mYN
pMJI idnF bfad afpxy Gr prqI sF. dyv mYnUM ikwDry
idKfeI nf idwqf. awvl qF AusnUM eyar port qy phuMcxf
cfhIdf sI, mYN mn `c soicaf. mYN eyarport qy vI bQyrf
aflf-duaflf dyiKaf. GMtf Br dyv dI ieMqËfr vI kIqI.
Gr tYlIPon imlfieaf, pr koeI AuWqr nf imilaf. Ausdy
sYWl-Pon qy Pon kIqf, sYWl-Pon bMd sI. mYN afpxI sws
nUM Pon kIqf, Ausny vI Pon nf cuwikaf. mYN qF soicaf
Èfied Auh ikwDry bfhr geI hovygI. pr nhIN, mYnUM
bfad ivc pqf lwgf ik ieh sB sfiËÈ dI iewko lVI ivc
proqy mxky sn. … qy mYN kmlI, iKwJdI-KpdI, isr
ptkdI hoeI tYksI lY ky Gr phuMc geI. Èukr aY, myry
kol Gr dI kuMjI hY sI. jy nf huMdI qF mYN kI krdI?
dr
vVidaF mYN dyv nUM afvfËF idwqIaF. BfvyN mYnUM pqf
sI ik Auh Gr nhIN sI. Ausny myrf Pon ju nhIN sI
cuwikaf. bwicaF nUM avfËF idwqIaF, “hYlo hnI,
mYN af geI hF. ikwQy EN sfry?"
mYnUM
koeI AuWqr nf imilaf. KflI hvf ivc myrI afvfË gUMjdI
rhI.
mYN
bwqIaF jgf idwqIaF qF ik myrI iewklqf mYnUM nf cuwBy
aqy Gr vwsdf-rwsdf vI lwgy. pr bwicaF dI hoNd qoN
ibnF Gr mYnUM AujfV vFg jfipaf. mYN qF pUry cOdF GMty
pl-pl bwicaF nUM dyKx leI, imlx leI, bfhvF ivc lYx
leI qVÌdI ny kwty sn. socF hI socF ivc ik “bwcy
hux kI kr rhy hoxgy? ikvyN twzIaF awKF nfÜ myrI rfh
dyK rhy hoxgy. ikvyN mYnUM AuzIk rhy hoxgy?…qy
dyv, Auh vI Gr dI sfÌ-sÌfeI ivc ruwJf hovygf. BfvyN
pUry iqMn hÌqy Ausny Gr nf vI sfÌ kIqf hovy …
myry afAux dy cfa ivc Auh ËrUr mYnUM KuÈ krn vfsqy
ruwJf hoieaf hoxY." mYN ikafs krdI rhI.
pr
nhIN, kuwJ vI aYsf nhIN sI. nf bwcy mYnUM AuzIk rhy
sn qy nf hI dyv. Gr sfÌ sI. bhuq sfÌ. ieh sÌfeI
dyK ky myrf mwQf Txikaf. idl DVikaf. ijvyN mn dI
afvfË ny afiKaf hovy, kuwJ gV-bV ËrUr hY. rwb KYr-imhr
kry. mYnUM dyv dI afdq df pqf sI, Auh ijwQy jurfbF
lfhuMdf, AuWQy hI suwt idMdf, slIpr nOrQ-sfAUQ vwl
qury iPrdy. kwpVy ijwQy lfhuMdf AuWQy hI rwK idMdf.
kot kdI hYNgr ivc nhIN sI tMigaf.… qy awj? Gr
cmk irhf sI. hr vsq afpxy QFh isr itkI peI sI.
pUrf
GMtf mYN Gr ivc qurI iPrdI rhI. Pon zfiel krky pqf
krdI rhI. kdI dyv df nMbr imlfvF qy kdI bIjI dy Gr df.
iewk do imwqrF-dosqF nMU Pon kr bYTI. iksy nUM dyv dI
aqy bwicaF dI koeI Ébr-sfr nhIN sI.
rfq
df hnyrf psr irhf sI. … qy myrI icMqf vwD rhI sI.
“ikwQy hn bwcy? ËrUr dyv AunHF nUM bfhr lY ky
igaf hovygf”, mYN afpxy mn nfÜ smJOqy krdI rhI.
roh mn ivc Aubfly vI KFdf irhf ik mYN qF dyv nUM
idwlI qoN Pon krky afpxI PlfeIt bfry dws idwqf sI.
mYN ieh vI pCqfAuNdI rhI ik Èfied mYQoN Êlq vkq dy
idwqf igaf hovy, jF PlfeIt nMbr Êlq idwqf igaf hovy.…
kI ho skdf hY?
…
qy mYN Pyr ies gwl dI icMqf krn lwg peI ik
‘ikwDry mYN AusnUM eyar port qy hI imws nf kr
idwqf hovy. ikwQy bwcy qy dyv mYnUM Bfldy, Btkdy qury
iPrdy hoxgy?`
soicaf,
‘kI mYnUM vfps eyarport AunHF nUM Bflx clI jfxf
cfhIdf hY?`
mYN
gYrfË dI zor Kol ky dyKI, myrI kfr gYrfj ivc hI sI.
mYN Pyr kuwJ imMt AuzIkx vfsqy Gr aMdr af geI. kuwJ
krn nUM vI jIa nhIN sI krdf. kI kIqf jfvy? irMnx
pkfAux qoN ibnF aOrq kI soc skdI hY? mYN afpxy mn
nfÜ hI smJOqf kIqf ik mYnUM kuwJ dyr Tihr jfxf
cfhIdf hY. dyv dI AuzIk krnI cfhIdI hY. ieh nf hovy
bIjI vwloN Kf-pI ky hI afAux. jy nhIN vI qF pIËf
mMgvf lvFgy. vYsy vI mYN sÌr dI QwkI-tuwtI peI hF.
mYN
rsoeI ivc geI, kYtl df plwg aOn kr idwqf. imMtF ivc
sItIaF mfrdf pfxI mYnUM avfËF mfr irhf sI. mYN tI-bYg
kwp ivc Dr ky Aubldf pfxI pfieaf, qy cfh dI ipaflI lY
ky PYimlI rUm ivc af bYTI. cfh dIaF qwqIaF cuskIaF ny
mn socF dI GuMmxGyrI ivc goqy Kfx lf idwqf.
jdoN
nUM bfhrly drvfËy ivc iksy kuMjI dy GuMmx dI afvfË
myry kMnf ivc peI. mYN kwp nUM Ausy qrHF PVI, dOV ky
jf ky dr KoilHaf. ieh dyv hI sI. iekwlf. bwcy Ausdy
nfÜ nhIN sn.
imMt
ku leI dyv nUM dyK ky mYN iKV geI. myrI Qkfn, myrI
icMqf, imMt ivc ijvyN CU-mMqr ho geI. pr bwcy nfÜ nf
hox dI icMqf myry mn dy iksy kony nUM kuryd geI. mYN
dyv dy ipwCy aqy drF dy bfhr qk nËr GMumf ky dyiKaf,
Auh mYnUM ikwDry vI idKfeI nf idwqy. myry aMdr iewk
zob ijhf ipaf.
myrI
nËr sVk `qy dUr, sVkF dy koinaF nfÜ tkrfa ky muV
rhI sI.
mYN
afpxI nËr nUM sVkF qoN moV ky dyv qy gwz idwqf,
“dyv bwcy?" myry mUMhoN msF ruk ky afiKaf
igaf.
“shI
slfmq ny . kuC nHI hoieaf AunHF nUM." dyv ny
ibnF nËr imlfAux qoN AuWqr idwqf.
“Pyr
vI? ikwQy hn?" mYnUM acvI ijhI lwgI hoeI sI.
ijvyN aMdr afK irhf hovy, kuwJ vI TIk nhIN jfpdf.
dyv
ny KMGUrf ijhf mfiraf ijvyN qfkq iekwTI kr irhf hovy,
“iqMn hÌqy qF AunHF df iKafl nHI afieaf. qy hux?"
dyv ijvyN mUMh nUM vtf ijhf idMdf hoieaf afKx lwgf.
mYnUM
dyv dI avfË EprI jfpI. ruwKI, guwsy-igilaF nfÜ
BrpUr, qnË BrI. pr mYN afpxy aMdrly mn nUM mfr ky
puWiCaf, “dyv iqMn hÌqy mYnUM mËbUrI vws AunHF
qoN dUr rihxf ipaf, vrnf mYN kdy aYNj Cwzy hn pihlF?
… qy Pyr cyqf ikAuN nhIN afieaf? mYN hr roË
quhfnUM Pon krdI sI. bwicaF nfÜ gwl krdI sI. quhfQoN
hfl-cfl puwCdI sI. jy kr koeI smwisaf sI, qF ikAuN
nhIN mYnUM dwsI?"
“mËbUrI?
… mËbUrI qF qyry mn dI kfZ vI ho skdI aY. hor
kuwJ nHI. Pon df kI aY, aFZ-guaFZ vI Pon mfr ky puwC-dws
lYNdy hn." dyv ny mUMh myry vwl GuMmfey ibnF afK
idwqf.
mYnUM
dyv dy bolF qy XkIn nf afieaf. mYnUM Drq GuMmdI jfpI.
mYN ijvyN kMnF nUM Ëor lf ky Koilaf. myrf Èwk hor
vI pwkf ho igaf ik kuwJ gV-bV ËrUr hY. ies qoN awgy
puwCx df myrf jyrf nf ipaf. myry aMdr pYNdf zob afK
irhf sI ik pqf nhIN qYnUM kI kuwJ suxnf pY jfvy. mYN
afpxy afp nUM ÈFq rwKdy hoey afiKaf, “dyv,
pryÈfn lgdYN? kI gwl aY? koeI kMm qy pryÈfnI …?
dwsyN vI?" pr myrf aMdrlf mn afK irhf sI ik jo
kuwJ iesny dwsxf hY, Auh mYnUM nf hI suxy. mYN soc
rhI sF ik ieh iks qrHF df bMdf hY, ijsny myrI ibpqf
puwCx dI QF, myrI mF dI rfËI-KuÈI puwCx dI QF, myrI
judfeI dI gwl krn dI QF, myry Gr afAuNidaF hI qfhny-imhxy
mfrny ÈurU kr idwqy hn. kI ho igaf sI dyv nUM?
“nhIN."
Ausdf AuWqr Cotf ijhf qy iksy aihsfs qoN swKxf sI.
dyv
nUM mYN bfrF virHaF qoN jfxdI sF. bfrF vrHy ho gey sn
sfzy ivafh nUM. bhuqIaF gwlF qF Auh kdy vI nhIN sI
krdf. pr eys qrHF dI cuwp iewk nvIN khfxI isrj rhI sI.
myry koloN hor bhuqf jyrf nf hoieaf qy mYN jrf ku zt
ky puwC hI ilaf, “bwcy hYn ikwQy?"
“Auh
bIjI kol hn. awj nhIN afAuxgy."
“awj
nhIN afAuNxgy? kI mqlb? ikAuN nhIN afAuxgy?"
svfl mYN Tfh krdf ijvyN dyv dy mwQy `c mfiraf. pl leI
mYN ieh vI soicaf ik dyv Èfied ieh idn-rfq myry nfÜ
guËfrnI cfhuMdf hovygf. asIN kdI awz hoey vI nhIN sF.
mYN pihlI vyrF hI qF kwlI ikwDry geI sF. ieh vI mYnUM
ibpqf kfrn jfxf ipaf sI. mF myrI kYNsr nfÜ keI
virHaF qoN Gol kr rhI sI. Aus jMg dy mYdfn ivc AusdI
hfr pwkI sI. pfpf jI kihMdy sn, “ijAuNdI mF df
mUMh dyK jf."
dyv
ny kuVIaF nUM myry nfÜ nhIN sI jfx idwqf. iewk qF
skUl dy idn sn qy dUjf AuWQoN dI grmI kuVIaF qoN JwlI
nhIN sI jfxI. myry vI gwl mn lwgI.
myry
aMdr iewk pl leI dyv vfsqy moh ijhf jfg ipaf. jIa
kIqf dyv huxy hI mYnUM bfhvF ivc smyt lvy. mYN Buwl
jfvF hr Aus ibpqf nUM ijs ivcI mYN guËr ky afeI sF.
nf cfhuMidaF hoieaF vI vfips prqxf ipaf sI. mn nUM
Drvfs dy ilaf sI ik Gwto-Gwt mYN afpxI mF nUM dyK qF
cwlI hF. afpxI sUrq idKf qF cwlI hF. Auh vI afpxy
aKIrly plF ivc ÈFqI nfÜ jf skygI. mYN socdI sF dyv
myry duwK nUM mihsUs krky duKI hoieaf hovygf. mYnUM
dyKidaF hI gl lf lvygf. zIk lvygf myrf sB duwK-drd.
pr
mYN ikMnI Êlq sF. Ausdy vqIry ivc kihrF df aMqr sI.
ijsdI mYnUM smJ nhIN sI af rhI. mYN ÈFq rihMidaF
afiKaf, “mYN idwlI qoN bwicaF nfÜ gwl kIqI sI
dyv, qy mYN rvI nUM Brosf duafieaf sI ik awj rfq df
iznr `kwTy krFgy. rInf nUM afiKaf sI ik mYN Zyr
sfrIaF gwlF Aus nfÜ krnIaF cfhuMdI hF. iqMnf hÌiqaF
ivc kI kuwJ vfpiraf dwsxf-puwCxf cfhuMdI hF. jfxdy ho
ikvyN kwty hn mYN ieh pl? bwicaF qoN ibnF, quhfQoN
ibnF?" mYN sB kuwJ iewko sfhy afK idwqf.
“koeI
loV nhIN dwsx-puwCx dI. Auh ijwQy hn, TIk hn …
qyry ibnF." dyv ny guwsy ivc af ky mUMh nUM vtf
ijhf idMidaF hoieaF ruk-ruk ky afiKaf.
dyv
ny nf myrI mF df hfl puwiCaf qy nf myrf. sFJ dI qMd
aYnI kmËor? aihsfs dy Cwj ivc mGory? eyk joiq doie
mUrqI, dI joiq mYnUM zgmgfAuNdI iQVkdI nËr afeI
ijvyN buJUM-buJUM kr rhI hovy. kI sI iesdf arQ? iewk
bFh dUjI nUM afsrf nf dyvy? iewk sfQI dUjI dI smwisaf
nf jfxy? pr mYN ÈFq rhI. aYs vyly myrI hor jwdo-jihd
jfrI sI. ijvyN aMdr jMg df aYlfn krnf loc irhf sI.
afpxI
ihwk df ruwg Brky, aMdr dwb ky mYN afiKaf, “dyv!
ieh iks qrHF dIaF gwlF krdy ho? kI mYN koeI Buwl kIqI
hY? ijsdI sËf mYnUM idwqI jf rhI aY. gwl hY kI? mYN
vI jfxF? quhfzy rMg-ZMg ivc Prk ikAuN? quhfzI slfh
nfÜ mYN geI sI. mYN mn mrËI qF nhIN kIqI? rhI gwl
bwicaF dI, … Auh myry vI bwcy hn. mYnUM vI AunHF
dI icMqf hY. jy kr mYN Cwz ky geI sI qF quhfzy kol
aqy AunHF dy dfdI-bfby kol hI Cwz ky geI sF. hor lokF
kol qF nhIN Cwzy? mYN huxy hI lY ky afAuNdI hF AunHF
nUM." afKidaF hoieaf, mYN afpxf kot cuwk ky
pfAux lwg peI.
kfr
dI kuMjI lYx mYN ikcn vwl nUM vDI qF dyv ny mYnUM rok
ilaf. Ausdf Cy Puwt AuWcf kwd myry awgy ruwK vFg af
KVoieaf. mYN ijvyN imwtI ivc Dsdf jf irhf inwkf ijhf
jIv hovF. Auh awKF awz ky afKx lwgf, “qUM AunHF
nUM nhIN ilaf skdI. qyrf AunHF qy hwk eI koeI nHI.
qUM qF AunHF nUM Cwz ky ieMzIaf nUM dOV geI sI.
kYnyzy dy knUMn muqfibk qUM AunHF nUM izËrt kIqf hY.
Aus aOrq nUM kuwJ nhIN imldf ijhVI afpxf Gr-Gft Cwz
ky geI hovy. Coty-Coty bwcy Cwz ky geI hovy."
“kI?"
myry mUMhoN svfl dy qOr qy ies qrHF inkilaf ijvyN
koeI cIk inwkldI aY. mYnUM myry afpxy kMnF qy hIM
XkIn nf afieaf ik mYN huxy-huxy kI suixaf hY. dyv dy
bol hvf ivc Ausy qrHF gUMj rhy sn. myry isr duafly
cwkr kwZ rhy sn[
mYN
AulJy ijhy aflm ivc ijvyN cIÉI, “vwt zU XU mIn
bfeI dYt? izËrt? mYN? mYN ikvyN bwicaF nUM Cwz skdI
hF. mYN pl-pl jIvn df AunHF dy lyKy lfieaf hY. dyv
quhfnUM qF ieh vI nhIN pqf ik Auh kI KFdy hn qy kI
psMd krdy hn? AunHF dI rIJ kI hY, AunHF dy cuafies dy
rMg kI hn?… qy awj … quhfnUM AunHF df cyqf
af igaf …?" … myry aMdrlf roh hux
ijvyN BFbV bx ky AuWbl irhf sI. … qy mYN hor vI
guwsy ivc BVkdI hoeI ny dyv nUM ijvyN DWÌf mfr ky
Dwkf mfiraf. Ausdf do sO pONz df ijsm, mfr dy joÈ
hyTF lV-KVf igaf. mYN bolI, “dyv! Cwzo myrf rfh."
myry Coty ijhy ijsm ivwc mF nfmI joÈ ny qrQwl
mcfieaf hoieaf sI.
“rfh
qF mYN Cwz hI dyxY. bwicaF nUM lYx jfx leI nhIN.
isrÌ qyry eys GroN jfx leI." Auh afpxf afpf
sFBdf hoieaf boilaf.
dyv
idaF ÈbdF qy mYnUM ijvyN XkIn hI nhIN sI ho irhf ik
Auh kI afK irhf sI. kI ho igaf sI dyv nUM? ienHF
iqMnf hÌiqaF ivc? myrI surwiKaqf, asurwiKaqf ivc vt
geI sI. bfrHF virHaF dI iËMdgI df ieh hfl? pqf nhIN
kdoN aOrq afpxy afp qoN vI bygfnI ho jfvy? kdoN Gr
qoN by-Gr ho jfvy? mYN smJoN bfhr sF.
jdoN
qoN bIjI kYnyzf afeI sI, AusdI ieho koiÈÈ rhI ik
dyv mYnUM Cwz dyvy. mYN ijvyN Ausdy mn cVHI hI nf. pr
dyv ny mYnUM nhIN sI Cwizaf.
mYN
ivqoN vwD kMm krdI, bwicaF nUM pfldI, Gr-bfr sFBdI,
kdI dyv nUM mOkf hI nf idMdI ik iksy iksm dI iÈkfieq
Auh kr sky. ibmfr-Tumfr vI hovF qF mYN kuwJ nf smJdI.
bwicaF nUM jnm qoN pfÜidaF hoieaF, mYN kdI dyv nUM
rfqF jfgx nhIN sI idwqf. bwcy iZwly-mwTy ho jFdy qF
mYN dUjy kmry ivc AunHF nUM lY ky jf lMmI pYNdI.
socdI dyv ny svyry kMm qy jfxf hY. hAU sON lvy. mYN
afp aOKI huMdI pr dyv nUM aOKf nf krdI.
…
qy Pyr do bwicaF df Krcf, Gr dy ibwl-bwqIaF, sfzf
guËfrf aOKf ho igaf. dyv afKx lwgf, “ikAuN nf
bIjI horF nUM mMgvf leIey. Auh bwcy sFBxgy qy afpF
dovyN rl ky kMm krFgy."
mYnUM
vI ieh gwl jcI. soicaf, ienHF mulkF ivc kMm qoN ibnF
qF guËfrf hY eI nhIN. bybI istr rwKIey qF myrI qnKfh
bybI istr dy iZwz pY jfxI aY. bËurg dfdI-bfby nfÜ
Gr df mhOl vI vfhvf rOxk vflf rhygf. spONsriÈp qoN
koeI Cy-awT ku mhIny bfad bIjI qy Bfpf jI af gey.
iqMn bYWzrUm df Gr vI sfnUM Cotf lwgx lwg ipaf. mYnUM
kMm imlidaF hI asIN aOKy hoky cfr bYWzrUm df Gr KrId
ilaf. bIjI qy Bfpf jI bwcy sFB lYNdy qy asIN donoN
kMm qy cly jFdy. dfl sbËI bIjI bxf lYNdy qy cfr
rotIaF mYN af ky Qwp lYNdI. bIjI dI QoVI bhuqI nukqf
cInI dI afdq sI. mYN ijvyN AunHF dy mn dy cOKty ivwc
iPwt hoeI hI nf. Gr df koeI kMm mYN TIk ZMg nfÜ
ijvyN kr hI nf skdI. kMm qoN prqidaF hoieaF pMj-ds
imMt lyt ho jfvo qF Auh keI qrHF dy svfl puwCdy. Pyr
jdoN dyv rotI Kfx bYTdy qF ieÈfry mfqr gwl krdy hoey
dyv nUM dwsxf cfhuMdy ik mYN Gr dyr nfÜ phuMcI hF.
pr
dyv qy iksy gwl df asr nf huMdf.
jdoN
AunHF nUM afieaF nUM koeI do ku sfl ho gey qF mYN
iewk idn bIjI nUM afK hI idwqf, “bIjI qusIN
iewdF dIaF gwlF ikAuN krdy ho? ikAuN cfhuMdy ho ik
sfzy ivc lVfeI hovy? qusIN nHI cfhuMdy ik quhfzy puwq
df Gr suwKI-sFdI vwsdf-rwsdf rhvy?"
bIjI nhIN boly. bws myry nfÜ vwt ijhy ho gey. mYN
bVf pCqfeI. pr hux kI ho skdf sI, jo gwl ho cuwkI sI
AusnUM bdilaf nhIN sI jf skdf.
iewk
idn sfzI guaFZx cMnx kor myry Gr afANudI nUM afeI
bYTI sI. pqf nhIN kI gwlF huMdIaF rhIaF hoxgIaF.
mYnUM dr vVdI nUM qF eynF hI suxfeI idwqf, “kMm
qF ny jfxIeyN kdoN dIaF Cwz dyNdIaF, iPrdIaF hoxIaF
ny ÈOpF ivc. ipwCy huMdIaF qF guqnIaF hwQ PVf
idMdIaF. pr aYnF mulkF `c? qObf-qObf."
“sfnUM
mMgvf ky dy idwqf blI dy bUQy. Cwz jFdI aY iCwtF sfzf
isr Kfx leI. aYh Aumr aY sfzI rOlf-gOlf Jwlx dI."
bIjI vI ijvyN rox hfky hoey pey sn.
myry
afAux df KVfk sux ky donoN TTMbr ijhIaF geIaF qy cMnx
kor, “cldI aF BYxF. lY Èrn vI af geI. mYN vI
krdI aF jfky koeI rotI pfxI df jugfV." afK ky
cldI bxI.
jIa
qF kIqf ik guaFZx bYTI qy hI AusnUM cfr qwqIaF-TMZIaF
suxf idaF ik nf qF qusIN afpxy Gr ivc suwK-ÈFqI
rwKdIaF ho qy nf dUjy dy rihx idMdIaF ho. pr mYN cuwp
rhI. bIjI nUM puwCx df jyrf nf ipaf ik smwisaf kI hY?
soicaf ik TMZy ijgry nfÜ gwl krFgI. hux myry aMdr vI
roh Gol kr irhf hY. jdoN mn ÈFq hovygf qF puwC lvFgI.
TMZy pfxI df glfs pI ky mYN afpxy kmry ivc clI geI.
do
ku idn bfad mYN bIjI nfÜ gwl kIqI, “bIjI jy kr
koeI smwisaf hY qF mYnUM dws idaf kro. bfhr aYNvy
lokI AUTF dIaF zfrF bxfAux lwg pYNdy hn."
“iksy
nfÜ gwl krn leI mYnUM hux qYQoN iejfËq lYxI pAU?"
bIjI ijvyN guwsy ivc boly.
“nhIN
mYN ieh qF nhIN ikhf." mYN vfqfvrn nUM ÈFq ijhf
krn dI koiÈÈ kIqI. “bIjI mYN qF ieh ikhf hY ik
jy kr quhfnUM myry nfÜ koeI guwsf iglf hY qF Gr ivc
hI inptf ilaf jfvy qF TIk aY. mYN vI qF dyv vrgI hF,
qusIN jo mrËI mYnUM afK skdy ho."
“nf
BfeI bIbf, qUM dyv vrgI ikmyN? dyv dy qF mYN kMn PV
ky puwC skdI hF ik lyt ikmyN ho igaf. qy qUM inwkI
ijhI gwl nUM kwcI lwsI vFg vDf lYNdI aYN. qYQoN qF
BfeI AUN hI zrdy rhIdf aY. iewk qyry juafk pflIdy aY
qy dUjf qyrI gulfmI krIdI aY qy qIjf hukm vI Jwlo.
nhIN huMdf ieh myry koloN." bIjI df ijvyN asmfn
pft igaf hovy vFg vrH pey. mYnUM smJ nf afvy ik mYN
eys smwisaf nUM ikvyN smytF. mYN awgoN cuwp sfD leI.
dyv nUM dwsdI qF ikvyN? afKr AusdI mF hY. myrI sfrI
akl KUh-Kfqy ivc pY geI.
vfrdfqF
idnoN idn vwDx lwg peIaF. aslI gwl mYnUM bfad ivc pqf
lwgI ik guaFZIaF dy dIpy ny bIjI qy Bfpf jI nUM nfÜ
iljf ky vYWlPyar luaf idwqI sI. qy bIjI dy isr BUq
svfr sI ik AunHF ny `kwly rihxf hY. Bfpf jI bQyrf
smJfAuNdy rhy, “sfzf iewko qF puwq aY. AusqoN vI
dUr?" pr bIjI ny iewk nf mMnI. afKr hoieaf Auh
hI jo bIjI ny mn ivc pkfieaf hoieaf sI. sO bhfny
AunHF ny dyv dI JolI ivc pfey. sO ielËfm AunHF ny
myry isr mVHy. iewk idn dyv nUM afKx lwgy, “mYN
BfeI afpxI guwq nHI ptfAuxIN eydy koloN."
dyv
AuWiTaf, Ausny do-cfr myry jV idwqIaF. swtF dI mfr
hyTF mYN Ausdy mUMh vl dyKF. sDfrn qOr qy kuwJ puwC-dws
lYxf bIjI bdqmIËI smJdy sn. AunHF nUM Èfied nUMh
cfhIdI sI ijhVI kMnf qoN bolI qy mUMh qoN gUMgI hovy.
mYN Auh nhIN sF. jdoN vI koeI gwl huMdI qF dyv afÌr
jFdf. do idn bIqdy, AuhI dyv huMdf qy AuhI mYN huMdI.
Bfpf jI dyv nUM smJfAuNdy vI. pr Ausdy isr ivc gwl hI
nf pYNdI. bIjI kol pqf nhIN ikhVI jfdU dI puVI sI ijs
nfÜ Auh dyv nUM afpxy mgr lf lYNdy sn.
Bfpf jI dy kihMdy-kihMdy bIjI ibsqry bMn ky qur pey.
Bfpf jI jFdy hoey eynF afK gey, “Èrn puwq! burf
nHI mnfAuxf. quhfzI bIjI df suBfa eI eydF df aY. mYN
qF Byd pf ilaf qy iËMdgI kwt leI aY. pr ÈfbfÈ puwq
qUM AusnUM kuwJ mfVf cMgf nHI ikhf. sgoN iek gwl qF
cMgI vI aY, Gwto-Gwt muMzy nUM cfbI qF nf dyAU."
dyv
kuwJ icr qF myry nfÜ vwitaf irhf. Pyr iËMdgI afpxI
rÌqfr qur peI. bwcy skUl jfx lwg pey. rvI qy rInf
nUM mYN afPtr afvr dy pRogrfm ivc pf idwqf. Ausy skUl
ivc bwcy do GMty hor rih skdy sn. mYN kMm qoN prqdI
hoeI jF dyv kMm qoN prqdy hoey bwicaF nUM leI afAuNdy.
bIjI
qy Bfpf jI nfÜ vI asIN rfbqf tuwtx nf idwqf. Bfpf jI
dI afKI gwl, myry aMdr Gr kr geI ik “eynHF dI
afdq hI aY."
pr
bIjI afpxf dfAu KyzxoN kdI bfj nf afAuNdy. jdoN dyv
bIjI nUM iml ky afAuNdy qF AunHF df mUz hmyÈF aOP
huMdf. AuWKVy-AuWKVy idKfeI idMdy. bIjI dyv dy kMn
Brdy rihMdy. dyv bhuq cMgf sI, pr kMnF df kwcf sI.
bhuqf boldf nhIN sI Auh. koeI mfVI afdq nhIN sI. sfzI
itAuinMg TIk-Tfk cldI rhI. Gr bwcy mYN sFBdI. bfhrlf
kMm dyv inptf lYNdy. bIjI kdy-kdfeIN gV-bV kr idMdy
pr eys kdr koeI rOlf nf pYNdf ik Gr ivc qUÌfn KVf ho
jfvy.
…
qy hux, mYnUM iksy qUÌfn df Èor Gr dy hr kony ivc
gUMjdf suxfeI idMdf sI. ies qUÌfn df nF kI sI? mYnUM
nhIN sI pqf. ikvyN mYN ies dI GuMmxGyrI ivcoN inklxf
sI? ieh vI nhIN sI pqf.
dyv
dy lÌË myry kMnF ivc iPr gUMjy. “ijMnf icr
koeI PYslf nHI huMdf, qUM rihxf cfhyN qF rih skdI aYN.
Pyr qYnUM koeI afpxI QF BflxI pAU."
“kfhdf
PYslf? kI PYslf? kI mqlb aY? ieh myrf Gr aY. myrf
pirvfr aY. ikAuN QF BflxI pAU? mYN ikAuN jfvF? qy
ikwQy jfvF?" myry mUMhoN pqf nhIN kI-kI qy iks
qrHF dy svfl-jvfb AuWT rhy sn qy mYN bolI jf rhI sF.
“knUMn mYN vI jfxdI hF. Gr aOrq df huMdf hY.
bwicaF df huMdf hY. mYN bwicaF qoN ibnF ikvyN rih
skdI hF Blf?"
“ieh
Aus vyly cyqf rwKxf sI jdoN Coty-Coty bwicaF nUM Cwz
ky clI geI. ieh vI nhIN soicaf ik rvI nUM ikvyN dOrf
pY jFdf hY. Ausdf afsQmf …." qy dyv ny gwl
ivcfly Cwz idwqI. mUMh dUjy bMny krdf ijvyN guwsy qy
kVvfht df kOVf Guwt Br irhf hovy.
“kI
hoieaf rvI nUM? mYnUM dwisaf ikAuN nhIN? mYN hr roË
Pon krdI sI. isrÌ iewk idn Pon nHI kIqf. iek idn
iksy ny Pon hI nhIN cuwikaf." afpxI DI df duwK
sux ky mYnUM ijvyN afpxI mF df pIVF ivwc kurlfAuxf vI
Buwl igaf.
“pUrI
rfq hspqfl ivc rhI Auh. dvfeI qy Ausdy sprya vI pqf
nhIN sI ikwQy sn." dyv ijvyN Ëihr nfÜ Biraf
ipaf sI.
ijAuN-ijAuN
mYnUM rvI bfry pqf lwg irhf sI, bwicaF nUM dyKx dI
qFG hor vwD rhI sI. mYN Pyr vI afpxy afp nUM ÈFq
rwKx dI koiÈÈ kIqI ik ibpqf tlx dI QF hor nf vwD
jfvy. pr ibpqf hY kI sI? mYnUM pUrI qrHF nfÜ smJ
nhIN sI af rhI.
“dyv
hoieaf kI sI? sfry sprya aqy dvfeIaF mYN quhfnUM dws
smJf ky geI sI. vfDU sprya mYN awz klOijwt ivc rwK ky
geI sI. pUrI ilst ilK ky mYN Pirwj qy lfeI hoeI sI."
mYN dyv nUM bfhvF qoN PV ky JMJoVidaF hoieaF afK rhI
sF. jI krdf sI dyv dI ihwk `c muwkIaF mfr ky, Ausdy
idl dy drvfËy AuWqy dsqk dyvF pr sB PËUl sI.
“hoxf
kI sI, qYnUM qF cfa ciVaf sI ieMzIaf nUM jfx df.
bwicaF bfry qF soicaf hI nhIN. ikvyN rihxgy? kI krngy?
ibmfr-Tumfr hoxgy qF iksnUM avfË mfrngy? qy ijhVI
ilst dI qUM gwl krdI aYN, Auh inafixaF ny pfV-pUV
idwqI hoxI aY. mYnUM qF idsI nHI." dyv dI nËr
hvf ivc Btk rhI sI.
hux
mYnUM dyv qy bhuq guwsf af irhf sI. dyv nUM pqf sI,
mYN ikAuN ieh kdm cuwikaf sI. cIÉidaF hoieaf mYN
afiKaf, “dyv, mYnUM koeI cfa nHI sI ciVaf. mF
ibmfr sI myrI. mrn inafeIN. kdI soicaf ik mOq dy dr
qy bYTy bMdy df kI hfl huMdY? mYN Aus mOq dI cOKt qy
mwQy rgV ky afeI hF. iqMn hÌqy mYN quhfQoN qy bIjI
qoN imMqF nfÜ rfKvyN ley sn. kI qusIN aYnf vI smJ
nhIN skdy ik myrI vI mF hY? myrI koeI ijMmyvfrI Aus
pRqI vI hY. … qy Pyr bwcy? bwcy quhfzy kol hI sn.
vyly-kvyly quhfzf vI ÌrË bxdY AunHF nUM sFBx df."
Gr
dI ÈFq hvf ivc myry bol ieAuN pRqIq hoey ijvyN afpo
ivcIN lVdy-JgVdy gUMjdy pey hox.
dyv
Pyr vI ivMzo ivcIN bfhr dyK irhf sI. KflI hvf nUM
nËr cIrdI hoeI lMG rhI sI. nf Auh myry vl dyK irhf
sI nf nËr imlf irhf sI.
mYN
smJ geI ik ieh sB kMnf df ksUr hY. pqf nhIN kI kuwJ
kMnf ivc Biraf ipaf sI. myry bolF leI kMn ijvyN bMd
ho cuwky sn. hux myry vI sbr dI ieMqhf sI. ikMnf ku
icr mYN zr-zr ky JwldI rhFgI? pYr-pYr qy mYN afpxy
afp nUM ies Gr aqy Gr dy bMidaF anusfr Zfilaf. hr
vyly ieh qOKlf ik mF dy droN afAuNdy df mUz iks qrHF
df hovygf. Pyr mYnUM afpxI mF dI qmMnf dwsx bYT
jfvygf ik Auh poqy df mUMh dyKxf cfhuMdI aY. hor nhIN
bws, mYN afpxy afp nUM ikhf.
dyv
ny kfr dI kuMjI kfAuNtr qoN cuwkI qy bfhr nUM qur
ipaf. jFdf hoieaf afK igaf ik “jy kr bwicaF nUM
imlx dI koiÈÈ kIqI qF dyKIN Pyr. knUMnI qOr qy
qYnUM AunHF qoN pMj sO gË dUr rihxf hovygf. mYN qy
bwicaF ny bIjI dy Gr iÈÌt kr ilaf hY. mYN qYnUM
dwsx hI afieaf hF."
dyv
dy bol sux ky myry isr ivc hQOVy dI mfr peI. ieMj
lwgf ijvyN myry isr dIaF nfVf pft geIaF hox. qy KUn
prl-prl myry mwQy qy vg irhf hovy. mYN afpxy hwQF
nfÜ mwQf pUMiJaf. koeI KUn nhIN sI. psInf sI qqIrI
vFg coa irhf.
pMj
sO ÊË? kI arQ hovygf eysdf? bIjI dy Gr iÈÌt kr
ilaf hY? mYN bONdl geI. ieh myry nfÜ ho kI irhf sI?
iqMnF hÌiqaF ivc myrI dunIaF hI plt geI sI. myrf
jurm, myrI mF dI ibmfrI. kI DI nUM aYnf vI hwk nhIN?
ikhVf knUMn hY jo iek mF nUM eys leI sËf dyvy ik Auh
afpxI mr rhI mF nUM imlx geI sI. lwKF iKafl Gr dIaF
kMDF nfÜ tkwrf-tkwrf ky ËÉmI ho rhy sn. vlUMDiraf
mn kurlf irhf sI. ies afAux vflI ibpqf df mYnUM Qhu
isrf vI nhIN sI lwB irhf.
mYN
soc rhI sF, ijs sÉÈ nfÜ mYN bfrHF vrHy kwty hn,
mYN AusnUM jfxdI hF, anuBv kr skdI hF, AusdI hr soc
myry Dur aMdr qk phuMc skdI hY. pr nhIN, ijhVf iensfn
huxy myry awgy KVf sI, ijsdI mYN qury jFdy dI ipwT
dyKI sI, ruwKy bol suxy sn, AusnUM nf mYN jfxdI sF nf
mYN pihcfxdI sF. ieh dyv myrf pqI nhIN sI ho skdf.
ieh dyv myry bwicaF df bfp vI nhIN ho skdf. ijvyN
pMJIaF idnF ivc iksy hor iensfn ny iesdf ijsm aqy
idmfg kfbU kr ilaf hovy. mYN socx lwgI, jy kr dyv
nfÜ DIrj nfÜ gwl krF, Ausdf guwsf ÈFq krF, Èfied
sB TIk ho jfvygf. aYNvyN rosf ijhf hI mn ivc hoxY.
dyv ikvyN Buwl skdY pUrI iËMdgI? ikvyN Buwl skdY Auh
KubsUrq pl jo asIN afpxIaF bwcIaF nfÜ mfxy sn? mYN
kMm qoN lyt ho jfvF qF icMqf ivc zuwb jFdf sI. pr hux,
dyv kuwJ vI suxn nUM iqafr nhIN sI, kuwJ vI jfnx nUM
iqafr nhIN sI, kuJ vI cyqy krn nUM iqafr nhIN sI.
dyv
ny bfhrly drvfËy nUM Twk dyxI bMd kIqf. ijvyN myrf
Dur aMdr kMb igaf. myry sIny ivc golI Tfh krdI lwgI.
mYN kMbdIaF lwqF nUM lY ky QF hI bYT geI. pqf nhIN
ikMnf ku icr bYTI rhI. kuwJ socdI hoeI, iËMdgI dy
vrky pltdI hoeI. Pon dI GMtI ny myrI soc qoV idwqI.
koeI sylË mYn sI, kuwJ vyc irhf. “no, nOt
ieMtrYsitz" afK ky mYN Pon rwK idwqf.
myrI
soc Pyr dyv dy vqIry vwl prqI. mYN afpxI ibpqf df
koeI hwl Bflx lwgI. socF, ikvyN mYN dyv dy mn aMdr
JfkF? ikvy idl dy drvfËy qy dsqk dyvF? ikhVI cfbI
nfÜ ies dy idmfg dy dr KolH ky dyKF? mMYN kniPAUËz
hoeI peI sF. bybsI ivc mYN kMDF nfl isr ptk rhI sF.
myry
afpxy Gr ivc myry leI QF nhIN? aOrq aYnI inhQI ho
jFdI aY? kI krF, iks nfÜ gwl krF? iksdI slfh lvF?
bfrF vryH Gr ivc vs-rs ky vI myrf ieh hfl? qIvIN kdI
vI surwiKaq nhIN? zr dI qlvfr Ausdy isr qy hmyÈF
ltkdI rhygI? pqf nhIN kdoN, iks hfl ivc Ausdf sfQI jF
Ausdy Gr vfly, AusnUM bfhr kwZ mfrngy? … qy Pyr
aYs mulk ivc? ikvyN? mYN qF brfbr kMm krky Gr
clfAuNdI hF. ieh myrf Gr aY, myry bwcy hn. iqMnF
hÌiqaF ivc sB KyrUM-KyrUM ho igaf? ies sFJ dI zor
aYnI kwcI? irÈqf ryqy vFg Bur igaf? irÈqy nfÜoN
mYnUM afpxI hoNd pfxI vFg vih geI mihsUs hoeI. ijvyN
myrI afpxI hoNd hY hI nhIN sI. kdI huMdI vI nhIN.
mYN
socF ivc AulJI peI sF. mYnUM Auh pl cyqy afey ijnHF
ivc mYN qy dyv iewk-imwk sF. myrI sws dyv dy kMn vI
BrdI qF dyv qy kuJ icr asr huMdf pr iewk do idnF ivc
lwQ jFdf. kuVIaF gl icMbVdIaF qF dyv nUM iksy puwq dI
qlb qMg nf krdI. pr myrIaF DIaF myrI sws leI boJ sn.
Auh dyv df ivafh Pyr rcfAuxf cfhuMdI sI qFik Auh dyv
dy puwqr df mUMh dyK sky. myrI CotI DI vyly
kMplIkyÈn hox kfrn myrI kuwK bMjr ho geI sI. mYN cfh
ky vI eys Gr nUM puwq nhIN sF dy skdI. qy Pyr Èfied
myrf mn rwKx leI hI dyv vI bIjI nUM kihMdf, “jd
mYnUM koeI Prk nhIN qF qusIN ikAuN icMqf krdy hoN? aj
kl DI-puwq df koeI Ìrk nHI."
“Ìrk
ikAuN nHI? kuwl df nF qF puwq dy nfÜ eI clxY."
qy bIjI vwloN kuwJ nf kuwJ suxn nUM imldf hI rihMdf.
“puwq ibnF kuwl ikvyN qurU?" Auh dyv nUM
afKdI. “qUM hFa qF kr, lwKF sfk imldY aY. lokIN
ds-bIh lwK vI nfÜ idMdy aY qy sfk vI krdy aY. dwsF-bIhF
lwKF ivc agilaF df pUrf twbr ju knyzf af jfxYN qy Auh
vI shI knUMn nfÜ. ikhVIaF do nhIN huMdIaF. ipMzF ivc
kwTIaF rih skdIaF sn, aYQy ikAuN nHI? Pyr knUMnI
kfrvfeI hI qF krnI hoeI. Èrn dy dsÉq hoey,
spONsriÈp Byj idaFgy."
dyv
ny AusnUM cuwp krf idwqf sI. Èfied myry kol bYTI hox
kfrn. mYN AuWTI qy afpxy kmry nUM cly geI. mYN guwsy
ivc keI kuwJ vgfh mfiraf sI. jIa kIqf sI sws df gl
Guwt idaF.
ieh
socidaF mihsUs hoieaf ijvyN mYN koeI ijAuNdI sMuzI
ingl leI hovy. jIa kwcf-kwcf hox lwg ipaf. jdoN Pyr
tYlIPon dI GMtI ny myry idmfg ivc KOrU pfAuxf ÈurU
kIqf. myrI guaFZx ËInf mYnUM vYWlkm kr rhI sI.
“vYWlkm bYk. hfE ieË XUar mdr ÈYrn?”
“ÈI
iewË srvfeIivMg. pqf nhIN ikMny idn hor
pr…” afKidaF myrf ijvyN gwc Br afieaf.
“mYN
smJ skdI hF, mF DIaF dy Kfs nyVy huMdI aY. mn nf Br.
awlf qflf qy XkIn rwK sB TIk ho jfvygf.”
“suafh
TIk ho jfvygf, sB kuwJ gV-bV hY ËInf.”
“ikAuN
kI hoieaf? aFtI TIk nhIN?” ËInf nUM iksy gwl dI
Ébr nhIN sI. ËInf myrI inwGI shylI sI. jdoN ËInf
musIbq ivc sI qF mYN rfq idn lf ky ËInf dI mdd kIqI
sI. kYnyzf ivc sYWt hox leI, dyv qy mYN dohF ny
iesnUM idn rfq shfrf idwqf sI. ËInf pfiksqfn ivc
jMmI sI. vlYq ivc plI sI. XunIvristI ivwc pVHidaF
hoieaF ÊlqI kr bYTI. jy kr Gr pqf lwg jFdf qF AunHF
ny ËInf nUM pfiksqfn rvfnf kr dyxf sI.… qy awj
qk Ausdf Kurf-Koj BfilaF vI nhIN sI imlxf. ËInf nUM
ÊlqI krn qoN bfad pqf lwgf ik Auh bMdf pihlF hI
ivafihaf hoieaf hY. bfl-bwcy vflf hY. jy kr Ausdy Gr
ËInf jf vI vsdI qF ikvyN iËMdgI kwtdI? pr ËInf nUM
Ausdy ibsqry dI gMdI cfdr bxnf mMËUr nhIN sI. nf Auh
cfhuMdI sI ik byhI rotI vFg Ausdy Gr dy iksy kUVy
krkt ivc peI rhy. Ausny ÊlqI kIqI sI qy iewk Buwl qF
rwb vI mfÌ kr idMdf hY. mF-ipE nUM dwsx qoN ibnF
… Auh ihMmq krky GroN inwkl afeI sI. shylIaF kol
vkq kwtI krdI nUM ËInf dy msyr BfeI ny kYnyzf afAux
df rfh dws idwqf. kYnyzf af ky ËInf ny puwq nUM jnm
idwqf. msyr BfeI ny vI kuwJ icr sfQ idwqf qy Pyr
Ausdy Gr ivc vI ieh mF-puwq ijvyN Kwtkx lwg pey. bws
boJ bx gey. Aus vyly ieh mYnUM imlI sI jdoN pwqJV dyy
pwqy vFg rul rhI sI. … Èukr aY, sMBl geI.
… qy hux ieh afpxI rotI kmfAuNdI qy puwq nUM
pfldI sI.
myry
AulJy mn nUM ËInf dy Pon kfl df shfrf iml igaf. iksy
nfÜ qF mYN idl dI gwl krnI hI sI. soicaf, Pyr ËInf
hI ikAuN nhIN? afÉr Auh eysy qrHF dI smwisaf ivcIN
inwklI aY. Ìrk aYnf ey ik Auh afp Gr Cwz ky afeI sI
qy mYnUM GroN by-Gr kIqf jf irhf aY. ieh socidaF
hoieaF myrf gwc Br afieaf. afpxy afp nUM sMBflidaF
hoieaF mYN afpxI sfrI ihMmq iekwTI krky ËInf nUM
afiKaf, “ËInf jrf ku iewDr af skdI aYN?”
“kI
gwl? sB TIk qF hY?" ËInf nUM ijvyN myrI iÌkr
ho geI.
“bws
qUM af jf." afK ky mYN Pon Twp dyxI rwK idwqf.
ËInf
imMtF ivc myry kol sI. hWQ ivc kuMjIaF df guwCf PVI.
guwCy dI irMg iewk AuNglI ivc PsfeI. ËInf lMmI lMJI,
gorf rMg, kprIaF awKF, qurdI qF vÜ ijhf pYNdf. Ausdy
nwk dy Kwby pfsy pfieaf sony df kokf cmkdf hoieaf
ijvyN AusdIaF awKF ivc iclkor mfrdf.
mYnUM
smJ nhIN sI af rhI ik mYN gwl ikwQoN ÈurU krF. ËInf
nUM dyKidaF myrf qF roxf inwkl igaf.
myry
kMbdy hwQ ËInf ny afpxy hwQF ivc Guwtxy cfhy. mYN
nrvws hoeI peI sF.
bfrHF
vrHy suwK ÈfqI dy inwkly sn. GrF dI mfVI-motI
smwisaf qF huMdI hI aY. … qy hux ijvyN qUÌfn
myrIaF brUhF qy afx Kloqf sI.
ËInf
ny myry duafly afpxI bFh vwl leI. itÈU pypr cuwk ky
myry awQrU pUMJy. pfxI df glfs mYnUM pIx nUM idwqf.
qy afKx lwgI, “kuwJ ipV-pwly vI pfvyN?"
mYN
msF ruwk ky afK skI, “ËInf mYnUM qF Kud smJ
nhIN afAuNdI ik myry isr ieh ibpqf iks qrHF pY geI.
ikhVI gwl dI kmI sI Gr ivc jF myry ivc. kI mYN afpxf
pqnI Drm nhIN inBf pfeI? qy jF kuwJ hor …?
" afKidaF svflIaf icMnH myry mwQy ivc AuWg
afieaf.
“gwl
hoeI kI aY?" ËInf aMdr pRÈn Dumfl pf rhy sn.
ijvyN dyv aqy myry ivcfly kdI koeI gwl ho hI nhIN sI
skdI.
mYN
ËInf nUM jo myry nfÜ bIiqaf sI afK suxfieaf. mF dI
ibmfrI qoN lY ky, torFto Gr qwk vfpsI df sÌr, qy Pyr
jo vfps prqx qy bIqI,Ausdf iËkr vI. “kI kmI sI
myry ivc ËInf? ikAuN dyv iqMnf hÌiqaF ivc bdl igaY?
ienHF virHaF dI zor aYnI kwcI? iewko Jtky nfÜ …"
“aYsI
koeI gwl nHIN aY. nuks qyry ivc nhIN. qYnUM vI pqY
nuks ikwQy aY. … qy Pyr ieh mrd Ëfq qF huMdI eI
eys qrHF dI aY. eynHF dI afpxI akl df qF qYnUM pqf hI
aY ikwQy aY. dUjf qyrI sws PÌfkutxI vI Gwt nhIN. kMn
qF Auh qyry iewQy huMidaF vI BrdI rihMdI sI. qyry ivc
AusnUM lwK nuks idKfeI idMdy sn. ijmyN iksy hor hUr
nUM ilaf ky puwq df Gr vsfAuxf hovy. mYnUM qF lgdY,
koeI hor sfmI iml geI hoxI aY. ieh buwZVI qF afpxy hI
puwq df Gr brbfd krn zhI aY. stUipwz vomYn, kuVIaF df
vI iKafl nHI kIqf. hux afpF socxf ieh aY ik dyv ny
iqMnf hÌiqaF ivc ieh kdm cuwikaf qF ikAuN?"
ËInf vI mwQy qy hwQ Dr ky bYT geI.
myrI
smJ kuwJ nhIN sI pY irhf. hr soc myrf sfQ Cwz rhI sI.
krF qF kI krF? ikhVf dr KVkfvF. hornF lokF dIaF
khfxIaF mYN suxdI sF, pr ieh nhIN sF jfxdI ik myry Gr
hI afÌq af KVygI. mYnUM kuwJ nhIN sI suwJ irhf.
icMqf ivc grsq ËInf bolI, “dyK qUM iZwl nf kr.
iksy nfÜ mÈvrf kr lY."
“kI
mqlb?"
“bws
qUM myrf afKf mMn, iewk vfrI Èfrdf nfÜ gwl kr dyK.
“Auh
kOx aY" mYN puwiCaf.
“vkIl
aY… hor kI?"
“Blf
ikAuN? mYnUM vkIl dI kI loV aY?" mYN hYrfn ho ky
puwC rhI sF.
“nhIN
vI loV qF iewk vfrI gwl krn ivc kI hrË aY."
ËInf ny jor dy ky afiKaf.
mYN
nhIN sF cfhuMdI ik iksy dUjy bMdy nUM afpxy GrylU
mfmly ivc GsItF. anykF kys mYN suxy sn ik aOrqF dI
mdd krn vfly adfry Gr joVn dI QF qoV idMdy hn. KyrUM-KyrUM
prvfr ruldy pey sn qy Auh afpxIaF PIsF lY ky iZwz Br
lYNdy sn. ijMny kys vwD krngy AunIN hI gOrmYNt qoN
grFt vI vwD imlygI. AunHF nUM iewk vfrI Pon kro, bws
jI aOrq nUM phuMcf dyxgy bYtrz vumYn dy hom ivc.
“nhIN
ËInf … mYN ieh nhIN kr skFgI. mYnUM iksy vkIl
dI loV nhIN hY." mYN ËInf nUM afiKaf.
“Pyr
vI aVIey, kI pqf hY iks musIbq df sfmHxf krnf pYxY."
ËInf swc hI myry leI pryÈfn hoeI peI sI.
“pr
ËInf … aYs vyly? sB dÌqr bMd hoxgy? hY nf?"
myrIaF svflIaf nËrF ËInf dy Dur aMdr nUM kuryd
geIaF.
“qUM
icMqf nf kr. mYN dyKdI hF. socdI hF kI kIqf jf skdY.
Pon PVfeIN." Ausny myry vwl korz lYWs Pon lYx
leI hwQ vDfieaf.
mYnUM
AusdI gwl-bfq qoN hI pqf lwg irhf sI ik Auh iksy
koloN myrI ibpqf leI slfh lY rhI hY. kOx sI Auh bMdf
mYnUM nhIN sI pqf. ËInf ny Pon bMd kIqf qy bolI,
“qUM iÌkr nf kr. slIm horIN huxy af rhy aY."
“kOx
slIm?" ieh nF mYN ËInf dy mUMhoN pihlI vyrF
suixaf sI. mYnUM ËInf dI pUrI iËMdgI dI sfr sI. Aus
nfÜ bIqy dI Ébr sI. qy ieh nF “slIm" Aus
ikqfb dy iksy vrky qy nhIN sI afieaf.
ËInf
bolI, “qUM iÌkr ikEN krn zhI aYN. qYnUM ikhf nf
sB TIk ho jfAU. … qy mYN qYnUM slIm bfry vI dws
dyAUN. hfl dI GVI qUM ieh smJ lY ik ies qoN cMgI slfh
sfnUM hor koeI nhIN dy skdY. myry qy Brosf kr."
AusdIaF
twzIaF awKF myry Dur aMdr nUM Prol rhIaF sn ik icMqf
ikvyN Gux vFg mYnUM Kf rhI hY. mYN qy ËInf ny keI
Auqrfa JVfa dyKy sn. Auh myrI hr hrkq qoN vfikÌ sI.
hr afdq dI pCfx sI AusnUM. myrf Aus nfÜ kI sMbMD sI?
Auh vI kihxf muÈkl sI. asIN iewk dUjI dI rg-rg qoN
vfikÌ sF. keI vyrIN myrI sws dyv nUM afKdI, ieh qyry
nfÜ ivafhI aY jF Aus KsmFipwtI ËInf nfÜ.
mYnUM
AusdI gwl qoN awg lwg jFdI. pr mYN nf dyv nUM smJf
skdI qy nf afpxI sws nUM. keI irÈqy aYsy vI huMdy hn
ijnHF ivc koeI suafrQ nhIN huMdf. Auh hmyÈF eys kdr
mihkdy hn ijvyN hr idn qfËf hovy, hr pl mihkdf hovy.
ËInf vI eysy qrHF myrI iËMdgI ivc afeI sI. Ausdy
ruldy idnF ivc asIN Ausdf sfQ idwqf sI. … qy
ËInf pUrI dI pUrI myrI iËMdgI ivc vI smf geI. iksy
Drm ny sfzy ivc vKyVf nhIN KVf kIqf. nf irÈqy df
koeI nF sI. bws asIN dovyN sF. duwK-suwK sFJf krdIaF
hoeIaF. ieMzIaf vI mYN eysy leI clI geI sF ik ËInf
bwicaF df iDafn rKygI. pr kuwJ gwlF Ausdy vwsoN bfhr
dIaF vI sn. Auh myry Gr ivc ikMnI ku dÉl aMdfËI kr
skdI sI Blf? AusnUM kI pqf sI ik myry Gr dIaF kMDF
aMdr kI pwk irhf hY.
“slIm"
ny drvfËf nOk kIqf. ËInf ny hI dOV ky jf ky KoilHaf.
ijvyN ËInf ny Ausdf ichrf pihlF qwkxf hovy. mYnUM
lwgf, ijvyN mYnUM vI ËInf leI KuÈI hoeI hovy. myry
buwlHF dI hrkq ny myry iËhn ivc iewk lihr ijhI pYdf
kIqI. Auh bfhrlf dr KolHidaF bolI, “jih nsIb!
dyKyN nf iks kdr imlfp hosI."
ËInf
ny myrI khfxI bVy QoVy ÈbdF ivc slIm nUM afK suxfeI.
mYnUM qF XkIn vI nhIN sI ik ieh koeI ibpqf hY vI jF
nhIN. mYN afpxy mn nUM afK rhI sF, Èfied mYnUM
BulyKf lwgf hoxY. ikAuN mYN vfÜ dI KfÜ AuDyV rhI hF.
GrF ivc kuwJ qF qwqIaF-TMZIaF huMdIaF hI ny. pr nhIN,
slIm myry mohry lMmI cOVI khfxI lY ky bYT igaf sI.
afKx lwgf, “pihlF qF bwicaF nUM kol ilafAux bfry
socxf hovygf. jy kr Ausny bwcy dyKx qoN nFh kr idwqI
hY qF ijMnf icr kstwzI df koeI PYslf nhIN huMdf,
AuWnF icr iviËitMg rfeIt bfry aplfeI krnf pvygf."
slIm
smJf hI irhf sI ik mYN ivcfilEN BVk ky bol peI.
“BfeI! ieh iks qrHF dIaF gwlF pey krdy ho? dyv
nrfË hY, hor kuwJ nhIN. kort-kichrI, ieh kI hoieaf."
mYN aOKI hoeI peI sF. mYN socdI sF jdoN dyv df guwsf
Zwl igaf qF sB TIk ho jfAU. mYN Pyr ikhf, “dyK
ËInf, mYN ienHF JMJtF ivc nhIN pYxf cfhuMdI. nf hI
mYN afpxf Gr qoVnf cfhuMdI hF. jo hoAU dyKI jfAU.
rihx idE. mYN aYNvy …." afKidaF mYN ËInf
vwl nihrI ijhI vwt ky dyiKaf.
ËInf
dI QF slIm boilaf, “qusIN ÊlqI krdy ho. jy kr
socdy ho ik sB kuwJ TIk ho jfvygf qF qusIN BulyKy ivc
hoN. quhfzf ksUr vI nhIN, iznfiel ivc aksr iensfn
afpxy afp nUM smyt lYNdf hY. jo kuwJ mYnUM ËInf ny
dwisaf hY, Aus muqfibk dyv jo vI kr irhf hY, Auh kwcy
pYrIN nhIN kr irhf." Auh afpxI kfpI nUM bMd krdf
boilaf, “clo koeI kdm nhIN cuwkdy, pr iqafr rihx
ivc kI hrË hY."
“iqafr?
iks vfsqy?" mYN ijvyN iewt vFg Ausdy svfl mfiraf.
“pqf
nhIN quhfzy hsbYNz dy mn ivc kI hY? ienHF dyÈF ivc
kuwJ vI ho skdf hY. kdy vI iksy dI nIaq bdl skdI hY.
quhfnUM cfhIdf hY ik qusIN afpxy Bly-bury bfry socoN."
ËInf
ny mYnUM bhuq smJfieaf. slIm ny knUMnI nukqy dwsy-smJfey.
pr aYs vyly bwicaF qoN ibnF mYnUM kuwJ nhIN sI suwJ
irhf. myry nfÜ aYNj vI bIq skdf hY? mYN nhIN sF smJ
skdI. myrf qF isrÌ ieho jI krdf sI ik sws dy dr jf
KVI hovF. bwicaF nUM bfhoN PVF qy Gr af jfvF. qy Pyr
myrI sws nUM qF kuVIaF cfhIdIaF hI nhIN sn. awTF-dsF
virHaF dIaF kuVIaF df kI krygI Auh? AunHF dy qF jnm
idn vI AusnUM cyqy nhIN sn rihMdy. afKdI sI,
“kOx kuVIaF dy jnm idn mnfAuNdY?"
…
qy Pyr hor bury iKafl idmfg ivc Gr krn lwgy, Èfied
do-chuM sflF qwk Auh ienHF leI vI vr lwBx lwgy jo
AusnUM vIh-qIh lwK dyxgy. qObf-qObf. mYN kMnf nUM hwQ
lfey. hux swc hI myry aMdr dihl ijhf pYdf ho igaf.
mYnUM myrIaF kuVIaF dI icMqf Kfx lwgI. mYN rfqo-rfq
kuVIaF nUM afpxy kol cfhuMdI sF. ies AuDyV-bux ivc
mYN kMbdI hoeI ny slIm vfly Pfrm qy dsqÉq krny ÈurU
kr idwqy. slIm horIN PfeIl smyt ky cly gey. jFdy hoey
afK gey, “qusIN shI PYslf ilaf hY."
Auh
rfq mYN ikvyN kwtI, mYnUM hI pqf hY. bIjI dy Gr Pon
krF qF koeI cuwky hI nf. slIm horIN afK gey sn ik mYN
bwicaF nUM imlx dI koiÈÈ nf krF ikAuN ik dyv ny ieh
vfrinMg idwqI hoeI hY. vrnf Auh qYnUM arYst krvf
dyxgy. mYN pulIs lOk-awp ivc hovFgI. bwicaF nUM dyKy
vgYr mYnUM cYn vI nhIN sI af irhf. socF, kI dyv swc
hI aNYj krU? dyv eys kdr bdl skdf hY? … qy mYnUM
dunIaF dy dyv nËr afAux lwg pey. kcUr lYrIaF kuVIaF,
sUhy cUVy pihnI, klIry lmkfeI, keI dyvF dy mgr-mgr
qur rhIaF sn. ijvyN AunHF dI iewk zfr myrIaF brUhF dy
AuWqy vI KVI sI. suwBr ivc notF dIaF QwbIaF leI.
qRylIaF ny myrf ijsm iBAuN idwqf.
Pon
Pyr KVikaf. mYN soicaf ik Èfied kuVIaF ny Pon kIqf
hovygf. dyv aYnf inrmohf qF nhIN ho skdf. Pon qF krf
hI dyAU. pr nhIN. slIm sI, Ausny zI[ey[ dI ieËfËq
nfÜ bwicaF nUM imlx dI primÈn lY leI sI. myry cMgI
mF hox dI gvfhI ËInf ny Br idwqI sI. hux dyv mYnUM
bwcy dyKx qoN rok nhIN sI skdf. mYN slIm dI kfr ivc
hI bIjI dy Gr geI. drvfËf KVkf ky bwicaF nUM bfhr hI
swd ilaf. dyv Gr nhIN sI. bIjI ny bQyrf rOlf pfieaf.
pr mYN kuwJ vI suxn nUM iqafr nhIN sF. bIjI nUM slIm
ny kfÊË idKfey qy cuwp krf idwqf. jo kihxf sI slIm
ny hI ikhf.
bwicaF
nUM mYN afpxy gl lfieaf. cMuimaf-cwitaf. AunHF dy
svflF dy jvfb idwqy pr mYN dyv jF bIjI dy iKlfÌ koeI
lÌË nf afiKaf. ieho mYnUM slIm ny afiKaf sI. mYN
bwicaF nUM smJf idwqf ik mYN do-cfr idn Èfied AuhnF
nUM nf iml skF. qusIN guwz grlË bx ky dfdI kol rihxf.
bIhyv krnf. qMg nhIN krnf. pr AusqoN bfad Auh myry
kol hoxgIaF.
“vfeI
kFt afeI kwm ivwd XU nfE?" rvI zuskdI hoeI bolI.
“XYh
mOm, vfeI?" rInf ny svfl dfiÊaf.
“mYnUM
iewk do kMm ËrUrI hn. AunHF qoN bfad mYN quhfnUM lY
jfvFgI. afeI prfimË." mYN afpxy awQrU lkoNdI
hoeI bolI. mYN nhIN sF cfhuMdI ik myrIaF kuVIaF
myrIaF awKF ivc afieaf pfxI dyKx aqy Audfs hox.
“Pfr
ieMzIaf grYNzmf?" rInf bolI.
“XYWs
hnI, Pfr ieMzIaf grYNzmf." mYN AunHF nUM Brosf
duaf ky afpxf afp lY ky AuWQoN af geI.
Bfpf
jI bfhroN sYr krky prq rhy sn. mYN bVy adb nfÜ siq
sRI akfl bulfeI. AuWqr idMidaF AunHF dI nËr myry
pYrF ivc gwzI hoeI sI. Bry gly nfÜ afKx lwgy,
“jo ho irhf, TIk nhIN ho irhf puwqr. myry vwsoN
bfhr aY. qUM cMgf ijhf vkIl kr lY." ieMnf afKdy
hoey Auh aMdr nUM qur gey.
AunHF
dI mËbUrI mYN mihsUs kIqI. pr mYnUM aYnf vI aihsfs
hoieaf ik iewk vot myry hwk ivc vI KVI aY.
idn-rfqF
mYN aOKIaF kwtIaF. bwicaF nUM Pon krky gwl krn df hwk
vI mYnUM iml igaf sI. pUrf vIk aYNz vI mYN bwcy kol
rwK skdI sF. afny-bhfny lf ky mYN kuVIaF nfÜ vkq kwt
rhI sF. hr vfrI ivCVn vyly nvF bhfnf GVdI. … qy
Pyr iewk idn mYnUM kuVIaF nUM ibTfl ky swc dwsxf hI
ipaf. kuVIaF guMm-suMm ho geIaF ijvyN Êm df golf
AunHF dI ihwk ivc jwm igaf hovy.
slIm
ny kfAuNtr kys vI drË krvf idwqf. jdoN zfeIvors kys
cwilaf, qF bhuq gMd-mMd iewk dUjy bfry Poilaf igaf.
ieÉlfkI icwkV dy iCwty jy myry qy pey qF dyv qy vI
pey. ËInf dy qy myry irÈqy nUM awgy ilaFdf igaf.
slIm nUM ieh sB suxnf ipaf qy Jwlxf ipaf.
aKIr
PYslf ieh hoieaf ik Gr qy bwcy myry kol rihxgy. mYN
iewk cMgI mF rhI hF. imhnqI hF. ijs idn df Gr bMinaf
hY Aus ivc myrf vwD hwQ hY. mF qy bwicaF nUM vYsy vI
GroN-byGr nhIN kIqf jf skdf. Gr ivkx dI hflq ivwc jF
Gr df muwl pf lYx dI hflx ivwc, vkIlF dy Krcy kwZ ky
pYsy awDy-awDy imlxgy. dyv qnKfh df kuwJ ihwsf kuVIaF
dy Krcy leI vI dyvygf. Auh hÌqy ivc iewk vfrI kuVIaF
nUM iksy hor dI mOËUdgI ivc (suprvfeIËz iviËt) iml
vI skygf. dfdI-bfbf myrI rjfmMdI nfÜ Gr af ky kuVIaF
nUM dyK skxgy.
Aus
idn kort ivcoN inklidaF Bfpf jI ny myrIaF awKF ivc
JfkidaF hoieaF afiKaf, “puwqr! qkVI ho ky jI hux."
AunHF dy ienHF ÈbdF dy arQ bVy zUMGy sn. mYnUM shfrf
vI iml igaf.
hux
bIjI ipwtdI sI, dyv roNdf sI ik awDI qnKfh nfÜ Auh
kI krU. Gr ikvyN vsfAU?
Pyr
vI bIjI ny afpxI mn mrËI kr hI leI. ieMzIaf geI dyv
nUM ivafh ilafeI. pVHI-ilKI kuVI dyv qoN ds-bfrF vrHy
CotI Ausdy lV lf ilafeI. Cy ku mhIny ivc nvIN nUMh
hrjoq kYnyzf af geI. eyarport qy bIjI qy dyv bx-Tx ky
AusnUM lYx phuMcy. jhfj dy sfry pYsMjr AuWqr ky cly
gey. pr hrjoq dI Ébr sfr nf imlI. ieMnkuafrI krn qy
pqf lwgf ik Auh qF kYlgrI dI PlfeIt ivc sI qy Auh vI
do idn pihlF. trFto afeI hI nhIN. Èfied AuWQy Ausdf
pihlf buafey PrYNz rihMdf sI. Ausdf riÌAUjI kys cldf
hox kfrn AusnUM mMgvf nhIN sI skdf. nf ipwCy nUM jf
skdf sI. ieho iewko iewk qrIkf sI ijs nfÜ Auh kwTy
ho skdy sn.
bIjI
qy dyv ny rl ky Gr pwt ilaf sI. mF-puwq pCqfvy dI awg
ivc Juls huMdy sn.
do vrHy hor bIq gey.
ienHF
mulkF ivc isMgl-mdr nUM bQyrI mdd iml jFdI aY. mYN
afpxy afp ivc sMquÈt ho ky jIa rhI sF. kuVIaF nUM
pfÜ rhI sF. tuwty Gr dIaF kMkrF kdI qMg krdIaF vI qF
mn nUM ÈFq kr lYNdI pr hOslf nf hfrdI. myrIaF kuVIaF
myry jIx df vsIlf sn. myrf kMm vI cMgf sI. gwl kI, jy
mYN ÉuÈ nhIN qF ÈFq ËrUr sF.
…
qy Pyr iewk idn Bfpf jI myry dr dIaF brUhF qy KVy sn.
mYN iÈÈtfcfr vjoN AunHF nUM aMdr afAux leI afiKaf.
awj Pyr AunHF dI nËr myry pYrF duafly GuMm rhI sI.
jfpdf sI ijvyN Auh iksy GuMmxGyrI ivc Psy hoey hox.
“kI
gwl Bfpf jI, kuwJ pryÈfn lgdy hoN? ikvyN afAuxf
hoieaf?" mYN puwC hI ilaf.
Auh
afpxI sotI GuMmfAuNdy hoey atk-atk ky boly, “ieh
Gr dI qbfhI rok lY puwqr. dyv nUM mfÌ …"
Auh awgoN kuwJ nf boly.
mYN
AunHF vwl dyiKaf. AunHF dI nËr Ausy qrHF ËmIn ivc
gwzI hoeI sI. pl ku leI qF mYN TTMbrI. guwsf vI
afieaf. bhuq kuwJ kihx nUM vI jIa kIqf. pr nhIN, mYN
sB aMdr dwb ilaf. mYN aYnf hI afK skI, “Bfpf jI,
mYN nËr imlf ky gwl krnf cfhuMdI hF, Jukf ky nhIN.
ipafr, ivÈvfs, afdr ienHF ivcoN iewk vI myry pwly
rih igaf huMdf qF mYN…" qy mYN gwl aDUrI
Cwz idwqI.
hux
AunHF ny myry vwl qwikaf, nIJ lf ky. ijvyN muskrfht
AunHF dy buwlHF qy Pyr af geI hovy. “TIk aY
puwqr. mYN smJdF." afK ky Auh nËr imlfAuNdy
hoey AuWTy qy qur gey.
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