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AuhdIaF awKF AunINdry krky lfl sn. Auh bhuq Qwikaf hoieaf njLr af irhf sI. stor KolH ky Auhny iewDr AuWDr iek inrfsL ijhI njLr dOVfeI. hwQlf sfmfn rwK ky bwqIaF jgfeIaF. gurU nfnk dyv dI vwzI qsvIr awgy isr inv ky mwQf tyikaf qy nfl hI rfm cMdr qy sIqf vfly klMzr vl dUroN hI isr invfAux df iesLfrf ijhf kIqf. kol ilaFdy Joly ivcoN Bfn dIaF do iqMn guwCIaF Auhny kYsL rijstr ivc rwKIaF. iek rMg brMgy KMBF df bursL lY ky hOlI hOlI sPfeI krn lwg ipaf.

AuhdI ieh stor ipwCy ijhy kfPI cwl inklI sI. kMm quiraf dyK ky stor nUM vDf ilaf. stor dy nfl lgdI QF vI ikrfey ’qy lY leI. aftf, dflF, afcfr, imrc-msflf, ihMdI pMjfbI dy rIkfrz, ikqfbF qy rsfly afid pihlF nfloN vwzI mfqrf ivc rwKxy sLurU kr idwqy. kuJ dyr stor KUb cwlI qy Auhny afpxI nOkrI Cwzx bfry vI soicaf. pr Pyr jLrf hor ‘pwky pYrIN’ hox dy iKafl nfl Auhny nOkrI nf CwzI. nOkrI AuhnUM sohxI imlI hoeI sI. pwkf rfq df qy hlkf kMm. rfq nUM nOkrI qy idny stor. stor ivc bfhlf smF qF Auhdy Gr vflI sYNzI - suirMdr kOr - hI rihMdI sI. qy afp Auh hor AuWprly kMm krdf. kdI ikiqEN smfn KRId ky ilafAuNdf, kdI pYsy dy ihsfb ikqfb dy cwkr ’c Bwjf iPrdf. dupihroN bfad Gr jf ky sON jFdf. ies qrHF AunHF df vfhvf kMm quiraf jFdf sI.

pr hux jdoN dIaF iesy ielfky ivc do hor storF afpxy hI bMidaf ny KolH leIaF qF AunHF df kMm bhuq mwTf pY igaf. Auhny bursL mfrdy ny dyiKaf keI QfeIN ikMnI ikMnI imwtI cVHI peI sI. keIaF sLYlPF qoN koeI vI zwbf keI idnF df nhIN sI ivikaf. qfjLIaF sbjLIaF qF hux AunHF ny rwKxIaF hI Cwz idwqIaF sn. awj kwl Auh dovyN qIvIN afdmI kfPI iKJy iKJy rihMdy. idhfVI ivc ijhVf QoVHf ijhf smF Auh stor ivc iekwTy huMdy, Auhdy ivc vI iek dUjy nUM inwkI inwkI gwly JeIaF lY ky pYNdy. byidlI ijhI nfl bursL mfrdf Auh kfAuNtr vl af igaf qy kuJ dyr bfhrly bUhy vl ingfh itkf ky KVHf irhf. gfhk qF ieMnI svyry awgy vI koeI Gwt hI aAuNdf sI. pr Pyr vI Auh afs ijhI nfl drvfjLy vl dyK irhf sI.

kuJ dyr KVHf rihx ipwCoN Auh kfAuNtr ipCy pey stUl ’qy bYT igaf. stor aMdr cuwp CfeI hoeI sI. kdI kdI vwzy Pirwj dy GVwk dyxI clx dI afvfjL afAuNdI qy Pyr Auh Pirwj vI dUjIaF vFg hI lgfqfr brIk ijhI sF sF krn lwg pYNdI. pr Auhdy afpxy aMdr eynI cuwp nhIN sI. bfhr sVk ’qy lMGdIaF qyjL kfrF vl dyKdf Auh AunHF ijMnf hI qyjL soc irhf sI. stor nUM dobfrf kfmXfb bxfAux bfry Auh skImF bxf irhf sI. pr AuhnUM smJ nhIN sI af rhI ik kI kIqf jfvy. afpxI vloN Auh purI koisLsL kr rhy sn. kimAUintI ’coN inkldy hr aKbfr ivc qy ryzIE AuWqy Auhny iesLiqhfr dy rwKy sn. pr Pyr vI pqf nhIN ikAuN AunHF dI gfhkI ieMnI Gwt geI sI.

iek soc ijhVI GVI muVI Auhdy idmfg ivc smuMdr dI vwzI Cwl vFg twkr mfrdI, AuhnUM Auh iblkul hI ivcfrn qoN nFh kr irhf sI. Auhdy qjrby ny iek gwl pUrI qrHF sfbq kr idwqI sI ik iksy vI qrHF df kMm clfAux leI sB qoN vDIaf qrIkf sI: bMdf lokF dIaF njLrF ’c afm afAuNdf hovy; kimAUintI dy sFJy kMmF ivc, gurduafiraF ivc Auhdf nF vfr vfr afAuNdf hovy; bMdf iksy sBf df pRDfn, iksy df sYktrI qy ijMnIaF vI vwD qoN vwD sBfvF df mYNbr hovy vDIaf hY. ies qrHF vwD qoN vwD lokF nfl imlx dy mOky hwQ lwgdy rihMdy hn aqy Pyr mUMh mwQy lwgdy sfry bMdy hI stor ’c afAuNdy hn. pr hux Auh lfjvfb ijhf hoieaf ipaf sI. gurduafiraF dy cwkr ivc Auh kfPI irhf sI. pr AuWQy qF hux sfhnF dy ByV huMdy sn qy Auh KfhmKfh afpxI jfn Kqry ivc nhIN sI pfAuxI cfhuMdf. hor vI keI iksm dIaF sBfvF kmytIaF ivc Auhny koisLsL kr dyKI sI pr Auhdf ikqy vI sUq ijhf nhIN sI afieaf. goiraF vloN huMdy nslvfd ivruwD bxIaF kmytIaF ivc vI Auhdy pYr nhIN sI jMm sky. iek qF Auhdy kol smF bfhlf nhIN sI huMdf qy dUjf lok cfhuMdy sn ik kuJ krn vflf hI mohry hovy, Poky lYkcr eI nf JfVy. pr Auhdy kol iedF dI ivhl ikwQy sI peI Auh rojL lokF dy Bwjdy sLIisLaF dI ingrfnI krdf iPry. nfly ies kMm ivc keI Kqry vI sn. sYNzI qF kfPI nrfjL vI rhI sI Auhdy nfl ijMny idn Auh nslvfd dy mukfbly df nfhrf idMdf irhf sI. kimAUintI dy siBacfrk kMmF ivc qF Auh dovyN vwD cVH ky ihwsf lYNdy hI rihMdy sn pr AuQoN AunHF nUM kMm dy gfhk Gwt hI imldy. siBafcfrk kMmF ivc ihwsf lYx vfly keI qF nMg mlMg eI imldy ijhVy sgoN AuDfr krky AunHF nUM hI rgVf lf jFdy.

stor dy drvfjLy nfl bMnHI hoeI twlI ny AuhdI socF dI lVI qoV idwqI. do Coty Coty bwcyy aMdr afey. AunHF vwl dyK ky Auhny muskrfAux dI koisLsL kIqI. bwicaF ny hwQF ’c PVHIaF dsIaF kfAuNtr ’qy rwK idwqIaF qy kol hI pflF ’c itkfey hoey gMHm qy kYNzIaF vwl dyKx lwg pey. kdI iek cuwkdy Pyr rwK ky dUjI. ikMny icr bfad AunHF ny afpxI psMd dIaF kYNzIaF KrIdIaF qy Auhdy bury ijhy kIqy mUMh vl dyKdy bfhr nUM qur pey. AunHF ivcoN iek ny drvfjLy kol jf ky iPr ipCFh nUM dyiKaf qy muskrfAuNdy ny hwQ ihlf ky AuhnUM bfey ikhf. bwcy dI muskrfht ny iek pl leI Auhdy aMdr inwG ijhf Br idwqf qy Auhdy ichry ’qy vI afp muhfry muskrfht iKlr geI. Auhny vI bwcy vl hwQ ihlfieaf. inafixaF dy jfx bfad Auhny hor vI KflI KflI mihsUs kIqf. AuhnUM sYNzI df iKafl afieaf. sYNzI nfl hoeI bwicaF bfry gwlbfq vI cyqy afeI. sYNzI AuhnUM keIaF icrF dI kihMdI af rhI sI ik Auh hux mF bxnf cfhuMdI sI. pr Auh ajy AuhnUM golIaF Kfx ’qy mjbUr kr irhf sI. AuhnUM Xfd afieaf ikvyN Auhny sfrI dI sfrI sYNzI nUM afpxIaF bfhF ’c GutidaF qy cuMmidaF ikhf sI, “bs iek vfrI stor jLrf cwl pvy mYN nOkrI Cwz dyxI af qy Pyr BfvyN qUM iek vfrI Cwz ky ds vfrI mF bxI”. sYNzI ny vI Auhdy nfl hor Guwt ky lwgidaF ipafr Bry hfsy nfl ikhf sI, “nf bfbf ds vfrI nhIN iek do vfr hI TIk af.” ies Xfd ny AuhnUM QoVHy icr leI suafd suafd kr idwqf. Auhdf idl kIqf Auh stor bMd krky Gr nUM clf jfvy.

Gr jfx dI KfihsL nUM aMdry nwp ky Auh Pyr pihlF vflIaF qfxIaF buxn lwgf. kol ipaf ryzIE lf ilaf. ryzIE ’qy bVf qyjL sMgIq vwj irhf sI. Auhny avfjL hOlI kr idwqI. afp Auh AuWT ky stor ’c aYNvIN iewDr AWuDr smfn cYWk krn lwgf. kimAUintI ivc nF bnfAux dIaF skImF GVdf Auh sLYlPF ’qy pey zwibaF AuWproN imwtI JfV irhf sI. Auhny keIaF koinaF qoN soicaf qy Auh hr vfr iesy iswty `qy phuMcf ik koeI ieho ijhf mslf hovy ijhdy nfl Auhdf nF juV jfvy qy Auh bflIvuwz dy iksy isqfry vFg iek dm lokF dIaF njLrF ivc af jfvy.

Auhny GVI vl dyiKaf. hux qF iek vjx vflf sI. sYNzI nUM hux qwk af jfxf cfhIdf sI, Auhny soicaf. Auhny iek vwzI sfrI AubfsI leI qy nINd mihsUs kIqI. Auhdf idl kIqf ik ipCly lMc-rUm ’c pey soPy ’qy do pl lwqF iswDIaF kr lvy. pr stor suMnI Cwz ky Auh ikvyN jf skdf sI? AusnUM iek pl leI afpxy hflfq AuWqy qrs qy iKwJ ijhI afeI. nfl hI AuhnUM keIaF vfikP gfhkF ’qy vI iKwJ afeI ijhVy stor ’c afey aYNvIN AuhnUM kihMdy rihxgy peI jIxf qF srdfr jI quhfzf - afpxf kMm nf iksy PormYn df zr nf kuJ hor - imwl ’c hovyN qF pqf lwgy iks Bfa ivkdI af. Auh mn ivc ijvyN AunHF gfhkF dI sFg lfAuNidaF soc igaf. Auhny afpxf mukfblf AunHF nfl kIqf qF AuhnUM afpxI hflq bVI hlkI lwgI. AuhnUM iek do hor AubfsIaF afeIaF qF AuhnUM lwgf ijvyN Auhdf aMg aMg Qkfvt nfl duwK irhf hovy. kfAuNtr ’qy ipaf iek pypr cuwk ky Polx lwg ipaf. Aus ivc afpxy iesLiqhfr ivc lwgI afpxI qsvIr vl dyKx lwg ipaf. qsvIr ivc keI nuks jfpdy sn. ‘aglI vfr nvIN qsvIr iKcvf ky dyvFgf’, Auhny pypr prHy suwtdy ny soicaf.

AuhnUM Pyr sYNzI df iKafl afieaf qy lyt hox ’qy iKwJ ijhI vI. ‘PYsLn krdI do vjf idMdI af - agly df iehnUM rqf iKafl nhIN peI BuwKf hoAU jF Qwikaf hoAU sfrI rfq kMm krdf irhf - bs afpxy hI cohlF ’c ruwJI rihMdI af - af lYx dy jLrf awj suxfAUNgf krfrIaF krfrIaF do ku’, socdf Auh kfPI iKwJ igaf lwgdf sI. bfhrly drvfjLy dI twlI ny Auhdf iDafn Pyr iKwc ilaf. koeI gfhk afieaf sI.

Auh gfhk nUM Bugqf irhf sI nfly gfhk dIaF gwlF df huMgfrf Br irhf sI jd Auhny ipCly pfsy kfr dI afvfjL suxI. Auhny Pyr GVI vl dyiKaf qF do vjx vfly sn. AuhdIaF awKF ’c nINd rVkx lwg peI sI. gfhk dy jfx bfad Auh sYNzI dI AuzIk ivc ipCly drvfjLy vl dyKx lwgf.

sYNzI ny aMdr af ky PurqI nfl afpxf kot lfh ky tMigaf qy kUVy vflI bfltI bYg ivc AultfeI qy hor inwky moty kMm kfhlI kfhlI krn lwgI. ies qoN pihlF ik Auh sYNzI nUM kuJ kihMdf, sYNzI AuhnUM afpxy lyt hox dy kfrn bfry dwsx lwg peI, “mYN qF kdoN dI af jfxf sI pr qurn lwgI nUM amrjIq df Pon af igaf qy Auh keI icr gwlF krdI rhI.”

sYNzI Auhdy nfl gwlF krdI iewDr AuWDr cIjLF vI TIk kr rhI sI. Auhdy kol af ky sYNzI ny bVI drdnfk afvfjL ivc puwiCaf, “swc jI qusIN ryzIE ’qy koeI Kbr vI suxI af? kihMdy af ieMzIaf ivc qF bhuq jLbrdsq Bucfl aieaf qy lokF dI jfn mfl dI bhuq qbfhI hoeI af. mYnUM qF amrjIq ny eI dwisaf peI bhuq ijLafdf nuksfn hoieaf hY.”

sYNzI ajy gwl kr hI rhI sI ik iek gfhk af igaf qy Auh vI AunHF nfl Bucfl dIaF gwlF krn lwg ipaf. nvF afieaf gfhk qy sYNzI AusnUM Bucfl bfry ivsQfr ivc dwsdy rhy qy Auh iqMnNo iek sFJy duwK ivc sLrIk KVHy sn. sYNzI qF rox nUM iqafr sI qy afpxy duwK nUM jLfhr krn leI Auh koeI nf koeI gwl krI jf rhI sI. iek zUMGf sfh lY ky Auhny ikhf, “Kbry ivcfiraF dI mdd leI koeI bhuiVaF hoAUgf vI ik nhIN?”

“grIb mulk dI srkfr mdd vI ikMnI ku kr skdI af”, gfhk df jvfb sI.

“mYN qF kihMdI aF peI ieQoN afpxy lokF ivcoN kwTI krky ByjxI cfhIdI af - jy aijhI BIV dy mOky asIN iksy dy kMm nhIN afAuNdy qF sfzf ieQy kmfeIaF krn df kI PYdf af.” sYNzI dy hr lPjL ivc drd krfh irhf sI.

sYNzI qy gfhk dIaF gwlF suxdf Auh afp kuJ nhIN sI boilaf. duwK qF AusnUM vI bhuq hoieaf sI pr AuhnUM qF nINd qy Qkfvt ny eynf BMinHaf hoieaf sI ik Auh qF bs jf ky mMjy ’qy izwgxf cfhuMdf sI. solHF GMty ho gey sn AuhnUM kMm krdy nUM. rfq nUM Pyr kMm ’qy jfxf sI. gfhk nUM qor ky Auh afp vI sYNzI nfl iek do gwlF krky ipCly kmry vl nUM qur ipaf. Qwky hoey kdmIN qurdf Auh acfnk kuJ Xfd afAux ’qy Jtky ijhy nfl ruk igaf. ijvyN mwCIaF PVn vflf zor dy isry ’qy pYNdI iKwc mihsUs krky mwCI dy Psx dI afs ivc qx jFdf hY. qy Pyr Auhdy ichry dy Bfv Aus mCyry dy ichry vFg bdlxy sLurU ho gey ijhnUM keI GMty Duwpy bYTy rihx mgroN vwzI sfrI mwCI hwQ lwgI hovy. AuhdIaF awKF ivcoN nINd pqf nhIN ikwQy Bwj geI. Auhdy srIr ivc pihlF vflI susqI nhIN sI sgoN iek awQry GoVy vrgI cusqI sI. iek cfa ijhf cVH igaf sI AusnUM. Auhdf idl kIqf ik jf ky sYNzI nUM bfhF ’c cuwk lvy. lwgdf sI ijvyN sYNzI ny dysL afey Bucfl nfl hoeI qbfhI dI Kbr nf idwqI hovy sgoN lftrI ivc imlIan zflr ijwqx dI Kbr idwqI hovy.

Auhdy ivc lohVy dI PurqI af geI. ipCly kmry ivc jf ky Auhny PonF vflI iek inwkI ijhI kfpI KohlI qy nMbr GumfAux lwgf. iek do srsrI gwlF krn qoN bfad Auh kih irhf sI, “dyKo pRDfn sfihb sfzf ieQy suwKF ’c bYiTaF df ieh Drm bx jFdf af peI asIN afpxy BrfvF dI aijhy mOky mdd krIey.”

“gwl qF qyrI TIk af pr eyzy vwzy kMm nUM hwQ kOx pfAU - PMz iekwTy krny koeI Kyl QohVy peI af”, pRDfn df jvfb sI.

“pRDfn jI qusIN ies kMm dI ijLMmyvfrI myry ’qy Cwzo qy awj hI mIitMg swd ky Bucfl PMz kmytI bxfE qy mYN afpxf pUrf qfx lfvFgf Aus kmytI dIaF ijLMmyvfrIaF sFBx leI.”

Pon rwK ky Auhny gurU nfnk dyv dI vwzI qsvIr vl sLukrfny vjoN dyiKaf. kfAuNtr ’qy KVHI sYNzI kol jf ky Auh afpxI skIm dwsx lwgf, “ieh sfrI kimAUintI df eynf nfijLk mslf hY ik hr bMdf ies drd ivc BfeIvfl hovygf qy PMz iekwTf krn vfly mohrI df nF hr aKbfr qy ryzIE AuWqy hovygf. hux dyKIN qUM iksmq cmkdI”. gwlF kridaF AuhdIaF awKF ivc koeI duwK jF inrfsLf nhIN sI qy nf hI nINd qy Qkfvt, sgoN iek cfa qy cmk sI.

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(23 dsMbr 2005)