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dr vVidaF myrf mwQf Txikaf. Gr ivc suMn msfx sI. sF-sF dI afvfË kMnF nUM kuryd rhI sI. cuwp df Èor ijvyN myry aMdr nUM ihlUnx lwg ipaf. cuwp zrfAuxI huMdI aY, qy mYN vI zrn lwg peI.

mYN pMJI idnF bfad afpxy Gr prqI sF. dyv mYnUM ikwDry idKfeI nf idwqf. awvl qF AusnUM eyar port qy phuMcxf cfhIdf sI, mYN mn `c soicaf. mYN eyarport qy vI bQyrf aflf-duaflf dyiKaf. GMtf Br dyv dI ieMqËfr vI kIqI. Gr tYlIPon imlfieaf, pr koeI AuWqr nf imilaf. Ausdy sYWl-Pon qy Pon kIqf, sYWl-Pon bMd sI. mYN afpxI sws nUM Pon kIqf, Ausny vI Pon nf cuwikaf. mYN qF soicaf Èfied Auh ikwDry bfhr geI hovygI. pr nhIN, mYnUM bfad ivc pqf lwgf ik ieh sB sfiËÈ dI iewko lVI ivc proqy mxky sn. … qy mYN kmlI, iKwJdI-KpdI, isr ptkdI hoeI tYksI lY ky Gr phuMc geI. Èukr aY, myry kol Gr dI kuMjI hY sI. jy nf huMdI qF mYN kI krdI?

dr vVidaF mYN dyv nUM afvfËF idwqIaF. BfvyN mYnUM pqf sI ik Auh Gr nhIN sI. Ausny myrf Pon ju nhIN sI cuwikaf. bwicaF nUM avfËF idwqIaF, “hYlo hnI, mYN af geI hF. ikwQy EN sfry?"

mYnUM koeI AuWqr nf imilaf. KflI hvf ivc myrI afvfË gUMjdI rhI.

mYN bwqIaF jgf idwqIaF qF ik myrI iewklqf mYnUM nf cuwBy aqy Gr vwsdf-rwsdf vI lwgy. pr bwicaF dI hoNd qoN ibnF Gr mYnUM AujfV vFg jfipaf. mYN qF pUry cOdF GMty pl-pl bwicaF nUM dyKx leI, imlx leI, bfhvF ivc lYx leI qVÌdI ny kwty sn. socF hI socF ivc ik “bwcy hux kI kr rhy hoxgy? ikvyN twzIaF awKF nfÜ myrI rfh dyK rhy hoxgy. ikvyN mYnUM AuzIk rhy hoxgy?…qy dyv, Auh vI Gr dI sfÌ-sÌfeI ivc ruwJf hovygf. BfvyN pUry iqMn hÌqy Ausny Gr nf vI sfÌ kIqf hovy … myry afAux dy cfa ivc Auh ËrUr mYnUM KuÈ krn vfsqy ruwJf hoieaf hoxY." mYN ikafs krdI rhI.

pr nhIN, kuwJ vI aYsf nhIN sI. nf bwcy mYnUM AuzIk rhy sn qy nf hI dyv. Gr sfÌ sI. bhuq sfÌ. ieh sÌfeI dyK ky myrf mwQf Txikaf. idl DVikaf. ijvyN mn dI afvfË ny afiKaf hovy, kuwJ gV-bV ËrUr hY. rwb KYr-imhr kry. mYnUM dyv dI afdq df pqf sI, Auh ijwQy jurfbF lfhuMdf, AuWQy hI suwt idMdf, slIpr nOrQ-sfAUQ vwl qury iPrdy. kwpVy ijwQy lfhuMdf AuWQy hI rwK idMdf. kot kdI hYNgr ivc nhIN sI tMigaf.… qy awj? Gr cmk irhf sI. hr vsq afpxy QFh isr itkI peI sI.

pUrf GMtf mYN Gr ivc qurI iPrdI rhI. Pon zfiel krky pqf krdI rhI. kdI dyv df nMbr imlfvF qy kdI bIjI dy Gr df. iewk do imwqrF-dosqF nMU Pon kr bYTI. iksy nUM dyv dI aqy bwicaF dI koeI Ébr-sfr nhIN sI.

rfq df hnyrf psr irhf sI. … qy myrI icMqf vwD rhI sI. “ikwQy hn bwcy? ËrUr dyv AunHF nUM bfhr lY ky igaf hovygf”, mYN afpxy mn nfÜ smJOqy krdI rhI. roh mn ivc Aubfly vI KFdf irhf ik mYN qF dyv nUM idwlI qoN Pon krky afpxI PlfeIt bfry dws idwqf sI. mYN ieh vI pCqfAuNdI rhI ik Èfied mYQoN Êlq vkq dy idwqf igaf hovy, jF PlfeIt nMbr Êlq idwqf igaf hovy.… kI ho skdf hY?

… qy mYN Pyr ies gwl dI icMqf krn lwg peI ik ‘ikwDry mYN AusnUM eyar port qy hI imws nf kr idwqf hovy. ikwQy bwcy qy dyv mYnUM Bfldy, Btkdy qury iPrdy hoxgy?`

soicaf, ‘kI mYnUM vfps eyarport AunHF nUM Bflx clI jfxf cfhIdf hY?`

mYN gYrfË dI zor Kol ky dyKI, myrI kfr gYrfj ivc hI sI. mYN Pyr kuwJ imMt AuzIkx vfsqy Gr aMdr af geI. kuwJ krn nUM vI jIa nhIN sI krdf. kI kIqf jfvy? irMnx pkfAux qoN ibnF aOrq kI soc skdI hY? mYN afpxy mn nfÜ hI smJOqf kIqf ik mYnUM kuwJ dyr Tihr jfxf cfhIdf hY. dyv dI AuzIk krnI cfhIdI hY. ieh nf hovy bIjI vwloN Kf-pI ky hI afAux. jy nhIN vI qF pIËf mMgvf lvFgy. vYsy vI mYN sÌr dI QwkI-tuwtI peI hF.

mYN rsoeI ivc geI, kYtl df plwg aOn kr idwqf. imMtF ivc sItIaF mfrdf pfxI mYnUM avfËF mfr irhf sI. mYN tI-bYg kwp ivc Dr ky Aubldf pfxI pfieaf, qy cfh dI ipaflI lY ky PYimlI rUm ivc af bYTI. cfh dIaF qwqIaF cuskIaF ny mn socF dI GuMmxGyrI ivc goqy Kfx lf idwqf.

jdoN nUM bfhrly drvfËy ivc iksy kuMjI dy GuMmx dI afvfË myry kMnf ivc peI. mYN kwp nUM Ausy qrHF PVI, dOV ky jf ky dr KoilHaf. ieh dyv hI sI. iekwlf. bwcy Ausdy nfÜ nhIN sn.

imMt ku leI dyv nUM dyK ky mYN iKV geI. myrI Qkfn, myrI icMqf, imMt ivc ijvyN CU-mMqr ho geI. pr bwcy nfÜ nf hox dI icMqf myry mn dy iksy kony nUM kuryd geI. mYN dyv dy ipwCy aqy drF dy bfhr qk nËr GMumf ky dyiKaf, Auh mYnUM ikwDry vI idKfeI nf idwqy. myry aMdr iewk zob ijhf ipaf.

myrI nËr sVk `qy dUr, sVkF dy koinaF nfÜ tkrfa ky muV rhI sI.

mYN afpxI nËr nUM sVkF qoN moV ky dyv qy gwz idwqf, “dyv bwcy?" myry mUMhoN msF ruk ky afiKaf igaf.

“shI slfmq ny . kuC nHI hoieaf AunHF nUM." dyv ny ibnF nËr imlfAux qoN AuWqr idwqf.

“Pyr vI? ikwQy hn?" mYnUM acvI ijhI lwgI hoeI sI. ijvyN aMdr afK irhf hovy, kuwJ vI TIk nhIN jfpdf.

dyv ny KMGUrf ijhf mfiraf ijvyN qfkq iekwTI kr irhf hovy, “iqMn hÌqy qF AunHF df iKafl nHI afieaf. qy hux?" dyv ijvyN mUMh nUM vtf ijhf idMdf hoieaf afKx lwgf.

mYnUM dyv dI avfË EprI jfpI. ruwKI, guwsy-igilaF nfÜ BrpUr, qnË BrI. pr mYN afpxy aMdrly mn nUM mfr ky puWiCaf, “dyv iqMn hÌqy mYnUM mËbUrI vws AunHF qoN dUr rihxf ipaf, vrnf mYN kdy aYNj Cwzy hn pihlF? … qy Pyr cyqf ikAuN nhIN afieaf? mYN hr roË quhfnUM Pon krdI sI. bwicaF nfÜ gwl krdI sI. quhfQoN hfl-cfl puwCdI sI. jy kr koeI smwisaf sI, qF ikAuN nhIN mYnUM dwsI?"

“mËbUrI? … mËbUrI qF qyry mn dI kfZ vI ho skdI aY. hor kuwJ nHI. Pon df kI aY, aFZ-guaFZ vI Pon mfr ky puwC-dws lYNdy hn." dyv ny mUMh myry vwl GuMmfey ibnF afK idwqf.

mYnUM dyv dy bolF qy XkIn nf afieaf. mYnUM Drq GuMmdI jfpI. mYN ijvyN kMnF nUM Ëor lf ky Koilaf. myrf Èwk hor vI pwkf ho igaf ik kuwJ gV-bV ËrUr hY. ies qoN awgy puwCx df myrf jyrf nf ipaf. myry aMdr pYNdf zob afK irhf sI ik pqf nhIN qYnUM kI kuwJ suxnf pY jfvy. mYN afpxy afp nUM ÈFq rwKdy hoey afiKaf, “dyv, pryÈfn lgdYN? kI gwl aY? koeI kMm qy pryÈfnI …? dwsyN vI?" pr myrf aMdrlf mn afK irhf sI ik jo kuwJ iesny dwsxf hY, Auh mYnUM nf hI suxy. mYN soc rhI sF ik ieh iks qrHF df bMdf hY, ijsny myrI ibpqf puwCx dI QF, myrI mF dI rfËI-KuÈI puwCx dI QF, myrI judfeI dI gwl krn dI QF, myry Gr afAuNidaF hI qfhny-imhxy mfrny ÈurU kr idwqy hn. kI ho igaf sI dyv nUM?

“nhIN." Ausdf AuWqr Cotf ijhf qy iksy aihsfs qoN swKxf sI.

dyv nUM mYN bfrF virHaF qoN jfxdI sF. bfrF vrHy ho gey sn sfzy ivafh nUM. bhuqIaF gwlF qF Auh kdy vI nhIN sI krdf. pr eys qrHF dI cuwp iewk nvIN khfxI isrj rhI sI. myry koloN hor bhuqf jyrf nf hoieaf qy mYN jrf ku zt ky puwC hI ilaf, “bwcy hYn ikwQy?"

“Auh bIjI kol hn. awj nhIN afAuxgy."

“awj nhIN afAuNxgy? kI mqlb? ikAuN nhIN afAuxgy?" svfl mYN Tfh krdf ijvyN dyv dy mwQy `c mfiraf. pl leI mYN ieh vI soicaf ik dyv Èfied ieh idn-rfq myry nfÜ guËfrnI cfhuMdf hovygf. asIN kdI awz hoey vI nhIN sF. mYN pihlI vyrF hI qF kwlI ikwDry geI sF. ieh vI mYnUM ibpqf kfrn jfxf ipaf sI. mF myrI kYNsr nfÜ keI virHaF qoN Gol kr rhI sI. Aus jMg dy mYdfn ivc AusdI hfr pwkI sI. pfpf jI kihMdy sn, “ijAuNdI mF df mUMh dyK jf."

dyv ny kuVIaF nUM myry nfÜ nhIN sI jfx idwqf. iewk qF skUl dy idn sn qy dUjf AuWQoN dI grmI kuVIaF qoN JwlI nhIN sI jfxI. myry vI gwl mn lwgI.

myry aMdr iewk pl leI dyv vfsqy moh ijhf jfg ipaf. jIa kIqf dyv huxy hI mYnUM bfhvF ivc smyt lvy. mYN Buwl jfvF hr Aus ibpqf nUM ijs ivcI mYN guËr ky afeI sF. nf cfhuMidaF hoieaF vI vfips prqxf ipaf sI. mn nUM Drvfs dy ilaf sI ik Gwto-Gwt mYN afpxI mF nUM dyK qF cwlI hF. afpxI sUrq idKf qF cwlI hF. Auh vI afpxy aKIrly plF ivc ÈFqI nfÜ jf skygI. mYN socdI sF dyv myry duwK nUM mihsUs krky duKI hoieaf hovygf. mYnUM dyKidaF hI gl lf lvygf. zIk lvygf myrf sB duwK-drd.

pr mYN ikMnI Êlq sF. Ausdy vqIry ivc kihrF df aMqr sI. ijsdI mYnUM smJ nhIN sI af rhI. mYN ÈFq rihMidaF afiKaf, “mYN idwlI qoN bwicaF nfÜ gwl kIqI sI dyv, qy mYN rvI nUM Brosf duafieaf sI ik awj rfq df iznr `kwTy krFgy. rInf nUM afiKaf sI ik mYN Zyr sfrIaF gwlF Aus nfÜ krnIaF cfhuMdI hF. iqMnf hÌiqaF ivc kI kuwJ vfpiraf dwsxf-puwCxf cfhuMdI hF. jfxdy ho ikvyN kwty hn mYN ieh pl? bwicaF qoN ibnF, quhfQoN ibnF?" mYN sB kuwJ iewko sfhy afK idwqf.

“koeI loV nhIN dwsx-puwCx dI. Auh ijwQy hn, TIk hn … qyry ibnF." dyv ny guwsy ivc af ky mUMh nUM vtf ijhf idMidaF hoieaF ruk-ruk ky afiKaf.

dyv ny nf myrI mF df hfl puwiCaf qy nf myrf. sFJ dI qMd aYnI kmËor? aihsfs dy Cwj ivc mGory? eyk joiq doie mUrqI, dI joiq mYnUM zgmgfAuNdI iQVkdI nËr afeI ijvyN buJUM-buJUM kr rhI hovy. kI sI iesdf arQ? iewk bFh dUjI nUM afsrf nf dyvy? iewk sfQI dUjI dI smwisaf nf jfxy? pr mYN ÈFq rhI. aYs vyly myrI hor jwdo-jihd jfrI sI. ijvyN aMdr jMg df aYlfn krnf loc irhf sI.

afpxI ihwk df ruwg Brky, aMdr dwb ky mYN afiKaf, “dyv! ieh iks qrHF dIaF gwlF krdy ho? kI mYN koeI Buwl kIqI hY? ijsdI sËf mYnUM idwqI jf rhI aY. gwl hY kI? mYN vI jfxF? quhfzy rMg-ZMg ivc Prk ikAuN? quhfzI slfh nfÜ mYN geI sI. mYN mn mrËI qF nhIN kIqI? rhI gwl bwicaF dI, … Auh myry vI bwcy hn. mYnUM vI AunHF dI icMqf hY. jy kr mYN Cwz ky geI sI qF quhfzy kol aqy AunHF dy dfdI-bfby kol hI Cwz ky geI sF. hor lokF kol qF nhIN Cwzy? mYN huxy hI lY ky afAuNdI hF AunHF nUM." afKidaF hoieaf, mYN afpxf kot cuwk ky pfAux lwg peI.

kfr dI kuMjI lYx mYN ikcn vwl nUM vDI qF dyv ny mYnUM rok ilaf. Ausdf Cy Puwt AuWcf kwd myry awgy ruwK vFg af KVoieaf. mYN ijvyN imwtI ivc Dsdf jf irhf inwkf ijhf jIv hovF. Auh awKF awz ky afKx lwgf, “qUM AunHF nUM nhIN ilaf skdI. qyrf AunHF qy hwk eI koeI nHI. qUM qF AunHF nUM Cwz ky ieMzIaf nUM dOV geI sI. kYnyzy dy knUMn muqfibk qUM AunHF nUM izËrt kIqf hY. Aus aOrq nUM kuwJ nhIN imldf ijhVI afpxf Gr-Gft Cwz ky geI hovy. Coty-Coty bwcy Cwz ky geI hovy."

“kI?" myry mUMhoN svfl dy qOr qy ies qrHF inkilaf ijvyN koeI cIk inwkldI aY. mYnUM myry afpxy kMnF qy hIM XkIn nf afieaf ik mYN huxy-huxy kI suixaf hY. dyv dy bol hvf ivc Ausy qrHF gUMj rhy sn. myry isr duafly cwkr kwZ rhy sn[

mYN AulJy ijhy aflm ivc ijvyN cIÉI, “vwt zU XU mIn bfeI dYt? izËrt? mYN? mYN ikvyN bwicaF nUM Cwz skdI hF. mYN pl-pl jIvn df AunHF dy lyKy lfieaf hY. dyv quhfnUM qF ieh vI nhIN pqf ik Auh kI KFdy hn qy kI psMd krdy hn? AunHF dI rIJ kI hY, AunHF dy cuafies dy rMg kI hn?… qy awj … quhfnUM AunHF df cyqf af igaf …?" … myry aMdrlf roh hux ijvyN BFbV bx ky AuWbl irhf sI. … qy mYN hor vI guwsy ivc BVkdI hoeI ny dyv nUM ijvyN DWÌf mfr ky Dwkf mfiraf. Ausdf do sO pONz df ijsm, mfr dy joÈ hyTF lV-KVf igaf. mYN bolI, “dyv! Cwzo myrf rfh." myry Coty ijhy ijsm ivwc mF nfmI joÈ ny qrQwl mcfieaf hoieaf sI.

“rfh qF mYN Cwz hI dyxY. bwicaF nUM lYx jfx leI nhIN. isrÌ qyry eys GroN jfx leI." Auh afpxf afpf sFBdf hoieaf boilaf.

dyv idaF ÈbdF qy mYnUM ijvyN XkIn hI nhIN sI ho irhf ik Auh kI afK irhf sI. kI ho igaf sI dyv nUM? ienHF iqMnf hÌiqaF ivc? myrI surwiKaqf, asurwiKaqf ivc vt geI sI. bfrHF virHaF dI iËMdgI df ieh hfl? pqf nhIN kdoN aOrq afpxy afp qoN vI bygfnI ho jfvy? kdoN Gr qoN by-Gr ho jfvy? mYN smJoN bfhr sF.

jdoN qoN bIjI kYnyzf afeI sI, AusdI ieho koiÈÈ rhI ik dyv mYnUM Cwz dyvy. mYN ijvyN Ausdy mn cVHI hI nf. pr dyv ny mYnUM nhIN sI Cwizaf.

mYN ivqoN vwD kMm krdI, bwicaF nUM pfldI, Gr-bfr sFBdI, kdI dyv nUM mOkf hI nf idMdI ik iksy iksm dI iÈkfieq Auh kr sky. ibmfr-Tumfr vI hovF qF mYN kuwJ nf smJdI. bwicaF nUM jnm qoN pfÜidaF hoieaF, mYN kdI dyv nUM rfqF jfgx nhIN sI idwqf. bwcy iZwly-mwTy ho jFdy qF mYN dUjy kmry ivc AunHF nUM lY ky jf lMmI pYNdI. socdI dyv ny svyry kMm qy jfxf hY. hAU sON lvy. mYN afp aOKI huMdI pr dyv nUM aOKf nf krdI.

… qy Pyr do bwicaF df Krcf, Gr dy ibwl-bwqIaF, sfzf guËfrf aOKf ho igaf. dyv afKx lwgf, “ikAuN nf bIjI horF nUM mMgvf leIey. Auh bwcy sFBxgy qy afpF dovyN rl ky kMm krFgy."

mYnUM vI ieh gwl jcI. soicaf, ienHF mulkF ivc kMm qoN ibnF qF guËfrf hY eI nhIN. bybI istr rwKIey qF myrI qnKfh bybI istr dy iZwz pY jfxI aY. bËurg dfdI-bfby nfÜ Gr df mhOl vI vfhvf rOxk vflf rhygf. spONsriÈp qoN koeI Cy-awT ku mhIny bfad bIjI qy Bfpf jI af gey. iqMn bYWzrUm df Gr vI sfnUM Cotf lwgx lwg ipaf. mYnUM kMm imlidaF hI asIN aOKy hoky cfr bYWzrUm df Gr KrId ilaf. bIjI qy Bfpf jI bwcy sFB lYNdy qy asIN donoN kMm qy cly jFdy. dfl sbËI bIjI bxf lYNdy qy cfr rotIaF mYN af ky Qwp lYNdI. bIjI dI QoVI bhuqI nukqf cInI dI afdq sI. mYN ijvyN AunHF dy mn dy cOKty ivwc iPwt hoeI hI nf. Gr df koeI kMm mYN TIk ZMg nfÜ ijvyN kr hI nf skdI. kMm qoN prqidaF hoieaF pMj-ds imMt lyt ho jfvo qF Auh keI qrHF dy svfl puwCdy. Pyr jdoN dyv rotI Kfx bYTdy qF ieÈfry mfqr gwl krdy hoey dyv nUM dwsxf cfhuMdy ik mYN Gr dyr nfÜ phuMcI hF.

pr dyv qy iksy gwl df asr nf huMdf.

jdoN AunHF nUM afieaF nUM koeI do ku sfl ho gey qF mYN iewk idn bIjI nUM afK hI idwqf, “bIjI qusIN iewdF dIaF gwlF ikAuN krdy ho? ikAuN cfhuMdy ho ik sfzy ivc lVfeI hovy? qusIN nHI cfhuMdy ik quhfzy puwq df Gr suwKI-sFdI vwsdf-rwsdf rhvy?"
bIjI nhIN boly. bws myry nfÜ vwt ijhy ho gey. mYN bVf pCqfeI. pr hux kI ho skdf sI, jo gwl ho cuwkI sI AusnUM bdilaf nhIN sI jf skdf.

iewk idn sfzI guaFZx cMnx kor myry Gr afANudI nUM afeI bYTI sI. pqf nhIN kI gwlF huMdIaF rhIaF hoxgIaF. mYnUM dr vVdI nUM qF eynF hI suxfeI idwqf, “kMm qF ny jfxIeyN kdoN dIaF Cwz dyNdIaF, iPrdIaF hoxIaF ny ÈOpF ivc. ipwCy huMdIaF qF guqnIaF hwQ PVf idMdIaF. pr aYnF mulkF `c? qObf-qObf."

“sfnUM mMgvf ky dy idwqf blI dy bUQy. Cwz jFdI aY iCwtF sfzf isr Kfx leI. aYh Aumr aY sfzI rOlf-gOlf Jwlx dI." bIjI vI ijvyN rox hfky hoey pey sn.

myry afAux df KVfk sux ky donoN TTMbr ijhIaF geIaF qy cMnx kor, “cldI aF BYxF. lY Èrn vI af geI. mYN vI krdI aF jfky koeI rotI pfxI df jugfV." afK ky cldI bxI.

jIa qF kIqf ik guaFZx bYTI qy hI AusnUM cfr qwqIaF-TMZIaF suxf idaF ik nf qF qusIN afpxy Gr ivc suwK-ÈFqI rwKdIaF ho qy nf dUjy dy rihx idMdIaF ho. pr mYN cuwp rhI. bIjI nUM puwCx df jyrf nf ipaf ik smwisaf kI hY? soicaf ik TMZy ijgry nfÜ gwl krFgI. hux myry aMdr vI roh Gol kr irhf hY. jdoN mn ÈFq hovygf qF puwC lvFgI. TMZy pfxI df glfs pI ky mYN afpxy kmry ivc clI geI.

do ku idn bfad mYN bIjI nfÜ gwl kIqI, “bIjI jy kr koeI smwisaf hY qF mYnUM dws idaf kro. bfhr aYNvy lokI AUTF dIaF zfrF bxfAux lwg pYNdy hn."

“iksy nfÜ gwl krn leI mYnUM hux qYQoN iejfËq lYxI pAU?" bIjI ijvyN guwsy ivc boly.

“nhIN mYN ieh qF nhIN ikhf." mYN vfqfvrn nUM ÈFq ijhf krn dI koiÈÈ kIqI. “bIjI mYN qF ieh ikhf hY ik jy kr quhfnUM myry nfÜ koeI guwsf iglf hY qF Gr ivc hI inptf ilaf jfvy qF TIk aY. mYN vI qF dyv vrgI hF, qusIN jo mrËI mYnUM afK skdy ho."

“nf BfeI bIbf, qUM dyv vrgI ikmyN? dyv dy qF mYN kMn PV ky puwC skdI hF ik lyt ikmyN ho igaf. qy qUM inwkI ijhI gwl nUM kwcI lwsI vFg vDf lYNdI aYN. qYQoN qF BfeI AUN hI zrdy rhIdf aY. iewk qyry juafk pflIdy aY qy dUjf qyrI gulfmI krIdI aY qy qIjf hukm vI Jwlo. nhIN huMdf ieh myry koloN." bIjI df ijvyN asmfn pft igaf hovy vFg vrH pey. mYnUM smJ nf afvy ik mYN eys smwisaf nUM ikvyN smytF. mYN awgoN cuwp sfD leI. dyv nUM dwsdI qF ikvyN? afKr AusdI mF hY. myrI sfrI akl KUh-Kfqy ivc pY geI.

vfrdfqF idnoN idn vwDx lwg peIaF. aslI gwl mYnUM bfad ivc pqf lwgI ik guaFZIaF dy dIpy ny bIjI qy Bfpf jI nUM nfÜ iljf ky vYWlPyar luaf idwqI sI. qy bIjI dy isr BUq svfr sI ik AunHF ny `kwly rihxf hY. Bfpf jI bQyrf smJfAuNdy rhy, “sfzf iewko qF puwq aY. AusqoN vI dUr?" pr bIjI ny iewk nf mMnI. afKr hoieaf Auh hI jo bIjI ny mn ivc pkfieaf hoieaf sI. sO bhfny AunHF ny dyv dI JolI ivc pfey. sO ielËfm AunHF ny myry isr mVHy. iewk idn dyv nUM afKx lwgy, “mYN BfeI afpxI guwq nHI ptfAuxIN eydy koloN."

dyv AuWiTaf, Ausny do-cfr myry jV idwqIaF. swtF dI mfr hyTF mYN Ausdy mUMh vl dyKF. sDfrn qOr qy kuwJ puwC-dws lYxf bIjI bdqmIËI smJdy sn. AunHF nUM Èfied nUMh cfhIdI sI ijhVI kMnf qoN bolI qy mUMh qoN gUMgI hovy. mYN Auh nhIN sF. jdoN vI koeI gwl huMdI qF dyv afÌr jFdf. do idn bIqdy, AuhI dyv huMdf qy AuhI mYN huMdI. Bfpf jI dyv nUM smJfAuNdy vI. pr Ausdy isr ivc gwl hI nf pYNdI. bIjI kol pqf nhIN ikhVI jfdU dI puVI sI ijs nfÜ Auh dyv nUM afpxy mgr lf lYNdy sn.
Bfpf jI dy kihMdy-kihMdy bIjI ibsqry bMn ky qur pey. Bfpf jI jFdy hoey eynF afK gey, “Èrn puwq! burf nHI mnfAuxf. quhfzI bIjI df suBfa eI eydF df aY. mYN qF Byd pf ilaf qy iËMdgI kwt leI aY. pr ÈfbfÈ puwq qUM AusnUM kuwJ mfVf cMgf nHI ikhf. sgoN iek gwl qF cMgI vI aY, Gwto-Gwt muMzy nUM cfbI qF nf dyAU."

dyv kuwJ icr qF myry nfÜ vwitaf irhf. Pyr iËMdgI afpxI rÌqfr qur peI. bwcy skUl jfx lwg pey. rvI qy rInf nUM mYN afPtr afvr dy pRogrfm ivc pf idwqf. Ausy skUl ivc bwcy do GMty hor rih skdy sn. mYN kMm qoN prqdI hoeI jF dyv kMm qoN prqdy hoey bwicaF nUM leI afAuNdy.

bIjI qy Bfpf jI nfÜ vI asIN rfbqf tuwtx nf idwqf. Bfpf jI dI afKI gwl, myry aMdr Gr kr geI ik “eynHF dI afdq hI aY."

pr bIjI afpxf dfAu KyzxoN kdI bfj nf afAuNdy. jdoN dyv bIjI nUM iml ky afAuNdy qF AunHF df mUz hmyÈF aOP huMdf. AuWKVy-AuWKVy idKfeI idMdy. bIjI dyv dy kMn Brdy rihMdy. dyv bhuq cMgf sI, pr kMnF df kwcf sI. bhuqf boldf nhIN sI Auh. koeI mfVI afdq nhIN sI. sfzI itAuinMg TIk-Tfk cldI rhI. Gr bwcy mYN sFBdI. bfhrlf kMm dyv inptf lYNdy. bIjI kdy-kdfeIN gV-bV kr idMdy pr eys kdr koeI rOlf nf pYNdf ik Gr ivc qUÌfn KVf ho jfvy.

… qy hux, mYnUM iksy qUÌfn df Èor Gr dy hr kony ivc gUMjdf suxfeI idMdf sI. ies qUÌfn df nF kI sI? mYnUM nhIN sI pqf. ikvyN mYN ies dI GuMmxGyrI ivcoN inklxf sI? ieh vI nhIN sI pqf.

dyv dy lÌË myry kMnF ivc iPr gUMjy. “ijMnf icr koeI PYslf nHI huMdf, qUM rihxf cfhyN qF rih skdI aYN. Pyr qYnUM koeI afpxI QF BflxI pAU."

“kfhdf PYslf? kI PYslf? kI mqlb aY? ieh myrf Gr aY. myrf pirvfr aY. ikAuN QF BflxI pAU? mYN ikAuN jfvF? qy ikwQy jfvF?" myry mUMhoN pqf nhIN kI-kI qy iks qrHF dy svfl-jvfb AuWT rhy sn qy mYN bolI jf rhI sF. “knUMn mYN vI jfxdI hF. Gr aOrq df huMdf hY. bwicaF df huMdf hY. mYN bwicaF qoN ibnF ikvyN rih skdI hF Blf?"

“ieh Aus vyly cyqf rwKxf sI jdoN Coty-Coty bwicaF nUM Cwz ky clI geI. ieh vI nhIN soicaf ik rvI nUM ikvyN dOrf pY jFdf hY. Ausdf afsQmf …." qy dyv ny gwl ivcfly Cwz idwqI. mUMh dUjy bMny krdf ijvyN guwsy qy kVvfht df kOVf Guwt Br irhf hovy.

“kI hoieaf rvI nUM? mYnUM dwisaf ikAuN nhIN? mYN hr roË Pon krdI sI. isrÌ iewk idn Pon nHI kIqf. iek idn iksy ny Pon hI nhIN cuwikaf." afpxI DI df duwK sux ky mYnUM ijvyN afpxI mF df pIVF ivwc kurlfAuxf vI Buwl igaf.

“pUrI rfq hspqfl ivc rhI Auh. dvfeI qy Ausdy sprya vI pqf nhIN sI ikwQy sn." dyv ijvyN Ëihr nfÜ Biraf ipaf sI.

ijAuN-ijAuN mYnUM rvI bfry pqf lwg irhf sI, bwicaF nUM dyKx dI qFG hor vwD rhI sI. mYN Pyr vI afpxy afp nUM ÈFq rwKx dI koiÈÈ kIqI ik ibpqf tlx dI QF hor nf vwD jfvy. pr ibpqf hY kI sI? mYnUM pUrI qrHF nfÜ smJ nhIN sI af rhI.

“dyv hoieaf kI sI? sfry sprya aqy dvfeIaF mYN quhfnUM dws smJf ky geI sI. vfDU sprya mYN awz klOijwt ivc rwK ky geI sI. pUrI ilst ilK ky mYN Pirwj qy lfeI hoeI sI." mYN dyv nUM bfhvF qoN PV ky JMJoVidaF hoieaF afK rhI sF. jI krdf sI dyv dI ihwk `c muwkIaF mfr ky, Ausdy idl dy drvfËy AuWqy dsqk dyvF pr sB PËUl sI.

“hoxf kI sI, qYnUM qF cfa ciVaf sI ieMzIaf nUM jfx df. bwicaF bfry qF soicaf hI nhIN. ikvyN rihxgy? kI krngy? ibmfr-Tumfr hoxgy qF iksnUM avfË mfrngy? qy ijhVI ilst dI qUM gwl krdI aYN, Auh inafixaF ny pfV-pUV idwqI hoxI aY. mYnUM qF idsI nHI." dyv dI nËr hvf ivc Btk rhI sI.

hux mYnUM dyv qy bhuq guwsf af irhf sI. dyv nUM pqf sI, mYN ikAuN ieh kdm cuwikaf sI. cIÉidaF hoieaf mYN afiKaf, “dyv, mYnUM koeI cfa nHI sI ciVaf. mF ibmfr sI myrI. mrn inafeIN. kdI soicaf ik mOq dy dr qy bYTy bMdy df kI hfl huMdY? mYN Aus mOq dI cOKt qy mwQy rgV ky afeI hF. iqMn hÌqy mYN quhfQoN qy bIjI qoN imMqF nfÜ rfKvyN ley sn. kI qusIN aYnf vI smJ nhIN skdy ik myrI vI mF hY? myrI koeI ijMmyvfrI Aus pRqI vI hY. … qy Pyr bwcy? bwcy quhfzy kol hI sn. vyly-kvyly quhfzf vI ÌrË bxdY AunHF nUM sFBx df."

Gr dI ÈFq hvf ivc myry bol ieAuN pRqIq hoey ijvyN afpo ivcIN lVdy-JgVdy gUMjdy pey hox.

dyv Pyr vI ivMzo ivcIN bfhr dyK irhf sI. KflI hvf nUM nËr cIrdI hoeI lMG rhI sI. nf Auh myry vl dyK irhf sI nf nËr imlf irhf sI.

mYN smJ geI ik ieh sB kMnf df ksUr hY. pqf nhIN kI kuwJ kMnf ivc Biraf ipaf sI. myry bolF leI kMn ijvyN bMd ho cuwky sn. hux myry vI sbr dI ieMqhf sI. ikMnf ku icr mYN zr-zr ky JwldI rhFgI? pYr-pYr qy mYN afpxy afp nUM ies Gr aqy Gr dy bMidaF anusfr Zfilaf. hr vyly ieh qOKlf ik mF dy droN afAuNdy df mUz iks qrHF df hovygf. Pyr mYnUM afpxI mF dI qmMnf dwsx bYT jfvygf ik Auh poqy df mUMh dyKxf cfhuMdI aY. hor nhIN bws, mYN afpxy afp nUM ikhf.

dyv ny kfr dI kuMjI kfAuNtr qoN cuwkI qy bfhr nUM qur ipaf. jFdf hoieaf afK igaf ik “jy kr bwicaF nUM imlx dI koiÈÈ kIqI qF dyKIN Pyr. knUMnI qOr qy qYnUM AunHF qoN pMj sO gË dUr rihxf hovygf. mYN qy bwicaF ny bIjI dy Gr iÈÌt kr ilaf hY. mYN qYnUM dwsx hI afieaf hF."

dyv dy bol sux ky myry isr ivc hQOVy dI mfr peI. ieMj lwgf ijvyN myry isr dIaF nfVf pft geIaF hox. qy KUn prl-prl myry mwQy qy vg irhf hovy. mYN afpxy hwQF nfÜ mwQf pUMiJaf. koeI KUn nhIN sI. psInf sI qqIrI vFg coa irhf.

pMj sO ÊË? kI arQ hovygf eysdf? bIjI dy Gr iÈÌt kr ilaf hY? mYN bONdl geI. ieh myry nfÜ ho kI irhf sI? iqMnF hÌiqaF ivc myrI dunIaF hI plt geI sI. myrf jurm, myrI mF dI ibmfrI. kI DI nUM aYnf vI hwk nhIN? ikhVf knUMn hY jo iek mF nUM eys leI sËf dyvy ik Auh afpxI mr rhI mF nUM imlx geI sI. lwKF iKafl Gr dIaF kMDF nfÜ tkwrf-tkwrf ky ËÉmI ho rhy sn. vlUMDiraf mn kurlf irhf sI. ies afAux vflI ibpqf df mYnUM Qhu isrf vI nhIN sI lwB irhf.

mYN soc rhI sF, ijs sÉÈ nfÜ mYN bfrHF vrHy kwty hn, mYN AusnUM jfxdI hF, anuBv kr skdI hF, AusdI hr soc myry Dur aMdr qk phuMc skdI hY. pr nhIN, ijhVf iensfn huxy myry awgy KVf sI, ijsdI mYN qury jFdy dI ipwT dyKI sI, ruwKy bol suxy sn, AusnUM nf mYN jfxdI sF nf mYN pihcfxdI sF. ieh dyv myrf pqI nhIN sI ho skdf. ieh dyv myry bwicaF df bfp vI nhIN ho skdf. ijvyN pMJIaF idnF ivc iksy hor iensfn ny iesdf ijsm aqy idmfg kfbU kr ilaf hovy. mYN socx lwgI, jy kr dyv nfÜ DIrj nfÜ gwl krF, Ausdf guwsf ÈFq krF, Èfied sB TIk ho jfvygf. aYNvyN rosf ijhf hI mn ivc hoxY. dyv ikvyN Buwl skdY pUrI iËMdgI? ikvyN Buwl skdY Auh KubsUrq pl jo asIN afpxIaF bwcIaF nfÜ mfxy sn? mYN kMm qoN lyt ho jfvF qF icMqf ivc zuwb jFdf sI. pr hux, dyv kuwJ vI suxn nUM iqafr nhIN sI, kuwJ vI jfnx nUM iqafr nhIN sI, kuJ vI cyqy krn nUM iqafr nhIN sI.

dyv ny bfhrly drvfËy nUM Twk dyxI bMd kIqf. ijvyN myrf Dur aMdr kMb igaf. myry sIny ivc golI Tfh krdI lwgI. mYN kMbdIaF lwqF nUM lY ky QF hI bYT geI. pqf nhIN ikMnf ku icr bYTI rhI. kuwJ socdI hoeI, iËMdgI dy vrky pltdI hoeI. Pon dI GMtI ny myrI soc qoV idwqI. koeI sylË mYn sI, kuwJ vyc irhf. “no, nOt ieMtrYsitz" afK ky mYN Pon rwK idwqf.

myrI soc Pyr dyv dy vqIry vwl prqI. mYN afpxI ibpqf df koeI hwl Bflx lwgI. socF, ikvyN mYN dyv dy mn aMdr JfkF? ikvy idl dy drvfËy qy dsqk dyvF? ikhVI cfbI nfÜ ies dy idmfg dy dr KolH ky dyKF? mMYN kniPAUËz hoeI peI sF. bybsI ivc mYN kMDF nfl isr ptk rhI sF.

myry afpxy Gr ivc myry leI QF nhIN? aOrq aYnI inhQI ho jFdI aY? kI krF, iks nfÜ gwl krF? iksdI slfh lvF? bfrF vryH Gr ivc vs-rs ky vI myrf ieh hfl? qIvIN kdI vI surwiKaq nhIN? zr dI qlvfr Ausdy isr qy hmyÈF ltkdI rhygI? pqf nhIN kdoN, iks hfl ivc Ausdf sfQI jF Ausdy Gr vfly, AusnUM bfhr kwZ mfrngy? … qy Pyr aYs mulk ivc? ikvyN? mYN qF brfbr kMm krky Gr clfAuNdI hF. ieh myrf Gr aY, myry bwcy hn. iqMnF hÌiqaF ivc sB KyrUM-KyrUM ho igaf? ies sFJ dI zor aYnI kwcI? irÈqf ryqy vFg Bur igaf? irÈqy nfÜoN mYnUM afpxI hoNd pfxI vFg vih geI mihsUs hoeI. ijvyN myrI afpxI hoNd hY hI nhIN sI. kdI huMdI vI nhIN.

mYN socF ivc AulJI peI sF. mYnUM Auh pl cyqy afey ijnHF ivc mYN qy dyv iewk-imwk sF. myrI sws dyv dy kMn vI BrdI qF dyv qy kuJ icr asr huMdf pr iewk do idnF ivc lwQ jFdf. kuVIaF gl icMbVdIaF qF dyv nUM iksy puwq dI qlb qMg nf krdI. pr myrIaF DIaF myrI sws leI boJ sn. Auh dyv df ivafh Pyr rcfAuxf cfhuMdI sI qFik Auh dyv dy puwqr df mUMh dyK sky. myrI CotI DI vyly kMplIkyÈn hox kfrn myrI kuwK bMjr ho geI sI. mYN cfh ky vI eys Gr nUM puwq nhIN sF dy skdI. qy Pyr Èfied myrf mn rwKx leI hI dyv vI bIjI nUM kihMdf, “jd mYnUM koeI Prk nhIN qF qusIN ikAuN icMqf krdy hoN? aj kl DI-puwq df koeI Ìrk nHI."

“Ìrk ikAuN nHI? kuwl df nF qF puwq dy nfÜ eI clxY." qy bIjI vwloN kuwJ nf kuwJ suxn nUM imldf hI rihMdf. “puwq ibnF kuwl ikvyN qurU?" Auh dyv nUM afKdI. “qUM hFa qF kr, lwKF sfk imldY aY. lokIN ds-bIh lwK vI nfÜ idMdy aY qy sfk vI krdy aY. dwsF-bIhF lwKF ivc agilaF df pUrf twbr ju knyzf af jfxYN qy Auh vI shI knUMn nfÜ. ikhVIaF do nhIN huMdIaF. ipMzF ivc kwTIaF rih skdIaF sn, aYQy ikAuN nHI? Pyr knUMnI kfrvfeI hI qF krnI hoeI. Èrn dy dsÉq hoey, spONsriÈp Byj idaFgy."

dyv ny AusnUM cuwp krf idwqf sI. Èfied myry kol bYTI hox kfrn. mYN AuWTI qy afpxy kmry nUM cly geI. mYN guwsy ivc keI kuwJ vgfh mfiraf sI. jIa kIqf sI sws df gl Guwt idaF.

ieh socidaF mihsUs hoieaf ijvyN mYN koeI ijAuNdI sMuzI ingl leI hovy. jIa kwcf-kwcf hox lwg ipaf. jdoN Pyr tYlIPon dI GMtI ny myry idmfg ivc KOrU pfAuxf ÈurU kIqf. myrI guaFZx ËInf mYnUM vYWlkm kr rhI sI. “vYWlkm bYk. hfE ieË XUar mdr ÈYrn?”

“ÈI iewË srvfeIivMg. pqf nhIN ikMny idn hor pr…” afKidaF myrf ijvyN gwc Br afieaf.

“mYN smJ skdI hF, mF DIaF dy Kfs nyVy huMdI aY. mn nf Br. awlf qflf qy XkIn rwK sB TIk ho jfvygf.”

“suafh TIk ho jfvygf, sB kuwJ gV-bV hY ËInf.”

“ikAuN kI hoieaf? aFtI TIk nhIN?” ËInf nUM iksy gwl dI Ébr nhIN sI. ËInf myrI inwGI shylI sI. jdoN ËInf musIbq ivc sI qF mYN rfq idn lf ky ËInf dI mdd kIqI sI. kYnyzf ivc sYWt hox leI, dyv qy mYN dohF ny iesnUM idn rfq shfrf idwqf sI. ËInf pfiksqfn ivc jMmI sI. vlYq ivc plI sI. XunIvristI ivwc pVHidaF hoieaF ÊlqI kr bYTI. jy kr Gr pqf lwg jFdf qF AunHF ny ËInf nUM pfiksqfn rvfnf kr dyxf sI.… qy awj qk Ausdf Kurf-Koj BfilaF vI nhIN sI imlxf. ËInf nUM ÊlqI krn qoN bfad pqf lwgf ik Auh bMdf pihlF hI ivafihaf hoieaf hY. bfl-bwcy vflf hY. jy kr Ausdy Gr ËInf jf vI vsdI qF ikvyN iËMdgI kwtdI? pr ËInf nUM Ausdy ibsqry dI gMdI cfdr bxnf mMËUr nhIN sI. nf Auh cfhuMdI sI ik byhI rotI vFg Ausdy Gr dy iksy kUVy krkt ivc peI rhy. Ausny ÊlqI kIqI sI qy iewk Buwl qF rwb vI mfÌ kr idMdf hY. mF-ipE nUM dwsx qoN ibnF … Auh ihMmq krky GroN inwkl afeI sI. shylIaF kol vkq kwtI krdI nUM ËInf dy msyr BfeI ny kYnyzf afAux df rfh dws idwqf. kYnyzf af ky ËInf ny puwq nUM jnm idwqf. msyr BfeI ny vI kuwJ icr sfQ idwqf qy Pyr Ausdy Gr ivc vI ieh mF-puwq ijvyN Kwtkx lwg pey. bws boJ bx gey. Aus vyly ieh mYnUM imlI sI jdoN pwqJV dyy pwqy vFg rul rhI sI. … Èukr aY, sMBl geI. … qy hux ieh afpxI rotI kmfAuNdI qy puwq nUM pfldI sI.

myry AulJy mn nUM ËInf dy Pon kfl df shfrf iml igaf. iksy nfÜ qF mYN idl dI gwl krnI hI sI. soicaf, Pyr ËInf hI ikAuN nhIN? afÉr Auh eysy qrHF dI smwisaf ivcIN inwklI aY. Ìrk aYnf ey ik Auh afp Gr Cwz ky afeI sI qy mYnUM GroN by-Gr kIqf jf irhf aY. ieh socidaF hoieaF myrf gwc Br afieaf. afpxy afp nUM sMBflidaF hoieaF mYN afpxI sfrI ihMmq iekwTI krky ËInf nUM afiKaf, “ËInf jrf ku iewDr af skdI aYN?”

“kI gwl? sB TIk qF hY?" ËInf nUM ijvyN myrI iÌkr ho geI.

“bws qUM af jf." afK ky mYN Pon Twp dyxI rwK idwqf.

ËInf imMtF ivc myry kol sI. hWQ ivc kuMjIaF df guwCf PVI. guwCy dI irMg iewk AuNglI ivc PsfeI. ËInf lMmI lMJI, gorf rMg, kprIaF awKF, qurdI qF vÜ ijhf pYNdf. Ausdy nwk dy Kwby pfsy pfieaf sony df kokf cmkdf hoieaf ijvyN AusdIaF awKF ivc iclkor mfrdf.

mYnUM smJ nhIN sI af rhI ik mYN gwl ikwQoN ÈurU krF. ËInf nUM dyKidaF myrf qF roxf inwkl igaf.

myry kMbdy hwQ ËInf ny afpxy hwQF ivc Guwtxy cfhy. mYN nrvws hoeI peI sF.

bfrHF vrHy suwK ÈfqI dy inwkly sn. GrF dI mfVI-motI smwisaf qF huMdI hI aY. … qy hux ijvyN qUÌfn myrIaF brUhF qy afx Kloqf sI.

ËInf ny myry duafly afpxI bFh vwl leI. itÈU pypr cuwk ky myry awQrU pUMJy. pfxI df glfs mYnUM pIx nUM idwqf. qy afKx lwgI, “kuwJ ipV-pwly vI pfvyN?"

mYN msF ruwk ky afK skI, “ËInf mYnUM qF Kud smJ nhIN afAuNdI ik myry isr ieh ibpqf iks qrHF pY geI. ikhVI gwl dI kmI sI Gr ivc jF myry ivc. kI mYN afpxf pqnI Drm nhIN inBf pfeI? qy jF kuwJ hor …? " afKidaF svflIaf icMnH myry mwQy ivc AuWg afieaf.

“gwl hoeI kI aY?" ËInf aMdr pRÈn Dumfl pf rhy sn. ijvyN dyv aqy myry ivcfly kdI koeI gwl ho hI nhIN sI skdI.

mYN ËInf nUM jo myry nfÜ bIiqaf sI afK suxfieaf. mF dI ibmfrI qoN lY ky, torFto Gr qwk vfpsI df sÌr, qy Pyr jo vfps prqx qy bIqI,Ausdf iËkr vI. “kI kmI sI myry ivc ËInf? ikAuN dyv iqMnf hÌiqaF ivc bdl igaY? ienHF virHaF dI zor aYnI kwcI? iewko Jtky nfÜ …"

“aYsI koeI gwl nHIN aY. nuks qyry ivc nhIN. qYnUM vI pqY nuks ikwQy aY. … qy Pyr ieh mrd Ëfq qF huMdI eI eys qrHF dI aY. eynHF dI afpxI akl df qF qYnUM pqf hI aY ikwQy aY. dUjf qyrI sws PÌfkutxI vI Gwt nhIN. kMn qF Auh qyry iewQy huMidaF vI BrdI rihMdI sI. qyry ivc AusnUM lwK nuks idKfeI idMdy sn. ijmyN iksy hor hUr nUM ilaf ky puwq df Gr vsfAuxf hovy. mYnUM qF lgdY, koeI hor sfmI iml geI hoxI aY. ieh buwZVI qF afpxy hI puwq df Gr brbfd krn zhI aY. stUipwz vomYn, kuVIaF df vI iKafl nHI kIqf. hux afpF socxf ieh aY ik dyv ny iqMnf hÌiqaF ivc ieh kdm cuwikaf qF ikAuN?" ËInf vI mwQy qy hwQ Dr ky bYT geI.

myrI smJ kuwJ nhIN sI pY irhf. hr soc myrf sfQ Cwz rhI sI. krF qF kI krF? ikhVf dr KVkfvF. hornF lokF dIaF khfxIaF mYN suxdI sF, pr ieh nhIN sF jfxdI ik myry Gr hI afÌq af KVygI. mYnUM kuwJ nhIN sI suwJ irhf. icMqf ivc grsq ËInf bolI, “dyK qUM iZwl nf kr. iksy nfÜ mÈvrf kr lY."

“kI mqlb?"

“bws qUM myrf afKf mMn, iewk vfrI Èfrdf nfÜ gwl kr dyK.

“Auh kOx aY" mYN puwiCaf.

“vkIl aY… hor kI?"

“Blf ikAuN? mYnUM vkIl dI kI loV aY?" mYN hYrfn ho ky puwC rhI sF.

“nhIN vI loV qF iewk vfrI gwl krn ivc kI hrË aY." ËInf ny jor dy ky afiKaf.

mYN nhIN sF cfhuMdI ik iksy dUjy bMdy nUM afpxy GrylU mfmly ivc GsItF. anykF kys mYN suxy sn ik aOrqF dI mdd krn vfly adfry Gr joVn dI QF qoV idMdy hn. KyrUM-KyrUM prvfr ruldy pey sn qy Auh afpxIaF PIsF lY ky iZwz Br lYNdy sn. ijMny kys vwD krngy AunIN hI gOrmYNt qoN grFt vI vwD imlygI. AunHF nUM iewk vfrI Pon kro, bws jI aOrq nUM phuMcf dyxgy bYtrz vumYn dy hom ivc.

“nhIN ËInf … mYN ieh nhIN kr skFgI. mYnUM iksy vkIl dI loV nhIN hY." mYN ËInf nUM afiKaf.

“Pyr vI aVIey, kI pqf hY iks musIbq df sfmHxf krnf pYxY." ËInf swc hI myry leI pryÈfn hoeI peI sI.

“pr ËInf … aYs vyly? sB dÌqr bMd hoxgy? hY nf?" myrIaF svflIaf nËrF ËInf dy Dur aMdr nUM kuryd geIaF.

“qUM icMqf nf kr. mYN dyKdI hF. socdI hF kI kIqf jf skdY. Pon PVfeIN." Ausny myry vwl korz lYWs Pon lYx leI hwQ vDfieaf.

mYnUM AusdI gwl-bfq qoN hI pqf lwg irhf sI ik Auh iksy koloN myrI ibpqf leI slfh lY rhI hY. kOx sI Auh bMdf mYnUM nhIN sI pqf. ËInf ny Pon bMd kIqf qy bolI, “qUM iÌkr nf kr. slIm horIN huxy af rhy aY."

“kOx slIm?" ieh nF mYN ËInf dy mUMhoN pihlI vyrF suixaf sI. mYnUM ËInf dI pUrI iËMdgI dI sfr sI. Aus nfÜ bIqy dI Ébr sI. qy ieh nF “slIm" Aus ikqfb dy iksy vrky qy nhIN sI afieaf.

ËInf bolI, “qUM iÌkr ikEN krn zhI aYN. qYnUM ikhf nf sB TIk ho jfAU. … qy mYN qYnUM slIm bfry vI dws dyAUN. hfl dI GVI qUM ieh smJ lY ik ies qoN cMgI slfh sfnUM hor koeI nhIN dy skdY. myry qy Brosf kr."

AusdIaF twzIaF awKF myry Dur aMdr nUM Prol rhIaF sn ik icMqf ikvyN Gux vFg mYnUM Kf rhI hY. mYN qy ËInf ny keI Auqrfa JVfa dyKy sn. Auh myrI hr hrkq qoN vfikÌ sI. hr afdq dI pCfx sI AusnUM. myrf Aus nfÜ kI sMbMD sI? Auh vI kihxf muÈkl sI. asIN iewk dUjI dI rg-rg qoN vfikÌ sF. keI vyrIN myrI sws dyv nUM afKdI, ieh qyry nfÜ ivafhI aY jF Aus KsmFipwtI ËInf nfÜ.

mYnUM AusdI gwl qoN awg lwg jFdI. pr mYN nf dyv nUM smJf skdI qy nf afpxI sws nUM. keI irÈqy aYsy vI huMdy hn ijnHF ivc koeI suafrQ nhIN huMdf. Auh hmyÈF eys kdr mihkdy hn ijvyN hr idn qfËf hovy, hr pl mihkdf hovy. ËInf vI eysy qrHF myrI iËMdgI ivc afeI sI. Ausdy ruldy idnF ivc asIN Ausdf sfQ idwqf sI. … qy ËInf pUrI dI pUrI myrI iËMdgI ivc vI smf geI. iksy Drm ny sfzy ivc vKyVf nhIN KVf kIqf. nf irÈqy df koeI nF sI. bws asIN dovyN sF. duwK-suwK sFJf krdIaF hoeIaF. ieMzIaf vI mYN eysy leI clI geI sF ik ËInf bwicaF df iDafn rKygI. pr kuwJ gwlF Ausdy vwsoN bfhr dIaF vI sn. Auh myry Gr ivc ikMnI ku dÉl aMdfËI kr skdI sI Blf? AusnUM kI pqf sI ik myry Gr dIaF kMDF aMdr kI pwk irhf hY.

“slIm" ny drvfËf nOk kIqf. ËInf ny hI dOV ky jf ky KoilHaf. ijvyN ËInf ny Ausdf ichrf pihlF qwkxf hovy. mYnUM lwgf, ijvyN mYnUM vI ËInf leI KuÈI hoeI hovy. myry buwlHF dI hrkq ny myry iËhn ivc iewk lihr ijhI pYdf kIqI. Auh bfhrlf dr KolHidaF bolI, “jih nsIb! dyKyN nf iks kdr imlfp hosI."

ËInf ny myrI khfxI bVy QoVy ÈbdF ivc slIm nUM afK suxfeI. mYnUM qF XkIn vI nhIN sI ik ieh koeI ibpqf hY vI jF nhIN. mYN afpxy mn nUM afK rhI sF, Èfied mYnUM BulyKf lwgf hoxY. ikAuN mYN vfÜ dI KfÜ AuDyV rhI hF. GrF ivc kuwJ qF qwqIaF-TMZIaF huMdIaF hI ny. pr nhIN, slIm myry mohry lMmI cOVI khfxI lY ky bYT igaf sI. afKx lwgf, “pihlF qF bwicaF nUM kol ilafAux bfry socxf hovygf. jy kr Ausny bwcy dyKx qoN nFh kr idwqI hY qF ijMnf icr kstwzI df koeI PYslf nhIN huMdf, AuWnF icr iviËitMg rfeIt bfry aplfeI krnf pvygf."

slIm smJf hI irhf sI ik mYN ivcfilEN BVk ky bol peI. “BfeI! ieh iks qrHF dIaF gwlF pey krdy ho? dyv nrfË hY, hor kuwJ nhIN. kort-kichrI, ieh kI hoieaf." mYN aOKI hoeI peI sF. mYN socdI sF jdoN dyv df guwsf Zwl igaf qF sB TIk ho jfAU. mYN Pyr ikhf, “dyK ËInf, mYN ienHF JMJtF ivc nhIN pYxf cfhuMdI. nf hI mYN afpxf Gr qoVnf cfhuMdI hF. jo hoAU dyKI jfAU. rihx idE. mYN aYNvy …." afKidaF mYN ËInf vwl nihrI ijhI vwt ky dyiKaf.

ËInf dI QF slIm boilaf, “qusIN ÊlqI krdy ho. jy kr socdy ho ik sB kuwJ TIk ho jfvygf qF qusIN BulyKy ivc hoN. quhfzf ksUr vI nhIN, iznfiel ivc aksr iensfn afpxy afp nUM smyt lYNdf hY. jo kuwJ mYnUM ËInf ny dwisaf hY, Aus muqfibk dyv jo vI kr irhf hY, Auh kwcy pYrIN nhIN kr irhf." Auh afpxI kfpI nUM bMd krdf boilaf, “clo koeI kdm nhIN cuwkdy, pr iqafr rihx ivc kI hrË hY."

“iqafr? iks vfsqy?" mYN ijvyN iewt vFg Ausdy svfl mfiraf.

“pqf nhIN quhfzy hsbYNz dy mn ivc kI hY? ienHF dyÈF ivc kuwJ vI ho skdf hY. kdy vI iksy dI nIaq bdl skdI hY. quhfnUM cfhIdf hY ik qusIN afpxy Bly-bury bfry socoN."

ËInf ny mYnUM bhuq smJfieaf. slIm ny knUMnI nukqy dwsy-smJfey. pr aYs vyly bwicaF qoN ibnF mYnUM kuwJ nhIN sI suwJ irhf. myry nfÜ aYNj vI bIq skdf hY? mYN nhIN sF smJ skdI. myrf qF isrÌ ieho jI krdf sI ik sws dy dr jf KVI hovF. bwicaF nUM bfhoN PVF qy Gr af jfvF. qy Pyr myrI sws nUM qF kuVIaF cfhIdIaF hI nhIN sn. awTF-dsF virHaF dIaF kuVIaF df kI krygI Auh? AunHF dy qF jnm idn vI AusnUM cyqy nhIN sn rihMdy. afKdI sI, “kOx kuVIaF dy jnm idn mnfAuNdY?"

… qy Pyr hor bury iKafl idmfg ivc Gr krn lwgy, Èfied do-chuM sflF qwk Auh ienHF leI vI vr lwBx lwgy jo AusnUM vIh-qIh lwK dyxgy. qObf-qObf. mYN kMnf nUM hwQ lfey. hux swc hI myry aMdr dihl ijhf pYdf ho igaf. mYnUM myrIaF kuVIaF dI icMqf Kfx lwgI. mYN rfqo-rfq kuVIaF nUM afpxy kol cfhuMdI sF. ies AuDyV-bux ivc mYN kMbdI hoeI ny slIm vfly Pfrm qy dsqÉq krny ÈurU kr idwqy. slIm horIN PfeIl smyt ky cly gey. jFdy hoey afK gey, “qusIN shI PYslf ilaf hY."

Auh rfq mYN ikvyN kwtI, mYnUM hI pqf hY. bIjI dy Gr Pon krF qF koeI cuwky hI nf. slIm horIN afK gey sn ik mYN bwicaF nUM imlx dI koiÈÈ nf krF ikAuN ik dyv ny ieh vfrinMg idwqI hoeI hY. vrnf Auh qYnUM arYst krvf dyxgy. mYN pulIs lOk-awp ivc hovFgI. bwicaF nUM dyKy vgYr mYnUM cYn vI nhIN sI af irhf. socF, kI dyv swc hI aNYj krU? dyv eys kdr bdl skdf hY? … qy mYnUM dunIaF dy dyv nËr afAux lwg pey. kcUr lYrIaF kuVIaF, sUhy cUVy pihnI, klIry lmkfeI, keI dyvF dy mgr-mgr qur rhIaF sn. ijvyN AunHF dI iewk zfr myrIaF brUhF dy AuWqy vI KVI sI. suwBr ivc notF dIaF QwbIaF leI. qRylIaF ny myrf ijsm iBAuN idwqf.

Pon Pyr KVikaf. mYN soicaf ik Èfied kuVIaF ny Pon kIqf hovygf. dyv aYnf inrmohf qF nhIN ho skdf. Pon qF krf hI dyAU. pr nhIN. slIm sI, Ausny zI[ey[ dI ieËfËq nfÜ bwicaF nUM imlx dI primÈn lY leI sI. myry cMgI mF hox dI gvfhI ËInf ny Br idwqI sI. hux dyv mYnUM bwcy dyKx qoN rok nhIN sI skdf. mYN slIm dI kfr ivc hI bIjI dy Gr geI. drvfËf KVkf ky bwicaF nUM bfhr hI swd ilaf. dyv Gr nhIN sI. bIjI ny bQyrf rOlf pfieaf. pr mYN kuwJ vI suxn nUM iqafr nhIN sF. bIjI nUM slIm ny kfÊË idKfey qy cuwp krf idwqf. jo kihxf sI slIm ny hI ikhf.

bwicaF nUM mYN afpxy gl lfieaf. cMuimaf-cwitaf. AunHF dy svflF dy jvfb idwqy pr mYN dyv jF bIjI dy iKlfÌ koeI lÌË nf afiKaf. ieho mYnUM slIm ny afiKaf sI. mYN bwicaF nUM smJf idwqf ik mYN do-cfr idn Èfied AuhnF nUM nf iml skF. qusIN guwz grlË bx ky dfdI kol rihxf. bIhyv krnf. qMg nhIN krnf. pr AusqoN bfad Auh myry kol hoxgIaF.

“vfeI kFt afeI kwm ivwd XU nfE?" rvI zuskdI hoeI bolI.

“XYh mOm, vfeI?" rInf ny svfl dfiÊaf.

“mYnUM iewk do kMm ËrUrI hn. AunHF qoN bfad mYN quhfnUM lY jfvFgI. afeI prfimË." mYN afpxy awQrU lkoNdI hoeI bolI. mYN nhIN sF cfhuMdI ik myrIaF kuVIaF myrIaF awKF ivc afieaf pfxI dyKx aqy Audfs hox.

“Pfr ieMzIaf grYNzmf?" rInf bolI.

“XYWs hnI, Pfr ieMzIaf grYNzmf." mYN AunHF nUM Brosf duaf ky afpxf afp lY ky AuWQoN af geI.

Bfpf jI bfhroN sYr krky prq rhy sn. mYN bVy adb nfÜ siq sRI akfl bulfeI. AuWqr idMidaF AunHF dI nËr myry pYrF ivc gwzI hoeI sI. Bry gly nfÜ afKx lwgy, “jo ho irhf, TIk nhIN ho irhf puwqr. myry vwsoN bfhr aY. qUM cMgf ijhf vkIl kr lY." ieMnf afKdy hoey Auh aMdr nUM qur gey.

AunHF dI mËbUrI mYN mihsUs kIqI. pr mYnUM aYnf vI aihsfs hoieaf ik iewk vot myry hwk ivc vI KVI aY.

idn-rfqF mYN aOKIaF kwtIaF. bwicaF nUM Pon krky gwl krn df hwk vI mYnUM iml igaf sI. pUrf vIk aYNz vI mYN bwcy kol rwK skdI sF. afny-bhfny lf ky mYN kuVIaF nfÜ vkq kwt rhI sF. hr vfrI ivCVn vyly nvF bhfnf GVdI. … qy Pyr iewk idn mYnUM kuVIaF nUM ibTfl ky swc dwsxf hI ipaf. kuVIaF guMm-suMm ho geIaF ijvyN Êm df golf AunHF dI ihwk ivc jwm igaf hovy.

slIm ny kfAuNtr kys vI drË krvf idwqf. jdoN zfeIvors kys cwilaf, qF bhuq gMd-mMd iewk dUjy bfry Poilaf igaf. ieÉlfkI icwkV dy iCwty jy myry qy pey qF dyv qy vI pey. ËInf dy qy myry irÈqy nUM awgy ilaFdf igaf. slIm nUM ieh sB suxnf ipaf qy Jwlxf ipaf.

aKIr PYslf ieh hoieaf ik Gr qy bwcy myry kol rihxgy. mYN iewk cMgI mF rhI hF. imhnqI hF. ijs idn df Gr bMinaf hY Aus ivc myrf vwD hwQ hY. mF qy bwicaF nUM vYsy vI GroN-byGr nhIN kIqf jf skdf. Gr ivkx dI hflq ivwc jF Gr df muwl pf lYx dI hflx ivwc, vkIlF dy Krcy kwZ ky pYsy awDy-awDy imlxgy. dyv qnKfh df kuwJ ihwsf kuVIaF dy Krcy leI vI dyvygf. Auh hÌqy ivc iewk vfrI kuVIaF nUM iksy hor dI mOËUdgI ivc (suprvfeIËz iviËt) iml vI skygf. dfdI-bfbf myrI rjfmMdI nfÜ Gr af ky kuVIaF nUM dyK skxgy.

Aus idn kort ivcoN inklidaF Bfpf jI ny myrIaF awKF ivc JfkidaF hoieaF afiKaf, “puwqr! qkVI ho ky jI hux."
AunHF dy ienHF ÈbdF dy arQ bVy zUMGy sn. mYnUM shfrf vI iml igaf.

hux bIjI ipwtdI sI, dyv roNdf sI ik awDI qnKfh nfÜ Auh kI krU. Gr ikvyN vsfAU?

Pyr vI bIjI ny afpxI mn mrËI kr hI leI. ieMzIaf geI dyv nUM ivafh ilafeI. pVHI-ilKI kuVI dyv qoN ds-bfrF vrHy CotI Ausdy lV lf ilafeI. Cy ku mhIny ivc nvIN nUMh hrjoq kYnyzf af geI. eyarport qy bIjI qy dyv bx-Tx ky AusnUM lYx phuMcy. jhfj dy sfry pYsMjr AuWqr ky cly gey. pr hrjoq dI Ébr sfr nf imlI. ieMnkuafrI krn qy pqf lwgf ik Auh qF kYlgrI dI PlfeIt ivc sI qy Auh vI do idn pihlF. trFto afeI hI nhIN. Èfied AuWQy Ausdf pihlf buafey PrYNz rihMdf sI. Ausdf riÌAUjI kys cldf hox kfrn AusnUM mMgvf nhIN sI skdf. nf ipwCy nUM jf skdf sI. ieho iewko iewk qrIkf sI ijs nfÜ Auh kwTy ho skdy sn.

bIjI qy dyv ny rl ky Gr pwt ilaf sI. mF-puwq pCqfvy dI awg ivc Juls huMdy sn.
do vrHy hor bIq gey.

ienHF mulkF ivc isMgl-mdr nUM bQyrI mdd iml jFdI aY. mYN afpxy afp ivc sMquÈt ho ky jIa rhI sF. kuVIaF nUM pfÜ rhI sF. tuwty Gr dIaF kMkrF kdI qMg krdIaF vI qF mn nUM ÈFq kr lYNdI pr hOslf nf hfrdI. myrIaF kuVIaF myry jIx df vsIlf sn. myrf kMm vI cMgf sI. gwl kI, jy mYN ÉuÈ nhIN qF ÈFq ËrUr sF.

… qy Pyr iewk idn Bfpf jI myry dr dIaF brUhF qy KVy sn. mYN iÈÈtfcfr vjoN AunHF nUM aMdr afAux leI afiKaf. awj Pyr AunHF dI nËr myry pYrF duafly GuMm rhI sI. jfpdf sI ijvyN Auh iksy GuMmxGyrI ivc Psy hoey hox.

“kI gwl Bfpf jI, kuwJ pryÈfn lgdy hoN? ikvyN afAuxf hoieaf?" mYN puwC hI ilaf.

Auh afpxI sotI GuMmfAuNdy hoey atk-atk ky boly, “ieh Gr dI qbfhI rok lY puwqr. dyv nUM mfÌ …" Auh awgoN kuwJ nf boly.

mYN AunHF vwl dyiKaf. AunHF dI nËr Ausy qrHF ËmIn ivc gwzI hoeI sI. pl ku leI qF mYN TTMbrI. guwsf vI afieaf. bhuq kuwJ kihx nUM vI jIa kIqf. pr nhIN, mYN sB aMdr dwb ilaf. mYN aYnf hI afK skI, “Bfpf jI, mYN nËr imlf ky gwl krnf cfhuMdI hF, Jukf ky nhIN. ipafr, ivÈvfs, afdr ienHF ivcoN iewk vI myry pwly rih igaf huMdf qF mYN…" qy mYN gwl aDUrI Cwz idwqI.

hux AunHF ny myry vwl qwikaf, nIJ lf ky. ijvyN muskrfht AunHF dy buwlHF qy Pyr af geI hovy. “TIk aY puwqr. mYN smJdF." afK ky Auh nËr imlfAuNdy hoey AuWTy qy qur gey.

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