sI. Aus dI afpxI DI, Aus df aslI shfrf, Aus dy ijAUx df mksd. Auh sugMDI nMU ikMnI hI dyr afpxI CfqI nflL lfeIN hMJU vhfAuNdI rhI sI.
sugMDI dy jnm qoN bfad Auh kuwJ dyr Gr rhI. pMjfb ivwc bI[ey pfs krn qoN bfad Aus ny nrisMg dI tryinMg leI hoeI sI. rIaf ny Aus nMU slfh idwqI ik Auh iewQy vI nrisMg leI aplfeI kr dyvy. Aus nMU rIaf dI slfh cMgI lwgI qy Aus ny ihAUmn irsors dI shfieqf nflL nrisMg dIaF klfsF surU kr idwqIaF. ies nflL ijwQy gOrimMt Aus nMU Aus tryinMg dI PIs idMdI sI AuWQy sugMDI dI bybI isitMg aqy rUp dIaF hor jrUrqF leI vI afrQk mwdd krdI sI.

rUp ny afpxI lgn aqy imhnq nflL cMgy nMbrf ivwc nrisMg dI tryinMg pUrI kr leI. bhuq jldI hI iewk hspqfl ivwc Aus nMU nrs dI nOkrI iml geI. iPr Ausny kdy vI ipwCf muV ky nhIN dyiKaf. Gr Auh afpxI DI nflL Kus rihMdI. hspqfl ivwc mrIjLF dI qnoN mnoN rwj ky syvf krdI qy AunHF dIaF asIsF df inwG mfxdI.
sfgr nMU pqf sI ik rUp trFto ivwc hY pr Aus ny kdy vI Aus nMU imlx dI koisLsL nF kIqI qy nF hI Aus ny kdy afpxI DI nMU imlx jF dyKx dI Kfihs hI jfhr kIqI. Kbry AusdIaF aqy sImf dIaF sfrIaF hI sImfvF Kqm ho geIaF sn. ‘pqf nhIN lokI ieqny ikEN bymohy ho jFdy ny.’ kdI kdI rUp socdI.

mOsm ny keI rMg bdly. vrHy bIqdy gey. rUp ny afpxI DI sugMDI nMU rIJF nflL pVHfieaf ilKfieaf. afpxIaF aDUrIaF iewCfvF sugMDI rfhIN pUrIaF krn dIaF ivAuNqF bxfeIaF. Aus dI imhnq rMg ilafeI awj kwlH Aus dI DI iewk kort ivwc vkflq kr rhI sI.

“mMm qusIN ikwQy guvfc gey, mYN quhfzy nflL gwl kr rhI hF.”

jdoN sugMDI ny PV ky JMjoiVaf qf Aus dI surq vfps prqI. Aus nMU jfipaf ijvy ienHF kuwJu ku plF ivwc Auh virHaF df sPr kr ky prqI hovy. pqf nhIN ikMnI ku dyr sugMDI vkIlF vFg Aus nMU bdl rhy jmfny bfry dsdI rhI sI, “mMm hux Auh jLmfnf nhIN irhf ik iewk vfr ijs nflL quhfzf ivafh ho igaf qusIN sfrI Aumr Ausy nflL bwJy rho. jy quhfzy afps ivwc ivcfr nhIN imldy qF mMm iewk dUsry AuWpr afpxy ivcfr Tosx dI bjfey alwg ho jfxf cMgf huMdf ey. ijs jIvn ivwc afey idn koeI nf koeI iglf isLkvf sLfml rhy Aus jIvn nMU ijAUxf nhIN kihMdy mMm, Auh qF irsLqy Zox vflLI gwl huMdI ey, glL ipaf Zol bjfAux vflLI gwl huMdI ey. ijwQy koeI quhfzI soc dy hfx df quhfnMU iml jfvy AuWQy nvNy irsLqy Ausfr lYxy cfhIdy ny. iensfn nMU ijMdgI df BrBUr anMd mfnx df hwk imlxf cfhIdf hY.”

“pr bytf irsLqy kpVy vI qy nhIN nF huMdy, ik jdo idl kIqf purfxy Auqfr ik nvyN pihn ley.” rRUp ijvyN iksy gihrI AudfsI ivcoN bolI.

rUp dI gl sux ik, sugMDI kuwJ plF leI KfmosL ho geI. Auh socx lgI, “hF mMm ieh swc ey, ik irsLqy kpVy nhIN huMdy ieh vI swc ey, ik ijs iensfn nMU qusIN kdy idl dIaF gihrfeIaF ivco cfihaf hovy Aus nflo qoV ivCoVf krnF ieqnf afsfn nhI huMdf. pr joo irsLqy nfsUr bx jfx ijnHF df jLihr hr pl quhfzIaF BfvnfvF nMU zwsdf rhy. ijnHF df drd idn bidn vDdf hI jfvy … qy iek Kfmos ijhI mOq qusIN afey idn mrdy rho aijhy mry hoey irsLiqaF nfl jIvIaf vI qy nhIN nF jFdf mMm.”

sugMDI dI kuwJ plF dI cup rUp nMU aMdr qk ihlf geI. pihlI vfr Aus ny afpxI DI dIaF awKF ivc iksy gihry drd dI Jlk dyKI sI. Aus nMU aihsfs hoieaf, ijvyN sugMDI df jLKmI mn aMdr hI aMdr koeI iBaMkr jMg lV irhf hovy.

kuwJ pl dI cuwp qoN bfad sugMDI rUp dy glL ivc bFhvF pf ky Aus dIaF aWKF dI gihrfeI ivc dyKdI hoeI bolI, “mMm mYnMU kdy kdy hYrfnI huMdI ey, ik qusLI sfrI Aumr iksy sfQI qoN ibnHF ikvyN kwZ leI? kI quhfnMU kdy iksy dy sfQ dI jrUrq mihsUs nhIN sI hoeI? kI kdI qusIN afpxy jIvn df sB kuwJ ibrQf ibrQf jf irhf anuBv nhIN sI kIqf?”

sugMDI dI gl sux ky, rUp dy ichry qy acfnk drd dy Bfv AuWBr afey sn. Auh socx lgI ikvyN dwsF, mYN afpxI DI nMU ik iekwlqf BrIaF lMbIaF kflLIaF rfqF ikvyN gujfrIaF sn Ausny? jIvn df iek lMbf KflI pYNzf qurdI qurdI Auh qy Qwk tuwt hI geI sI. hr moV qy hr pl iksy afpxy iewk dy sfQ nMU qrsdI rhI sI Auh. idl dIaF gihrfeIaF ivcoN ipafr kIqf sI Aus ny sfgr nMU. Aus nfloN ivCVn qoN bfad lwK koisLsL krn qy vI koeI hor Ausdy mn nMU nhIN sI Bfieaf. koeI hor Aus dIaF socF dy myc nhIN sI af sikaf. ijs vkq sfgr dI byvPfeI Aus nMU Xfd afAuNdI Aus vkq iksy hor leI Aus dy mn ivc PutdIaF BfvnfvF df kql ho jFdf…duwD dI sVI sdf lwsI nUM vI PUkF mfrdI rhI qy irsLqy Ausrn qoN pihlF hI dm qoV idMdy. ikMnI vfr Auh afp vI iehnF inwq mrdy irsLiqaf nfl mrI sI.

Auh bolI, “hUM! BilaF vyilLaF ivwc aglf jnm suafrn dI afs ivwc, ies jnm dy sfry duwK suwK aOKy sOKy ho ky kwt ley jFdy sn.”

“mMm, hux smF agly supneI cMgy jnm dI afs ivwc ies jnm nUM rolx mDolx df nhIN, sgoN iesy jnm nUM sPlf krn aqy mfnx df smF hY. hux apxIaF prfpqIaF nUM iksy Dfrimk asQfn AuWqy jf ky DUP vFg DuKfAux df smF nhIN, sgoN AunHF nUM afpxy aMg lfAux df smF hY. ley glq inrinaF AuWqy JUrn df smF nhIN, sgoN jIvn ivwc afey KfeI Kfqy pUrn df smF hY [[[”

Aus vkq rUp kol sugMDI dI iksy vI gwl df koeI jvfb nhIN sI. sugMDI jf cuwkI sI. rUp Aus rfq sO nhIN sI skI sfrI hI rfq Auh ienHF bdldy dy irsLiqaF dy rUp smJx dI koisLsL krdI rhI. Auh socdI rhI sI ik iewk vfr iksy iewk nflL juV jfx qoN bfad ikvNy iensfn iksy hor nflL juV skdf hY. irsLiqaF dI ieh nvI pRIBfsf Aus dI smJ ivwc nhIN sI af rhI ik smF ikvyN aqy kdoN ilK igaf.

(24 nvMbr 2005)