ipCly
kuJ idnF qoN mYNnUM ieh gwl bVI hI qMg kr rhI sI ik
afKLr myrf Aus nfl irsLqf kI hY? Auh myrI kI lgdI hY?
ijMnf vI ies suafl bfry socdf, AnF hI mYN mfnisk
sMquln vDyry ivgfV bYTdf. kdy-kdy iKafl afAuNdf hY ik
ieh jLrUrI qF nhIN ik hr ivakqI nUM irsLqy dI aYnk
nfl hI dyiKaf jfvy. afKr iehnF aKOqI irsLiqaF qoN
Aupr vI koeI sFJ qF ho skdI hY. pr iPr vI, ieh
sFJ iks rUp dI hY jF iks pWDr dI hY, ies
vfry qF inrxf krnf hI pvygf.
ajnvI
ies
sLihr ivc myrI bdlI nvIN-nvIN hI hoeI sI. kflj dI
pRoPYsrI sI. mkfn dI jLrUrq peI, iml vI igaf, pr ieh
mkfn kflj qoN bhuq dUr sI. ieh kflonI nvIN-nvIN hI
afbfd hoeI sI, ies leI mkfn ssqf vI iml igaf. mflk-mkfn
afp bfhr rihMdf sI, pr ies mkfn dy nfl lgdy Bfg ivWc
Auh afpxI mF smyq rihMdI sI. pihly idn mYN isLPt kIqf
qF Auh bgYr iksy iJjk qoN myry kmry ivc af bVI.
kI
gwl, qusIN kwly hI irhf krogy? aFtI nfl nhIN afey?
Aus dy ieh iekwTy do suafl mYNnUM ieMny bury nf lgdy
jy myry nfl do kflj dy ividafrQI nf afey huMdy ijhVy
clo sr! quhfzf sfmfn lvf afeIey kih ky
afey sn.
Aus
dy iehnF suaflF nUM sux ky muMizaF ny myry vwl pRsLn-sUck
ingfhF nfl dyiKaf sI.
mYN
bVI iKwcoqfx ijhI ivc Ps igaf. mYN soicaf, ikqy muMzy
Aus nfl myry sMbMDF vfry koeI glq Dfrnf nf bxf lYx.
ies leI mYN Aus dy suaflF df koeI jvfb nf idwqf. Auh
vfps clI geI.
Aus
dy vfps jfx qoN bfad mYNnUM afpxy afp AuWqy guwsf
ijhf afieaf. afKr mYNnUM Aus nfl aijhf ivhfr qF nhIN
sI krnf cfhIdf. Auh Bolypx nfl hI qF afeI sI. nfly
AuNj vI qF DIaF vrgI sI. Aus dI Aumr ikQy qy myrI
Aumr ikQy. Auh ivcfrI msF solHF-sqfrF sfl dI sI aqy
mYN pMjfhF nUM AuWpVn vflf sI. mYnUM afpxy kIqy AuWqy
pCqfvf ijhf ho irhf sI.
DI
ies
leI Aus sLfm jdoN mYN kfljoN vfps afieaf qF afpxy
kmry ivwc jfx dI QF iswDf Aus dy Gr cilaf igaf.
mYNnUM dyK ky ijvyN Aus nUM cfa ijhf cVH igaf hovy.
KusLI nfl Auh AuWzI iPr rhI sI.
mYN
Aus dI mF kol bYT igaf. mF dIaF gwlF qoN lwigaf ik
AuQy Auh dovyN mF-DI hI rihMdIaF hn. Aus df ipAu
ipCly sfl hI kfrKfny dI msLIn dI lpyt ivc af igaf sI.
kfrKfny dy mflk bVy hmdrd sn, ijnHF ny pMj hjLfr
rupeIaf ievjLfnf idWqf sI aqy ieh vI Brosf idvfieaf
sI ik jy kuVI suirMdr mYitRk pfs kr lvy qF Aus nUM
dPqr ivc nOkrI vI dy dyxgy. Aus dI mF ny hI mYnUM
dwisaf ik Auh awTvIN pfs kr ky hI ht geI sI aqy hux
jdoN Aus nUM pqf lwigaf ik nfl lwgdy kmry ivc mfstr
jI af rhy hn qF KusLI nfl PuwlI nhIN sI smfAuNdI.
iewny ivc hI suirMdr cfh lY afeI. hux mYN Aus vwl ghu
nfl dyiKaf, Auhdy nYx-nksL mYnUM iblkul afpxI DI jwsI
vrgy hI lwgy. BfvyN jwsI dI Aumr hfly msF do ku viraF
dI sI pr mYnUM jfipaf ijvyN Auh solHF-sqfrF sflF dI
bx ky myry sfhmxy af KVHI hovy. myrI DI jwsI_ _
suirMdr _ _ jwsI.
ividafrQI
mYN
cfh df glfs PVidaF pwuiCaf, kI qUM gfhF pVHnf
cfhuMdI eyN?
sr,
mYN dsvIN dI PIs BrI hoeI hY. sr, qusIN mYnUM ihsfb
qy aMgryjI pVHf idaf kro.
mYN
cfh dIaF GuwtF Br irhf sF aqy soc irhf sF ik ieh vI
ivD-mfqf df ikho ijhf iDfn hY ik ijwQy ivwidaf dI
Auqsukqf hY , AuWQy ivWidaf nhIN hY aqy ijwQy ivWidaf
nUM jbr smiJaf jFdf hY (kflj, ikAuN jo kflj ivc
ividafrQIaF ny awj iksy kfrn myrf pIrIaz nhIN sI
lfieaf), AuQy mwlo-mwlI ivWidaf idwqI jf rhI hY. mYN
Aus dIaF awKF ivc Jfk ky Aus dy mn ivc AWuqr igaf.
swc-muwc hI Auh cfhuMdI sI ik Auh CyqI hI mYitRk pfs
kr lvy aqy kfrKfny dy dPqr ivc nOkrI krn lwg jfvy.
Aus smyN mYnUM AusnUM pVHf ky mYitRk pfs krvf dyxf
dunIaf df sB qoN vwzf puMn jfp irhf sI.
Aus
dI Xogqf dI pRIiKaf lYx leI mYN Aus nUM kuJ suafl
jLbfnI puwCy, ijs qoN mYNnUM pUrI qrHF ieh Brosf ho
igaf ik Auh iehnF ivisLaF bfry kfPI kuJ pihlF hI
jfxdI hY aqy afsfnI nfl Aus nUM awgy pVHfieaf jf skdf
hY. mUl idlcspI qF Aus aMdr pihlF hI mOjUd sI, hux qF
kyvl Aus dI ies idlcspI nUM hor awgy vDfAux dI gwl sI.
mYN Aus nUM sLfmI Cy vjy df smF dy idwqf.
agly
idn Cy vwjx ivc hfly ds imMt rihMdy sn ik Auh ikqfbF-kfpIaF
lY ky af geI.
ies
vfr Aus dI ieh pihlF afAux vflI hrkq mYNnUM ieqnI
burI nhIN sI lwgI. sgoN mYNnUM ijvyN kuJ cMgf-cMgf
ijhf lwigaf sI. mYN dyiKaf, kwlH vflLI suirMdr aqy
awj vflI suirMdr ivc kuJ Prk sI. kwlH ijWQy Auh Gryl
UkMmF ivc AulJI ijhI lwgI sI, awj Aus dy kwpVy vI
bdly hoey sn. pusLfk BfvyN suDfrn sI, pr sfP sI aqy
Aus dy vfl iswDI qrHF vfhy hoey sn. Aus dy hwQ ivc
ikqfbF-kfpLIaF sn. ies vyly mYN Aus df mukfblf afpxy
kflj dIaF AuhnF kuVIaF nfl kr irhf sF ijhVIaF jIn
pfAuNdIaF hn, ijnHF dy vfl kwty hoey hn aqy _ _ _.
kwlH nfloN awj ivc ijhVF iewk hor vrxnXog Prk mYN
mihsUs kIqf, Auh ieh sI ik awj Auh mYNnUM myrI DI
jwsI vrgI nhIN, sgoN iksy ividafrQx vrgI jfp rhI sI.
mYNnUM ies qrHF lwigaf ijvyN sfzy irsLiqaF ivc kuJ
aMqr af igaf hovy. mYN Aus nUM bYT jfx leI ikhf,
ihsfb dy do PfrmUly pVHfey ijhVy Aus ny CyqI hI smJ
ley, aqy aMgryjLI dI iek kivqf pVHfeI ijhVI vI Aus ny
smJ leI.
ies
qrHF kridaF-krfAuNidaF sfZy swq vwj cuwky sn. pqf hI
nhIN sI lwigaf ik smF kdoN bIq igaf sI
mYN
soc irhf sI ik jy sfry ividafrQI hI aijhy hox ik
aiDafpk dI iek vfr smJfeI gwl nUM hI smJ lYx qF
aiDafpk aqy ividafrQI dy sMbMDF ivc hor vI prpwkqf af
skdI hY. Auh hor pVHnf cfhuMdI sI pr mYN Aus nUM cly
jfx leI ikhf. ies df kfrn iewk qF ieh sI ik idn Zl
cuwikaf sI aqy dUsry iekwly rihx krky rsoeI afid df
kMm vI mYN afp hI krnf sI. qy ies qrHF df rutIn ijhf
bx igaf. hux mYN Cy vjy qoN pihlF hI iqafr ho jFdf.
Auh afAuNdI qF mYN pUrf qfx lf ky Aus nUM pVHfAuNdf.
aiDafpk
leI pVHfAux df suafd vI AuQy hI hY, ijwQy ividafrQI
pUrI qrHF sikRaf rhy. jo kuJ vI mYN pVHfAuNdf jF
ijhVf vI mYN kMm dsdf, Auh pUrI qrHF kr ky ilafAuNdI.
aijhy ividafrQI nUM pVHfAuxf qF hor vI afsfn huMdf hY.
hux Auh afpxy afp hI clI jFdI.
Aus
dy cly jfx qoN bfad pqf nhIN ikAuN mYNnUM afpxf Gr
iekdm KflI-KflI jfpx lwg pYNdf.
sr,
qusIN rotI afp pkfAuNdy E ? jy burf nf mMnoN qF mYN
pkf jfieaf krF ?, iewk idn Aus ny jfx lwigaF
mYNnUM ikhf.
AuNj
qF mYN nhIN cfhuMdf ik Aus qoN rotI pkvfeI jfvy. pr
ieh rotI pkfAuxf, dfl-sbjLI Drnf vI iek Kljgx hI qF
hY. myrI sfrI ijMdgI afp rotIaF pkfAux ivc hI lMGI hY.
afpxy ividafrQI-kfl ivc mYN hostlF ivc nf rih ky bfhr
sLihr aMdr kmrf lY ky piVHaf krdf sF. hotl dI rotI
qoN qF mYNnUM AuNj vI icV hY. ies leI afp hI Qwp ilaf
krdf sF. jdoN asIN, mYN qy pqnI, iekwly sF qd vI Gto-Gwt
rotI afid dy mfmly ivc mYN Aus dI qVI nhIN sI JwlI.
Ptf-Pt aftf guMinaf qy qvy Aupr Qwp leIaF. afp pkfeI
rotI suafd vI qF ikMnI huMdI hY, BfvyN kwci-ipWlI hI
hovy. pr Aus dy ieMnf puWCx Auqy pqf nhIN ikAuN mYN
kih bYTf, nhIN isMdI! qUM lyt ho jfieaf kryNgI.
qUM Gr df kMm vI krnY. nfly mF iPkr kiraf krygI.
nhIN
jI, mF qoN puwC afeI hF.
mF
qy
agly idn svyry hI Aus ny drvfjLf KVkfieaf. jdoN Aus
dy drvfjLf KVkfAux dI afvjL suxfeI idwqI, mYNnUM ieMj
jfipaf ijvyN Auh kfPI dyr qoN Twp-Twp kr rhI sI.
sLfied Aus ny kuJ afvfjLF vI idWqIaF sn. ies vyly Aus
df drvfjLf KVkfAuxf mYNnUM cMgf-cMgf lwigaf sI. inwky
huMidaF jdoN mYN afpxy kmry ivc suwqf ipaf huMdf sF
qF myrI mF vI svyr vyly kuJ iesy qrHF hI drvfjLy Auqy
dsqk dy ky mYNnUM jgfieaf krdI sI.
jdoN
mYN drvfjLf KoilHaf qF hwkf-bwkf hI rih igaf. Aus dy
hwQ ivc cfh df glfs sI ijhVf Auh afpxy GroN bxf ky
ilafeI sI. mYNnUM iKafl afieaf ik bcpn ivc jdoN
drvfjLf KoilHaf krdf sF qF myrI mF vI iesy qrHF cfh
df glfs leI KVHI huMdI sI.
myry
leI ieh mfnx vflI siQqI sI. ies leI Aus koloN cfh df
glfs PVidaF mYnUM jfipaf ijvyN mYN swc-muwc bwcf hovF
qy Auh _ _ _
Aupr
jf ky afieaf qF guslKfny ivc grm pfxI ipaf sI aqy
bhukr nfl kmrf sfPL kr rhI sI.
pfxI
grm krn dI kI loV sI ? mYN suBfivk hI afK Czdf
hF
srdIaF
ivc TMZy pfxI nfl nhfAux nfl jLukfm ho jFdY.
Aus dI afvfjL sux ky qF mYN TTMbr hI igaf. Aus nUM
ieh gwl iks ny dwsI ik myrI mF eydF hI afiKaf krdI sI.
srdIaF ivc TMZy pfxI nfl nhfAux nfl jLukfm ho
jFdY.
pRyimkf
ieWk
idn dupihr vyly Auh myry kol afeI. mYN suwqf ipaf sF.
grmI hovy jF srdI, dupihr vyly sOx dI afdq myrI
purfxI hY. jdoN myrI awK KuwlI qF Auh myry
tybl
Auqy bYTI myrI ikqfb pirsiQqIaF pVH rhI
sI. Auh kursI Auqy ikAuN nhIN bYTI ? ies suafl ny
mYnUN hor vI ivcilq kr idWqf sI ikAuNju eydF myry
tybl Auqy bYT ky qF myrI ieh ikqfb myrI pRyimkf hrpfl
piVHaf krdI sI.
mYNnUM
AuTidaF dyK ky Aus ny ikhf, mYNnUM afeI nUM
pOxf GMtf ho igaf. qusIN bVIaF CotIaF khfxIaF ilKdy
ho. mYN sfrI ikqfb pVH mfrI hY. Aus dy ieMnf
kihx Auqy qF mYN iblkul hI mr ijhf igaf sF. myry aMdr
ijvyN sfh-dq hI nf irhf hovy. hrpfl ny vI iesy myjL
Auqy bYT ky, myry eydF hI suwiqaF ipaF, ieh sfrI
ikqfb pVH mfrI sI.
BYx
jfpdf
hY, ieiqhfs afpxy afp nUM duhrfAuNdf hY. GtnfvF
duhrfeIaF jFdIaF hn. jF iPr iksy gwl df dUsrI gwl nfl
iml jfxf ieqPfk huMdf hY. Auh rwKVI vfly idn Aus df
myrI klfeI Aupr rwKVI bMnxf ieWk ajIb ieqPLfk hI qF
sI. Aus idn BYx dI rwKVI nhIN sI afeI aqy mYN kuJ
Audfs ijhf sF. pr myrI ieh AudfsI iCx-BMgr hI sI.
jdoN Aus ny rwKVI bMnH ky imsrI myry mUMh ivc pfeI qF
ijvyN myry aMdr ieWk akih suafd Gul igaf sI. mYN Aus
nUM kfPI sfry pYsy dyxf cfhuMdf sI pr hfly qF mhIny
df afKrI hPLqf hI cwl irhf sI. myrI jyb KflI sI. ies
leI mYN kyvl Aus df isr plos sikaf. myrf hwQ jdoN Aus
dy isr Auqy iPiraf qF mYN mihsUs kIqf ik Aus dy ichry
Auqy ajIb qrHF dI qbdIlI af rhI sI. Auh muskRf rhI sI.
qy hux mYN ieh kI ilKF ik ieh muskRfht myrI BYx dI
muskRfht nfl ikMnI imldI-juldI sI.
pqnI
myrI
jF Aus dI imhnq nUM Pl lwg igaf sI. Auh mYtirk ivcoN
cMgy nMbrF nfl pfs ho geI sI. awj jdoN Auh afeI qF
Auh itk ky nhIN sI bYT rhI. awj Auh ieMnI KLusL sI ik
mYNnUM Auh hor hI qrHF dI lwg rhI sI. asl ivc hux
myry Xfd afAuNdf hY ik jdoN df mYN Aus dy isr Aupr
hwQ Pyiraf hY, Auh Auh nhIN sI rhI. Auh iksy nf iksy
bhfny myry nfl sprsL krn dI koisLsL krdI. jdoN kfpI
idKfAux lgdI qF pUrI qrHF myry Auqy Juk jFdI. cfh
PVfAuNdI qF acyq hI AusdIaF AuNglF myrIaF AuNglF nfl
lwg jFdIaF. pihlF qF mYN ies gwl nUM gOilaf nhIN sI,
pr awj jdoN Auh bgYr iksy iejfjLq qoN af ky soPy Auqy
myry kol hI bYT geI aqy afpxf rIjLlt kfrz idKfAux
lwgI hws peI, qF gwl myrI kuJ smJ ivc peI. kuVI ieWk
sI pr ikMnI CyqI Aus df rUp bdl jFdf sI. qnKfh nf
imlx krky mYN kfPI dyr qoN Gr nhIN sF jf sikaf. pqf
nhIN ikAuN awj Auh mYNnUM myrI pqnI vFg hI jfp rhI sI.
ieh aihsfs hoieaf hI sI ik agly pl Auh myrI glvwkVI
aMdr sI. mYNnUM ies gwl df pqf qwk nhIN sI ik pihl
myry vwloN hoeI sI jF Aus vwloN. bs asIN ieWk dUsry _
_ _
pr
agly pl mYN ho igaf sF. ieh mYN kI kr irhf hF ? kI
ieh Gor pfp nhIN ? kI mYN aiDafpk hF ? kI mYN agFhvDU
ilKfrI hF ? ikMny hI suafl myry idmfg aMdr ltk gey sn.
mYN
iekdm Aus nUM Cwz ky prHy ho igaf hF. kursI Auqy
afpxy afp nUM suwt ky isrgt sulGf lYNdf hF. Auh kuJ
dyr qF AuvyN hI KVHI rihMdI hY, pr iPr pqf nhIN Aus
dy idl ivc kI afAuNdf hY ik cwp-cfp AuQoN qur pYNdI
hY. Auh jf rhI hY. Aus dI ipWT myry leI afrsI hY. qy
mYN dyKdf hF myrf ichrf ikMnf bdl igaf hY. awDI nfloN
bhuqI dfVHI icwtI aqy gmgIn ichrf. mYN ksL Aupr ksL
iKWcI jf irhf hF!