mYN
bYWzrUm dy ivMzo ivcIN iek kfly joVy nUM dyK rhI sF .
aOrq mDrI, moty-moty nYx nkÈF vflI sI. Ausdy kwd df
ihsfb vIlH cyar ivc bYiTaF vI lgdf sI. qy mrd mfVkU
ijhf, iqwKy-iqwKy nYx nkÈF vflf, lMm-su-lMmf sI.
CINtkf ijhf. jfn ijvyN ihwk dIaF hwzIaF `c jkVI hovy.
aOrq df rMg kflf isafh sI qy mrd df sFvlf. Aumr pwKoN
Zly hoey sUrj sn.
Auh
afpxy pqly subk srIr nfÜ Aus aOrq dI vIlH cyar Dwkdf
jf irhf sI. ihwk dIaF nfVF df jor lfky. hr roË eysy
qrHF Auh donoN sYr leI jFdy.
mYN
socdI, sYr ienHF dohvF ivwcoN kOx krdf hY? mrd jF
aOrq? mrd vIlH cyar Dwkx ivc lwgf rihMdf qy aOrq aflf-duaflf
dyKx ivc. jdoN gwlF krdy qF Auh ijsm nUM dohrf krky,
afpxf kMn aOrq dy mMUh kol lY afAuNdf.
Auh
donoN inwkIaF-inwkIaF gwlF krdy hr roË myry Gr dy
ipCvfVy bxIaF do CotIaF JIlF dy duafly cwkr ËrUr
lfAuNdy. iek bYg ivc brYWz dy pIs lY afAuNdy. pfxI
kol KVoa ky bqÉF nUM cogf pfAuNdy. inwkIaF-inwkIaF
burkIaF. keI bqÉF qF AunHF dy kol af ky hwQF ivwcoN
burkI Kf jFdIaF. ijvyN Auh AunHF nUM jfnx lwg peIaF
hox. Auh AunHF nfÜ inwky-inwky cohl-mohl krdy. ieAuN
vI lgdf ijvyN Auh sMkyqF dI BfÈf ivc iek dUjy nUM
afpxy ipafr df ieËhfr kr rhy hox.
keI
vyrF idn ivc do vfrI eysy qrHF df nËfrf dyKx nUM
imldf. myry Gr qoN swjy pfsy, sfmHxI strIt ivc, Coty
ijhy tfAUn hfAUs ivc rihMdy sn Auh. idn nUM vrFzy ivc
bYT ky gwlF krdy. iewk dUjy nUM shfrf idMdy. myrf idl
krdf mYN kol bYT ky suxF AunHF dIaF gwlF.
myrI
guaFZx jmIkx aOrq ‘ÈYlI` ÈrmIlI ijhI hY.
byZwby ijhy srIr vflI. mwDrI, cOrs ijhI idKfeI idMdI
hY. Auh dUjy bMdy nUM dyK ky afpxy Gr dy aMdr vV jFdI
hY. AusnUM dyKidaF hoieaF mYnUM afpxf nvqyj cyqy af
jFdf hY. Auh vI aYNj hI krdf sI. mYN bfhrlf kMm krdI
qy Auh Gr dy aMdr BFzy Duaf irhf huMdf. sfzf Cy jIaF
df kMm, asIN donoN rl ky kr lYNdy. jdoN asIN kMm qoN
prqdy, bYg rwKdy qy afpo-afpxy kMmF ivc lIn ho jFdy.
mYN ikcn ivc cly jFdI qy nvqyj kdI bwicaF vwl qy kdI
tI[vI dyKx ivc ruwJ jFdy. vrlz aYt lfrj jF bI[bI[sI
dy cYnl qy eIstrn vrlz ivc idKfeIaF jFdIaF ÉbrF
ijvyN myry ilivMg rUm ivc vfprdIaF hox. mYnUM aYs
qrHF jfpdf ijvyN jMgF vI myry ilivMg rUm ivcoN ÈurU
ho ky iewQy hI Éqm huMdIaF hox.
AunHF
idnF ivc Qkfvt nF dI koeI cIË hI nhIN sI. GuMm-GuMm
kMm kr leIdf sI. iËMdgI nUM gMZdy hoey ijvyN vkq
Purr krky AuV jFdf. kdI asIN donoN iqVky BFizaF vFg
afps ivwcIN vwjdy vI. Pyr vI sfzI sFJ df hulfr qy
hulfs myry aMdr nUM Biraf-Bkuinaf rwKdf.
…
mYN afpxy Gr ivc mn dI mrËI krdI. chMu kMDF aMdr
myrI srdfrI sI. jo mYN cfhuMdI bs Auho hI huMdf. Aus
vyly mYnUM bfpU jI dI afKI gwl cyqy afAuNdI ik afpxy
Gr ivc qINvI rfxI huMdI aY. mYnUM myrf Gr mihl jfpdf.
mYN socdI ik ies qoN vwD nÈf hor ho vI kI skdY?
nvqyj
dI cuwp-cupIqI sÉÈIaq qoN asIN sfry Jkdy sF. bwicaF
nUM Ausdf zr rihMdf sI. … qy hux? AuzfxF BrdI
iËMdgI jdoN ZlfxF df ruÉ krky qurI qF DVwm izwgI
rVy mYdfnF ivc. Bry-BkuMny Gr ivc vI irhf hI kuJ nHI.
kMDF dy Gyry ivc qnhfeI dI hmk rih geI. isrÌ ieklfpy
df vfs. gUMjdy hfsy alop ho gey. qy mYN kmlI Auh kony
BfÜdI hF, ijwQy rwusIaF hoeIaF hvfvF iÉËf ivc bdl
geIaF. vkq dI gfcxI vI pocy lf ky qur geI. socdI hF,
bwicaF dIaF iklkfrIaF ikqy ienHF koinaF ivc hI gUMj
rhIaF hoxgIaf. myry kMn suxn df Xqn krdy hn. pr Auh
qF kdI ies kony qy kdI Es kony ivc ijvyN Cpn ho geIaF.
rl geIaF Aus bfsI hvf dy JoNky ivc. vkq dy AuVy
PMiBaF ivc. qy Gr KVf BF-BF krdf hY. ivcfly KVoqI hF
mYN. ivMzo ivcIN afpxy rfh jFdI dunIaF nUM dyKdI hF,
ijs ivc mYN guafc jhI geI hF.
nËr
gfrzn vwl pYNidaF ‘ÈYlI` soc ivc Pyr AuWBrdI hY.
nvqyj vFg Auh vI myry mwQy dIaF qRyVF ivc DwsI rihMdI
hY. kdI-kdfeIN grmIaF dy idnF nUM jdoN Ausdf pqI
‘kYWn` gfrzn ivc kMm kr irhf hovy qF Auh afpxy
pYtIE dI pOVI qy bYT rihMdI hY. mYN AusnUM jfx buwJ
ky bulfAuNdI hF. AusnUM bulfAuNidaF hoieaF, Aus nfÜ
gwlF kridaF aYNj lgdY ijvyN mYN nvqyj nfÜ gwlF kr
rhI hovF. lgdY ijvyN Auh vI ÈYlI dy nfÜ dI pOVI qy
bYTf hovy.
hux
ijvyN ‘ÈYlI` dI cuwp vI QoVI ijhI myry nfÜ
Kuwlx lg peI hY. Auh inwkIaF-inwkIaF gwlF sFJIaF kr
lYNdI hY. gfrzn dI vfV koÜ KVo ky asIN duwKF-suwKF
dI crKI Gumf lYNdIaF hF. iek vfrI mYnUM eys ny hI
dwisaf sI ik, “sYr krn vfly joVy “sYm”
qy “aYNjlf” df iksy vyly bhuq vwzf kMm sI.
mkfn cfr hËfr sukyar Puwt df sI. sB kuJ aYNvy igaf.
aOlfd hovy qF cMgI. vrnf nf hovy.” ieh afKidaF
hoieaF ÈYlI ny hOkf lY ky afpxy pyt vwl vI ijvyN
dyiKaf sI, qy ipwCf muVky afpxy Gr dI hnHyrI KmoÈ
hvf nUM afpxI ihwk `c dwibaf sI jF mYnUM hI ieh
BulyKf ipaf hoxY.
mYN
cuwp rhI. ÈYlI qoN koeI svfl nf puwiCaf. eys ivÈy
qy mYN koeI vI gwl ÈYlI nfÜ nf CyVdI. mYnUM mihsUs
huMdf ijvyN mYN AusdI iksy duKdI rÊ qy AuNgl Dr rhI
hovF. ÈYlI qF kYWn nUM kMm kridaF dyK ky KuÈ ho
jFdI sI. Ausy nUM vfcdI rihMdI. iksy aMdrlI qFG nUM
jfihr hI nf krdI. Èfied eysy vfsqy cuwp ny Ausdy
aMdr-bfhr vfs kr ilaf sI. qy mYN vI Ausdy aihsfs dI
lCmx ryKf dy aMdr pYr nf pfAuNdI. afpxy bwicaF dI vI
koeI gwl Aus nfÜ sFJI nf krdI.
iek
vfrI kYWn ny mYnUM afiKaf sI, “ikrn! by-aOlfd
iensfn dI qFG aOlfd leI huMdI aY qy jy kr aOlfd hovy
qF vYsy cYn nhIN. sYm qy aYNjlf vwl hI dyK lY ikvyN
afpxf buZfpf Zoa rhy hn. qYnUM pqf hI hoxY, do bwcy
sn AunHF dy. Êlq rsiqaF qy donoN qur pey. mF-ipE
pYsy dI dOV ivc lwgy rhy. Gr-Gft bxfAuNdy hoey. socdy
hoxgy, jmIkf qoN iewQy afey hF qF bwicaF df BivwK
AuWjlf bxf dyeIey. jo kuJ asIN nhIN dyiKaf, mfixaf,
Auh sB ienHF dI JolI pf dyeIey. pr hoieaf iesdy Ault.
bixaf bxfieaf sB plF ivc Kqm ho igaf jdoN ienHF dy
muMzy pItr ny pqf nhIN ikwQoN gMn lY leI. aj bfrzr dy
dUjy bMinEN eys qrHF df aslf kYnyzf dy bsIimaF dy
aMdr vI Dws igaf hY nf?” Ausny ijvyN myry qy hI
svflIaf nËr iswtidaF afiKaf.
Pyr
myrf AuWqr AuzIky vgYr hI boilaf sI, “BYVy ny
hor muMizaF nfÜ rl ky, PMn kridaF hoieaF do-cfr
Pfier kr idwqy. sVk qy qury jFdy inrdoÈF nUM inÈfnf
bxf ilaf. iek bwcI QF hI mr geI qy nfÜ hI mr geI
AusdI mF. muMzf ieh kfrf krky Gr prq afieaf. jdoN Gr
afey nUM mF ny zFitaf, do DrIaF vI, aqy pulIs nUM Pon
krn leI aYNjlf vDI qF Ausny iek golI mF dy vI kwZ
mfrI. ibcfrI dI jfn BfvyN bc geI pr Aumr leI apfhj ho
geI. sYm nUM vI kMm Czxf ipaf. kOx sFBdf Gr vflI nUM?
hom kyar vfly qF GMtf do GMty leI afAuNdy hn. mfVf-motf
iesnUM Do-suafr jFdy hn. iesdf kmrf sfÌ kr jFdy hn.
bfkI smF kOx ktfvy? sfrI Aumr leI puwq vI jyl ivc jf
bYTf. ivgVI hoeI DI afpxy rfh qur geI. Gr dI mOrtgyË
dI izsibltI ieMÈUrYNs nf hox krky sYm qoN mOrtgyË
dy nf hoeI. Gr bYNk lY geI. bMdy dI iËMdgI qbfh ho
geI. jdoN burf vylf afAuNdf hY qF bMdf byvs ho jFdY.”
kYWn
dwsdf irhf. Ausdy ichry dIaF JurVIaF ivc ijvyN hor vI
qRyVF af geIaF. AusdIaF awKF aMdr vwl nUM Dws geIaF
jfpIaF. Ausdy moty-Twuly bulH ijvyN sUq ho gey.
pr
myry koloN hor koeI svfl nf puwiCaf igaf. qy nf hI
Ausdy qy ÈYlI dy bfry kuJ puwC hoieaf. soicaf pqf
nhIN ikhVf iesdy pwC lf idaF. hr koeI afpxy duwKF dI
ptfrI nUM ryÈmI pwt ivc vlytI iPrdY. … qy cuwp-cupIqI
mYN afpxy aMdr af vVI sI.
soc
myry afpxy vwl GuMmdI hY. mYnUM Auh idn cyqy afAuNdy
hn ijnHF idnF dI sunYihrI Jlk iËMdgI nUM ruÈnf
idMdI sI. smyN dI Gutx CU-mMqr ho jFdI sI. Aus pl qoN
ibnF kuJ cyqy dI slyt qy Aukrdf hI nhIN sI. cyqy
afAuNdf hY, jdoN asIN bwcy pfldy, Gr sFBdy, idvfny
hoey qury iPrdy sF. nvqyj kMm qoN prqdy, bIar dI boql
lY ky bwicaF dy nfÜ mYc dyKx bYT jFdy. jdoNN mYN
iKwJdI-KpdI qF afvfË gUMjdI, “Xfr! aYNvy nf
sfzf kcUmr ijhf kwZI jfieaf kr. DIrj Diraf kr.”
ieh
socidaF hoieaF myrf afp-muhfry hfsf inwkl igaf. afÜf-duafÜf
dyKdI hF, hvf ivc ijvyN bIqy dI cIk AuWBrI hovy. sF-sF
dI afvfË kMnf nUM kuryd rhI hovy.
Aus
bIqy ivc Auh pl myrf KihVf nhIN Cwzdy. ibsqr ivc ipaF
iek lfÈ ijvyN nfÜ suwqI peI rihMdI hovy. hnyry dIaF
awKF ivc loa cmkdI hY. Auh loa asmfnF dy bwdlF ivc
ikwDry Cpn ho geI hoxI aY. cMn dI cfnxI ivc iek-imk
ho ky myry Gr dy gfrzn ivc ivKr geI hovygI. jF ingl
leI hoxI aY iksy sUrj ny.
…
qy mYN rih geI cfr DIaF-puwqF dIaF PrmfieÈF pUrIaF
krdI. gl dI pMjflI mYN hor nUV leI. qy mYN ijvyN bOrI
ho geI. nf mYQoN kuVIaF sFBIaF jfx qy nf muMzy. nvqyj
ny muMizaF-kuVIaF nUM kdI koeI kOVf-imwTf boilaf hI
nhIN sI. Auh bol skdf hI nhIN sI. qy hux ijhVf rwqI-mfsf
zr AunHF dy mnF ivc hY vI sI Auh vI nhIN sI irhf.
kuVIaF
vwzIaF hoeIaF qF ikqfbF jogIaF rih geIaF. imwqrF-dosqF
nUM imlx-iglx jogIaF rih geIaF. kMm qoN afAuNdIaF qF
“tU tfierz” afK ky tI[vI dyKx bYT jFdIaF qy
jF afpxy PrYNzF nfÜ bfhr inwkl jFdIaF. muMzy qF kdI
kMm lfey hI nhIN sn. AunHF nUM ijMmyvfrI df koeI pqf
hI nhIN sI. asIN socdy sI ik sfrI Aumr ienHF ny vI
kMm hI krnY. ieho idn hn, hws Kyz lYx.
myry
nfÜ kMm krdI myrI shylI mfrgryt ny afpxI iËMdgI nUM
afpxy rMg ivc Zfilaf hoieaf sI. ijsnUM mYN gorI klcr
afK ky awKoN proKy kr idMdI sF. socdI sF, ieh lok
inwj qoN awgy qF qwkdy hI nhIN. ieMjuafey kro, kmfE-KfE-pIE-AuVfE
qy mr jfE.
mfrgryt
ny bwcy pfly, pVHfey aqy kMmF qy lwgx qoN bfad AunHF
nUM ipMjry ivwcoN bfhr kwZ idwqf. kihx lwgI,
“afpxI-afpxI ijMmyvfrI cuwko. afpxy ibwl-bwqIaF
idE. kdI afE mYnUM iml jfE. mYN afpxI jOb pUrI kr
idwqI hY.”
jdoN
mfrgryt ny mYnUM dwisaf sI qF mYnUM bVf ajIv lwgf sI.
mYN soicaf sI, “ikho ijhI mF hY? ikvyN DIaF-puwqF
nUM Dwky mfr ky bfhr kwZ rhI hY? ikwQy geI iesdI mmqf?”
mfrgryt
qy ijwm dono kMm krdy. afpxf Gr sFBdy. aYÈ krdy. jo
kmfAuNdy, Aus nfÜ kdI hOlIzya cly jFdy qy kdI iznr-zFs
qy cly jFdy. qy bwcy, jdoN Auh afvfË mfrdy qF AunHF
nUM dyKx Bwjy afAuNdy. AunHF df ivgiVaf hoieaf puwq
vI GroN bfhr jf ky ijMmyvfr bx igaf sI. jdoN bwicaF
nUM mF-ipE dI loV pYNdI qF mfrgryt qy ijwm dOVy jFdy.
pr
mYN eys swiBaqf nUM smJ hI nf skdI. mYN socdI, ijMnf
pYsf hOlIzya qy guafAuxf hY, AusnUM bcfky rwKFgy qF
iksy DI-puwq dy arQ afAU. DIaF puwqF leI kuJ Cwz ky
vI jfxf cfhIdf hY. pRdysF ivwc zyry kfhdy leI lfey hn?
kuwJ iewQy bxfeIey, kuwJ ipwCy bxfeIey. ipwCy kuJ
bixaf hovygf, bwicaF nUM qF hI ipwCy df moh pvygf,
afpxI bolI, afpxI siBqf nfÜ juVngy.
jdoN
ieho gwl mYN mfrgryt nUM afKdI qF Auh kihMdI,
“ikrn! ijMnf mrËI joV ky Cwz jf. pr ienHF nUM
Aus pYsy dI koeI kdr nHI hoxI. dy ivwl nOt aprIÈIeyt
iewt. ienHF nUM afp imhnq kIqy pYsy dI hI kdr hoxI hY.
qyry hfrz arn mnI nUM ienHF ny ‘pI-nwt’ (mUMgÌlI)
vFg cwb jfxY. so BlI kr, afpxI iËMdgI jIxI ÈurU kr.
qYnUM afpxI iËMdgI mfnx leI, afp ihMmq krnI pYxI aY.
bwicaF ny qF jdoN AuzfrI mfrI, ikwDry nËr nHI afAuxy.
qy nf hI nËr afAuxI aY ienHF dI kmfeI. myry pItr vwl
hI dyK lY, hux afp kMm krnf pYNdY qF ‘sYNt’
vwD nHI Krcdf.”
“nhIN
nI, sfzf klcr hor qrHF df hY. asIN iek dUjy dy nfÜ
ijAuNdy hF, iewk dUjy leI ijAuNdy hF. sfzI iËMdgI qF
hY hI bwicaF leI. Pyr mYN vI qF jI rhI hF. ieh vI kI
hoieaf ik Kf lE, pI lE qy zMzy vjfE. asIN bwicaF leI
kuwJ nf krFgy qF kl nUM ieh sfzy leI ikAuN krngy Blf?”
mfrgryt
myry nfÜ asihmqI pRgt krdI. “jy kr qusIN afpxy-afp
dI aqy afpxy vkq dI kdr krnI ÈurU kroNgy qF hI bwcy
quhfzI irspYkt krngy. XU mfrk mfeI vrz, XU ivwl
irgrYWt iewt vn zy. pCqfeyNgI iek idn.”
pr
mYN afpxI bIn hI vjfeI jFdI. AusdI koeI nsIhq myry qy
asr nf krdI.
…
vkq dy nfÜ ijsm df buZfpf vI vwD irhf sI. hwZ-gozy
iGsdy jf rhy sn. pyt dI qklIÌ kfrn jdoN myrf apryÈn
hoieaf, AusqoN bfad keI kMplIkyÈn hoeIaF qF mYnUM Gr
bYTxf pY igaf. soicaf, do sflF nUM irtfiermYNt vI
lYxI hI aY qy hux hI ikAuN nf. Pyr myrI kwlI jfn.
myrIaF do rotIaF leI, kI loV aY tuwt-tuwt ky mrn dI.
eynF ku myry kol jmHF vI aY qy Pyr pUrI Aumr bwicaF
qy lfeI aY mYN. qpwisaf kIqI aY. loV vyly ienHF ny sB
kuJ kr lYxY. mYnUM rulx nhIN dyxgy.
pr
nhIN, ivhly bYiTaF mYnUM iËMdgI dI aslI hkIkq dIaF
DwjIaF AuVdIaF dyKx df mOkf imilaf. ieMj mihsUs
hoieaf ijvyN hr aihsfs dI pqMg asmfnIN AuVdI hoeI kwt
ho ky ËmIn qy Tfh krky vwjdI hovy. vfr-vfr myrIaF
afsF dy pr kuqr huMdy hox.
mYN
dohF muMizaF nUM pVHf ilKf idwqf sI. myry jOhnI nUM
PfienYNs kMpnI ivc mYnyjr dI jOb iml geI qy Cotf rfjf
bhuqf nhIN piVHaf Pyr vI Ausny sfAUNz tYknOlOjI df
kors krky kMm dI qlfÈ ivc sI. iewk-do idn pfrt tfeIm
kMm krI vI jFdf sI. QoVf susq sI pr mYnUM afs sI ik
Auh afpxI iËMdgI suafr lvygf. myrIaF kuVIaF pVHn nUM
bhuq cMgIaF sn. donoN XUnIvristI jFdIaF sn. vwzI
mfstrË kr rhI sI. aKIrlf vrHf sI. qy CotI sfiekOlOjI
dy PfeInl vrHy ivc sI. donoN pfrt tfeIm kMm vI krdIaF
sn. rihMdIaF Gr hI sn. Gr vI kfhdf, svyry GroN inwkl
jFdIaF, coÉI rfq geI qk Gr vVdIaF. kihMdIaF
lfiebryrI ivc kMm sOKf ho jFdf hY. kMm, pVHn, imwqrF-dosqF
nUM imlx-iglx ivwc AunHF kol Gr leI vkq inwkldf hI nf.
ivafh-iÈafh leI vI mMndIaF nhIN sn. jy kr mYN socdI
ik pVHfeI hux Kqm hI aY qy ienHF nUM afpxy Gr qor
idaF qF gwl nhIN sn krn idMdIaF. kdI-kdI iksy dws-puwC
peI qy iksy muMzy nUM mYN imlfAuNdI qF bVIaF bIbIaF
ho ky dyK-iml lYNdIaF pr agly dy jfx mgroN tItxf idKf
idMdIaF. sO-sO nuks kwZdIaF. kihMdIaF, ‘iesnUM
bYTxf nHI afAuNdf, iesnUM Jfkxf nHI afAuNdf, iesdI mF
ikwdF dI aY, iesdI pVHfeI kI aY? iesnUM kwpVy nHI
pfAuxy afAuNdy, hI iewË so ieMzIan. Xk.` gwl kI Auh
mYnUM buDU bxfeI rwKdIaF.
mYN
kmlI ieho mMndI rhI. socdI rhI, kuVIaF imhnq kr rhIaF
hn. clo kuJ bx jfxgIaF. jdoN qk myry ivc sfh-swq hY,
mYN Gr sFBI jFdI hF. AusqoN bfad bwicaF ny afp hI sFB
lYxf hY. mYnUM qswlI sI ik myry bwcy iËMdgI dIaF
pulfGF shI puwt rhy sn. kdI koeI iÈkfieq bfhroN nhIN
sI afeI.
pr
ikwQy, jdoN myry isr phfV tuwtx lwgy qF mYnUM mfrgryt
dI afKI gwl cyqy afeI ik ‘qYnUM bwicaF dy nfÜ
iewk bfAuNzrI rwKxI pvygI, afdr dI, ivÈvfs dI,
izispiln dI. mF-bfp nUM afpxI hoNd brkrfr rwKxI
cfhIdI hY vrnf bwcy quhfzy AuWpr dI imltrI dy bUtF
nfÜ quhfnUM lqfVdy cly jfxgy.`
ieho
gwl hoeI, bwcy pVH ËrUr cMgf gey sn. iksy aYb-vYl
ivc vI nhIN sn pey. pr iËMdgI leI nËrIaf AunHF df
hor hI sI jo myrI soc dy zwby ivc nhIN sI iPwt huMdf.
myry vwzy muMzy jOhnI nUM nfÜ kMm krdI kuVI
‘sirqf` imlI qy Ausny ivafh krfAux df PYslf kr
ilaf. sirqf gujrfqI sI. mYN bQyrf smJfieaf ik
“afpF pMjfbI hF qy ieh gujrfqI. sfzf socx df,
imlx-iglx df ZMg vwKrf hY, bolI vwKrI hY. afpF nUM
KfndfnIaF vI dyKxIaF pYNdIaF hn. DI-puwq brfbrI df
hovy, Gr ivc brfbrqf nfÜ ivcr skdf hovy, Gr-bfr sFB-sMBfl
skdf hovy, qF hI TIk aY.”
pr
nhIN, Auh afKx lwgf, “brfbrI qF do pfrtnr dI
huMdI aY. nOt lfeIk XU aYNz pfpf. afeI zONt vFt tU
zrYg mfeI lfeIÌ. Pyr, afpF ikMnf ku imlxf aY? iksy
soÈl PMkÈnF qy hI qF imlxf-iglxf aYY. rihxf qF mYN
hY Es nfÜ. iesdI quhfnUM iÌkr nHI hoxI cfhIdI.
iewts mfeI lfeIÌ. mYN cfhuMdf hF ik qusIN myrI KuÈI
ivwc Èfiml hovoN pr jy nhIN… ” Ausny gwl
aDUrI Cwz idwqI.
jOhnI
dIaF gwlF myry aMdr qIrF vFg ivMn geIaF. AusdI aDUrI
gwl smJx leI myrI buwD afrI ho geI. kMnF ivwcoN syk
inwklx lwg ipaf. mYN bVFdI hoeI bolI, “ jy nhIN
df kI mqlb? qyrI lfeIÌ qy myrf koeI hwk nHI? …
qy qyrf iKafl aY ik asIN lfeIÌ zrYg kIqI aY?”
mYN vI roh `c af ky ikhf sI.
“mfm
XUar tfeImË vr izÌrYNt. afeI vFt ey kMpYnIan nft
KfndfnI. afeI aYm nft mYirMg ey KfndfnI. ids ieË afl
buwl. quhfnUM soc bdlxI pvygI. ieh ieMzIaf nHI hY.
hux iekIvIN sdI hY. qusIN ieMzIanË aTfrvIN sdI ivwc
ijAuNdy ho.”
jOhnI
dIaF gwlF sux ky mYN QF hI KVoqI rih geI. “asIN
ieMzIanË” Èbd myry kMnf ivwc gUMjx lwg ipaf.
nvqyj kihMdy huMdy sn ik ‘qyry bwcy kdI qyry
Ault nhIN hoxgy. qUM afpxI pUrI iËMdgI ienHF dy lyKy
lfeI hY. rfqF jfgIaF hn. mYnUM BfvyN ieh nf kdI puwCx
pr qyry leI, ieh qYQoN kdI vwK nHI ho skdy.` qy Pyr
mfrgryt dy Èbd vI myry kMnf `c gUMjx lwgy.
‘bwicaF nUM quhfzI qF hI irspYkt hoxI aY jy kr
qusIN afpxI irspYkt afp kroNgy.`
mYnUM
smJ nhIN sI afeI ik mYN ikhVI Buwl kr bYTI sF. ivÈfl
aMbr ivwc PYlI myrI dunIaF suMgV ky ikvyN cwpf ku rih
geI sI. ies Jtky ny mYnUM dUjy bwicaF vl vI gMBIrqf
nfÜ socx smJx leI mËbUr kIqf. ijAuN-ijAuN mYN AunHF
nUM jfnx-smJx df Xqn krn lwgI qF vfrI-vfrI myry
ivÈvfs dIaF DjIaF AuVIaF. myrI dunIaF lIro-lIr ho
geI.
myrIaF
kuVIaF pVHdIaF ËrUr sn. pr Auh bfhr kI krdIaF sn,
Auh mYnUM bhuq dyr bfad pqf lwigaf. CotI DI girMdr
isgrtF pIx dI afdI ho cuwkI sI. vwzI aYnI KuwlI ho
cuwkI sI ik dfrU dy nÈy ivc jo kfÜf-gorf iml pYNdf
Ausy nfÜ qur pYNdI sI. ieh Aus AuWqy ikAuN qy ikvyN
asr ipaf, ieh vI mYnUM dyr nfÜ pqf lwgf. ijs muMzy
nUM Auh pfglF vFg cfhuMdI sI, Auh muMzf AusnUM mYlI
cfdr vFg vrq ky suwt igaf. afKx lwgf, “qyry
vrgIaF kuVIaF qF isrÌ vkq tpfAux leI huMdIaF. ivafh
qF soc smJ ky hI krfAuxf pYNdf.”
ies
hfdsy df asr myrI DI qy aYnf ipaf ik pqf nhIN Auh
afpxy buafey PrYNz nUM hrt kr rhI sI jF afpxy afp nUM
jF AunHF bMidaF nUM ijhVy Ausdy rfqF dy sfQI sn, pr
Auh iksy KfeI vwl nUM ËrUr jf rhI sI. ieh vI ho skdY
ik drd df ijhVf toaf Ausdy aMdr puwitaf igaf sI,
AusnUM pUrn dI koiÈÈ kr rhI hovy.
donoN
kuVIaF itkI rfq Gr afAuNdIaF sn. svyry inwkl jFdIaF.
vIk aYNz qy vI pVHn dy bhfny bfhr nUM cly jFdIaF. mYN
socdI iksy shylI dy Gr geIaF jF lfiebryrI geIaF
hoxgIaf. mYnUM kI pqf bfhr kI krdIaF sn. pqf qF AudoN
lwgf sI jdoN kuVIaF dI gYNg ny “aYmf” nF dI
kuVI nUM kuwt ky hspqfl phuMcf idwqf sI. myrI DI
girMdr ijsnUM sfry givn bulfAuNdy sn vI Aus ivc Èfml
sI. ijs muMzy nUM givn psMd krdI sI, aYmf vI Ausy
muMzy nUM psMd krdI sI. pihlF kuVIaF ny AusnUM
zrfieaf Dmkfieaf. pr aYmf vI iËwdI sI. nf mMnI.
nqIjy vwjoN sfrIaF kuVIaF kwTIaF hoky, jf DmkIaF
Ausdy dr qy. cMgI KVkfeI aYmf hfkIaF nfÜ. aYmf dI mF
jdoN kMm qoN prqI qF DI df hfl dyK ky hfloN byhfl ho
geI. Ausny DI nUM hspqfl phuMcfieaf qy pulIs nUM myry
dr Byj idwqf. iek muMzy kfrn hoeI lVfeI ny sfnUM kort
dy kithry ivc KVf kr idwqf sI. Aus vyly mYnUM smJ
afeI sI ik mfrgryt kI kihMdI sI ik bwicaF nUM zispln
dI loV huMdI aY. Gr ivc rUlË-rYgUlyÈn dI loV huMdI
hY. bwicaF nUM ipafr krI jfvo, AunHF dI mMgF mMnI
jfvo ieh vI koeI vDIaF pyrYNitMg nhIN hY.
girMdr
nUM jurmfny dy nfÜ vfrinMg dy ky Cwz idwqf igaf. eys
vyly hI mYnUM Ausdy isgrt noÈI df pqf cilaf. mYN
roeI-ipwtI-kurlfeI. bQyrf afpxf-afp BMinaf. sO-sO
imMqf kuVI ny myrIaF kIqIaF. mfÌIaF mMgIaF. isgrtF
vI Ausny Cwz idwqIaF. do hÌqy Auh isgrt pIx leI
qVPdI rhI. AusdIaF aFdrF ivlkdIaF dyK ky myrI mmqf
ipMGl-ipMGl jfvy. myrf jI kry mYN afp jf ky isgrt
ilaf dyvF. Pyr mn nUM hfTf kr ilaf ik mYnUM kmËor
nHI pYxf cfhIdf.
ikAuN
socF awj KihVf nHI CwzdIaF. ies qrHF mihsUs huMdf hY
ijvyN bIqy df mfqm mnfAux ivMzo ivcIN aMdr af vVIaF
hox. sYm bqÉF nUM cogf pf irhf hY qy mYN Pyr AunHF
socF ivc glqfn hoeI jf rhI hF.
socdI
hF, kuJ vkq qF cMgf inwkl igaf sI. vwzI vI jrf sMBl
geI sI. mYN soicaf sI hux sB kuJ TIk ho jfvygf. kuVI
suDr jfvygI. pr ikwQy? givn vI Ausy muMzy dy mgr
iÌrdI rhI. vYsy Ausdy rMg-ZMg ivc bhuq Ìrk af cuwkf
sI. AusdI mYnUM smJ nHI sI af rhI ik ieh givn df koeI
hor ZONg sI jF Auh swcIN bdl rhI sI. mYN socdI sF
Èfied kortF dy cwkr qoN zr geI hovy. lokfcfrI dy
zroN mYN vI gwl bfhr nf kwZ skI. goiraF vFg DI nUM vI
nf kih skI ik afpxf koeI QF-iQwQf dyKy. soicaf afÉr
DI aY. iesnUM ivafAuxf vI aY. lokF kol iBxk pY geI qF
ikwQy irÈqf krUMgI. mYN socdI ik, ieMzIaf jfAUNgI,
AuWQy iesnUM ivafh ilafAuNgI. kYnyzy dy lflc nUM cMgf
irÈqf iml jfxY. Pyr myrI DI pVHI ilKI vI aY qy sohxI
vI. gory muMzy qoN vI KihVf CutU.
pr
nhIN Ausny qF iewk hI rwt lfeI hoeI sI ik mYN Ausy
muMzy nfÜ ivafh krfAuxY. mYN bQyrf smJfieaf, iJVikaf-JMibaf
vI ik “asIN goiraF dI klcr ivc nhIN imks ho skdy.
Pyr lokF nUM mYN kI dsUMgI?”
kihMdI,
“Auh quhfzI iewËq krdY. mYnUM bhuq ipafr krdY.
mYnUM Esny myrIaF BuwlF leI mfÌ vI kr idwqY. mYN
Ausy dI Kfqr afpxy afp nUM sMvfiraf hY. Pyr quhfnUM
kfhdI musIbq hY?”
kuVI
dy vfr-vfr kihx qy, mYN muMzy nUM imlx leI mMn geI.
soicaf, muMzy nfÜ gwl krFgI. Èfied Ausdy mn-sumwiqaf
pY jfvy. qy Auh iesdf KihVf Cwz dyvy. myrI bxI-DrI vI
rih jfAU.
jdoN
mYN ircrz nUM imlI qF Auh mYnUM myry DIaF-puwqF nfloN
cMgf lwgf. vDIaf slIkf. afKx lwgf, “ieh klcr df
zr myry mF-ipE ivc vI aY. pr Auh sfnUM iek mOkf dyx
nUM iqafr hn. kI qusIN vI sfnUM Auh cFs nHI dy skdy?
mYN quhfzI DI nUM swc hI bhuq ipafr krdf hF. mYN Aus
nfÜ pUrI iËMdgI kwtxI cfhuMdf hF. quhfzI DI bhuq
cMgI hY. idl dI mfVI nhIN. vYsy bVI sMskfrI hY.”
mYnUM
ijvyN AusdIaF gwlF ny moh ilaf. kihx lwgf,
“ijwdF qusIN afKogy, mYN ivafh Esy qrHF krvfvFgf.
vrnf quhfzy ibnF myrf ieh idn aDUrf rih jfvygf. mYN
nhIN cfhuMdf ik mYN afpxI iËMdgI dI ÈurUafq quhfzy
aÈIrvfd qoN ibnF krF.”
ircrz
dIaF gwlF suxidaF hoieaF mYN afpxy puwqF aqy DIaF nUM
Ausdy brfbr rwKky qolx lwgI qF mYnUM kwly ircrz df
plVf BfrI lwgf. myrI DI vI mYnUM isafxI ho geI jfpI.
Aus vyly mYN lfh idwqI loeI. KV geI zt ky. irÈqydfrF
ny sO-sO gwlF khIaF-suxIaF. pr mYN iewk nf mMnI. kr
idwqf ivafh gwj-bwj ky. soicaf cor hF ik corF dI BYx.
dunIaF dy sfmHxy qorFgI DI nUM.
soc
myry puwq vwl jFdI hY, mYN socdI hF ik kfÈ myrf puwq
vI eysy qrHF dI bolI boldf. jF gujrfqI kuVI hI mYnUM
moh lYNdI. myrf zr dUr kr idMdI. pr Auh qF ibnF khy-suxy
afpxI dunIaF vsfAux qur pey. mYnUM cFs vI nf idwqf ik
mYN AunHF dI iËMdgI ivc ÈrIk ho skF. muMzf jFdf
hoieaf tybl qy Pon nMbr ilK ky rwK igaf. kihx lwgf,
“jy loV pvy qF kfl kr lYxf, mYN af jfvFgf.”
mYN
vI AunHF dy ipwCy nf geI. soicaf, ijhVy irÈqy kwcIaF
qMdF nfÜ gMZy huMdy ny, AunHF nUM gwTF dyeI jfx df
kI arQ. jy cMdrf afp hI nfÜ iljf ky mYnUM idKf
ilafAuNdf afpxf QF-iQwQf qF mYN vI mfx nfÜ AusnUM
ivafh qy swddI, Pon kfl krdI. hux jfvy ijwQy jfxf.
givn ny hI AusnUM afpxy ivafh df kfrz Byj idwqf. pr
BYVf, Auh nhIN afieaf.
ivMzo
ivcIN mYN kYn dy gfrzn ivc dyKdI hF. AusdI imhnq df
rMg ikafrIaF ivc nËr af irhf hY. sUhf gulfb dyK ky,
cyqf afAuNdf hY ik ircrz ijs idn ivhfAux afieaf sI,
Ausny sUhI pwg bMnI sI. hwQ iqMn Puwt dI ikrpfn PVI.
ÈyrvfnI ivc ÈihËfdf lg irhf sI Auh. gurUduafry dI
pfrk ivc Auh GoVI nUM PVI afieaf. mYnUM KuÈ krn leI
Ausny GoVI df pRbMD vI kIqf hoieaf sI. ieh sB dyK ky
ho geI mYN gd-gd. gurbfxI df Èbd myry kMnF ivc gUMj
irhf sI, ‘mfns kI jfq sbY eyko pihcfnvo.` Aus
idn mYN afpxI ‘givn’ nUM sO Ègnf nfÜ ivdf
kr idwqf. mYN socdI ik ho geI mYN skfrQ. kuJ nÈt nHI
hoieaf. jo bicaf hY bs AusnUM sFBx dI loV hY.
soc
vwzI DI rUpI vwl muVdI hY. iek sUeI cuwBx vFg aMdr
tIs AuWTdI hY. mYN pyt nUM PVdI hoeI dohrI ho jFdI hF.
rUpI ijs rfh qy qurI bws iqlkdI hI geI. Ausdy aMdr dI
qlb ny AusnUM BtkfeI rwiKaf. Ausny myry isr Aus idn
sO GVf pfxI df pf Diraf jdoN Auh prYgnYNt ho ky Gr af
bYTI. mmUlI ijhI gwl vFg kihx lwgI, “iewt vfË
aYn aYksIzYNt. sOrI.”
mYnUM
smJ nf afvy ik ies smwisaf nfÜ hux mYN ikvyN jUJF.
bQyrf afpxf afp BMinaf. AusnUM koisaf. nvqyj nUM
gflHF kwZIaF ik mYnUM Cwz ky qur igaf kwlI nUM. rUpI
nUM smJfieaf vI ik sfzy klcr ivwc ies qrHF nHI huMdf.
Auh bolI, “Eh mfm, mYN ikhVI inafxI hF. mYN
aYËUkyitz vomn hF. afeI ivwl lukafPtr mfeI cfielz.
vwt iewj ids nOnsYNs klcr? mYN kyar nHI krdI ik lok
kI socdy hn. imlIan aOrqF prYgnYNt ho jFdIaF.
aYksIzYNt ieË aYksIzYNt. mYN agFh qoN vwD iDafn
rKUMgI. dYts afl.”
ËmIn
mYnUM ivhl nf dyvy. mYN kI sux rhI sF? ieh sfzI soc
ivc pfVf kdoN qy iks qrHF pY igaf sI? mYnUM nhIN sI
pqf. asIN qF socdy sF ik imhnq-muÈwkq krky asIN
bwicaF dI iËMdgI sMvfr rhy hF. pr nhIN, ieh socF dy
pfVy qF sdIaF jyzy vwzy sn. ijnHF nUM cfh ky vI twp
skxf myry vws ivc nhIN sI.
keI
idn mYN AusnUM iJVkdI JMbdI rhI. Cotf muMzf vI kuVI
df pwK pUr irhf sI. kihMdf, “mfm! zONt bI iswlI.
ÈI myz ey imstyk. Ausny sOrI kih qF idqY. hux jfx vI
idE.”
mYN
socdI jy kr ieMzIaf ivc huMdy qF ieho muMzf iewËq dy
nF qy iesnUM mfr mukfAuNdf. mYnUM aYs qrHF jfipaf
ijvyN isAuNk ny myrI rUh CnxI kr idwqI hovy. pr rUpI
KuÈ sI, bhuq KuÈ. AusnUM ijvyN aMdrlf Klfa Brn leI
kuJ iml igaf hovy. ijs nfÜ Aus ivc Tihrf vI af igaf
jfpdf sI. Auh jo vI krdI, qF afpxy byvI nUM iDafn ivc
rwK ky krdI. Aus nUM ijvyN afpxf jIvn clfAux vfsqy
syD iml geI hovy. bwcy dy bfp df nf hoxf Aus leI
ËrUrI nhIN sI.
mYQoN
irhf nf jfvy, mYN rUpI nUM afny-bhfny iJVkdI rhI,
kihMdI rhI ik “abfrÈn krf dyvy qFik bfhr ieh
gwl nf inwkly jF Aus muMzy df pqf kry, Aus nfÜ ivafh
krf lvy. kflf-gorf jo vI hY.”
rUpI
kihx lwgI, “afeI zONt no hU iewt vfj. mYnUM kI
pqY, kOx sI Eh. Aus idn vwD pIqI geI, eys leI mYN
kyarlYWs ho geI sF.”
“dur
iPwtymUMh qyry. pVH ilK ky KUh pf CwzIaF. cwl kl nUM
zfktr dy. mYN iksy nUM mUMh idKfAux jogI rih jfvF.”
mYN lohI lfKI hoeI peI sF.
“no
mfm, idws iewË mfeI cfielz. mfeI prfblm. mYnUM koeI
Prk nHI pYNdf ik bfp kOx hY. bwcf isrÌ myrf aY. afeI
ivwl ryË mfeI cfielz. hfE kYn XU eIvn sujYst aYn
abfrÈn?” afK ky Auh dr Tfh krky mfrdI hoeI bfhr
inwkl geI.
dUjI
svyr, Auh afpxf smfn kwTf krky qur geI. jFdI hoeI
kihx lwgI, “mfm! eys qrHF df itrV-iPrV krnf
mYnUM cMgf nHI lgdf. myry byvI leI vI TIk nHI. mYN
nHI rih skdI eys qrHF dy vfqfvrn ivc. myry byvI leI
ieh vfqfvrn hYldI nhIN. pVHfeI df myrf ieh aKIrI sfl
hY. jOb afÌr mYnUM pihlF hI iml cuwkI hY. mYN kr
skdI hF afpxI aqy afpxy bwcy dI luwkafÌtr. rUm myt
kuVI iml geI hY. Aus nfÜ PlYt Èyar kr lvFgI. jdoN
kMm iml igaf qF afpxf koeI PlYt ikrfey qy lY lvFgI.
myrI imstyk hY. mYN zIl krFgI afpy. ieh hor iksy dI
ibËnYWs nhIN. qy Pyr isMgl mdr hoxf koeI pfp nhIN hY.”
bflg
DI nUM myrf aYnf hwk vI nhIN sI ik rok skF. jdoN
Ausny sB hwdF-bsImy qoV idwqy qF kI krdI? cIk-ichfVf
pfAuNdI? mYN KVI dyKdI rih geI. qy Auh aOh geI aOh
geI. Aus qoN bfad, kdI-kdfeIN Pon krky hfl puwC lYNdI
hY.
rih
igaf Cotf. Auh myry afKx anusfr ivafh krfAux nUM mMn
igaf. mYN vI suwK df sfh ilaf. keI vrHy pihlF ieMzIaf
qoN iek pirvfr kYnyzf afieaf sI. asIN soicaf ik kuVI
nUM dohF hI klcrF dI jfxkfrI hY. Gr-bfr sFB-sMBfl
lvygI. myrI dyK-Bfl vI kr lvygI. sfzIaF kuVIaF nUM
isafixaF dy afdr-siqkfr df aksr pqf huMdY. pr ikwQy?
iCMdpfl aYsI afeI ijsny sfzf dohF mF-puwqF df jIxf
duwBr kr idwqf. pUrf sfl Br lVfeI-JgVy nfÜ mYN
idmfgI pfgl ho geI. AusnUM hmyÈF iÈkfieq rihMdI
“qyrI mF myry vwl dyKdI ikwdF sI, mYnUM koeI
lÌË ikhf ikwdF sI, myrI PYmlI nfÜ bolI nHI. iehnUM
kMm krdI nUM kuJ huMdY. cMgI-BlI idwsdI aY. mYN ikhVf
AusdI nOkrfxI lwgI hF. Auh qF cfhuMdI aY ik mYN kMm
vI krky afvF qF Gr af ky jUV vI mfrF. rotIaF pkf-pkf
Ausdy mohry DrF. myrI koeI shylI nf Gr af skdI. ieh
ijvyN tIrI jhI JfkdI rihMdI aY.”
Qwk
geI mYN Ausdf ieh bkvfs sux-sux ky. qy Pyr iek idn
mYN AusnUM vI awz kr idwqf. afp hI afK idwqf,
“jfvo, Kfvo-kmfvo. pqf lgU Aus vkq jdoN afp krky
Kfxf ipaf.”
mYnUM
ligaf ijvyN mfrgryt myry bolF qy KuÈ ho rhI hovy.
…
qy mYN rih geI kwlI. myrf gMiZaf hoieaf pirvfr qIlf-qIlf
bx ky iKMzr igaf. mfrgryt aj vI myrIaF awKF sfmHxy
Klo jFdI hY. kihMdI hoeI ‘afpxI lfeIÌ dI kdr
krnI afp iswKo qF hI bwcy kdr krngy. vrnf Auh quhfnUM
ilqfVky qurdy bxngy.`
soc
Pyr myry bYWzrUm ivc prqdI hY. ivMzo ivcIN vyK rhI hF,
sYm qy aYNjlf sYr krky vfips af rhy hn. inwkIaF-inwkIaF
gwlF krdy. Zldy sUrj dI cmk nUM mwQy ivc smoNdy.
guaFZx ÈYlI vI gfrzn ivc KVI mwQy qy hwQ Dr ky aMbr
vwl Jfk rhI hY. kI BfÜ rhI hY? pqf nhIN lg irhf.
sfmHxI
sVk qy nËr jFdI hY. Aus sVk vwl aksr myrI nËr Èfm
dy vkq itk jFdI hY. ieho vkq hY jdoN ircrz kMm Cwz ky
af irhf huMdf hY. ircrz dI lfl kfr idKfeI dy rhI hY.
kMm qoN prqidaF Auh mYnUM do imMt dyKx ËrUr afAuNdf
hY. socdI hF myry chuM bwicaF qoN kwlf ircrz myrI
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