Likhari:viyang,rung chey bhang(1)

gwlF awjkl iksy pfsy vI XuwD dIaF nhI ho rhIaF hn- bs ikqy amrIkf qy ierfk XuwD, ikqy iesrfeIl qy ÌlsqInIaF df XuwD, ikqy amrIkf qy aÌgfinsqfn df XuwD, ikqy pfk qy Bfrq df XuwD. pr GrylU XuwD dI kdy koeI gwl hI nhIN krdf, Èfied Byq Kwuldy hox hryk dy, pr sfzy Gr ieh XuwD kdy vI nhIN hoieaf, AuNË Ìfier ijhy hr vyly hI huMdy rihMdy hn. pr jy kr iksy dy jf ky kuMzf KVkfeIey qF dovyN iDrF bfhr Jfk ky kihxgIaF ik bfhr zf sfihb afey hn, do imMt leI cuwp kr jfE-qy ies qrF donoN iDrF jrf sfh lY lYNdIaF hn, sgoN myry sfhmxy iewk dUsry dIaF vizafeIaF ÈurU kr dyxgy ik ieh qF cMgy hI bhuq hn, mYN qF bhuq hI lwkI hF. pr afm krky hryk ËnfnI iehI kihMdI suxI geI hY, ivwcy hI sfzI pqnI vI, ik mYnMU iblkul nf puwCo ik mYN ikvyN idn kwtdI hF ies bMdy nfl. beI kmfl hY sIn cyNË krn dy qy zfierYkÈn dy. hr Gr ivwc, qy hr dys dy GrF ivwc, aMgryËF ‘c vI ieh jMg kdy nhIN dyKy jFdy- pr AuhnF c iDrF jldI vwKrIaF 2 rihx lwg jFdIaF hn. sIË Ìfier jldI ho jFdf hY. pr sfzy GrF c jdoN vI donoN iDrF kMm qoN ivhlIaF hox, jMg df suKfvF ijhf mhOl Ausfr hI lYNdIaF hn, iehdy vgYr mYN dyiKaf hY ik rotI vI nhIN pcdI. minMdr ky jF iksy hor dosq dy Gr jfE, Auh inwky 2 Ìfier krdy hI rihMdy hn qy iPr afrfm nfl bYT ky gOx lwg jfxgy jF rl ky rotI Kfx lwg jfxgy- mYN kihMdf hF ik ieh ikhVy iksm df XuwD hY beI, jy asIN lVIey qF hÌqf 2 ÌOËF ÌrMt qy hI nhIN KVHdIaF. ieMj lwgdf hY bs ijvyN Gr 'c guMgy rihMdy hox.mYN ikhf jy lVnf huMdf hY, iksy cwj nfl liVaf kro-Gwt qoN Gwt do cfr idn TMz jF cuwpcfp qF rhy. ivafh qoN iewk sfl bfd Gr ‘c mYN hI boldf huMdf sI qy GrvflI cuwp rihMdI sI, mYN socxf ik beI bVy lwkI hF, eyzI sfAU mYzm imlI hY- mYN kihxf kdy qMU vI boilaf kr. bs jI, gwl kihx dI hI sI- hy myiraf rwbf- mYnUM hI sdf suxnIaF ipaf krn-mYN ikhf beI ieh qF gwl hI Ault ho geI, ieh hr vyly hI myry qy roab pfx lwg peI hY- asIN bfhr kdy iksy kol gwl nf kIqI- pr hOlI 2 iksy isafxy nfl gwl kIqI jo pihlF df ivafihaf hoieaf sI -Auh kihMdf kfkf jI Tihr jfE jrf-iPr dyKxf nËfrf-ieh XwuD guaFZI lok vI suixaf krngy. mYN smiJaf bfby df isr Krfb hY. Auhdy gwl kihx dI hI sI ik sfzy Gr XuwD df smfn kwTf hoxf ÈurU ho igaf-aKy qusIN mYnMU aYs vyly ieh ikhf sI qy aOs vyly ieh, mYnMU kuJ Xfd vI nhIN sI qy Gr vflI ‘not’ ilKI iPrdI af-gwl kI ‘amnIÈn’ eynf kwTf ho igaf hY ik hux ËMg roËfnf hI ÈurU hox lg ipaf hY qy awj kl sfzI lVfeI guaFZI lok vI suxdy hn-Bfv ÌOËF srhwdF twp geIaF hn. asIN guaFZI lokF dI vI suxdy hF, pr Auh aMgryËI c lVdy hn, mYN ikhf Xfr ieh vI koeI lVfeI hoeI: “XU iezIat.”---“no no XU iezIat.“ “XU Ètap” –“XU Ètap”. mYN ikhf jy lVnf hY qF sfzy vFg liVaf kro. qy ieho ijhf XwuD sfzy Gr ipMz vI nhIN sI huMdf mF bfp ‘c. so asIN ieh iprq kfiem rwKI hoeI hY. asIN qF Gr vI bdilaf hY ik koeI suxy nf pr jdoN tImF “lfeIn krfs” kr jFdIaF hn qF eyQy vI guaFZI lok suxn lwg pey hn-ieh gux AuNJ qF afm hY pr bhuqf krky amIr bMidaF ‘c hI pfieaf jFdf hY. sfzy ‘c vI qy myry keI dosqF ‘c vI. jF kih lE ijwQy pYsy dIaF roVFH afeIaF rihx.

XuwDF dy keI kfrn huMdy hn, msly huMdy hn-srhwdF dy msly, ËmInF dy msly, pr sfzy jF imwqrF dy GrF c qF kuJ vMzx nMu vI hY nhIN -Gwt qoN Gwt sfzy Gr qF do mMjy pIVIaF hI hn qy do cfr tuwty BFzy-pqf nhIN iPr vI pfrtIaF, sYinkF nMU srhwd qy ilaf hI KVfAuNdIaF hn, afm krky. sfzy GrylU msly huMdy hn ik jy kdy iewk do zflr guafc jfx qF sfry Èihr nMU pqf lwg jFdf hY-inafixaF nMU jgf 2 ky puwCIdf-Eey “nMinaf” qyry Qwly qF nhIN af gey, jF Eey “mMinaf” qyry Qwly qF nhIN af gey-sfry kwpVy Pol mfrIdy af, iPr jMg. jF iPr mYN jF myrI Gr vflI ikqy mihMgI cIË KrId ilafAuNdI hY- iPr jMg. “ikAuN kI Gr c pYisaF dI awgy roVH afeI peI af, ibwl idwqy nhIN jFdy qy qMU ieh eyny mihMgy tmftr KrId ilafeIN eyN”, jF jy ikqy aflU ipafË lY afvy. ies ilst c hor vI mihMgIaF cIËF hn ijvyN sfbx, qyl jF iPr KIry nfKF afid. qusIN soc ky hYrfn vI hovogy-sfzy bMdy Jwt hI cIË KrId lYNdy hn kdy nhIN ikqy Bf Bwqf puwCdy isrÌ vsqU ryt hr dukfn dy pqf huMdy hn. hor iek sfnMU hI nhIN sfry pMjfbIaF nMU kdI iksy qy kdI iksy rYstorYNt c Kfxy Kfx df bhuq Èok ciVHaf rihMdf hY, eysy krky hI guru-Gr sMgq bhuq Gwt huMdI hY-iqMnoN idn. brykÌfst qF bfhr rYstorYNt c, lMc qF bfhr krnf hI hoieaf, qy iznr leI qF roËfnf bfhr hI rYstorYNt c pRbMD huMdf hI hY. iehI hfl myry dosqF df hY-koeI nhIN af ky pRfprtIaF mgr pYNdf pihlF Gr vflf af ky sfrI dunIaF dy KfixaF df svfd ivKfAU. qy asIN vI afm hI rYstorYNtF dy nyVy rhIdf, socIdf ik koeI ieh nf khy ik Ìlfxy nhIN afAuNdy-eydf dI afdq bx geI hY, “rhIÈF” vrgI. dUsry pfsy aMgryËF nMU Gr Kfxy bxfAux df bhuq Èok rihMdf hY, Auh kdy nhIN bfhroN KrIddy, ieh qF sfzy isr qy hI rYstorYNt cwldy hn. jy kdy sYr spfty qy jfx jF ipkink krn qF GrF vflIaF nMU qVky hI kVfhI duafly kr idMdy hn, qy pUrIaF prONiTaF nfl izwgIaF eydF lwddy hn ijvyN dunIaF dI sYr qy cwly hox. Gr vI AuhI GIaf, gfËrF qy aflU aqy bfhr vI AuhI. jy ikqy inafxy mYwkzfinlz qoN Kfxf mMgx qF kihxgy Bf jI ÌYt bhuq huMdI hY nhIN qF asIN nhI kdy mnFH krdy. afho mYN ikhf Èfm qwk iek Kfxy nfl eynI ÌYt ho jFdI hY ik puwCo hI nf- nfly afh sfry qF byvkUÌ hn jo lfeInF lfeI KVy rihMdy hn. iPr keI vfr XwuD AuQy vI ho jFdf hY sfiraF dy sfhmxy. pr keI vfrI Gr vflI kih idMdI hY ik eyQy ikAuN byieËqI krfAuNdy ho kwZ idE cfr zflr, iPr XfrF df bËt ivgV jFdf hY qy khI df hY ik asIN qF inafixaF nMU afm hI mYwkzfinlz qoN Kfxf KvfAuNdy rhIdf awj hI nhIN. aqy afp CotI ijhI afeIs krIm lY ky vwzy rfT khfeIdf. Edx Gr vI qy Gr vflI dy mn c vI Ërf TMz rihMdI hY qy sfrIaF iDrF Ërf dm mfr lYNdIaF hn. BOr pl Br leI PuwlF qy Kyz lYNdy hn. sfzI iehI apIl hY ik kdy Gr vI lV ilaf kro. bhuqy kihxgy ik guru-Gr qF asIN ÈFqI leI jfeIdf. iewk idn “anMd sfihb” BfeI pVH irhf sI qy XoDy ÌrMt qy sn. msIN ibTfey ik quhfnMU BfeI qoN bfd c tYm dyvFgy. Xfr sfzy sIny c pqf nhIN ikDroN eynI Tfr ijhI cVHI rihMdI hY-EDr lfly Jwt hwQo pfeI ho pYxgy qy ÉUnoN ÉUnI- ieh Èyr kdI nhIN Tfxy idsy, lfly hI EQy gyVy mfrdy idsxgy aqy lVfeI sfzI hoeI huMdI hY. lflf Jwt dyxI ivc af ky Ìs jfAU qy afpxf bMdf, koloN dI lMG jfAU. sfzy eyQy GrF c qF ÈfqI rihMdI hI hY, sfzy Gr vFg. EDr Ébr imlI hY ik mYlbOrn, vlgUlgy qy isznI bfby dy Gr vI kdy koeI kcihrIaF c nhIN jFdf, pihlF afp Ëor dyK ky iPr kcihrI vwl ho qurdy hn. Xfr myry kuÌr qy XkIn nf kr lYxf. ieh qF quhfzy jIvn dy rMg nMU Ërf BMg krn leI arË kIqf hY-muafÌ krnf. -zf amrjIq tFzf (isznI)-- 27 PrvrI 2003