irsLqy

-(zf:) joigMdr isMG inrflf-

 

ipCly kuJ idnF qoN mYNnUM ieh gwl bVI hI qMg kr rhI sI ik afKLr myrf Aus nfl irsLqf kI hY? Auh myrI kI lgdI hY? ijMnf vI ies suafl bfry socdf, AnF hI mYN mfnisk sMquln vDyry ivgfV bYTdf. kdy-kdy iKafl afAuNdf hY ik ieh jLrUrI qF nhIN ik hr ivakqI nUM irsLqy dI aYnk nfl hI dyiKaf jfvy. afKr iehnF aKOqI irsLiqaF qoN Aupr vI koeI sFJ qF ho skdI hY. pr iPr vI, ieh ‘sFJ’ iks rUp dI hY jF iks pWDr dI hY, ies vfry qF inrxf krnf hI pvygf.

ajnvI

ies sLihr ivc myrI bdlI nvIN-nvIN hI hoeI sI. kflj dI pRoPYsrI sI. mkfn dI jLrUrq peI, iml vI igaf, pr ieh mkfn kflj qoN bhuq dUr sI. ieh kflonI nvIN-nvIN hI afbfd hoeI sI, ies leI mkfn ssqf vI iml igaf. mflk-mkfn afp bfhr rihMdf sI, pr ies mkfn dy nfl lgdy Bfg ivWc Auh afpxI mF smyq rihMdI sI. pihly idn mYN isLPt kIqf qF Auh bgYr iksy iJjk qoN myry kmry ivc af bVI.

“kI gwl, qusIN kwly hI irhf krogy? aFtI nfl nhIN afey?” Aus dy ieh iekwTy do suafl mYNnUM ieMny bury nf lgdy jy myry nfl do kflj dy ividafrQI nf afey huMdy ijhVy “clo sr! quhfzf sfmfn lvf afeIey” kih ky afey sn.

Aus dy iehnF suaflF nUM sux ky muMizaF ny myry vwl pRsLn-sUck ingfhF nfl dyiKaf sI.

mYN bVI iKwcoqfx ijhI ivc Ps igaf. mYN soicaf, ikqy muMzy Aus nfl myry sMbMDF vfry koeI glq Dfrnf nf bxf lYx. ies leI mYN Aus dy suaflF df koeI jvfb nf idwqf. Auh vfps clI geI.

Aus dy vfps jfx qoN bfad mYNnUM afpxy afp AuWqy guwsf ijhf afieaf. afKr mYNnUM Aus nfl aijhf ivhfr qF nhIN sI krnf cfhIdf. Auh Bolypx nfl hI qF afeI sI. nfly AuNj vI qF DIaF vrgI sI. Aus dI Aumr ikQy qy myrI Aumr ikQy. Auh ivcfrI msF solHF-sqfrF sfl dI sI aqy mYN pMjfhF nUM AuWpVn vflf sI. mYnUM afpxy kIqy AuWqy pCqfvf ijhf ho irhf sI.

DI

ies leI Aus sLfm jdoN mYN kfljoN vfps afieaf qF afpxy kmry ivwc jfx dI QF iswDf Aus dy Gr cilaf igaf. mYNnUM dyK ky ijvyN Aus nUM cfa ijhf cVH igaf hovy. KusLI nfl Auh AuWzI iPr rhI sI.

mYN Aus dI mF kol bYT igaf. mF dIaF gwlF qoN lwigaf ik AuQy Auh dovyN mF-DI hI rihMdIaF hn. Aus df ipAu ipCly sfl hI kfrKfny dI msLIn dI lpyt ivc af igaf sI. kfrKfny dy mflk bVy hmdrd sn, ijnHF ny pMj hjLfr rupeIaf ievjLfnf idWqf sI aqy ieh vI Brosf idvfieaf sI ik jy kuVI suirMdr mYitRk pfs kr lvy qF Aus nUM dPqr ivc nOkrI vI dy dyxgy. Aus dI mF ny hI mYnUM dwisaf ik Auh awTvIN pfs kr ky hI ht geI sI aqy hux jdoN Aus nUM pqf lwigaf ik nfl lwgdy kmry ivc mfstr jI af rhy hn qF KusLI nfl PuwlI nhIN sI smfAuNdI. iewny ivc hI suirMdr cfh lY afeI. hux mYN Aus vwl ghu nfl dyiKaf, Auhdy nYx-nksL mYnUM iblkul afpxI DI jwsI vrgy hI lwgy. BfvyN jwsI dI Aumr hfly msF do ku viraF dI sI pr mYnUM jfipaf ijvyN Auh solHF-sqfrF sflF dI bx ky myry sfhmxy af KVHI hovy. myrI DI jwsI_ _ suirMdr _ _ jwsI.

ividafrQI

mYN cfh df glfs PVidaF pwuiCaf, “kI qUM gfhF pVHnf cfhuMdI eyN?”

“sr, mYN dsvIN dI PIs BrI hoeI hY. sr, qusIN mYnUM ihsfb qy aMgryjI pVHf idaf kro.”

mYN cfh dIaF GuwtF Br irhf sF aqy soc irhf sF ik ieh vI ivD-mfqf df ikho ijhf iDfn hY ik ijwQy ivwidaf dI Auqsukqf hY , AuWQy ivWidaf nhIN hY aqy ijwQy ivWidaf nUM jbr smiJaf jFdf hY (kflj, ikAuN jo kflj ivc ividafrQIaF ny awj iksy kfrn myrf pIrIaz nhIN sI lfieaf), AuQy mwlo-mwlI ivWidaf idwqI jf rhI hY. mYN Aus dIaF awKF ivc Jfk ky Aus dy mn ivc AWuqr igaf. swc-muwc hI Auh cfhuMdI sI ik Auh CyqI hI mYitRk pfs kr lvy aqy kfrKfny dy dPqr ivc nOkrI krn lwg jfvy. Aus smyN mYnUM AusnUM pVHf ky mYitRk pfs krvf dyxf dunIaf df sB qoN vwzf puMn jfp irhf sI.

Aus dI Xogqf dI pRIiKaf lYx leI mYN Aus nUM kuJ suafl jLbfnI puwCy, ijs qoN mYNnUM pUrI qrHF ieh Brosf ho igaf ik Auh iehnF ivisLaF bfry kfPI kuJ pihlF hI jfxdI hY aqy afsfnI nfl Aus nUM awgy pVHfieaf jf skdf hY. mUl idlcspI qF Aus aMdr pihlF hI mOjUd sI, hux qF kyvl Aus dI ies idlcspI nUM hor awgy vDfAux dI gwl sI.
mYN Aus nUM sLfmI Cy vjy df smF dy idwqf.

agly idn Cy vwjx ivc hfly ds imMt rihMdy sn ik Auh ikqfbF-kfpIaF lY ky af geI.

ies vfr Aus dI ieh pihlF afAux vflI hrkq mYNnUM ieqnI burI nhIN sI lwgI. sgoN mYNnUM ijvyN kuJ cMgf-cMgf ijhf lwigaf sI. mYN dyiKaf, kwlH vflLI suirMdr aqy awj vflI suirMdr ivc kuJ Prk sI. kwlH ijWQy Auh Gryl UkMmF ivc AulJI ijhI lwgI sI, awj Aus dy kwpVy vI bdly hoey sn. pusLfk BfvyN suDfrn sI, pr sfP sI aqy Aus dy vfl iswDI qrHF vfhy hoey sn. Aus dy hwQ ivc ikqfbF-kfpLIaF sn. ies vyly mYN Aus df mukfblf afpxy kflj dIaF AuhnF kuVIaF nfl kr irhf sF ijhVIaF jIn pfAuNdIaF hn, ijnHF dy vfl kwty hoey hn aqy _ _ _. kwlH nfloN awj ivc ijhVF iewk hor vrxnXog Prk mYN mihsUs kIqf, Auh ieh sI ik awj Auh mYNnUM myrI DI jwsI vrgI nhIN, sgoN iksy ividafrQx vrgI jfp rhI sI. mYNnUM ies qrHF lwigaf ijvyN sfzy irsLiqaF ivc kuJ aMqr af igaf hovy. mYN Aus nUM bYT jfx leI ikhf, ihsfb dy do PfrmUly pVHfey ijhVy Aus ny CyqI hI smJ ley, aqy aMgryjLI dI iek kivqf pVHfeI ijhVI vI Aus ny smJ leI.

ies qrHF kridaF-krfAuNidaF sfZy swq vwj cuwky sn. pqf hI nhIN sI lwigaf ik smF kdoN bIq igaf sI

mYN soc irhf sI ik jy sfry ividafrQI hI aijhy hox ik aiDafpk dI iek vfr smJfeI gwl nUM hI smJ lYx qF aiDafpk aqy ividafrQI dy sMbMDF ivc hor vI prpwkqf af skdI hY. Auh hor pVHnf cfhuMdI sI pr mYN Aus nUM cly jfx leI ikhf. ies df kfrn iewk qF ieh sI ik idn Zl cuwikaf sI aqy dUsry iekwly rihx krky rsoeI afid df kMm vI mYN afp hI krnf sI. qy ies qrHF df rutIn ijhf bx igaf. hux mYN Cy vjy qoN pihlF hI iqafr ho jFdf. Auh afAuNdI qF mYN pUrf qfx lf ky Aus nUM pVHfAuNdf.

aiDafpk leI pVHfAux df suafd vI AuQy hI hY, ijwQy ividafrQI pUrI qrHF sikRaf rhy. jo kuJ vI mYN pVHfAuNdf jF ijhVf vI mYN kMm dsdf, Auh pUrI qrHF kr ky ilafAuNdI. aijhy ividafrQI nUM pVHfAuxf qF hor vI afsfn huMdf hY. hux Auh afpxy afp hI clI jFdI.

Aus dy cly jfx qoN bfad pqf nhIN ikAuN mYNnUM afpxf Gr iekdm KflI-KflI jfpx lwg pYNdf.

“sr, qusIN rotI afp pkfAuNdy E ? jy burf nf mMnoN qF mYN pkf jfieaf krF ?”, iewk idn Aus ny jfx lwigaF mYNnUM ikhf.

AuNj qF mYN nhIN cfhuMdf ik Aus qoN rotI pkvfeI jfvy. pr ieh rotI pkfAuxf, dfl-sbjLI Drnf vI iek Kljgx hI qF hY. myrI sfrI ijMdgI afp rotIaF pkfAux ivc hI lMGI hY. afpxy ividafrQI-kfl ivc mYN hostlF ivc nf rih ky bfhr sLihr aMdr kmrf lY ky piVHaf krdf sF. hotl dI rotI qoN qF mYNnUM AuNj vI icV hY. ies leI afp hI Qwp ilaf krdf sF. jdoN asIN, mYN qy pqnI, iekwly sF qd vI Gto-Gwt rotI afid dy mfmly ivc mYN Aus dI qVI nhIN sI JwlI. Ptf-Pt aftf guMinaf qy qvy Aupr Qwp leIaF. afp pkfeI rotI suafd vI qF ikMnI huMdI hY, BfvyN kwci-ipWlI hI hovy. pr Aus dy ieMnf puWCx Auqy pqf nhIN ikAuN mYN kih bYTf, “nhIN isMdI! qUM lyt ho jfieaf kryNgI. qUM Gr df kMm vI krnY. nfly mF iPkr kiraf krygI.”

“nhIN jI, mF qoN puwC afeI hF.”

mF

qy agly idn svyry hI Aus ny drvfjLf KVkfieaf. jdoN Aus dy drvfjLf KVkfAux dI afvjL suxfeI idwqI, mYNnUM ieMj jfipaf ijvyN Auh kfPI dyr qoN Twp-Twp kr rhI sI. sLfied Aus ny kuJ afvfjLF vI idWqIaF sn. ies vyly Aus df drvfjLf KVkfAuxf mYNnUM cMgf-cMgf lwigaf sI. inwky huMidaF jdoN mYN afpxy kmry ivc suwqf ipaf huMdf sF qF myrI mF vI svyr vyly kuJ iesy qrHF hI drvfjLy Auqy dsqk dy ky mYNnUM jgfieaf krdI sI.

jdoN mYN drvfjLf KoilHaf qF hwkf-bwkf hI rih igaf. Aus dy hwQ ivc cfh df glfs sI ijhVf Auh afpxy GroN bxf ky ilafeI sI. mYNnUM iKafl afieaf ik bcpn ivc jdoN drvfjLf KoilHaf krdf sF qF myrI mF vI iesy qrHF cfh df glfs leI KVHI huMdI sI.

myry leI ieh mfnx vflI siQqI sI. ies leI Aus koloN cfh df glfs PVidaF mYnUM jfipaf ijvyN mYN swc-muwc bwcf hovF qy Auh _ _ _

Aupr jf ky afieaf qF guslKfny ivc grm pfxI ipaf sI aqy bhukr nfl kmrf sfPL kr rhI sI.

“pfxI grm krn dI kI loV sI ?” mYN suBfivk hI afK Czdf hF

“srdIaF ivc TMZy pfxI nfl nhfAux nfl jLukfm ho jFdY.” Aus dI afvfjL sux ky qF mYN TTMbr hI igaf. Aus nUM ieh gwl iks ny dwsI ik myrI mF eydF hI afiKaf krdI sI. “srdIaF ivc TMZy pfxI nfl nhfAux nfl jLukfm ho jFdY.”

pRyimkf

ieWk idn dupihr vyly Auh myry kol afeI. mYN suwqf ipaf sF. grmI hovy jF srdI, dupihr vyly sOx dI afdq myrI purfxI hY. jdoN myrI awK KuwlI qF Auh myry

tybl Auqy bYTI myrI ikqfb ‘pirsiQqIaF’ pVH rhI sI. Auh kursI Auqy ikAuN nhIN bYTI ? ies suafl ny mYnUN hor vI ivcilq kr idWqf sI ikAuNju eydF myry tybl Auqy bYT ky qF myrI ieh ikqfb myrI pRyimkf hrpfl piVHaf krdI sI.

mYNnUM AuTidaF dyK ky Aus ny ikhf, “mYNnUM afeI nUM pOxf GMtf ho igaf. qusIN bVIaF CotIaF khfxIaF ilKdy ho. mYN sfrI ikqfb pVH mfrI hY.” Aus dy ieMnf kihx Auqy qF mYN iblkul hI mr ijhf igaf sF. myry aMdr ijvyN sfh-dq hI nf irhf hovy. hrpfl ny vI iesy myjL Auqy bYT ky, myry eydF hI suwiqaF ipaF, ieh sfrI ikqfb pVH mfrI sI.

BYx

jfpdf hY, ieiqhfs afpxy afp nUM duhrfAuNdf hY. GtnfvF duhrfeIaF jFdIaF hn. jF iPr iksy gwl df dUsrI gwl nfl iml jfxf ieqPfk huMdf hY. Auh rwKVI vfly idn Aus df myrI klfeI Aupr rwKVI bMnxf ieWk ajIb ieqPLfk hI qF sI. Aus idn BYx dI rwKVI nhIN sI afeI aqy mYN kuJ Audfs ijhf sF. pr myrI ieh AudfsI iCx-BMgr hI sI. jdoN Aus ny rwKVI bMnH ky imsrI myry mUMh ivc pfeI qF ijvyN myry aMdr ieWk akih suafd Gul igaf sI. mYN Aus nUM kfPI sfry pYsy dyxf cfhuMdf sI pr hfly qF mhIny df afKrI hPLqf hI cwl irhf sI. myrI jyb KflI sI. ies leI mYN kyvl Aus df isr plos sikaf. myrf hwQ jdoN Aus dy isr Auqy iPiraf qF mYN mihsUs kIqf ik Aus dy ichry Auqy ajIb qrHF dI qbdIlI af rhI sI. Auh muskRf rhI sI. qy hux mYN ieh kI ilKF ik ieh muskRfht myrI BYx dI muskRfht nfl ikMnI imldI-juldI sI.

pqnI

myrI jF Aus dI imhnq nUM Pl lwg igaf sI. Auh mYtirk ivcoN cMgy nMbrF nfl pfs ho geI sI. awj jdoN Auh afeI qF Auh itk ky nhIN sI bYT rhI. awj Auh ieMnI KLusL sI ik mYNnUM Auh hor hI qrHF dI lwg rhI sI. asl ivc hux myry Xfd afAuNdf hY ik jdoN df mYN Aus dy isr Aupr hwQ Pyiraf hY, Auh Auh nhIN sI rhI. Auh iksy nf iksy bhfny myry nfl sprsL krn dI koisLsL krdI. jdoN kfpI idKfAux lgdI qF pUrI qrHF myry Auqy Juk jFdI. cfh PVfAuNdI qF acyq hI AusdIaF AuNglF myrIaF AuNglF nfl lwg jFdIaF. pihlF qF mYN ies gwl nUM gOilaf nhIN sI, pr awj jdoN Auh bgYr iksy iejfjLq qoN af ky soPy Auqy myry kol hI bYT geI aqy afpxf rIjLlt kfrz idKfAux lwgI hws peI, qF gwl myrI kuJ smJ ivc peI. kuVI ieWk sI pr ikMnI CyqI Aus df rUp bdl jFdf sI. qnKfh nf imlx krky mYN kfPI dyr qoN Gr nhIN sF jf sikaf. pqf nhIN ikAuN awj Auh mYNnUM myrI pqnI vFg hI jfp rhI sI. ieh aihsfs hoieaf hI sI ik agly pl Auh myrI glvwkVI aMdr sI. mYNnUM ies gwl df pqf qwk nhIN sI ik pihl myry vwloN hoeI sI jF Aus vwloN. bs asIN ieWk dUsry _ _ _

pr agly pl mYN ho igaf sF. ieh mYN kI kr irhf hF ? kI ieh Gor pfp nhIN ? kI mYN aiDafpk hF ? kI mYN agFhvDU ilKfrI hF ? ikMny hI suafl myry idmfg aMdr ltk gey sn.

mYN iekdm Aus nUM Cwz ky prHy ho igaf hF. kursI Auqy afpxy afp nUM suwt ky isrgt sulGf lYNdf hF. Auh kuJ dyr qF AuvyN hI KVHI rihMdI hY, pr iPr pqf nhIN Aus dy idl ivc kI afAuNdf hY ik cwp-cfp AuQoN qur pYNdI hY. Auh jf rhI hY. Aus dI ipWT myry leI afrsI hY. qy mYN dyKdf hF myrf ichrf ikMnf bdl igaf hY. awDI nfloN bhuqI dfVHI icwtI aqy gmgIn ichrf. mYN ksL Aupr ksL iKWcI jf irhf hF!